Wednesday, May 09, 2012
Well, it's kind of embarrassing to be writing yet another blog about starting again with SparkPeople. I need to change my lifestyle and work harder at being healthier. I need to lose 50-60 pounds and work up to exercising most days. I have chronic, automimmune health problems that make it very difficult for me to exercise consistently, so a lot of my weight loss and improved health will have to come from eating much healthier and moving how and when I can.
I have not been motivated because it just seems too hard. But, I really don't want to add diabetes to my list of ailments, and I have enough risk factors that it's a real possibility for the near future. Plus, people think I am my children's grandmother. I think if I looked healthier, maybe I wouldn't look so much older than I am. I want to have energy to go to my kids' ballgames and volunteer at their school. I missed some field trips with them this spring because of my health problems. I have applied for disability, too.
I'm hoping I can also improve my depression problems if I work toward my goals instead of just giving up. I'm kind of an all-or-nothing personality--if I don't go all out, I don't stick with it long. However, if I get too hung up on the "rules" I get rebellious and want to quit. I am hoping to learn to balance these tendencies.
I am considering using special food (such as Jenny Craig) for a short time (like 3-6 months) to jump start my weight loss and "reprogramming" my taste buds while I learn to cook healthier foods for my family. Maybe this will give me the boost I need to start preparing my own healthy food more often. I know how to cook healthily; I just get tired of what I usually fix and need new ideas.
I am starting with the simple goals of drinking more water, walking the dog a few times a week, choosing healthier food and eating smaller portions (especially when eating out), and cutting way down on snacks and junk food. I want to clean my house each week, attend church on Sundays, and spend quality time with my family.