Sunday, December 20, 2009
Insomnia, insomnia, my constant companion.
We've gotten so close that I just can't stand ya.
If I'm up all night, I want to sleep half the day.
I really don't want to live this way.
I get cranky because I'm so tired;
if I had a real job I would get fired
because I can not function well
living in this insomnia hell.
I wish I could enter into such a deep slumber
that my snoring would sound like I'm cutting lumber!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Today's Healthy Request quotes,"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily. It doesn't take long for dust to gather on your momentum, making your goals turn stale. A daily dose of motivation kicks off the dust before it can settle and gives you a fresh, clean start. "
I certainly have a problem staying motivated despite my best intentions. It helps to have other motivated people around you. Last night must husband finally said he needed to get some exercise, so we stopped what we were doing and went for a walk, albeit not a long one. But it's a start. What will I do today to continue the momentum? I'm not sure because my schedule is cram-packed, but I must fit in time to be healthy. It has to become habit. It has to become as natural as breathing. And won't I breath better if I am fit?
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Today's Healthy Reflections reads,"the only constant is you. You can't escape yourself. Change on the outside will have no effect on your happiness or fulfillment unless you change on the inside, too. "
Since returning from the brink of death after a suicide attempt less than 6 months ago, I have been working hard to change myself and my perspective. Some days I want to remain fixed in my old ways because change is hard work. God knows I'm struggling with the commitment to healthy physical change more than the mental and spiritual. It's a lot easier to sit at my computer reading self-help material and supporting one another through emails and comments.
But If I keep all the positive thoughts about change in the forefront of my mind and make small changes each day, eventually I will become the person I want to be in mind, body and spirit.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
I tried to meditate tonight. I have need doing is rather sporadically over the past few weeks. I know it takes practice but sometimes, like tonight, it seemed like torture. I didn't even complete it I got so antsy. So far it feels artificial and one more thing to stress over whether I do it or not.
I feel a migraine coming on and that may be part of the problem. It's hard to focus my mind elsewhere or make it blank when pain signals start flooding in.
I will keep trying to get a handle on it, but any advice about how others do it is appreciated.
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