Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I decided to weigh in again today since I was on my period on Sunday which was my weigh-in day. Since that always makes me retain water I wanted to check how much I weigh now. AND I WAS SO SO SO HAPPY to see that I had actually lost 2.2 lbs since Sunday!!! HOW AMAZING IS THAT??
I was so excited that I decided to reward myself with a tiny bowl of ice cream. So delicious! I ended up consuming 1,380 calories today and burned 343 calories by going for a 60-minute walk. A great day!!!
Lots of love,
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I found some old pictures on my boyfriend's computer. These were taken in 2004 when I had just turned 16 and my boyfriend was 17. Haha! I can't believe HOW SKINNY I WAS!!!! I remember when these pictures were taken and I saw then I thought I looked so chubby and fat... I feel so sad for that girl. Someone should have told her she was beautiful just the way she was. Around that time, I began starving myself. That was my first mistake. My second mistake was that I started to binge and purge, and developed bulimia at the age of 16. A year after these pictures were taken I had gained almost 20 pounds. That was the beginning of my yo-yo dieting career. I wish I could go back and change everything but I can't. The only thing I can do now is to try and make up for all those years I treated myself badly and hurt my body. I can now only focus on the future and getting back in shape, and loving myself every single day regardless of my dress size or the number on the scale.
I am beautiful.
And I will be thin again, one day.
Anyway, here are the pictures. Taken almost seven years ago:
Why on Earth did I feel so fat back then???! Crazy!!
That's me in the bikini.
I LOOK SO YOUNG!!!
Can I just have those legs back, please??
I try not to get all depressed by seeing these pictures. I'll use them as my inspiration on this journey! I know I'll never look like I'm 16 again and I don't even want to! My bone structure has changed, my hips are wider now. Still, this is so inspiring. One day, I'll look hot in a bikini again!! And when that day comes, I'll appreciate it and I'll love my body just the way it is unlike I did the day when those pictures were taken.
This is me, seven years later, not skinny yet but getting there:
Have a great, healthy day everyone!!! Lots of love,
Monday, January 17, 2011
Today I consumed 1,347 calories and burned lots of calories walking around running errands. My goal tomorrow is to do at least an hour of cardio and consume 1,200-1,250 calories.
I just read an article here on SparkPeople about how our attention starts to wonder after the first two weeks and how we slowly begin to lose momentum. I feel like that's exactly what's happening to me right now! I won't let it happen though. I'm going to make sure I track everything I eat, stay active and reach my FastBreak goals every day. By the way, FastBreak is now over for me and yesterday I moved on to Stage 2, Healthy Diet Habits! I'm definitely going to make the most of it!!
Have a healthy day everyone!! Lots of love!
(That's me earlier today)
Saturday, January 15, 2011
I had fun shopping in Helsinki with my mom and my sister today! I bought some sexy lingerie as a reward since I've been doing so this month :) We also went to a museum and had a lovely lunch in a cozy restaurant. Yesterday's bad mood is definitely gone now! I guess it was just the PMS then.
In regards to the blog I posted yesterday, I agree that denying yourself any food completely is definitely counterproductive and just not a good idea. My plan was to stay away from sweets (especially chocolate) till the end of the month and then, gradually and in moderation, add it back to my diet. I wasn't planning on removing it from my diet completely! However, now that the cravings have started full-force, I decided to have just a little bit of chocolate today to calm things down. And it helped! The cravings are gone and the chocolate didn't wreck my diet. Thanks to you guys, I feel so much better today! :)
ALSO, I LOST 2.2 POUNDS THIS WEEK! I weighed in this morning and was so pleased to see a new number on the scale! WOO HOO! I feel amazing. This time, I'm sticking to this for the long haul. This is my new life, this is the new me.
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