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Why Can't I Do This

Sunday, October 20, 2013

I'm tired of constant failure. I've gained so much weight lately after having been stalled for so long. I need to make changes. I just turned 40. That\ll make everything harder. It's time to get hard on myself. I can't keep going the way I am. I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror. I'm tired all the time. I hurt. I'm sure most of it is because of what I've done to my own body.

Today is the day. Today is the day that I start making changes that I know I need to make.

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Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Well, I've started (again). I wasn't planning to blog this time because it doesn't seem to help but I need somewhere to whine a minute.

I have three hurdles that I must overcome today:

1. getting to work. Yesterday was a terrible day and I'd like to believe that today will be better but I'm having trouble. I have to correct some mistakes, I have to finish some work I didn't get to and it's the busiest day of the month. My 6 year old woke me at 5am and I want to crawl back into bed.

2. getting through work. It's the busiest day. It's the day that I'm most likely to turn to food for that emotional boost. I don't want to do that today.

3. exercising after work. I was going to do it yesterday and between staying an extra 15 minutes and my husband having forgotten to get groceries I just ran out of will to push myself.

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MELLIE1030 9/5/2012 11:02AM

    I hope your day goes good. Don't forget you are a great person, and you can stay on track.
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Day 18

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I have not been a good Sparker these last few weeks. I did track my breakfast yesterday, but nothing else. I have to actually think about what I'm doing. I need to lose the weight this time.

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Day 15 (Week 2)

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I don't get it. I didn't exercise this week, I didn't track what I was eating and I didn't drink enough water and I lose 2.5 lbs. I'm not complaining. It's just hard to justify doing all those good habits when they don't seem to get me as far. The only explanation that I have is that since I wasn't tracking, I was eating less because I wasalways sure I was going over.

New week, anyway. Keep this train rolling.


Day 13

Friday, July 20, 2012


I'm seriously considering just calling this week a bust and starting fresh. I won't. I will keep trying. I will put yesterday behind me and look at today with fresh eyes.

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    Yesterday is gone, the page is turned and the book is closed. Today is a brand new day. At midnight, 1440 minutes were deposited into your life account to spend as you and only you see fit.

make it a great day!

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