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5 Months Down the Drain

Thursday, November 29, 2012

I gave up, gave in and stopped trying to lose weight 5 months ago. Now I am hesitantly going to try again. I don't know how I got so intimidated and freaked out (and then ashamed of myself for reacting that way). It was a vicious cycle, and I'm trying to fight it off and get off my tush and try again.

I'm so scared that I'm going to fail again, give up again, fall flat on my face again. I know I just need to get out in the SparkPeople community and get motivated and inspired again. I'm not sure where the positive feelings are going to come from, but hopefully they will come.

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TANYA602 11/29/2012 8:21PM

    I have to say that knowing that you could come back here is a giant step in the right direction. Don't consider anything you've learned up to this point as "failure." It's all part of learning our way to a new lifestyle. And it takes TIME. Gosh how it takes time. Don't get frustrated when others seem to hit their goals faster; we are all different. I hope you find all the support you need. I know I have, and I'm here for you, if you need.

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LARISSA238 11/29/2012 8:18PM

    You can do this! It's hard when we go off track, but just keep fighting!

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JENELG 11/29/2012 5:59PM

    You are brave to express your feelings and acknowledging that you are scare of failing. I am personally going thru the same and I know first hand that the fear will not go away until you decide to do something about it.

Focus on the good moments, the moments you felt happy! Picture yourself not only skinner but proud of your own accomplishments. By picturing it, it will be true.

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BLUE42DOWN 11/29/2012 5:52PM

    emoticon back.

Start small. Set yourself little goals that you are pretty sure you can do. Give yourself some successes. Then build from there.

Five months might be done and gone, but you have way more than five months in your future and you're deciding now how you want them to go.

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JIBBIE49 11/29/2012 5:39PM

    Read WHEAT BELLY by William Davis MD and listen to his talk on YouTube.

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Struggling with my Calorie Intake

Friday, June 22, 2012

I'm struggling with my calories today. Just thought I'd throw that out there. Some days I can be fairly certain before they're over that I've eaten too much and am not going to make the calorie count. Today is one of those days.

I'm sitting here at a little after 5 pm, and I only have 194 calories left for the day. I'm bummed out because it feels like I did everything right today. I'm not sure where all the calories came from. I wasn't snacking mindlessly. I ate plenty of freggies. It's just that, somehow, my count's too high.

Maybe I will be able to make it out for a walk today or for a stroll on the treadmill at the gym. That would be good. Just gotta keep moving forward. Can't let what I put in my mouth already get me down. Just gotta make healthier choices from here on out...

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TANYA602 6/23/2012 9:43PM

    We are all repeating the same mantra because it's true and it works. We have those days where the calories get away from us. Drink more water, and be sure to get out for that walk. Tomorrow is a fresh start, and we are all still here because it takes effort, and yet there are rewards.

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LILITHDURHAM 6/22/2012 10:34PM

  Tomorrow is another new day. You'll get it. It just takes practice. Don't beat yourself up over it. You're worth more than that. Forgive yourself and move on. emoticon

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EMMALEMMA33 6/22/2012 10:00PM

    I didn't make a very good choice tonight. It could have been ten times worse, but I know my scale will probably not move or move up a tiny bit tomorrow. And the 12 chips with 4 T of artichike spinach dip (in addition to my huge could-have-been-more-healthy salad) is not worth that feeling I will have tomorrow. So that is what I am taking from my experience this evening. It sounds little but the fact that I am THINKING AT ALL about the process and what I am doing means huge progress is being made and I think you should consider that a positive too! You are trying to figure out a solution for your daily calories and you will! Caring is half the battle!!!! We will get there! :)

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ISAHLIA 6/22/2012 9:36PM

    Hey you know one of the things I like about SP is the freedom to make mistakes. I had an off day too. I stayed within my calories but I'm trying to keep from having meals that cause blood sugar spikes and have a more 'even' day. Today I had a huge dinner, and my other meals were too small and not entirely healthy. Oh well, I'll try and do better tomorrow. That's just what we have to do.

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My Vision Collage

Thursday, June 21, 2012

I made my vision collage today. It's a collage of pictures of things that represent how I'd like myself and my life to be. Things I put on it:

a woman doing a handstand (healthy and strong with a butt that's as fab as hers is!)

flowers (there's always room for flowers in my life)

a butterfly (to symbolize my creativity)

a naked woman, strategically posed to hide her girl parts, of course (I'd like to comfortable with my body when I'm naked)

a woman in a pretty dress and heels (self explanatory, right?)

a healthy dinner (another self explanatory one)

a picture of a crabapple tree in bloom (to symbolize enjoying nature more)

a picture of a pretty kitchen (to symbolize order and cleanliness)

a jar of pink lemonade (choosing healthy and tasty drink options)

a woman goofing off wearing headphones and roller skates (to symbolize being more in touch with my playful and fun loving side)

a picture of two women lounging at the beach in Adirondack chairs (being comfortable in a swimsuit, comfy at the beach and also comfortable having good female friends)

a picture of some tins filled with spices (cooking with spices instead of fats)

and a picture of a woman in pretty, casual clothing who looks comfortable in her own skin


Well, I think that's about it. I'm really excited about how it turned out. I have it hanging on the side of the fridge so that I can be inspired all day long... and also so that I can see it before I choose to open the fridge door and stuff my face with something not good for me. I think it's in the most visible place in the house (at least as far as waking hours go). I'm looking forward to being inspired and motivated by it again and again and again.

