Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I found some old pictures on my boyfriend's computer. These were taken in 2004 when I had just turned 16 and my boyfriend was 17. Haha! I can't believe HOW SKINNY I WAS!!!! I remember when these pictures were taken and I saw then I thought I looked so chubby and fat... I feel so sad for that girl. Someone should have told her she was beautiful just the way she was. Around that time, I began starving myself. That was my first mistake. My second mistake was that I started to binge and purge, and developed bulimia at the age of 16. A year after these pictures were taken I had gained almost 20 pounds. That was the beginning of my yo-yo dieting career. I wish I could go back and change everything but I can't. The only thing I can do now is to try and make up for all those years I treated myself badly and hurt my body. I can now only focus on the future and getting back in shape, and loving myself every single day regardless of my dress size or the number on the scale.
I am beautiful.
And I will be thin again, one day.
Anyway, here are the pictures. Taken almost seven years ago:
Why on Earth did I feel so fat back then???! Crazy!!
That's me in the bikini.
I LOOK SO YOUNG!!!
Can I just have those legs back, please??
I try not to get all depressed by seeing these pictures. I'll use them as my inspiration on this journey! I know I'll never look like I'm 16 again and I don't even want to! My bone structure has changed, my hips are wider now. Still, this is so inspiring. One day, I'll look hot in a bikini again!! And when that day comes, I'll appreciate it and I'll love my body just the way it is unlike I did the day when those pictures were taken.
This is me, seven years later, not skinny yet but getting there:
Have a great, healthy day everyone!!! Lots of love,