Sunday, November 08, 2009
I had a lovely, lazy Father's Day with my family. Went a little over my calories for today but I've been doing really well all week so I won't beat myself up about it. Tomorrow's a new day, right? :)
Now I'm here in Lahti with Tommi and my heart is breaking when I think about having to leave again tomorrow. I miss living here with him. I miss our lovely home that we shared together. I miss everything about this town. And yet, I have to leave to Turku tomorrow (or possibly on Tuesday morning). I don't know if I can / want to deal with this distance for AT LEAST three more years. Ahh well, we'll figure something out.
Hope you all had a lovely weekend and got to relax properly!
Until tomorrow then!
(My inspiration (body-wise)):
Friday, November 06, 2009
I arrived here at my parents' home after a 5-hour train ride completely exhausted. My train was late and nothing seemed to go as planned, but I'm here now and that's what counts. It's Father's Day on Sunday (at least in Finland) and that's why I wanted to come. I also hung out with Tommi (he's here to visit HIS parents who live very close to mine) and it was so nice to see him again, I missed him a lot although we only just met last weekend. I'm just so used to being with him all the time.
Today's been great food-wise, I had some chocolate but didn't go over my calorie limit :) Yay! I also walked a lot. I don't know if I'm going to work out today because I'm still really sore. I'm probably going to work out tomorrow instead.
Alright, I better go now. Have a great Friday everyone! AND STAY STRONG!
Thursday, November 05, 2009
I was just trying on some clothes I found at the back of my closet, and - this is the embarrassing part - and while I was doing that I was listening to my feel-sexy-music (mostly Beyoncé) and dancing a little. I love dancing. Anyway, when I looked in the mirror I suddenly felt very strong, confident, sexy and beautiful. I know there is a long way to go before I reach my goals but hell, I'm GETTING THERE. And I also realized something else: I've often wanted to get back to the weight I was at when I was around 15 years old (110-120 pounds). It's been automatic, that's the first number that came to mind when I thought about what my goals are. But now I'm thinking that the number doesn't really matter and besides, I don't even know if I want to look like when I was 15. I want my body to be more feminine and I want to keep these curves that I love so much. Sure, I need to get in shape and focus on strength training to get firm - but I really don't want to look like a teenager anymore.
Here's how I did today:
Eating 1200-1550 calories a day
At least 60 minutes of cardio
10+ cups of water
Taking the stairs instead of the elevator
Eating at least 2 servings of fruit and veggies
I did so well except for the last goal. I need to focus on getting enough fresh fruits and veggies in my diet! AND I WILL.
My body is so sore after yesterday's strength training session. I cooled down and stretched but I guess it just had been such a long time since I last worked out properly that my body isn't used to it. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow so I'll be able to work out again!
Some motivating pictures:
Hope you're all well!
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
So I've been reading this book by Chérie Carter-Scott called If Success Is a Game, These Are the Rules: Ten Rules for a Fulfilling Life! I'm now on page 129 and I'M LOVING IT. It speaks to me in so many levels and I truly recommend it to all of you. It guides you towards making your dreams come true and helps you reach the goals you've set yourself along the way. It's so amazingly positive, encouraging and inspiring that I feel like I'm bubbling with all this positive energy. I really believe this book will help me to find out what my dreams are and make them my reality. I already feel a sense of clarity I haven't had in a long time. It's wonderful!
I've now written down some of my most important dreams and made a game plan about how to actually live my dreams. For example, I want to get down to healthy weight and feel comfortable in my own skin. Therefore I'm going to work out regularly, track my meals and eat healthy foods until I weigh 120 pounds by the summer 2010. Another goal for me right now is to find something interesting to study (and to be able to live with Tommi again). To reach that goal I'm going to find out what studying opportunities the city of Lahti offers that interest me and that I could feel passionate about. And then I'll apply to those schools. AND get in. Also, one important goal for me right now is to finally finish my book (and hopefully get it published!). To make that dream come true I'll take some time to write at least a few pages every day until I'm finished - and then I'll just send it off to publishers and hope for the best! I have a couple more goals (getting married in a few years, being able to take a vacation next summer...etc.) that I'm going to focus on, but I feel like these are the most meaningful ones for me at this point of my life.
The book also encourages the reader to take a look in the mirror and ask what you really look for in life, your job, a relationship or whatever it might be that you're willing to change. What I realized was that I have ended up here studying something I really do not feel passionate about and don't feel happy doing, because I haven't taken the time to really listen to myself and evaluate what my strengths and weaknesses are. I haven't paid enough attention to the person I really am and what I enjoy doing. I wrote down a few things that came to mind and here is the result: I'd love to have a job that doesn't take up all my day but leaves me free time to spend with my family and friends. I don't want an academic job or a job that requires lots and lots of studying (of theoretical information) but I want to do something more hands-on and creative. I like beauty, well-being, nutrition, fashion, writing and traveling. These are some things I could see myself focusing on in the future. I could be a cosmetician, a make-up artist, a nurse, or a journalist (just to mention a few examples). I just want to find something I could study near Lahti so I could live together with Tommi. That really would mean the world to me. I miss him so much and I absolutely hate this distance and the fact that we only get to see each other on the weekends. I don't feel whole without him.
Oh wow, I've written so much! I'm sorry if this is incoherent, it's just that I have so many thoughts inside my head right now and I keep typing them down but I'm not sure if this makes any sense to you all! I sure hope it does :))
Change of subject:
Today has been a success food-wise and exercise-wise as well! I've had healthy meals and ended up consuming about 1300 calories today. I also worked out in the morning (strength training) and I'm planning to do yoga before going to bed tonight. I feel so much better and stronger already. This is going to be the last time I've ever had to start over. I'm ready to turn my life around for good! (I even went back to Diet Stage 1!! Just to make my fresh start official. I'm so serious about this.)
Anyway, I hope you're all well.
A few pictures that motivate me:
(I WANT TO LIVE THERE!)
(This Miu Miu bag is pure perfection. It would make a lovely reward once I reach my goal weight!)
(I love her style and her hair)
My weight loss inspiration:
I don't really like Kim Kardashian except for her amazingly motivating and beautiful body. Haha, Tommi actually said I kinda look like her; we have the same body type. And I'm hoping that if I work hard and exercise regularly I'll be able to look at least HALF as good as she does!
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