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Dreaming of running

Thursday, May 31, 2012

For about a year now, I've had this reoccurring dream about running. In my dream, I am fit and strong and I'm running and running for miles on end without getting the least bit winded. My body is toned and fit, nothing jiggles, my legs don't hurt. I just feel completely calm and at peace with myself and the world. It's such a wonderful feeling! My feet barely touch the ground as I run through different landscapes. I feel like I could go on forever!

Last night, I had this same dream again. I was running in the rain. I remember feeling so incredibly free as the rain poured down on me and hit my face. I remember what it sounded like when my sneakers hit the wet pavement as I ran through the city, strong and fit.

Every time when I wake up from a dream like this, I feel incredible. I feel like my body is telling me to keep on moving towards my goal and to get fitter and healthier. I definitely want to become a runner, I've known that for a while now but I have been ignoring what my mind is trying to tell me. I've been meaning to start the Couch to 5K Challenge for a while now, and now I feel it's the right time. I want to challenge myself to make my dream of becoming a runner come true!

(By the way, week 1 of the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge is going well! I have made some eye-opening discoveries. Week 1 will be over on Saturday and I'll share my insights with you then. Then it's on to week 2 and eliminating sugar from my diet for a few weeks. I'm excited to see how it'll go!)

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PASKALINI 6/1/2012 2:32AM

    SO I totally agree with IUHRYTR. I started out by walking. Just walking for miles. Then one day I decided on a stretch of back street to see if I could jog. I DID IT! I jogged the whole length of the block. Then I wanted to die so I walked some more. Later I jogged that length and some more and I realized I needed a little more structure. I joined Sparkpeoples walk/jog a 5 k your way program and I haven't stopped since! I now walk/jog (mostly jog) 5k 3 times a week. Best part is on my rest days in between I WANT to run!!! I miss it and I get fidgety waiting for the next day when I can run. I cross train by riding my bike and I don't have a car so I ride my bike everyday anywhere I need to go to. BUT I just feel so amazing when I get home from running that I can't wait to do it again. I don't want to hurt myself though(which I have in the past) and so I only allow myself every other day. I think you should absolutely do it. You will feel amazing! You start out slow at first but every time you go out you can jog a little further than last time I absolutely used to jog to the next telephone pole the next drive way just like IUHRYTR said and now I smile when I pass the entire street where I could only jog to 2 telephone poles. I hope you do it and I hope you love it! I never thought I would say this but I LOVE being a runner! WHO AM I!? Have a great day!!!

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IUHRYTR 5/31/2012 11:34PM

    I met a man a few years ago who had been overweight but vowed to get in shape. His wife bought him a matching sweatpant/sweatshirt outfit with a stripe down the sides. He bought running shoes and started out. The first day he ran half a block. The next day he ran half a block plus a telephone pole. Then it was past a fire hydrant. Eventually he could run around the block by taking the small goals of making it to a tree or driveway, etc. When we met he was running five miles a day and had lost considerable weight.

He took the same approach to pushups. the first day he did three, got up to five, then 10, 15, 20 and eventually did 50 military type ones where he pushes up, claps his hands then goes down.

Maybe you could start as he did, run a short distance, what you can, at a slow jog, then every time out aim for the next tree, the next telephone pole, etc. I know one day you will certainly feel the rain on your face as you speed through the woods. emoticon emoticon -- Lou

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CHRISTINA791 5/31/2012 6:29PM

    This was absolutely lovely. emoticon

A couple months ago I was running through a forest with just the sound of my breathing, my feet, and the rain. I remember thinking that it felt like I was in a dream, and how happy I was that I slogged through learning to run to get to that point.

Good luck with your running journey!

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KRISZTA11 5/31/2012 6:21PM

    You should give it a try!
The first 1-2 weeks were hard for me, but when I got used to it...
It really does feel so good as in your dream!
And I'm a slow runner, nothing fancy ; )
All you need is a good plan and persistence.

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CANES4EVER63 5/31/2012 5:52PM

    You should definitely get into running. I LOVE it! I run at least a 5K once a week, although I'm going to start running twice a week. I need to prepare myself for 5Ks that include hills and I don't want to incorporate hills on the treadmill. The only way to work around this is to increase my endurance! You can totally do the C25K, and once you start, you'll never look back!!

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DMANN104 5/31/2012 5:48PM

    You should try it! I have always wanted to be able to run, but was always too afraid to try. I have just recently gone out for a couple runs/jogs, and they weren't too bad!

Don't be afraid to at least give running a try! (Also you can find lots of help here at Spark if you need it!)


PS - I checked out your Sparkpage - congrats on the weight loss!! emoticon

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ILOVEJIM851991 5/31/2012 5:45PM

    Good luck on your goals

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SHELBEY74 5/31/2012 5:28PM

    How funny. I have that dream too! I've been thinking the exact same thing, that maybe my body is telling me it's time to start running.

