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Dental issues and eating healthy--how do I make it work?

Thursday, February 17, 2011

So I had a bicycle accident as a kid and broke my jaw and knocked most of my front tooth out. emoticon

So now I'm paying the price. In December, my TMJ started acting up and my jaw went out of alignment, putting too much pressure on my front crown and it came off. I ended up getting what was left of the tooth pulled and am in the process of getting a bridge. (Talk about feeling old--I always associated a bridge with little old ladies playing cards!) emoticon

Anyway, the temporary bridge keeps falling out. I need to eat only soft foods that don't put ANY pressure on my front or incisor teeth.

Any suggestions for healthy food that I don't have to bite into with the front teeth?

I'm hungry!! emoticon

Thanks!!

  
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MYJOURNEYTOME 3/1/2011 2:44PM

    No shame for cryin about mouth pain!! Thanks--I'm not really a shake person (tried them but don't have a big sweet tooth), but am really liking the mashed potatoes and veggies idea! Been eating lots of scrambled eggs.

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NEWANDIMPROVED 2/24/2011 1:45PM

    Slim fast shakes are pretty good and they have a high protein one that make me feel full longer. Mashed potatoes and steamed veggies are pretty soft Good Luck! I had lock jaw once from a tooth infection and couldn't open my mouth for two weeks.........I'm female for cryin' in the night it almost killed me!!!

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MYJOURNEYTOME 2/17/2011 3:21PM

    THANKS!!

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PLSOCK 2/17/2011 1:38PM

    I'd go for scrambled eggs, weight watchers oatmeal, soup of any kind, or fruit smoothies with protein powder. Good luck to you :)

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Welcome to my pity party.....

Thursday, February 17, 2011

This may be a bit choppy, but here goes. I'm not good at getting out what is inside, but I know I need to try. I'm terribly private, so this is very very hard for me. I never used to be this way, but somehow over the last few years I've turned into a veritible hermit. I think I'm in a rut, which most of the time I don't mind. But every once in a while, I look up and see other people living life and I miss it. I now find myself over 1000 miles away from anyone in my family except my 14 year old daughter. One of my best friends moved back to New York last year and the other best friend I have is moving to Arizona next week. My other 2 children live across the country in different states as well. I don't make friends easily--I actually don't even have the drive or desire most days. But as the years are flying by, I realize that my youngest daughter is only going to be here for a few more years. Then I'm going to be completely alone. We have a great relationship, especially considering she's 14...lol. But I don't think I want to be totally alone and isolated for the rest of my life. That's the path I'm on right now.

I've been at the same job now for 4 1/2 years. I work in a call center which requires me to literally sit plugged into a phone for 8-12 hours a day. I've cut down on some of my overtime the last few months, but still don't do anything with the extra time I sometimes have now. I have to be AT work at 6:30 am which makes for a pretty early night for me. Most days I just roll out of bed, throw clothes on (I don't ever care how I look), brush my teeth, wash my face and head out the door. Then I go to a job I hate that has in part made me terribly unhealthy and obese. By the time I'm done with a 12 hour day of just sitting, I'm exhausted. I get home to my daughter and dogs, and don't feel like doing anything except crawling into bed. Here comes the fast food. I eat, watch tv, then go to bed. This is my life.

I log onto SP sometimes, read blogs, get tired, become envious, read some more, log off, go home and do the same thing every day. My exercise may be a weekly trip to the dog park.

I'm bi-polar which doesn't help at all. Sometimes I want to do things right, most times not. When I'm not feeling it, the prevalent thought that crosses my mind is looking at the rest of the world and the comparison of fit people to non-fit people. Fat people win, hands down. Why not just be like everyone else? Why do I have to be special? Why can't I just be happy with myself the way I am now and get on with it? I still haven't found answers to those questions, even after 3+ years.

I went on a very strict 4 week high protein very low carb diet recently. I made it through 2 weeks and lost almost 10 pounds. I try to figure out how I stayed motivated, but I can't find the trigger. It was just the right time. That's how I do things. That's how I quit smoking. I didn't tell anyone--I can't handle accountability. But one day I just stopped. It's been well over a year---I don't even remember the day because I didn't make a big deal out of it. I think that's why it worked for me. Accountability TERRIFIES me........!!!

I am trying to get registered for school again. I will try to attend online. As if I don't have enough student loans as it is! If I don't do something, I will be stuck in this dead end job forever. I'm just afraid of getting another job where I sit all day. Since I started this job, I've gained at least 30-40 pounds. Everyone here does. I want a job that I can be active in. But I'm turning 40 this year--I'm tired. I don't WANT to go back to school anymore. I also don't have the memory I used to have either. I'm afraid I'll fail.......

