Just plain tired now

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Today was the arts and crafts fair that I for weeks I have been preparing for. The results were quite paultry and dissapointing. No longer stressed, now I am just plain tired.
On the bright side, I did spend a nice day with my mother-in-law. I bought her a pair of earrings and she bought me a pendant. Next week we are doing another show, so we are leaving the cars packed and set-up should go easier. We both hope this next show will be more profitable.

I think it might be time for me to start doing the bigger artsy-fartsy shows by myself. I have a lot of beautiful photographs and artwork to put on display. I am still inspired to keep creating.

My husband wants me to set up a website. I might do that as well.

My husband wound up being very helpful and supportive today. I thank God for him, his mother, my mother, my aunt, and all my friends that keep providing encouragement.

  

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BIGDAD1211 11/7/2009 11:26PM

Well my friend, if you do open a website, I would love to see it! And keep on being inspired! And hugs for hubby for being so supportive to you! (Hugs from you I mean! ) In Jesus Name Greg! Report Inappropriate Comment

Stressed to the max

Friday, November 06, 2009

I am doing an arts and crafts show tomorrow and I am stressed out and overwhelmed about it. I don't know what prices to charge on my stuff, I don't know how I am going to arrange my display, I still have a ton of last minute preparations to do and greeting cards to make. AAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHH!
I am also worried that I'm not going to sell anything and my spirit will be crushed. I would appreciate if everyone would hold a good thought, say a prayer, or send me positive vibes!

  

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SUNSHINE1954 11/6/2009 10:57PM

Mushcat, you will do well tomorrow. It is normal to be a little stressed the night before. If you weren't I would be quite worried. Our Heavenly Father will be watching over you and blessing you. I think you have quite a lot of courage to do this. I know I would not. Let us know how things go. Take care and have a great day, Hugs Joanne Report Inappropriate Comment

JULSMUM 11/6/2009 7:33PM

Things will fall into place. Don't worry about tomorrow, just worry about today. God will take care of everything for you, and He will tell you what to do and when! Be blessed, not stressed. Report Inappropriate Comment

BIGDAD1211 11/6/2009 2:43PM

Arts and crafts is all about your creations, right? So however YOU want to arrange your display is up to you. You are in charge of this thing and no one else. And what you should charge is also up to you. You know your work and you should know the worth of your work. so charge what you would pay for it. I am sure you are going to do well tomorrow. And if you don't do well at this show, then you will at the next. You are in my prayers. In Jesus Name Greg Report Inappropriate Comment

Restoring balance to my life

Monday, November 02, 2009

After a few hours sleep I have been up the rest of the night on the computer and finishing another painting. I feel quite accomplished in getting so much artwork done, but I also feel I have lost the balance in my life which may be contributing to my insomnia.

I have good intent: to keep the house clean, to provide a goo meal for my husband every day, to exercise, to lose weight, to be healthier, etc. but I think I am really undermining myself with worry.

I have two craft shows coming up this weekend and next. I have put a lot of time and money into the things I am going to sell. I worry about what I have to sell, I worry about a good set-up and display without investing more money, I worry if I am going to sell anything. All this worry keeps me awake at night despite industrail strength sleeping pills. The insomnia leads to more migraines and getting a shot that knocks me and the migraine out so I lose a day that I could be doing productive things. It's all a very vicious circle.

I try to relax with baths, soothing music, etc. but I never seem to be able to shut off my brain. In the meantime healthy things like prayer, exercise and good diet, and enough sleep fall by the wayside.

There has got to be a way to restore balance into my life. I know one way is to let go and let God, but it's so much easier said than done.

Hopefully these craft shows will be a success but I need to regain my sanity before then.

  

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DEBDUV 11/2/2009 12:10PM

I read a page in my Joyce Meyer inspiration book this morning about worries. I'll grab it tonight and send you a note later with the exact wording. God addresses worries in verses throughout the Bible. Bottom Line: Sister, you have to stop worrying...what will happen, will happen. As long as you are well prepared, then feel confident that God will put you right where you need to be. You're making yourself sick with all this worry! Deb Report Inappropriate Comment

BESSHAILE 11/2/2009 7:47AM

Oh - I hear you sister. Just remember - God has many miracles. He has some for you. He ALWAYS has your back. Report Inappropriate Comment

Making good use of snowy days

Thursday, October 29, 2009

I wish I could report that I am losing weight like crazy but I may have gained back what I've lost. I will keep trying. I have had a migraine all week so I haven't exercised a lick.

Here in the Denver area it has been doing nothing but snowing since Tuesday night. That's also when I started my new painting, which is aptly titled Angel of Winter. It has been helpful to be painting because I feel my depression may be coming back and painting keeps my mind occupied.

I am going to do all four seasons, and I guess since it's officially autumn I'll do that one next. I don't have much to say so I may as well get the next painting started.

  

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CORRINER 10/29/2009 7:54PM

I surely don't want to hear about snow yet. Once we get it in Wisconsin it usually stays around until April. Report Inappropriate Comment

PEDIPOD 10/29/2009 4:35PM

I love your angel and I hope she brings you great happiness to combat the snow! Report Inappropriate Comment

I am so pleased with my God-given talent

Sunday, October 25, 2009

I finished it and it's great! My "Guardian Angel of Sleep" painting is done. Unfortunately, the photo doesn't do the painting justice.

I am just so happy that I am continuing to be creative on a daily basis. It makes me feel alive.

Of course, I realize that my purpose in life is to love and be loved, to deliver my message of salvation, and live my life according to God's will.

I really feel blessed. For so long I had felt undeserving, useless, misguided, depressed and had so many other bad feelings. Now I feel my life has purpose. Now I feel that I have great worth, that I am deserving, and that I love myself. There is no greater feeling than self-love. Now I can be a good wife and love my husband with all my heart simply because I now accept myself, which allows me to accept him.

And then there's the painting...

  

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CORRINER 10/26/2009 7:31PM

How nice! Yes you are blessed and thank you for sharing with us. Report Inappropriate Comment

JOYOFTHEMORNING 10/25/2009 12:06AM

What a beautiful painting. My mother is an artist as well and she just sent some pictures of her awesome paintings and the pictures just did not capture the depth, which is probably the case for yours as well. I bet there is awesome texture in the wings and sky that we can't even see. Not only that, but the message is inspiring as well. What a great talent! Report Inappropriate Comment