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Feeling less anxious and a lot more confident!

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

So it's been three days since I started my internship and I have to say I'm really loving it so far!! After the first day, my head was spinning with all the information and new things to learn and my anxiety levels were through the roof, but now I already feel like I'm getting the hang of it and I really love meeting new people and learning new things!

My co-workers are so sweet and nice, and I feel like I've been a part of that group for a long time instead of just three days. Today I felt relaxed and confident, and my anxiety seemed to have disappeared! I have been doing a lot more yoga and relaxation exercises/meditation now that I started work because I know it usually helps relieve the anxiety - and it's really working this time.

This is a big step for me. I'm forcing myself outside of my comfort zone and challenging myself to evolve and turn into a stronger, more confident version of myself! My life used to be controlled by anxiety and always feeling like I wasn't good enough, but things are changing. I feel stronger and my self-confidence is on a whole new level! I know I still have a long way to go but I'm getting there. One step at a time.

So that's my quick little update. Things are going well; I've been staying within my calorie range and working out a lot this week. My new job is going well and I love it (despite the fact that my poor little feet are sooooo sore after a long day of staying on my feet all the time) and I have a feeling this next month is going to teach me a lot about myself and about the hotel industry as well.

I hope everyone else is having a good week!! :) Thank you guys for always being there for me. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it!

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UWDAWG 5/31/2012 7:59AM

    So glad you're loving the new job!! I have an anxiety disorder that gets worse during stressful times, I'll even have panic attacks. But I found what helps is to egg my anxiety on and stare it in the face. It is just a feeling, it cannot hurt me. And every time I do something and tell my anxiety to "shove it!" I feel stronger and stronger.

You are doing great!

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LRBIRT 5/31/2012 7:46AM

    Congratulations on your job!

I have a lot of anxiety myself and I have noticed that the more I do towards making myself feel better, the more that kind of nervous energy melts away.. be Proud of yourself because it is a tough mindset to shake!!


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KRISZTA11 5/31/2012 1:56AM

    I'm glad you enjoy your new job!
Take good care of your legs!
Walking is better for blood circulation than standing.

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IUHRYTR 5/30/2012 8:27PM

    You are becoming a stronger person every day you handle the day's stress and anxiety. This is another step toward continuing to build self-confidence that you can do whatever you want to do -- including reaching your weight loss goal. You're doing great, Annie. emoticon -- Lou

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KICKINGIT@56 5/30/2012 7:30PM

    Glad to hear that the job is working out. The great thing about stepping out of your comfort zone is that it starts a chain reaction which spurs you on to learn and try more new things.

If you are going to be on your feet a lot I would recommend not only a comfortable pair of shoes but also a pair of good support stockings. They have some that are very sheer and look like regular pantyhose. They will save you from developing those awful spider veins.

God bless


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Started work today!

Monday, May 28, 2012

Today was the first day of my one-month internship as a hotel receptionist at a local hotel called Sokos Hotel Lahden Seurahuone. I was so nervous at first!!!! As someone who has been suffering from anxiety and even panic attacks and is very nervous in new and challenging situations, things like this usually freak me out BIG TIME. But this time I was able to remain calm and not let my nerves get the best of me!

It was very exciting though. I've never worked at a hotel before so everything there is all new to me. I'm a first year student at a local college majoring in hospitality and hotel management, and we all must do at least a month of interning at a hotel during our first year of studies. My first day went well but I have to say there were so many things to learn and to memorize that my head is still spinning!! I feel like I don't remember anything they taught me.

My co-workers seem really nice and I felt more than welcome to join them. That also made me feel more relaxed. I think that once I get the hang of it, I'll like it even more! I especially like talking with foreign visitors and I love love love that I finally get to use and practice my English!

All in all, a very good first day. Right now it's all very overwhelming (I'm the type of person who needs time to adjust and get used to changes) but I just need to stay calm and not let my anxiety get in the way. I'll do just fine! I might not know how all things work just yet but I'll get there soon :) I can't wait to see what tomorrow will bring!

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PASKALINI 5/29/2012 5:40AM

    It's so funny that I am so EXCITED FOR YOU!!! It's great and I hope you have a fantastic time with your internship. I loved when I had a job where I got to see and speak to NEW PEOPLE everyday. Things rarely get boring when you have a flow of new people coming through all the time. Enjoy yourself and don't let the anxiety get to you. You've got this!