Speaking of turning 40---My 40th birthday is in May. I've been single now for over 3 years. I've had absolutely no desire to date at all. My children can't/don't do anything for my birthday. I will have no friends around at that time. No family here either. I never do anything for my birthday. I want to do something this year. I am thinking of taking a cruise by myself. I know it could be fun, but what if it's not? What if I'm just that pathetic fat lady taking a cruise by herself? I don't think I can even bring myself to buy a bathing suit. I may not even be able to get the time off work. Then I think maybe I'll go visit my friend in NYC for a week. But she has to work and I won't be able to do much because I'll be by myself in a strange city during the day while she's working. I've been there once with her before she moved back there and we had a great time. I just can't imagine what I would do by myself for a week while she's at work........ :(

So there it is. I'm lazy. I'm anti-social. I don't know how to make friends anymore. Sometimes I think I should just be happy being fat. I'm lazy. I'm tired. I hate my job. I'm alone and sometimes lonely. I'm lazy. I don't know how to eat right. I'm lazy. I'm tired.

Welcome to my pity party. Wow, I'm a mess. No wonder I don't have any friends.

*****I'm not looking for pity at all---please don't misunderstand me. I just had to try to get it out. I happen to be in one of my moods that encourage that and know it's a good thing.

OOOOhhhhhh, OOOOhhhhhh, I have an idea. I want to name my moods. I need a name for the following mood--Aware that I need to change and wants to get motivated! Any ideas on what her name should be? This may actually be fun. I've never thought about naming my moods before. I have never embraced my personalities so fully before. Maybe I can even get one of my moods to kidnap and hold for ransom one or more of my not so great moods!!

**disclaimer---I'm not really bad crazy, just a little good crazy that takes fun where I can find it....****

  
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MYJOURNEYTOME 2/17/2011 11:38AM

    Thanks for the kind words and suggestions!

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NEWANDIMPROVED 2/17/2011 11:24AM

    I LOVE the idea of naming moods. I give mine names then warn people which one is "in charge" at the moment emoticon You're not crazy you're just a real person darling. Turning 40 is a real kick in the pants (I'm 41)for some reason. Just take little steps and hang in there!

PS: try meetup.org it's a great place to meet people without having to leave your house :)

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FIT2SWING 2/17/2011 10:46AM

    Honey emoticon

First off for some reason the mood of "aware that I need to change and wants to get motivated" just made me think of the name Rhonda. and congrats quitting smoking. That is a big step in becoming healthy.

Take the online college one or two courses at a time. Don't over load yourself with so many classes that you'll get discouraged. One or two and build up from there.

I worked in an office for some time and when I went to the ladies room I would use the handicap stall and do Squats and Wall Push Ups on my bathroom break. This just got me moving a little more and broke up sitting all day. I also made sure to drink A LOT of water so I had to use the bathroom a few times during the day and then did 2 sets of each of them!

As for your birthday you're not celebrating being 40, your celebrating the 20th anniversary of your 20th birthday! So call your girls (the ones who just moved) and be like "Lets have a girls weekend somewhere for my birthday! Spas, Shows, Dinner, Shopping!"

In the evening maybe find a local Yoga/Zumba/Fitness class that you and your daughter can go to together. Its Spending time with your daughter while you're encouraging a healthy life style and starting to change your own.

The thing that inspired me to start losing weight was swing dancing. I've never taken a Dance Class before in my life and I went to my local Dance society's swing dancing course! and that pushed me forward. So maybe google a local dance society and see what is available. I met all sorts of people there.

And Dinner at night. Hum... I've heard crock pots are amazing- Put chicken veggies in it set on low come home and dinners ready! Also cooking on Sunday and preplanned meals works for me. I'll cook up a weeks worth of rice, put them in containers then make up 2-3 meals for the week that I just have a few times that week.

The only way you're going to change your mood is to drop the hat and do it! My best friend is Bi-Polar with almost Borderline Personality Disorder (she doesn't quite make the borderline qualifications but shes getting help for this) She's 4 states away and she'll go for a walk, call me, I'll go for a walk and its like we're working out together but far away.

I hope you can get out of your rut and figure out something.

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MEL_UNRAU 2/17/2011 10:18AM

    I too struggle with being anti-social. I'm a stay at home mom and have been for 4 years now. I realized recently that I have forgotten how to talk to adults other than my husband. And that the only time I speak up in groups is in political/religious discussions in which others are so wrong (from my point of view at least!) that I can't tolerate it and have to say something. This makes me seem snooty and abrasive.

But, I kind of realized belatedly, that I had made an subconscious new years resolution to be more social. And I have been working on it. I joined a knitting circle. I invited another couple over for dinner and games the other night. I find that if I have an activity to do, I do better socializing than if we are just sitting around.

Anywho... I hope you find a way out of your rut. It super hard and I struggle with it too. Just know that you are not alone.

