Saturday, December 19, 2009
Ok, when everyone was telling me I needed to go to the Drs I was like ok, I will go. WHen I called to make my appointment and explained why I was coming in the nurse seemed more afraid than I was !! After talking to a co-worker who is a diabetic and a couple of family members they told me I should be afraid. I never thought this would happen to me. I know, it should stupid, but I never thought I would be worried about anything like this. Even though my mother was borderline and my grandmother was insulin dependent, I just never thought that is something I would ever worry about. Well this is my wake up call, I am afraid now.
I am in a state of panic and I'm afraid to eat because I don't want my level to go up because it seems like everything will drive it up. I ate a piece of chicken last night and had about 6 ozs of diet pop and when I woke up this morning it was 247. I am soo hungry, but afraid to eat. The nurse told me to log my levels in the morning and at night until I come in. I'm glad my fiancÚ' left his extra meter here when he left to go back on the road. I think I may be doing the test wrong, but he days just poke my finger and just get a little drop on the test strip. I just keep praying something is wrong with his meter. Ok, I know there isn't, but I can hope :)