Friday, January 13, 2012
It has already been a rough year. Car trouble, financial troubles, health troubles... my solution to almost everything? Food. More specifically, sweets.
I have not written out my goals for 2012. The ones I labored over for 2011 were useless. I started 2012 two lbs heavier than 2011.
I feel defeated. I don't like being me today and haven't for a couple weeks now. I keep trying to coax myself into a better place. Into a happier thought pattern. It's like having 2 people inside of me. One is a cheerful, blonde, ponytailed cheerleader and the other is an old crone. One is flipping the other off. You decide.
I have gone thru negative spells before. I try to tell myself this too shall pass but the darkened tunnel looks mighty long from here, hence my silence on the blog front.
I hate to post such negative blogs. I'm functioning although I wish I could lay in bed with my head covered up. If you've read this far, then I want you to know I appreciate your support. Do not feel obligated to post to this yucky blog, but I beg you, if you do, please, please, please, avoid platitudes at all cost. They make people who are already feeling bad, feel worse, not better.