Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Okay, I'm coming back to confess my sins. It's good for the soul, right? I had fallen off track for a couple of months. It's been forever since I've tracked my food, and I made the decision to start up again today. Part of the problem was that I lost my job, and had to temp at a place where I didn't have Internet. I used that as an excuse to eat unconsciously. Just goes to show how important food tracking is. The other reason is that honestly, I was enjoying the break from having to think and plan all the time. I kept telling myself I could stay on track by just "guestimating" my food intake. Hard to believe your own bullcrap when the scale keeps inching upward... So I come back on bended knee, asking for the forgiveness of the Sparkgods, and recommitting myself to myself. Because I'm worth it. It's good to be back.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Today's a tough day emotionally. I've been laid off, and this is my last day at work. I never thought of myself as an emotional eater, but I'm realizing that I have a tendancy to want to graze on comfort foods when I'm feeling stressed/worried/nervous/uncomfortable. I've known about the layoff for weeks, and I haven't let it derail me yet. I don't plan to. Keeping hydrated during stressful times is important. It's really easy to confuse thirst for hunger when your mind is going a million different directions. The human mind/body is a very complex thing. No wonder we struggle for so long to understand ourselves! I'm just thankful to have a tool like Sparkpeople to help me stay focused at a time like this.
Monday, December 15, 2008
I'm reporting good news -- confusing news, but good, none the less. I'm down 6 lbs. in December. It's only the 15th, and I've already lost more than I did the whole month of November. In October, I lost nearly 15 lbs. The confusing thing is, I was drinking close to 8 glasses of water a day in November. That's the month where I saw the least weight loss.
Now, I've never been a big "drinker." I always order the small drink at restaurants, and rarely finish it. Why, then, should I suddenly need to consume 64 oz. a day of any kind of liquid? My body never needed all that fluid before. Why should it now? I drink about 3 or 4 glasses of water a day, and that feels right for me. I know from a medical perspective we're all supposed to have our standard 8 oz. a day, but is that a 'one-size-fits-all' rule? The more I lose, the less I believe that these kinds of rules apply uniformly to everyone accross the board at all times. Our bodies are all different, right?
It's hard to argue with success. Drinking vast amounts of water is supposed to assist in weight loss, but that hasn't been the case for me. Making water the primary beverage I consume, and drinking it in moderate quantities has been a good formula for me. I feel good, I'm not dehydrated, and I'm losing on a consistent basis. Should I force myself to drink more?
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Well, it's taken several days, but I feel that I'm finally beyond the Thanksgiving day escapade. I ate more than I wanted to -- logged my calories on Thanksgiving day, but they probably weren't completely accurate. I had a free day the day after Thanksgiving, and was supposed to log those calories too, but never got around to it. I also took a 3rd free day on Sautrday. Poo. Everything was just so good, and there was just so much of it. I was still on holiday, and I figured I would just enjoy myself, so I didn't feel deprived later. So 2 days of not logging at all. Shame, shame. Sunday I logged, but went over my calories considerably. I think I was just used to being able to eat as much as I wanted to. It took me a couple of days to exorsise that thinking from my mind. I'm back to eating every 2 hours, and watching my nutritional levels. It feels good. There's security in following the rules.
I'm most proud of the fact that even though I got a little carried away this holiday, I'm back on track, and happy to be. The holidays have historically signaled the beginning of the end. Not this time. I feel like I have a real 'weapon for battle' in Sparkpeople. It helps me stay accountable, committed and focused. Kind of a "True North". I know if I can get back to my routine of logging my calories everyday, I'm at home base. I don't have to do everything perfectly. I just have to be committed to doing my best everyday. The rest will take care of itself. That's a good feeling.
Monday, November 24, 2008
I'm down 21 lbs. total today! I almost couldn't believe the numbers this morning. If I know my body, I'll probably spend the rest of the week just trying to hang on to that loss. I don't want to be negative about it, but I've started to notice a pattern. Anyway, I'm down. I've noticed that I tend to lose over the weekend. Maybe that means I'm too sedintary through the week. That's no surprise. I sit at a desk all day long. Well, I won't have that problem starting 12/17. I was laid off. I guess I'm sort of proud of myself for not allowing that to be an occasion to get off track with my eating habits. I'm feeling really good about where I am. I've had "carby" days. I've had "snacky" days -- I've gone over my calories a few times. But none of it's been strong enough to deter me. I guess that was my fear -- what happens when my appetite comes back like I know it will? I feel like I'm in control because I write down everything I eat - even when I'm not proud of what I've eaten. When you know you have to write your food down, you're much less likely to allow yourself to get out of control. That's what overeating is -- giving up your control to food. It's a really powerful thing to know that every food has a caloric value, and there's no food I have to be afraid of. So maybe I eat a few more carbs when I'm stressed -- so what? So I wasn't as balanced that day as I was the day before. Big deal. I can do great the next day and the next week. I can do great as long as I'm willing to take responsibility for what I put in my mouth. As long as I'm willing to look at the cold, hard truth about what I'm consuming, it cannot control me. It can't control me through "carby" days, it can't control me through the loss of a job, and I know it can't control me through the holidays. I'm not afraid of food's control over me.
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