Friday, April 17, 2009
I haven't blogged in a long time so I had to get back into practice.
I was sitting here looking at the date I stated with SP and I realized I am no where near my goal. A first I was a little discouraged. I felt like maybe I am going to be a big girl all of my life. How do I do so well for 6 months and then go down hill. What's wrong with me. After I got pass all of the negativity, I thought to myself. You can do this, you have done it before. I have to get my butt back in gear and get it DONE. I said I will tell myself everyday, "You are a DONE girl , you can do this."
I have a cousin/sister(my aunt raised me so we are sisters and cousins) who is also on SP, NURSETERRY1, and she is doing so good. I am so proud of her, but I was kinda sad. She has lost so much weight she gave me some cloths. I was always smaller than her so I felt discouraged at first. Then I thought about it, if she can do it, so can I!! Now I look at how far she has come ad I know I can do it. She fell off before an she got back on track. One day we will be able to share cloths instead of her giving me the ones that are too big for her!!!
Have a great day and a wonderful weekend!!!!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
OK, so every year some of us single people don't really care about Valentine's day because we don't have that "special someone" of the opposite sex to spend it with. I thought about it, this is a day you spend with someone you love. So, this Valentines Day I am spending it with someone I love, my daughter Sure, there have been many days I have wanted to wrap my hands around her neck(too many to count), but I can't imagine life without her. She is my true love She stole my heart the first time I laid eyes on her and I have loved her every since.
When my daughter suffered her closed head injury at 6 months the drs told me if she survived, don't look for her to be able to do too much. They even asked me did I still want her I guess the crazy look in my face gave them my answer. I prayed and begged god to save her so I could love her like he wanted me to. Well he answered my prayers and I have been loving her more everyday, if that's possible. People say she is spoiled rotten because she wants to stay with my at all time, I just tell them god gave her to me to love and that's what i'm doing.
So because of this my daughter is my special Valentine this weekend. Along with the valentines I sent for the other kids, I sent a special bag for my daughter. I put her a t-shirt saying"I am loved", and other goodies. I also put a card in there and a little note asking her teacher to read it to her. Even though she is 14 and may not understand what the card says, I still will tell her how much she is loved. We also have hair appointments early saturday and we are going out for lunch. She likes Red Lobster and Olive Garden (expensive taste I know!!!) so we will go to one of the two. I know I will blow my calories, but this day I won't mind. After lunch we are headed to the mall to find her a new outfit.
I am so excited about our special day and I am going to make sure to have these more often. I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend and spend the day with someone special, I know I will!!!
Sunday, February 01, 2009
It feels so good when you don't worry about things and people you can't change. I have noticed that since I have started doing this I don't feel like I have so much on my shoulders. Everyday I am getting stronger and stronger. Itf Feels so good!!! I am taking my butt back to the gym for the first time in a while. I am so worth this. I am glad I am finally seeing this.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I have been trying for as long as I can remember to understand what I really needed from the opposite sex in a relationship. Well today I finally figured it out!!
I have been on my own since I was around 14 yrs old or so. Since then I have been the only person I can rely on. Since I have been an adult and dating, I can only remember one relationship that I was truly happy. That was from 2000-2002. This person took the relief of a stressful life off of my shoulders by the simplest things. We never argued or fought we just met at the wrong time in life. I could never put my finger on what would truly make me happy until I thought about this. A simple thing like seeing my garbage and taking it to the dumpster meant one less thing in my day that I had to do. When I had to work on Saturdays and my daughters dad had to work also, he would pick her up from her dad and keep her for a couple of hours until I was off. One less thing I had to worry about. If I was off really late he would cook dinner or if he knew I was tired he would get up with my daughter or let me take a nap. Although we are not together we are still great friends. He said that I use to argue with her dad because he didn't do as much and that hurt him because he thought he was helping. He didn't know how to explain it so he just said it was time to break up. He was a lot younger , 24 and I was 29, so he said back then he didn't know how to explain it. He met someone and his now wife got pregnant and they got married.
That relationship taught me what I want/need from a relationship. I was never able to figure it out or should I say put it into words until today. After my Dr's. appointment Wednesday I had to really put some things in order in my life. I thought about how if something happens to me my daughter has no one. I will have to take care of my daughter for the rest of her life. So I have to get healthy physically, mentally, and emotionally. She needs me for everything right now right down to feeding , changing diapers, and putting her cloths on. We are going to make this the best life!!! If a person isn't in my life to make it better than you don't need to be here. I have suffered enough in my life, it's time for me and my princess to enjoy life. I think I have held on to certain people in my life because it was convenient and familiar. It's 2009, baby look out Princess Darian and I are on a mission!!!
AS always thank you for taking the time to read my little rants.
Get An Email Alert Each Time MSV2UU Posts