Tuesday, May 08, 2012
17 Day Diet
Cycle 1: Accelerate, Day 1 (Again)
I don't know what I did to deserve my wonderful family. Jon is a wonderful husband. 9-year-old Liam is off-the-charts brilliant and so cute and caring, I can't believe it. (Literally, off-the-charts. At conferences, his teachers always have to tell me "Liam scored X, which is as high as this test measures," on test after test.)
Alaric is 17. We're looking at college. He has a mild form of autism called Asperger's Syndrome, and things have been a struggle. Through it all, he has been so strong. My husband and I always told him he had tremendous potential, but there have been people along the journey who have said he wasn't worth the time. He would never go to college. He should be shuffled aside to a "special program" for people with disabilities. Jon and I always said that wasn't good enough.
We ignored the naysayers and pushed Alaric toward the teachers who were willing to work through his limitations. Some of them had even more confidence in him than I did. The band director who pushed him into Jazz and marching band when I thought that would put too much on his plate. The math teacher who said he should take AP Calculus, even though I thought he should stick to the basic course. The occupational therapist who kept seeing him even though she didn't have time set aside on his IEP.
I want to find those people who tried to set him aside. The ones that weren't willing to see past his differences to what makes him special. And I want to rub their faces in their failure. They failed to push us down.They failed to break his spirit.
He is the success. They are the failures, and I wish I could find every one of them and show them.
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
17 Day Diet
Cycle 1: Accelerate, Day 6
I want to be happy with me.
Does that mean accepting myself - fat, grey hair and all?
Or does it mean changing them?
I'm I'm not happy with the skin I'm in, will getting thin make any difference?
I've been coloring my hair off and on for almost twenty years. My college boyfriend wanted me to try red hair, so I did. I liked it, but my mom freaked out.
Since then, I've tried shades from lightest blonde to dark mahogony.
Last summer, I decided to stop for a few months and find out what my real hair color was. It had been so long, I wasn't sure what the actual natural shade would be. I didn't color my hair for almost six months.
It turns out that after twenty years of various color products, my natural hair color is.....
Well, that's not happening, so I picked up some L'Oreal Medium Golden Blonde and had at it.
Well, you may not know, but I get bored easily. And if I'm coloring my hair anyway, why does it have to be the same shade it was when I was 20? So last week, instead of Medium Golden Blonde, I got Medium Auburn Brown. It came out looking kind of like Cherry Coke.
At first I didn't like it, but the dark shade makes my hair look thicker and more controlled. Plus, if I do it in a braid down one side, my son says I look like Katness.
So, am I happier changing my appearance? I guess I am.
I'll be even happier when L'Oreal comes out with a magic make me skinny cream that works in 25 minutes like the magic make-my-hair-not-grey formula.
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
17 Day Diet
Cycle 1: Accelerate, Day 5
Everyone struggles at some point. No one is perfect. If we were perfect, we wouldn't have ever searched out Spark for weight loss in the first place.
Some people can't drink enough water. My husband always complains I'm trying to float him away because I try to get him to drink 8 glasses of water per day. Of course, if he would just *replace* his Diet Coke habit with a water habit instead of trying to do both, he wouldn't feel so full of liquid, but that's just how he is.
I don't struggle with water. I've been a big water drinker for many years. I have no problem getting 8-10 glasses of water in every day.
Some people hate veggies. I think it's more of an ingrained thing from childhood than anything that's really about taste. I've got friends who swear they hate this vegetable or that one, but I cook it for them, and all of a sudden, they're fans. I like vegetables and eat them at almost every meal, even when I'm not on a "diet."
My problem is the middle of the afternoon. I want sugary snacks. I want bready, sugary snacks - cookies, cake, brownies, Twinkies. I have such a hard time saying no to those things. I will go out of my way to get them, and then the worst part is when I try to hide the evidence. I buy Twinkies at the gas station, then eat them before I pick my kids up from school and throw out the wrapper at the school so it won't be in my car or the home trash.
That's my struggle of willpower. It's my downfall, and my biggest fear with this new plan is that I won't be able to overcome it.
But I'm going to try.
Monday, March 12, 2012
On March 15, my beloved husband will be shaving his head in support of St. Baldrick's and their mission to cure childhood cancer.
He's giving up his whole head of hair (the beard and mustache are going too. Everything but the eyebrows.)
If he can do that much, can't you spare a couple of bucks?
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