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Climb this mountain

Saturday, December 01, 2012

As I said on my status earlier, I just love it when the month changes! It's the symbolism that gets to me: a whole new month ahead of us is like a clean slate, we can make it either a great one or a not so great one. Today, I am making a promise to myself to make this December as great as it can be. I want to start the new year (in one month it will be 2013 already! How crazy is that?) right and I want to feel healthy and in control from the start. It's obvious that I've been having a lot of issues with my motivation lately. As I've said before, I make no excuses. I could have and should have worked harder but I chose not to. I should have known better but I was lazy and got too comfortable.

This is a fresh start. I need to start taking better care of myself again to be able to live my life the way that I want to. I am committed to making this change and sticking to it. I have been able to maintain my weight loss (for the most part, I've gained 2 pounds) and I've also been working out a lot lately which I'm very happy about. I recently ran my first 5K ever and I've been going for a brisk walk every day. Now I just want to start tracking my meals again to make sure I stay within my calories and start losing weight.

My goals for December are:

- lose 9 pounds (weigh in once a week, on Monday mornings)
- go for a walk every day
- track my meals every day
- update my blog at least 4 times a week to stay accountable

As I said, I got too comfortable and lost sight of where I really want to be. As much as I love my body and even though I really do think I am beautiful at my current weight, I can't honestly say I'd be content to stay where I am. It's been okay for now and I've learned so much about myself and gained such an understanding and a respect for my body no matter what the number on the scale, but it really is time to start moving on. I can feel it.

That is so true!

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IUHRYTR 12/2/2012 7:05PM

    I have confidence in you that you will not lose the progress you have made, Annie. Let the slump be over and I'll join you in re-committing to a new beginning. emoticon -- Lou

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JADOMB 12/2/2012 1:35PM

    You'll do great. It is a journey and NO one jogs up the mountain. Slow and steady wins the race and is much easier to maintain for life. It's only bad when one STOPS. But a few pauses to take in the view from the viewpoints will make the mountain climb more attainable and more worth the trip. ;-)

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FATHINSN 12/1/2012 6:14PM

    Good luck for your December 2012 goals!

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KRISZTA11 12/1/2012 6:03PM

    Good, reasonable goals!
Have a wonderful December!

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AQUANESS212 12/1/2012 5:45PM

    Great post! Best of luck to you with your goals! emoticon

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A step in the right direction

Thursday, November 08, 2012

I just wanted to share that I've already lost two pounds this week which puts me ALMOST to my pre-gain weight of 156.5 lbs. My goal is to get down to 153 lbs by the end of the month.

I feel really good. I've been tracking everything I eat and it just feels so good to be back on track. I am confident that this was just a temporary setback and now I'm focused and motivated all over again. Nothing can stop me from reaching my goals!

I hope you're all having a wonderful day!


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SUN_N_SEA 11/9/2012 3:03PM

    Great attitude!! emoticon

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KRISZTA11 11/9/2012 5:14AM

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We all have bad days and bad weeks sometimes - the important thing is to get back on track!

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IUHRYTR 11/9/2012 2:46AM

    Good effort, Annie. Don't let up now. You can get there. -- Lou

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DMANN104 11/8/2012 6:40PM

    Awesome job! Keep it up!

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JADOMB 11/8/2012 6:36PM

    Great job

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CANES4EVER63 11/8/2012 6:18PM

    Awesome!! Keep up the great work, you're doing great!

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DIBANANA 11/8/2012 3:56PM

  It feels good. Keep up the good work and attitude

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MOLLZ007 11/8/2012 3:41PM

    Way to go!! emoticon

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JACKIE542 11/8/2012 3:32PM

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A much needed wake up call (and renewed motivation!)

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

So as you already know, I've been having a hard time lately. I lost motivation and started making very bad choices when it comes to food. I went through a period of extremely high stress (moving to a new city and making some important yet difficult changes in my life in general) and somewhere along the way, I stopped tracking my meals and being accountable. I managed to not gain any weight even though I knew I was slipping back to my old ways. But this morning as I stepped on the scale, I got my wake up call.

I have gained four pounds. This is the first time since I started my journey that I have actually GAINED weight, and I can tell you it scared me straight. As bad as I felt about it, I feel like I really needed to see those numbers on that scale to realize I can't keep doing this and expect there to not be consequences! That's ridiculous! It's time to face the facts. If I don't change my behavior SOON, I will end up gaining back all the weight I worked so hard to lose.

Even the thought of it makes me so motivated to not let that happen! As of yesterday, I'm back to tracking my meals. I know this is so, so, so important! Even though I've been exercising regularly it's just not enough because my eating has been out of control lately.

I have no excuses. I started to get too comfortable. I gave into all of my cravings and lost sight of what is really important to me. This is starting to affect my self-esteem and confidence as well, and I'm not going to let this get to me.

So, what I'm trying to say is that I AM BACK. No more slacking, no more excuses, no more shortcuts. I want to get my momentum back and start losing those pounds again. I certainly DO NOT want to gain back any more of the weight that I have already lost. I did it once, I can do it again! It's all about tracking, regular meals and regular exercise, and moderation.

