Insomnia

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Insomnia, insomnia, my constant companion.
We've gotten so close that I just can't stand ya.
If I'm up all night, I want to sleep half the day.
I really don't want to live this way.
I get cranky because I'm so tired;
if I had a real job I would get fired
because I can not function well
living in this insomnia hell.
I wish I could enter into such a deep slumber
that my snoring would sound like I'm cutting lumber!

  

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RITAROSE 12/21/2009 7:01AM

I haven't had insomnia since I've been exercising 6 days a week. I also found it helpful to have a routine to going to bed which included calming things like reading sometimes soft music and a cup of sleepytime tea to relax me before sleep. Not trying to minimize your troubles here! I remember how awful it was to watch the hours tick by knowing that I had a busy day ahead of me and knowing that I would be tired and grouchy! Hope you can find what works for you!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MUSHCAT 12/20/2009 6:11PM

Yes, I write poetry often. Nothing too serious. I think most of it is kind of trite, but my husband enjoys the love poems I email him at work. Comment edited on: 12/21/2009 8:18:55 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

WOLFSPIRITS 12/20/2009 3:50PM

WHAT DOES YOUR DOCTOR SAY? Report Inappropriate Comment

BIKERDIANE 12/20/2009 4:59AM

How cute! Did you make that one up too? You are so talented! Sorry about your insomnia! :( My husband has that problem also! Report Inappropriate Comment

DOLPHINFAN1334 12/20/2009 3:29AM

I LIKE YOUR POEM. IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE WRITING IT ABOUT ME. TRY TO HAVE A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP AND I WILL TRY TO DO THE SAME. HAVE A TERRIFIC DAY TOMORROW. Report Inappropriate Comment

How do you stay motivated?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Today's Healthy Request quotes,"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily. It doesn't take long for dust to gather on your momentum, making your goals turn stale. A daily dose of motivation kicks off the dust before it can settle and gives you a fresh, clean start. "

I certainly have a problem staying motivated despite my best intentions. It helps to have other motivated people around you. Last night must husband finally said he needed to get some exercise, so we stopped what we were doing and went for a walk, albeit not a long one. But it's a start. What will I do today to continue the momentum? I'm not sure because my schedule is cram-packed, but I must fit in time to be healthy. It has to become habit. It has to become as natural as breathing. And won't I breath better if I am fit?

  

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WOLFSPIRITS 12/10/2009 1:10PM

LOVE YOUR BLOG!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SIERRA924 12/10/2009 5:29AM

I remind myself what it is I really want!!! And tell myself that this may be hard but it doesnt get easier by giving up!!! If nothing else works one look in the full mirror with lil clothes on does the trick!!! Lol Report Inappropriate Comment

Today's Healthy Reflections

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Today's Healthy Reflections reads,"the only constant is you. You can't escape yourself. Change on the outside will have no effect on your happiness or fulfillment unless you change on the inside, too. "

Since returning from the brink of death after a suicide attempt less than 6 months ago, I have been working hard to change myself and my perspective. Some days I want to remain fixed in my old ways because change is hard work. God knows I'm struggling with the commitment to healthy physical change more than the mental and spiritual. It's a lot easier to sit at my computer reading self-help material and supporting one another through emails and comments.

But If I keep all the positive thoughts about change in the forefront of my mind and make small changes each day, eventually I will become the person I want to be in mind, body and spirit.

  

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SUNGBIRD2000 12/9/2009 4:30PM

Keep pressing on, one day at a time! You can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

Back to ground zero

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

I haven't been on the computer a lot lately. All last week I had severe migraine that I couldn't get rid of. It took two doctor visits and 8 shots to finally get rid of it. I feel like I just lose part of my life each time I get a migraine because I'm not able to be productive and fall far behind, nor am I able to do enjoyable things.

But it's gone now and time to try to get back on track. I went to the craft store on Saturday to get what I need for my Angel of Spring painting. I also picked up a canvas to do Angel Painting Sunset but I still need additional paint to complete that one.

