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Wow!! Where did the time go????

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

So, you may notice a gap in the dates between blogs here.....I kind of fell off the wagon, but.....

guess what?

....I'm about to crawl back on!! :)

I heard somewhere that it's okay to fall 6 times as long as you get up 7......and I'm a gonna do just that!!! (not fall down 6 times LITERALLY.....but you get the picture.....)

SO, here's to my first goal, small & simple........get my two-month procrastinating butt to the gym tomorrow.

Start there and the rest of it will hopefully start falling back into place (or possibly firming back INTO place, lol!!)

Mwah!! All in all, you know what? Life is good!!


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PAIGESMAMA 7/30/2009 8:56PM

    Glad to see you came back. It is hard to stay on and keep going, but in the end it is worth it.

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MSCANDICE25 7/22/2009 5:59AM

    Well Im glad that you have came back to sparks with a crawl!! We are all here for you and we all fall of the wagon every now and then its just a matter if you get back on and stay on and You seem willing to stay on the ride but when you are ready to jump offf remember not to go so far so you can came back with easy goals like you have done and remember to take it day by day!!

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Day 49 - Mind Over Body ~^..^~

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

It's been about a week since I've blogged and I was starting to kind of feel like a also made me realize how much the blogging keeps me motivated to push harder.....

So let's see, what's been happening on my end of things, hmmm...... Well, I had an awesome weekend with the hubby for up at 6am on Saturday to help him set up for the Rose parade and then rode in the back seat while they were in the parade (cat napped for half of that, lol...)...came home and went to the gym to run for an hour, then came back and we went to a BBQ at a friend's house and had a great time visiting and I had fun playing volleyball with the kids, until they starting "making" their own rules, lol!!

Then I helped him in studio Saturday night while he did his show, which was some good bonding time for us even though he was at work - gave me a chance to see what he does every weekend too...

Sunday I got up and went to the gym, came home and then turned around and went to play water polo for an hour and a half with some friends at the Finley Center. Then we packed a healthy lunch and spent the rest of the afternoon playing tourist in San Francisco. The weather was PERFECT and we had such a great time together, it made my day, week, month....well, you get the picture, it was awesome!!

Then we went to the "ChickenFoot" show at the Fillmore in SF that night.....which was also awesome, although I drank quite a bit and was pretty tipsy by the end........

But it was SO worth it!!

I worked out pretty hard over the weekend, even with all the events planned so I ended up taking both Monday and Tuesday off from the gym, which I think I totally needed.........and got back into the swing of things today. cleaning up the house last night for America Idol (TOTAL Idol junkie!) I dropped a 10lb weight on my foot.

Oh yeah, it sucked BIG TIME.

But, I still got up and ran my hour at the gym this morning.....the only thing that got me through was that whole "mind over body" thought process and kind of meditated the pain out of my head.....which makes me believe it can't be broken if I could run it for an hour, right?

Well, that's what I am going with at this point, lol!!

So hopefully my foot will heal up fast, it's pretty black and blue but I'm hoping it will just pass quickly......because I am doing so good and am so tired of the way I used to live, or should I just say the way I used to PRETEND to live.

On to the goals for today:

1. Drink 8 Glasses of Water
2. Avoid drinking soda
3. Stick to packed lunch choices
4. Roll out on foam roller
7. Get in bed by 11pm




Thursday, May 14, 2009

...that's what I'm feeling.

I have been sitting here, well not literally HERE but pacing around fidgeting with the TV, playing Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook and pacing.

It was like I got hit with this wave of bad emotions this evening and I haven't been able to shake it off all night....and then it hit me.

I am totally detoxing from my old way of life.

Yeah, it's been about 6 weeks and I am really starting to chisel away all the small things that added up to one big thing - my unhappiness.

Sure, I've pointed the blame here and there, it's "because of this" or "because that didn't work out" or "because I can't"...............but the reality is the ONLY thing keeping me from being happy was actually me.

I don't know when I really gave up, or what the final straw was that broke me, but I am so thankful that whatever it was that happened that I am so happy that the light in my heart turned back on.

I think my mental awakening started when our car broke down this week and I chose to walk to work and home. It wasn't an easy choice, I could have gotten rides from good friends or I could have taken a taxi or the bus, but I wanted to walk. I wanted the fresh air, the exercise and the healthy time to myself and I walked.

Do you know how beautiful it is or how the air feels at 7:30 in the morning?

Do you know how rejuvenating it is to just get outside and walk?

Do you know how many mornings I have WASTED curled up in my bed or on the couch hungover, tired out, depressed and sad? Sometimes not even wanting to get up to shower or eat, just laying there angry and sad?

Do you know how long I missed out on the simple joys of healthy, everday living?

