Tuesday, November 06, 2012
So as you already know, I've been having a hard time lately. I lost motivation and started making very bad choices when it comes to food. I went through a period of extremely high stress (moving to a new city and making some important yet difficult changes in my life in general) and somewhere along the way, I stopped tracking my meals and being accountable. I managed to not gain any weight even though I knew I was slipping back to my old ways. But this morning as I stepped on the scale, I got my wake up call.
I have gained four pounds. This is the first time since I started my journey that I have actually GAINED weight, and I can tell you it scared me straight. As bad as I felt about it, I feel like I really needed to see those numbers on that scale to realize I can't keep doing this and expect there to not be consequences! That's ridiculous! It's time to face the facts. If I don't change my behavior SOON, I will end up gaining back all the weight I worked so hard to lose.
Even the thought of it makes me so motivated to not let that happen! As of yesterday, I'm back to tracking my meals. I know this is so, so, so important! Even though I've been exercising regularly it's just not enough because my eating has been out of control lately.
I have no excuses. I started to get too comfortable. I gave into all of my cravings and lost sight of what is really important to me. This is starting to affect my self-esteem and confidence as well, and I'm not going to let this get to me.
So, what I'm trying to say is that I AM BACK. No more slacking, no more excuses, no more shortcuts. I want to get my momentum back and start losing those pounds again. I certainly DO NOT want to gain back any more of the weight that I have already lost. I did it once, I can do it again! It's all about tracking, regular meals and regular exercise, and moderation.
Wish me luck!!