I picked up all the materials for Angel Boxes too. Now to get busy and finish all the projects by Christmas. I have a feeling I am going to be frantic.

I have begun meditating and that seems to be helping me sleep better for now. One thing conquered and about a couple hundred left to go. One of those is my weight gain. I am practically back to where I started from. But I'll pick myself up, dust myself off, and start all over again.

It's cold as all get out here with lots of snow on the ground. The physical therapist says I have to wait a month or so to use my home fitness equipment because of how it effects my shoulder and bicep. No archery either. I certainly don't feel like walking in the ice and snow when it's 3 degrees out. I guess I could go up and down the stairs but I don't find myself that motivated today.

Oh well, I promised my husband turkey pot pie made from scratch for dinner so I have got to get busy on it.

In love and light,

Judi

  

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WOLFSPIRITS 12/9/2009 10:51AM

GLAD YOU'RE FEELING BETTER. REST SO YOU DON'T GET THEM MIGRAINES AGAIN!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BIGDAD1211 12/8/2009 4:28PM

Hey Judi! Glad to see you back. There is no problem with starting back. Believe me I know! You can do it. I would love to see a pic of your Angel paintings and boxes when you are done. I am always praying for you my friend! Have a Merry Christmas to you and yours! In Jesus Name Greg Report Inappropriate Comment

Meditation

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

I tried to meditate tonight. I have need doing is rather sporadically over the past few weeks. I know it takes practice but sometimes, like tonight, it seemed like torture. I didn't even complete it I got so antsy. So far it feels artificial and one more thing to stress over whether I do it or not.
I feel a migraine coming on and that may be part of the problem. It's hard to focus my mind elsewhere or make it blank when pain signals start flooding in.
I will keep trying to get a handle on it, but any advice about how others do it is appreciated.

  

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BESSHAILE 12/5/2009 7:03AM

try using a meditation tape/CD/ipod download. check out this website: http://www.thechris tianmeditator.com/ Report Inappropriate Comment

DIVALICIOUS7 12/3/2009 11:51PM

Jusi - Just do what you can - gets easier as time goes by & you learn to really relax & go inward. You are always in my prayers for as many pain free days as God will grant. Stay well my friend - & go with the flow Hugs Claire Report Inappropriate Comment

WOLFSPIRITS 12/2/2009 3:08PM

SORRY, IT'S ALWAYS HARD FOR ME SINCE I'M SO HYPER. I HAVE TO LEAVE THE HOME AND GO SIT SOMEWHERE QUIET. Report Inappropriate Comment

MYMONSTERSX3 12/2/2009 10:15AM

I too have tried and gotten antsy. I will try the 5 min. at time and see what I get out of it. Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLDEDOO 12/2/2009 8:02AM

Yes, I totally agree with Sunshine. My meditation time is the "best" time. I come out of it feeling so wonderful, calm, and even energized. Start small and gentle, loving yourself and what happens in your mind. Maybe watch, listen to your breathing. That's always a nice approach. Just breath in and out, and don't force it. I get migraines too, tho now not so much. I used to get at least one a week...on a scale of 1 - 10, they were 15...really awful. So I totally sympathize with yours. But when you're up to it, and have five minutes, just sit, close your eyes and try again. I promise...it's lovely...eventually...and well worth the time. Try it, you'll like it...LOL Carol Report Inappropriate Comment

MUSHCAT 12/2/2009 4:04AM

Some sage advice. Thank you. Report Inappropriate Comment

SUNSHINE2759 12/2/2009 1:47AM

May I suggest starting with a very limited meditation time, say 5 minutes? If it is stressing you out then it is not serving its purpose. Be kinder to yourself and avoid turning it into a negative. If you are able to complete 5 minutes make sure and praise yourself for the accomplishment. You can build on the time as you progress. Namaste. Report Inappropriate Comment