Wish me luck!!

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MZKYND 11/12/2012 10:02AM

    You can do it!!

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JADOMB 11/8/2012 6:35PM

    I may be right there with you soon. I too have backed off tracking and all that to see how I fair. I'm already getting the idea I may be headed the wrong way if I don't get back to being more accurate and accountable.

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LOVELY-AMANDA 11/7/2012 10:43AM

    Good luck! We can do it!!!!!!


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IUHRYTR 11/6/2012 7:22PM

    emoticon back! I have faith in you that you will get back on track. emoticon -- Lou

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KRISZTA11 11/6/2012 2:42PM

    emoticon back and good luck!

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GIANTOCR1 11/6/2012 1:38PM

    Want to wish you luck. Sounds like it was the wake up call you needed to get focused again. You can do it and we are all here to support you in your journey.

All the best,

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CANES4EVER63 11/6/2012 1:10PM

    Welcome back!! Sometimes the scale can provide that nasty wake up call for me - it does for me!! You can do it! Keep up the great work!!

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TASNIM81 11/6/2012 11:11AM

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NEPTUNE1939 11/6/2012 11:07AM

    Practice improves! That last sentence is extremely accurate. Bodybuilders and models can be fanatical in this regards. I paid close attention to all tracks and learned what foods, exercises, and strength training methods best suited my body. My body fat is now below 9% and the habits developed are now a part of my life style. What is amazing is that now I no longer crave the many foods that were slowly killing me. May God bless your progress and health, Earl emoticon

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Have a great weekend, SparkFriends!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Let's make it a healthy one ;)

I'm visiting my family this week and I've been having such a wonderful time. I've gone for long walks in the countryside and I've also gone jogging a few times. I feel like I'm at peace with myself and with everything else. In regards to my previous entry, I'm not going to make a big deal out of this. Since I feel strong, healthy and beautiful, I'm going to be focusing on maintaining my weight for now and if and when I feel like it, I will start losing weight again.

But right now, I'm feeling very calm and happy with everything that's going on in my life right now. I feel like I'm where I want and need to be at this moment, and I'm so grateful for everything. This has been a tough and stressful fall for me, but now it's getting easier, and I can definitely say it's been worth it.

Now it's past midnight here in Finland and I'm going to say goodnight! Take care, friends.

(Me right now, ready for bed, no make up. Feeling happy :) )

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JADOMB 10/28/2012 1:14PM

    You are doing great, keep it up. And have a wonderful weekend.

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IUHRYTR 10/26/2012 7:48PM

    A lovely picture and a beautiful attitude. -- Lou

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CANES4EVER63 10/26/2012 6:06PM

    Great blog!! As long as you're happy, that is what matters! Keep up being happy!!

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SLIMTHICK2 10/26/2012 5:59PM

    Good for you my friend. Congrats on your progress so far, continue to enjoy your life. All the best to you. emoticon

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I'm in a weird place right now... Any advice?

Monday, October 22, 2012

I'm going to be completely honest here.

I probably should have written this blog a long time ago but I hoped things would somehow get easier and I wouldn't have to write it. As you may or may not already know, I've been going through a long phase of not losing weight. Since last February, I've lost 33 pounds and while I'm very proud of myself for being able to lose that weight the healthy way and with the help of SparkPeople and all of you, I have to admit that I have completely lost momentum and stopped dropping the pounds. I've been maintaining my weight for a couple of months and I'm glad I haven't gained it all back, but that being said, I'm in a very weird place in my life right now. I know I need to get my act together soon or I might start slipping back to old habits. And I definitely don't want that.

It's difficult to explain, but I'll try. I've been lacking motivation to lose weight lately. A part of me is very happy with the way I look and loves the curvy new me. Almost too happy. I don't feel very motivated to lose weight because I feel so beautiful the way I am. BUT then again, I do still want to lose about 20 pounds and reach my goal of 60 kg (130 lbs). I struggle with finding the motivation to track my meals and stay within my calorie range. I know I need to do that in order to start losing weight again! That's what made all the difference in the world the last time. I've been exercising a lot and burning quite a lot of calories but I know it's not enough. The right nutrition plays a huge part as well.

I really want to start losing weight again. I would be happy if I just lost two pounds a month as long as my weight started going down again. I know it's up to me 100 %, and I'm not blaming this on a mysterious plateau or anything of the sort, I know I'm responsible for what I do and I can make the change if I work hard enough.

It's frustrating because I started my journey with so much enthusiasm and success, and now I'm just not feeling it anymore. I don't know what to do to get my Spark back, and it makes me so sad. I want to take good care of myself and my body and lose these last 20 pounds. I just need to find a way to get motivated again and STICK WITH IT.

I don't know if any of this made sense to you, but just so you know, I'm trying. I'm hanging in there, even if it's just by a thread.

And even if it's difficult right now, I promise I'm not going to give up. Ever.

