Sunday, June 28, 2009
Ever feel like a hamster running on a wheel? Going through like at a break neck speed and yet getting no where. Life is so full of chaos that it is difficult to see you are even moving. So much time and energy wasted and regrets building up. I feel trapped on my wheel of chaos in life and family and can't find my way off the wheel or even a way to slow the wheel down. I love my family and my job and almost everything in my life but the demands are overwhelming at times. Just when I thing I can work in time and energy for exercise something "pops" up and makes another hill for my wheel to rush down. I try to make "ME" a priority but then so many other things get lost in the shuffle and jump up down the road to trip me up. I know what needs to be done - taking time for meal preparations, exercise, work and family time. Even combining these things doesn't allow me time to get everything done or if I find the time my energy is generally long gone missing. Today I feel I need to try again starting tomorrow morning so tonight I am doing some prep work to get ready. Tomorrow it is back on the wheel and try my best.