Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Well, it's the 1st, and of course, that time of year when we find ourselves reflective. I did not make my goal of being in 'Onederland' by the end of the year. In fact, I've gone up slightly. 'Twas the holiday season what got me. Aye, there's the rub.
But it's a new year, and a new opportunity to get it right. I've grappled with my disappoinment for weeks now, and I've finally come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter. All that matters is that I'm energized and renewed and focused on moving forward. I have a goal of 5 lbs. per month this year, or 15 lbs. per quarter.
I just needed to give myself permission to start over. I'm about 6 lbs. up from my lowest weight. As far as I'm concerned, this is day 1. Not because it's New Year's, but because the season of over-indulgence is finally over, and I can get back on a schedule.
I feel clear-headed and I'm looking forward to what's ahead. I hope everyone has a wonderful 2013.
Friday, October 26, 2012
I thought I would take the occasion of my official 6-Month Weight Loss Anniversary to post my 'before/during' weight loss photos. Keep in mind, the first full body shots were taken when I had lost 17 lbs. already -- 3 months in -- (July 2012). The ones dated 3/12 or 2/12 are probably a more accurate representation of how I looked at the start. Looking forward to the 9 month & 1-year updates!
Starting Weight to Lose: 91.6 lbs.
Weight Lost Thus Far: 32.2 lbs.
Weight Left to Lose: 59.4
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
6 months ago, I didn't know where I would find the resolve to address the weight issues that have plagued me for so long. I was not at my highest weight, but I was creeping slowly towards it. I began seeing numbers on the scale that I had not seen in some time, and I knew the inevitable was happening -- I was returning to the ways of the past. I had gained weight and lost it, and gained and lost it, and I was on my way to returning to my highest weight, and probably surpassing it. I knew I couldn't do it again. I just didn't know how to break free from the never ending cycle.
I remember praying nightly for several days that I would somehow be given the strength to commit to taking better care of myself. I put inspirational music into my iPod, and listened to it nonstop for several days. I dug deep. I acknowledged that this would not be done of my own strength, because I had very little.
I committed to daily exercise for 6 months. I quickly learned that you cannot exercise your way out of bad eating habits, and over the next couple of months, began to make several refinements to my eating habits. I joined Weight Watchers, and created a 'Pillars of Weight Loss' list that contained a 'Best of' strategy for weight loss. I would combine all the things that had worked for me in the past, and fire away relentlessly at this cancerous tumor known as 'obesity'.
As I committed myself to healthier eating habits, and listened to every health-related podcast I could get a hold of, I began to believe that permanent change was possible. I watched YouTube videos daily of people who had won the weight loss battle and provided inspiration to me that the impossible was indeed possible.
After 3 months, I switched from daily TaeBo workouts to a combination of walking/running/body weight and free weight workouts. I endured touring, traveling, funerals, upset schedules, injuries, lack of motivation and anything else life can throw at you in the course of 6 months. I endured it, and never broke my vow to myself.
I did not set my sights too high -- 30 lbs. in 6 months was a goal I felt was 'doable'. And 'do it' I did. I'm 28 lbs. down, and am projecting that by the actual 6-Month anniversary on the 26th of October, I will be down a full 30. I'll complete my celebration at that time.
I haven't taken a ton of pictures. I have a few from recent performances, and a couple taken just this morning. I plan to post more on Friday, but I'm in the mood to celebrate my 180 days today.
I can't wait to see what the next 6 months hold. I'm aiming for another 30 lbs. by April 26th, 2013. What a day of rejoicing THAT will be. For now, I'm celebrating this 1st of 3 "30 lb." losses. The best is yet to come -- of that I'm sure. Thanks to those of you who have encouraged me thus far. Looking forward to what's ahead.
"Move confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." ~ Henry David Thoreau
Monday, October 22, 2012
I wanted to pass along a couple of links that have helped me start to get that 'Mojo' back.
A podcast I follow called "Half Size Me" where a woman who's lost 170 lbs. interviews other successful 'losers' and discusses strategies, mindsets & challenges rather than just assessing the latest diet craze. Episode 36 was particularly helpful. So, so good. Subscribe on iTunes or Stitcher.
The 'Diary of an Aspiring Loser' blog. This woman is the subject of the interview above. Here, she describes a 'slump' which is exactly where I've been the last few weeks. She discusses using some of the same strategies I've been employing, but she does a much better job of explaining them than I have. Good stuff here.
Hope you find time to check these out!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Well, it's been awhile since I blogged. Not sure why. I feel my 'mojo' has been a little off. I'm about 15 lbs. from breaking the 199 barrier, and maybe I've been a little spooked. I've started craving foods that mean me no good. I have kept up my daily exercise routine, and for that, I'm grateful. It's been my saving grace.
I made a commitment on 4/26/12 to exercise daily for 6 months, and see what effect it had. I'll do a true 'summary' update on that commitment on the 26th of this month, but suffice to say, I wouldn't still be here, evaluating where I am and where I'm going without having committed myself to working out everyday. It's the best decision I could have made.
Contrary to what I assumed from my previous failed efforts, losing direction doesn't necessarily mean losing sight of the goal. I'm still very much focused on my goals -- I've just somehow created a disconnection between my immediate actions and how they serve the long term goal. I've entered 'toddler-land' I guess.
Gimmie my treats now, and don't talk to me about restraint.
The good news is, I've been fairly consistent at cutting off my eating fairly early in the day (3 or 4pm), and I haven't been eating large volumes of food -- just making the wrong food choices. I've been eating pretty much the same thing everyday & I'm back to drinking my cream and sugar-filled coffees in the morning. Fall always feels right for a hot cup of java.
But I feel my 'mojo' attempting to return. I swore when I began back in April that no matter how unfocused I felt, that I would continue to do the things that kept me on track -- exercising, avoiding late night eating, logging on to SparkPeople and connecting with others, attending my Weight Watcher's meetings -- and for the most part, I have done all those things.
If I look at how my past weight loss has been stymied, I can say that quitting was the common factor. There was always a point down the road where I got my 'get-up-and-go' back, but then I had lost all this ground through months of careless behavior. I said I would not go that route this time, and I have not.
I hoped to hit my 30 lbs. by October 26th, but even if I don't quite make it there, I will forge ahead. I wanted to be down to 199 by the first of the year. That may or may not happen, but I will move forward. All these benchmarks are arbitrary. They are set by me alone. Meeting those milestones by a certain time would be great, but it's not a dealbreaker. A year from now, I won't care WHEN I got below 200, I'll only be concerned that I did it, and didn't allow discouragement to settle in.
So, I'm the same weight I was a month ago. I know myself, and I'm fairly certain I could be up by about 12 lbs. if I had not remained focused, even through my folly. So, in this case, simply maintaining is the victory. It's not the victory I was hoping for, but it's the one I got. Such is life. The script is being re-written all the time. The best we can learn to do is be flexible and learn to improvise. I'm working on it.
Starting weight to lose: 91.6 lbs.
Weight lost thus far: 27.3 lbs.
Weight left to lose: 64.3 lbs.
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