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TANYA602 6/22/2012 4:46PM

    What fantastic images! And I love that you hung it so strategically!

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    Great idea! Love it! emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 6/21/2012 6:51PM


Great job finding things that have meaning to you and the images to represent them!

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ISAHLIA 6/21/2012 6:26PM

    What a great collage! I should do one too. You're full of great ideas! See you soon, ~Kelly

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KWAJPODGE 6/21/2012 3:14PM

    Thank you for sharing. I think it's time I created mine as a way to keep my focus.

Have a great journey!

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Not Quite a Slacker

Thursday, June 21, 2012

So today was one week since I last saw any progress with the scale. I've officially dubbed either Thursdays or Fridays my weigh-in days. Since I didn't want to wait until tomorrow, I went ahead and hopped on it today. The good news is that I didn't gain anything, but the bad news is that I didn't lose anything either.

So, I went back and looked at my numbers for the week, and I saw that I've been over on my calorie count almost every day. Since I saw results so quickly the first two weeks, I really let myself slide during week three. I also didn't get in the exercise that I want to get in each week and (get this!) didn't do my strength training either!

So... This week, I am going to step it up a notch so that, in seven days, I see some progress. I'm really excited that I didn't gain. So relieved about that. But I wanna see that number drop just a little bit more. Well, actually, if I'm honest... I wanna see it drop A LOT more, but I'll settle for a small drop for now. Honest.

What I'm going to do different this week:

I'm going to get in 5 servings of freggies EVERY day (yes, I'm still struggling with that)

I'm going to do my strength training 3 times a week

I'm going to get in my 90 minutes of exercise


I'm going to work harder to keep my calorie count a little lower


With making those changes, I hope to see some results. Gotta just get on it. I can do this!

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NEWLIFEAWAY 6/22/2012 2:01AM

    You can do this. Just remember to not judge by the scale. Your body will take time to adjust to the changes and will change shape before anything. Concentrate on the changes like your energy level and the way your clothing is fitting. You'll get the scale to move in time... : )

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TANYA602 6/21/2012 10:54PM

    Be sure to get the water in as well. I find that it really helps in oh-so-many ways.
You are off to a great start and your goals are reasonable and doable. I hope you have a great weekend and that the scale is more friendly next week!

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BLUE42DOWN 6/21/2012 2:18PM

    This is why tracking is such a great thing. It's easy to lie to ourselves that we're eating just fine - while eating too much. But the body doesn't care what we think or say we ate. It cares what actually passed the lips going in.


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SWAN47 6/21/2012 10:07AM

    It's good you've made a plan and realize why the scale didn't move. With that you can move forward make the changes you need to and continue to get healthier and lose the weight you want. emoticon

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SOLSTICE4 6/21/2012 10:04AM

    Congratulations on the maintain. Your plan is sure to bring you great progress next week on your goal to lose some. Woot!

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CLUTTRELL8 6/21/2012 10:01AM

    You've got a plan and that's a great start to the next 7 days! Wishing you all the best! emoticon

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Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Is there any more perfect food than watermelon? Seriously, watermelon is juicy, sweet, easy to serve... It's excellent cold. It's great for a picnic or a barbecue. It's low in calories and high in hydrating juiciness! I LOVE IT!

** yes, I totally did just devote a blog entry to the sheer deliciousness and yummyness of watermelon... Are you laughing yet? ;)

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    I agree! Yummy

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NEWLIFEAWAY 6/21/2012 1:20AM

    Dang... now I'm hungry for watermelon. HA HA HA!!!

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EMMALEMMA33 6/20/2012 11:01PM

    I am NOT laughing...I am RIGHT there with you!!!! Ode to Watermelon!! Lol. I can't get enough of it!!!

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ISAHLIA 6/20/2012 10:20PM

    Glad to see you posting again! I love your watermelon post!

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QUEEN-EYDIE 6/20/2012 5:21PM

    I'm totally loving watermelon right now too, so i understand! My favorite way to have it is as juice. No special equipment needed--just toss seedless watermelon into the blender!

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SEEWORD 6/20/2012 3:48PM

    Love it! Yesterday at my "healthy living" group someone was passing around a recipe for watermelon salad involving feta cheese, red onion, watermelon, cilantro, lime juice, cucumber...
My thought? Why all that other stuff and all the work? Don't mess with my watermelon!

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