Saturday, December 01, 2012
As I said on my status earlier, I just love it when the month changes! It's the symbolism that gets to me: a whole new month ahead of us is like a clean slate, we can make it either a great one or a not so great one. Today, I am making a promise to myself to make this December as great as it can be. I want to start the new year (in one month it will be 2013 already! How crazy is that?) right and I want to feel healthy and in control from the start. It's obvious that I've been having a lot of issues with my motivation lately. As I've said before, I make no excuses. I could have and should have worked harder but I chose not to. I should have known better but I was lazy and got too comfortable.
This is a fresh start. I need to start taking better care of myself again to be able to live my life the way that I want to. I am committed to making this change and sticking to it. I have been able to maintain my weight loss (for the most part, I've gained 2 pounds) and I've also been working out a lot lately which I'm very happy about. I recently ran my first 5K ever and I've been going for a brisk walk every day. Now I just want to start tracking my meals again to make sure I stay within my calories and start losing weight.
My goals for December are:
- lose 9 pounds (weigh in once a week, on Monday mornings)
- go for a walk every day
- track my meals every day
- update my blog at least 4 times a week to stay accountable
As I said, I got too comfortable and lost sight of where I really want to be. As much as I love my body and even though I really do think I am beautiful at my current weight, I can't honestly say I'd be content to stay where I am. It's been okay for now and I've learned so much about myself and gained such an understanding and a respect for my body no matter what the number on the scale, but it really is time to start moving on. I can feel it.
That is so true!
Thursday, November 08, 2012
I just wanted to share that I've already lost two pounds this week which puts me ALMOST to my pre-gain weight of 156.5 lbs. My goal is to get down to 153 lbs by the end of the month.
I feel really good. I've been tracking everything I eat and it just feels so good to be back on track. I am confident that this was just a temporary setback and now I'm focused and motivated all over again. Nothing can stop me from reaching my goals!
I hope you're all having a wonderful day!
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
So as you already know, I've been having a hard time lately. I lost motivation and started making very bad choices when it comes to food. I went through a period of extremely high stress (moving to a new city and making some important yet difficult changes in my life in general) and somewhere along the way, I stopped tracking my meals and being accountable. I managed to not gain any weight even though I knew I was slipping back to my old ways. But this morning as I stepped on the scale, I got my wake up call.
I have gained four pounds. This is the first time since I started my journey that I have actually GAINED weight, and I can tell you it scared me straight. As bad as I felt about it, I feel like I really needed to see those numbers on that scale to realize I can't keep doing this and expect there to not be consequences! That's ridiculous! It's time to face the facts. If I don't change my behavior SOON, I will end up gaining back all the weight I worked so hard to lose.
Even the thought of it makes me so motivated to not let that happen! As of yesterday, I'm back to tracking my meals. I know this is so, so, so important! Even though I've been exercising regularly it's just not enough because my eating has been out of control lately.
I have no excuses. I started to get too comfortable. I gave into all of my cravings and lost sight of what is really important to me. This is starting to affect my self-esteem and confidence as well, and I'm not going to let this get to me.
So, what I'm trying to say is that I AM BACK. No more slacking, no more excuses, no more shortcuts. I want to get my momentum back and start losing those pounds again. I certainly DO NOT want to gain back any more of the weight that I have already lost. I did it once, I can do it again! It's all about tracking, regular meals and regular exercise, and moderation.
Wish me luck!!
Friday, October 26, 2012
Let's make it a healthy one ;)
I'm visiting my family this week and I've been having such a wonderful time. I've gone for long walks in the countryside and I've also gone jogging a few times. I feel like I'm at peace with myself and with everything else. In regards to my previous entry, I'm not going to make a big deal out of this. Since I feel strong, healthy and beautiful, I'm going to be focusing on maintaining my weight for now and if and when I feel like it, I will start losing weight again.
But right now, I'm feeling very calm and happy with everything that's going on in my life right now. I feel like I'm where I want and need to be at this moment, and I'm so grateful for everything. This has been a tough and stressful fall for me, but now it's getting easier, and I can definitely say it's been worth it.
Now it's past midnight here in Finland and I'm going to say goodnight! Take care, friends.
(Me right now, ready for bed, no make up. Feeling happy :) )
Monday, October 22, 2012
I'm going to be completely honest here.
I probably should have written this blog a long time ago but I hoped things would somehow get easier and I wouldn't have to write it. As you may or may not already know, I've been going through a long phase of not losing weight. Since last February, I've lost 33 pounds and while I'm very proud of myself for being able to lose that weight the healthy way and with the help of SparkPeople and all of you, I have to admit that I have completely lost momentum and stopped dropping the pounds. I've been maintaining my weight for a couple of months and I'm glad I haven't gained it all back, but that being said, I'm in a very weird place in my life right now. I know I need to get my act together soon or I might start slipping back to old habits. And I definitely don't want that.
It's difficult to explain, but I'll try. I've been lacking motivation to lose weight lately. A part of me is very happy with the way I look and loves the curvy new me. Almost too happy. I don't feel very motivated to lose weight because I feel so beautiful the way I am. BUT then again, I do still want to lose about 20 pounds and reach my goal of 60 kg (130 lbs). I struggle with finding the motivation to track my meals and stay within my calorie range. I know I need to do that in order to start losing weight again! That's what made all the difference in the world the last time. I've been exercising a lot and burning quite a lot of calories but I know it's not enough. The right nutrition plays a huge part as well.
I really want to start losing weight again. I would be happy if I just lost two pounds a month as long as my weight started going down again. I know it's up to me 100 %, and I'm not blaming this on a mysterious plateau or anything of the sort, I know I'm responsible for what I do and I can make the change if I work hard enough.
It's frustrating because I started my journey with so much enthusiasm and success, and now I'm just not feeling it anymore. I don't know what to do to get my Spark back, and it makes me so sad. I want to take good care of myself and my body and lose these last 20 pounds. I just need to find a way to get motivated again and STICK WITH IT.
I don't know if any of this made sense to you, but just so you know, I'm trying. I'm hanging in there, even if it's just by a thread.
And even if it's difficult right now, I promise I'm not going to give up. Ever.
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