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IUHRYTR 10/22/2012 9:53PM

    It is good to hear from you again, Annie. I am not surprised at your determination to maintain the loss you have achieved and I know you will lose those next 20 pounds. I know you will! emoticon -- Lou

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CANES4EVER63 10/22/2012 8:21PM

    I was just about to stop by your page and ask how you've been! I haven't seen you on here in a while! This blog explains a lot - the same thing happened to me a few months ago and I went partly MIA.

So firstly, congrats on maintaining for so long! That's a HUGE success. I lost motivation a few months ago as well and gained about 10-15 lbs. This was due to going home and not eating the way that I know that I should. I was still working out on a daily basis (this will never change), but I was just eating non stop, eating ice cream all the time (which I'm glad I know I CANNOT do anymore!), eating a lot more chocolate than what I'm use to, and enjoying wine/alcohol way too much. In short, it was way too many calories for compared to what I am use to.

But then a new round of BLC started and I gained my motivation again. I'm now back on track and losing at an incredible rate again (or this is due to a new diet change of being lactose intolerant and eating no dairy!). I'm motivated and I cannot wait to lose these last 20 lbs as well.

To get motivated again, try joining a challenge? That's what helped me a lot (I love the BLCs! The next round should start January/February). I also have seen a lot of motivational blogs where people make a list of 100 (or any number) reasons of why they want to lose weight. They provide a lot of motivation, not only for the writer, but for the readers as well.

But to echo what the others are saying - if you're happy with your body, then perhaps you have reached your goal weight! Look at everything you've accomplished! You wore a bikini in Greece! That's amazing!! Even though we're the same weight and height, I still cannot wear a bikini and I can't wait to next summer! You've made a great lifestyle change!

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DMANN104 10/22/2012 5:27PM

    Hang in there. Just work at maintaining right now. Not gaining is still so much better then gaining. I too have had lots of times when I lost my "Spark", then something happens and there it is again. I'm sure you will get your "Spark" back. And if you have been able to maintain at your current weight / fitness, that's great, then you will be that much further ahead for the next "Spark" round.

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KRISZTA11 10/22/2012 3:00PM

    Well, I can only repeat what others said before me:
if you feel beautiful the way you are now, you may not need to lose more weight.

If there is a medical reason, like high cholesterol, or hypertension, or knees/other joints complaining...
Or if you don't feel fit enough, and you think you would be stronger after losing those last 20 pounds...
Then you have a reason to do it, but no reason to be sad about how you are now!

You a made a great progress, and it is up to you to decide what weight you are comfortable with.

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STONECOT 10/22/2012 2:00PM

    It's not about a number on the scales, it's about being happy in your skin. If you've acheived that then treasure it, you're right as you are. Concentrate on maintaining for a while, then revisit it later. You don't want to look like a boy.

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ELAYNE39 10/22/2012 1:48PM

    Keeping your motivation can be difficult. You are right, tracking will be key for you, as will keeping the exercise up. It may help to answer a few questions. What made you want to lose weight in the first place? It could be what ever that was does not hold for you anymore. Why do you really want to lose the last 20 lbs? What is holding you back from making the commitment to do what you need to do? You want to lose the weight but are unwilling to commit. There is something that is stopping you. (Kinda reminds me of some men I have dated.....but I digress!) Only you hold the key to this. You are worth the time a commitment to do this. You have been successful losing the weight, so you will be successful again. Do some soul searching on this one. You may need a new outlook regarding why this is important to you. Things change and so do our reasons for doing things. Good Luck and I hope you find it within you to reach your goal. It's there, you just have to tap into it.

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MAGPIE17 10/22/2012 12:49PM

    Why do you want to be 120 lbs? If you're happy where you are I don't think there's any reason to push beyond that...focus on maintenance instead if you're happy!

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BOB240 10/22/2012 12:47PM

    The thing is that you look good /ok/noticable now.

However you have looks that, given the loss of 20 pounds or so you would move into the "completely stunning... jaw dropping beautiful zone".

Rich good looking men would want to whisk you off the Europe for the weekend and women would be prepared to die to look like you.....

Probably not worth it.... ;)

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JADOMB 10/22/2012 12:40PM

    You are a beautiful woman the way you are and you did very well in getting to this point. You seem also that you have found your maintenance level. That is also great. Many have failed at doing both. But you want to lose a bit more right?

Since you are content with small losses then you don't need to do major things. You already know the answer and the system to lose that weight, you just don't have the driving force anymore. So what was it that got you to this point? Is it good enough to get you going again? Or do you need a new driving force? We can help motivate, but we can't give you the driving force, that is up to you. You need to find what is important enough to you to continue on this journey. Search deep and you'll find it. Keep the faith.

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BIGTNLITTLET 10/22/2012 12:02PM

    I don't have any advice for you, but wanted to offer you some encouragement. You can do it and you can succeed. It's wonderful that you feel beautiful-do you need to lose the extra weight to be in a healthy weight range? I admire you for putting this out here! emoticon emoticon

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