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Thursday, November 06, 2008

Today was another amazing, positive day. I conquered myself and hauled my butt to the school cafeteria and had lunch like I promised. No more skipping meals. I've been focusing on the portion sizes today like yesterday and I can already say it's making a huge difference! I can't wait to begin to see the results.

There's something I really have to focus on from this day forward. And that is FITNESS. I've been just plain lazy and avoiding working out for months and months and that simply will not do from now on. I've been doing cardio but strength training is what I need to focus on now. I read a few very motivating fitness articles and decided that enough is enough. Tomorrow morning I'm going to put on my workout clothes and start my day with a nice strength training session.

Now I'm going to take a shower and go to bed so I'll have energy to workout first thng in the morning and have another amazing day!

Keep on going everyone! We can do this!


Back to normal

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

It feels so amazing to go back to my usual eating and exercise routine. I won't skip meals from now on and I'll make sure I eat enough (and yet not too much). I had a healthy breakfast, light lunch, a cup of hot chocolate at a cafe with Tommi and a healthy, low-cal dinner. I also walked for 40 minutes and I'm still going to work out tonight if I don't feel too ill. I've been a bit ill this week (fever, a sore throat) and that's why I haven't worked out that much for the past few days. But that's going to change!

This week I'm going to focus on portion control. I measured all my meals today and made sure I only had ONE serving instead of two or three. Eating one single portion instead of two cuts so many calories very easily and I'm positive it'll help me lose weight without any drastic sacrifices.

I also added some new goals to make sure I track my food & exercise, sleep and eat enough, update my blog and stay on the right track. I'm so excited!

I hope you're doing well!


I'm back!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

I know I disappeared for a while but now I'm back. The reason for my absence was the fact that I felt like I was becoming a bit too obsessed with my diet and SparkPeople in general. As I have a history with bulimia and anorexic behaviour, I thought I was at risk to fall back to the old habits even though SparkPeople is all about healthy eating and lifestyle. It's hard to explain really, but I thought I needed some time off so I wouldn't get so obsessed again this time. As you might have read on my previous blog entries, I was slowly cutting back on calories and meals and before I knew it I was eating way too little. I know SparkPeople does not encourage this kind of behaviour and I don't blame this on the site. I'm the problem. The disorder has such strong roots in my mind that sometimes even the healthy dieting triggers me to go back to my old bad habits. So, I took this time to think about things and do a lot of soul searching. I've come to a conclusion that SparkPeople is a very helpful tool when it comes to healthy eating and even eating disorder recovery. During the time I didn't use the site, I felt lost and my eating disorder started to take root again. Luckily, I didn't let that happen. My therapist and I both agree that SparkPeople is a good environment for me to lose weight the healthy way and gain a new kind of respect towards my own body. This is a safe place with reliable experts to answer all kinds of questions I might have. Therefore, I'm coming back. I'll try my best not to get obsessed this time. I moved back to Stage 2 so I can do that all over again properly. I'm still at 163 lbs so I didn't gain (or lose) any weight while I was gone. But from now on, my weight will start going down again. It's so good to be back!

Wish me luck!


Day 25 - Still eating too little

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

This is so hard. I'm still obsessed with my weight and eating less and less each day. It's so difficult for an ex-bulimic/anoretic to lose weight the normal and healthy way and not freak out. Honestly, I don't know what to do. I spoke to my therapist about this and she told me to eat more and not weigh myself as often as I do now. I know she's right. I know what I SHOULD do, I know what a healthy lifestyle is, I know how I want to live. I know I want to be healthy and strong, not sick and weak. I know all this. Then why is it so unbelievably hard?

What I'm going to do now is this: I'm going to breathe deep, count to ten and relax. I'm going to think of all the reasons why I want to live a healthy and positive life and write those things down on a piece of paper that I'll put somewhere where I can see it at all times. I'm going to take things easy and one day at a time. No hurry. No panic. I'm doing this for myself and I want to do this right this time.

Other than that, I'm fine. Things are going well over here. I hope you're all well too!


Day 24 - Feeling energetic!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Today has been such a great day. I had classes from 10 am to 2 pm and I really enjoyed learning about the things we talked about today. Anyway, after the classes were over I came back home and started to clean & redecorate the flat a little. I'm telling you, it looks a lot nicer now! We bought some pretty plants that really give the room a whole new look. I'm finally beginning to feel like home here.

Food-wise things have been great today also. I realize I'm still eating too little but I'm working on it. I know that eating too little can actually hurt my weight loss efforts and definitely is bad for my health. So far I've had two carrots in the morning with some plain non-fat yogurt, I skipped lunch (I know, I know...) and then had a slice of dark rye bread and a slice of french baguette with lettuce, cheese and red pepper for snack. I've been drinking lots and lots of water today as usual. I walked to school and back but other than that, I haven't worked out. I must admit that I dislike exercising. A lot. I always have to force myself to work out. Cardio isn't a problem, really. It's strength training that I find the most difficult to do. It's so boring. I don't know why I feel that way. I always try to work out like a good girl should but I just HATE it. I wish someone could change my mind about that. I really do.

Ahh anyway, I'm still having dinner later. It's 6.11 pm now and I'll start preparing myself a nice, healthy tuna salad in a moment. And, hopefully, I'll even work out today!



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