I am SO thankful that I cared enough about myself to get some help.....even if it that help was just a jumpstart, a simple "Spark" to help me help myself.

And now, 6 weeks into all of this, the reality that I am finding out who I am again and regaining a passion for life, gaining back my self esteem and able to look at myself in the mirror again..........I'm overwhelmed with tears of joy.

And it's not for the weight I've lost.......but for the strength I've gained.

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HEALTHY4LIFE! 5/26/2009 9:22PM

    Hey...good blog!

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PAIGESMAMA 5/14/2009 1:37PM

    I'm glad you are seeing the positive in this journey. I know I am. I am excited to work on this journey.

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Day 40 - When life hands you lemons...

Monday, May 11, 2009's time to whip out your lemonade skills!!

Soooooo, had an amazingly wonderful weekend.....with the exception of the car dying. Yep, it ALWAYS happens when I have the car, not my husband, and this time it died across from the Junior College and I had to push/drive it two blocks before I put it to rest in a store parking lot. I did find a gentleman who was kind enough to give me a ride to the aquatic center so I could still play water polo on Sunday......but left the car for the hubby to figure out something to do with it today.

So, on top of no ride to work, I think I was more bummed because that cut me off from my normal routine of going to the gym in the mornings.

But I have a plan.....

I walked to work this morning, took me an hour, and I plan on walking home today as well. I figure that solves the whole "way to work" issue and also the "no gym access" issue.

LEMONADE!!! Whoo hoo and is it refreshing or what??!!

I do have a back up ride if I get too sore walking this week, but I'm pretty sure I'll live. Hopefully the car situation will work out by the weekend, but if not I'm prepared to work it out no matter what comes my way. I've come too far to let myself slip out of the 'groove' I'm in!!

And you know what? Life happens, we can't control that, but I can choose how I deal with the situations I'm given! ;)

So on to the goals for today:

1. Drink 8 Glasses of Water
2. Avoid drinking soda
3. Stick to packed lunch choices
4. Walk home from work
5. 10 minutes ab work
6. 10 minutes upper body work with 10lb dumbbells
7. Stretch out on foam roller
8. Get in bed by 10pm


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BEECHKA 5/13/2009 5:55AM

    Good girl! Walking is so great for your heart health, and will burn those calories away. Hopefully I will come into a better rut than the one I'm in now, but hey, If I take your attitude, and turn that rut into a groove..... well heck! I just made my own glass of lemonade.

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TLN-NOW 5/12/2009 8:12PM

    Good to have a backup plan.
I've been working toward riding my bike to work. I'm almost out of gas, and I don't get paid till Friday.
You're an inspiration!

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Day 38 - My First 10k!!!

Saturday, May 09, 2009

I ran my first 10k this morning with a friend of mine, Amie......and I am so happy that I did! Not only did it feel great to finish, but felt even greater that we finished in an hour & 14 minutes!!

If you would have asked me just 2 months ago to do this, I would have found some excuse as to why I COULDN'T do it......but I am proud to say that is an old chapter of my life and the new one is about pushing myself to do what I know that I CAN!! Amie mentioned while we were running that a lot of it was 'mental' and I think she hit it on the head for me, my mind will often want to give up way before my's like I talk myself out of something before really giving it a chance, or at least I used to, lol! I'm truly thankful to her for inviting me and giving me the opportunity to say YES and it gave me more confidence about the half marathon I plan on running in August....

Anyway, it was a beautiful way to start my Mother's Day weekend and I am looking forward to playing some water polo tomorrow with another one of my friends, Marianne. Sure is feeling good to get back in touch with friends who have healthy interests, helps me to stay on track and have some fun while I'm at it.... I think that will be a huge factor in my long-term success, is finding ways to stay healthy AND have fun at the same time - I truly feel like I am on the right track. ;)

But enough of this!! It's a beautiful day and I don't want to be in the computer all afternoon so I'm going to cut this short and get outside!

Goals for the day are:

emoticon1. Drink 8 Glasses of Water
emoticon2. Avoid drinking soda
emoticon3. Make smart choices at the bbq this afternoon (no mayo, potato salad type things...)
emoticon4. Hug my husband for his support this morning
OOPS!! Will do it tonight!... 5. Mop the kitchen
emoticon6. Roll out on foam roller
emoticon7. Leg lifts
emoticon8. Dog leg kicks
emoticon9. Read a book to relax for a half hour tonight
emoticon10. Get in bed by 11pm


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FITVISION 5/9/2009 7:42PM

    I just started running about 9 weeks ago and I've definitely found it's a mind game. I have to tell myself over and over, "Unless you can't breathe or your legs are literally giving out, you can still keep going!" Because often times when I want to quit, I say that, and realize I'm not actually physically tired. It's really crazy!!

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