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Crash and Burn

Monday, February 22, 2010

Ok, so the other day I was supposed to go bowling with my friends. Sounded like a great way to get out, have some fun and get in some exercise. Well, that didn't happen!! I ended up not feeling well that day, so excused myself from the activities. Since I had earlier not had enough time to get myself together in the morning, I didn't have enough snacks to carry myself through the rest of my work day. Needless to say, by the time I got off work, I was STARVING!!! I went home and got my 13 yr old daughter and went to the chinese buffet that I'd been wanting to try by our apartment. I didn't quite loose my mind like usual....I only had 2 peices of sweet sour chicken, only a couple of peices of general Tsao's chicken, no dessert, made sure I ate a big piece of baked salmon, but I still went to the stupid chinese buffet and don't even have a clue about how many caolories etc I ate that night. I went home stuffed to the gills, but honestly I felt better about my choices than I ever have at a buffet because I made conscious decisions about what I ate instead of just shoving everything and anything onto my plate. I also didn't drink enough water that day. Not nearly enough.

CRASH AND BURN FOR THE DAY!!!!

After I got home, I told myself that I shouldn't have done it. I was right. I shouldn't have. But I did, and there was no going back now. I accepted it and moved on. I started the next day off on the right foot again and have been back on track ever since. I can't continue to beat myself up over every little slip I have. I'm proud of myself just for the fact that I'm logging my food in the first place. I've put it off for years. I'm proud of myself for making conscious decisions about what I put in my body. Being able to see what I've been eating has helped me tremendously. Now I know why I'm fat. It makes it soooo much easier to make better choices in the food I eat and I'm starting to see a difference! I'm proud of myself for letting my daughter see the positive decisions I'm trying to make for myself and hoping she carries them with her into adulthood.

Even though I had a bad day, it doesn't mean that I can't recover from it. I just weighed myself (in the early evening and after having eaten a few times today) and have even lost a pound since the last time I weighed myself!!!!!

A crash and burn isn't permanent people.......I'm proof of that.

  


I'm going to work hard at it today....

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I had a bad night last night--woke up in severe pain. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep after that. Amazing how these things have a domino effect. Because of that, I woke up later than I would have liked and didn't have time to cook breakfast. I went to 7-11 and got some food, some good (fruit) and some not so good (croissant with egg and sausage). I've already started my day off on the wrong foot, but I've made a promise to myself that I'm going to work hard for the rest of the day to stay on track with my eating. I have a girls night out bowling tonite and I'm resolved to eat before I go and drink water when I'm there. I'm going to triumph with the rest of my day!!

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MYJOURNEYTOME 2/22/2010 5:38PM

    Wow, I never thought I would inspire anybody.....I'm glad I could in any case. And I really appreciate all the encouragement---it makes every step just a little easier.

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ALANHUDSON 2/21/2010 7:33AM

  Thanks for stopping by my blog!!
Thanks for the encouragement,also.Your right we earn everything we get,no matter how small.Even if it's just moving the ticker a notch.
Sounds like you have a great attitude,and are having a good journey so far.
I hope your pain is gone,and I hope you bowl the perfect game!!
Take care,and God bless.

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NMATTUCCI 2/20/2010 10:14AM

    Fantastic plan! I so needed to read this blog...I was doing awesome and had a bad weekend last week...it snow balled into a bad week...but today I have gotten up with new resolve...new determination to track my points...drink my water and stay on plan...it's important for us to remember that we can hit the "restart" button at any moment...a bad meal doesn't have to turn into a bad day, a bad week, a bad month! This is probably one of my biggest challenges! I have to lose the "all or nothing attitude"!!! This is a lifelong journey...based on one meal at a time...the decisions are mine to make...the results are mine to control.

Thanks for the motivation!
Nancy from Baltimore
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BECWHEELS 2/20/2010 10:12AM

    Time to forget about this morning and move on to the rest of the day and the rest of your life! You can do it.

I see you said on my blog that you were from WI and now are in Texas. So many people I know have left WI for Texas! But depending where you are at you may have had as much snow this year as we have!

Have fun at bowling. A good form of exercise.

Now move on from this morning and enjoy the rest of your day. emoticon

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Surprising myself

Friday, February 19, 2010

So, it's been about a week of tracking my food and I'm so surprised at how easy it is. I'm also amazed that I'm still doing it religiously and I like it!!! I don't know why I ever thought this was hard and put it off. I definitely see where I made my mistakes and feel so much better to know that I'm correcting them. Yeaaaaaaa to me!!!!!

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MYJOURNEYTOME 2/20/2010 9:03AM

    Thanks for the support!! I found that I put it off for so long that I was terribly intimidated by the time I actually did it. Like most change, the hardest part was starting. It really isn't as hard as it seems, and it will get easier each day, especially after you start adding your favorites and grouping meals.

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IMZ-BIMZ 2/19/2010 10:22AM

    So happy 4 u, Yay U
i have not started it yet n i really hope i start doing it soon.

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LINDA! 2/19/2010 10:10AM

    Keep up the great work!

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