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IUHRYTR 5/28/2012 11:45PM

    Sorry for the double post. The site is acting up tonight. Have fun in your internship. -- Lou

Comment edited on: 5/28/2012 11:47:38 PM

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IUHRYTR 5/28/2012 11:38PM

    For someone interested in meeting people from across the country and the world, a hotel receptionist position seems a natural fit. People want to come to your hotel and have a good time, clean rooms, etc., but their first impressions, other than the building itself, are of the staff they first meet. Your enthusiasm should be welcome by your guests. I know you will have a successful internship. emoticon -- Lou

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WALKINGRED 5/28/2012 7:53PM

    How exciting! I am a big believer in internships- it's so nice to have opportunities to explore new fields and organizations. Best of luck to you in the next month, friend!

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CANES4EVER63 5/28/2012 4:34PM

    That's awesome! I'm very similar and get really anxious about new situations - it also takes me a long time to adjust to a new environment! I'm glad everyone seems really nice and I hope it's a great experience for you!! emoticon

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KRISZTA11 5/28/2012 4:18PM

    emoticon to your successful day #1!

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Ready to tame my sweet tooth!!

Sunday, May 27, 2012

So I decided to restart the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge, and today is Day 1. I contemplated whether I should just call it quits but then I decided I'm not going to let myself down and for once, I'M GOING TO FINISH WHAT I STARTED! I started this challenge for a reason, and I really need to finish it for me. I can't keep giving up on myself when the going gets rough!!

Here's what I posted on the team message board today. I think it sums up what I'm thinking right now:

"I stuck with it for two weeks but then my birthday came up and one slice of cake on my birthday turned into having something sweet every day for about a week. I didn't binge or go over my calories, but I did get hooked on getting my daily sugar fix again and I was thinking it would be best just to restart the whole challenge. I really want to do it right this time and stick with it for the entire four weeks!

My reasons for doing this are:
1. I want to learn to control my cravings and to eventually get less cravings in general by eating less sugar.
2. I want to keep my blood sugar levels balanced.
3. I want to put sugar where it belongs to in my diet: to keep it as a special treat, not an every day occurrence.

I'm sure there might be more, but these are the three big ones that came to mind. I don't want to cut out sugar from my diet completely (I believe in having all things in moderation) but I do hope that this challenge will make me crave it less and keep it as a treat mostly reserved for special occasions. Wish me luck!!"

I know that I will never live my life completely without sugar and honestly, I don't even want to But I do think it would be beneficial to take this four weeks (a really short time when you come to think of it) to assess my sugar eating habits and stop relying too much on my daily sugar fix. Hopefully, I will get less cravings and learn to find healthier and satisfying substitutes for my usual sugary treats. I want to keep sugar as something I enjoy from time to time, not every single day.

I'm going to keep track of my sugar intake this week and really focus on how much sugar I eat and when and why I eat it. I'll share my discoveries with you at the end of week 1!

HERE WE GO! Taming my sweet tooth, take two.

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IUHRYTR 5/27/2012 10:20PM

    Way to go by not giving up. I sense a real difference in your attitude this time around and know you will stick with this. As you said, it is but a small amount of time and will teach you and us the insights your effort brings. -- Lou

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LUCYGODDESS 5/27/2012 7:25PM

    You'll do fantastic! Take it a day at a time and if you want something sweet, go work out or clean a drawer or closet or something.

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My "trouble goal"

Friday, May 25, 2012

I'm now on Stage 3 of the SparkDiet and tackling Diet Strategy #4 which is called You Can Overcome Setbacks. As a part of this strategy, one of the action steps was to write in my blog about one single "trouble goal". Here's a quote from the article:

"We all have that thorn in our side, an itch we can never get rid of. We all have that one "trouble goal." As hard as we try, it always seems to come back and cause problems. (....) Itís time to make that trouble goal go away! Write about this goal in your online journal. Talk about why it happens, what problems it causes, and what you can do about it. Talking about the problem may not solve it, but it can help you gain insight that you may not have recognized before, leading to that elusive breakthrough youíve been waiting for."

I'm having trouble choosing just one! Haha! I have a few trouble goals that I should probably focus on, such as getting 5 servings of fruit and veggies a day consistently and staying within my calorie range on the weekends (although I'm already doing pretty well with that one these days!) or eating less sugar.

But here's my pick: eating less fat. Even though I stay within my calorie range and meet all other nutritional goals, I often go over my fat grams. Almost every day, actually. I really want to start focusing on eating less fat because I want to lower my cholesterol and eat healthier in general. Honestly though, I don't know where all the fat comes from! I'm going to go through my tracked meals and try to find the most common sources of fat in my diet and hopefully it'll be easier to find healthy substitutions and lower my fat intake for good.

What are your "trouble goals"? :)

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IUHRYTR 5/26/2012 8:29PM

    Checking back through what you have tracked is a good idea and will let you pinpoint what foods are taking you over your daily range. It may be eye-opening. It will be interesting to read what you learn. Keep on the positive path you're on. You're making terrific progress. -- Lou

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PASKALINI 5/26/2012 9:11AM

    I think the fats and the 5+ servings of fruits and veggies are my trouble areas too.

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