Thursday, July 10, 2008
I went back to work and it isn't as hard as I thought. I pack lunch, dinner, and snacks. I am having a hard time though because I gained 1.5lbs back. I have been doing everything right and walking so I don't understand. I am not going to be discouraged, I am going to keep on keeping on, but i will admit i am a little crushed because I am trying so hard. I am going back to the gym starting monday(been walking around my complex) because my daughter goes back to school. Hopefully I will see some results next weigh in. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Ok, so its back to work after being on vacation since last friday(wow 10 days including weekends). It was much needed!!! I might have been sending these from prison had I not had it!!!!!! Anyway, I am so nervous about going back because I don't want to mess up meal wise. I messed up today because I was out past dinner and when I got hungry, where did I go.........Taco Bell, My favorite place. I didn't go over my calories for the day, but I need to go back and look at the other things, boy I'm very afraid!!! Usually when I do this I go on a binge, but not this time. I am going to take this one meal at a time. I am going to make my lunch and dinner(since I work a crazy shift) and start all over. I had pop today for the first time in over a week, didn't even do anything for me. Back to my water. Wish me luck.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Yesterday while I was at K Mart, God sent me an angel. My daughter was having"one of her days" and I was not in the mood! My daughter is 14,but because of her head injury she functions like a 1-3 yr old. She was crying and then laughing, she sat down and wouldn't move in the middle of an isle. She didn't want to walk with me, she would stay an isle behind me. And she thought it was funny! I asked god to give strength so I wouldn't kill her!!!! Towards the end of our trip she started crying uncontrolably. I am use to stares from people so that didn't bother me, but this day was long! I started to leave everything in my basket and just leave because my nerves were fried. My daughter wasn't screaming at the top of her lungs, just whinning. A lady that had been shopping came up to me and said she overheard me tell my daughter we were leaving. She told me not to leave, she said we had a right to be there and if people didn't like it, let them leave! She said it looked like I needed a hug and asked if she could hug me. As the tears streamed down my face as we hugged, all the weight that was on my shoulders was lifted. We went our seperate ways, but not before she told me she had a son like my daughter and sometimes we all need a hug! I finished my shopping and kept my head up, we had a right to be there just like anyone else.
If you cross paths with someone who looks like they are having a rough day, be an angel to them. I'm not saying go around hugging folks you don't know, some folks don't like that, but a smile, a few kind words, or even a simple hello my do the trick.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Well, I made it through another day! I stayed within my goals today. Go me, Go me!!!!
It is getting easier to make the right choices everyday! I did something today I have never done before, I went on a walk with my daughter after dinner. We watched all the different fireworks and then we sat and just relaxed. I am seeing a while new life.
Friday, July 04, 2008
But I am creating my first blog. I am just starting my lifestyle change and I am so excited!
I wasn't overweight until I had my daughter, so this was new for me. This has been a thorne in my side for 14 yrs as of 7/1/08. I went from 130 to 240 in 9 short months. I also went from having someone who I thought loved me,to someone who told me how disgusting I looked and that how come I didn't loose my "baby weight" like everyone else. This caused me to balloon up to a little over 250lbs. I thought things couldn't get any worse, boy was I wrong! When my daughter was 6 months old she suffered a severe closed head injury. This has caused my daughter to be mentaly and physicaly impaired. I thought my whole world would crumble.
Well, I had no time to worry about me anymore. I had to take care of my princess. People have asked me how do I work 40 plus hrs a week and take care of my daughter. I tell them these are things mommies do. I hear people say I could never do what you do, I tell them God will not give you anything you can't handle.
Having my daughter has taught me so much. I never knew I could love another human being as much as I love this little person( I shouldn't say little, she is about an inch taller than me) I have also learned unconditional love. When I see that little face in the morning with her cup asking for juice, she will love me if I'm 242 or 150!
I wanted to be around to see this face in the morning, so I have started to change my lifestyle. I've lost 6.5 lbs so far and want to get down several more. I hope you don't mind taking this journey with me.
As you can see I can talk forever, ( I'm working on that also) and I love my princess, so you will see me talk about her. I have talked too much and I need to rest so I can get my walk on! Everyone Have A Great Day!!!
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