Have You Ever Said, "It's So Hard Losing This Weight"?

Monday, February 09, 2009

I few times this past week I've expressed to a friend or two, how hard this weight loss journey has been for me. It's not so easy, and sometimes I think about how doable it'd be if I didn't have so many medical complications right now. But, I'm sure everyone has some sort of hardship or obstacle while on this journey.

Well, inspite of it all I'm still excited about how things will turn out. I don't know how long it will take, but I do plan on getting to a healthier and thinner me.

Oh, and for some reason lately I'm looking at some women and saying how I don't want to be "THAT THIN"! But then what if I do get down pretty far... well I can't really see it, but still... would I not like that look on me???

Well, I'm far from that point right now, so I'll think on something else.
Everyone, enjoy your journey. Even when it gets a bit harder than you'd like!

  

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SISTAMME 2/25/2009 7:14PM

I so relate to this blog. As an emotional eater, I have always found it hard to lose weight. I've tried so many things in the past and am able to get my weight down to around 200 lbs but never further than that... it's like my body just becomes resistant to it. I am so hopeful that HMR could be the key for me. I just hope and pray that it is. I'm nearly 30 years old and haven't been able to get my weight under control since college. I was never rail thin but was never had an obesity issue until college. I am dismayed at myself for not being able to control this problem. Being overweight rules my life and makes me feel depressed, unwanted, etc. It seems as though it would be such an easy thing to fix and I have no medical conditions preventing me from fixing it but still I cannot control it. After I lose weight I regain it very quickly. Then, I'm even more pissed off at myself than before... vowing that next time I lose it I'll really keep it off. Each time this happens I regain the weight and end up weighing more than ever before. It's a vicious and depressing cycle. Like you, I can also not imagine that my body could be able to get very thin. I just don't have any belief in that at all right now. My first goal is to get myself to 200... from there hopefully I could get down to 185... I could live with that. Would I like to be lower... yes, but I just don't have faith that it could happen. Nothing in my past gives me hope that it could. We just have to keep sticking towards what we are aiming for. We have to hope, pray, and TRY. I'm nearly 30... it's time I started really living... enjoying life instead of being self-conscious of everyone including my husband. I want to travel again... I want to vacation again. I want to be able to be out in public at a beach or attraction and not be depressed worrying about what others might be thinking of me and how I look "sloppy". I want to have a much needed breast reduction, which I refuse to have currently as I think my body would look even worse if I lost my huge breasts because then my big gut would show even more. Yes, IT IS SO HARD LOSING WEIGHT. So hard that even though I'm experiencing some success with HMR I still don't believe at this point that I will ever get my weight down to a healthy range and be able to maintain it. But, I have to keep on trying because if I don't then my life is surely over in more ways than one. I want to enjoy myself and feel confident around friends and family. I want to be a fun person to be with... not a overly emotional, self-conscious woman that you have to be careful what you say around because she might get offended. I want to be ME and not be judged by my physical appearance. I want people to see who I truly am and not just see an overweight slob. I hope that HMR can just help me do this for once and for all so I can have my life back. Good luck with your HMR journey too. Sissy Report Inappropriate Comment

BABY_GIRL69 2/12/2009 6:02PM

Thanks for sharing! I already know I can't be 136lbs, standing 5'6 it just wouldn't look right on me. When I was 18-22years old that was fine but now I would be fine with 155lbs. I do the same thing but its the look each individual must appreciate on them. Blessings, Dee Report Inappropriate Comment

VEGALEGARRETA 2/11/2009 3:36PM

todo el tiempO lo pienso!! (aunque trato de no decirlo!!! cuando mejor estoy, haciendo workouts, comiendo bien.... todo se compica y me deprimo o vuelvo a mis malos habitos..... Pero lo importante es volver y continuar... esto no es easy, pero no imposible.. si otros han podido.. we can do it!!! y como bien tu dices.. tenemos que enyoy our journeys!!1 Report Inappropriate Comment

I said that I Would Clean up All Weekend...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Well, I said that I would clean...declutter for the weekend.
Well, actually I would like to do something everyday. But today is not starting off as well as I thought.

I need to focus on one thing at a time. I have the contents of my bathroom under the sink cabnet, on top of my bedroom dresser. And I don't want to put it all back. I'm decluttering and reorganizing at the same time... How does one do that in a small place?

Well I did empty the trash, which gave me an opportunity to get in some exercise outside!!!

I just ordered a sandwich and salad from a loca deli, so I'll go to pick that up in just a bit. But I've been playing Lexulous (scrabble) online and watching t.v. mostly

Okay, the game's almost over so I'll leave and hopefully fight the urge to go to Panda Express, which I havn't ben to in months. I'll get back to cleaning soon!

** Okay I went to the deli ( and parked across the street instead of in their lot so I could get some more exercise in) and then to Ralphs to get dishwashing liquid and sponges...And I didn't stop at Panda Express. YAY me!

  

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BABY_GIRL69 1/10/2009 9:00PM

Who is this De & why does she keep coming back?! I throw stuff out all the time & if I could only throw out my hubby's stuff, I think I could have a decent home. Oh well, just keep working at it. Get something in the mail, throw it out, get clear bins & stack away in closet areas and such. It CAN happen! Blessings, De e Report Inappropriate Comment

MOM2ACAT 1/10/2009 5:35PM

I'm in the process of decluttering too. I tell myself when I start, that I only have to work on it for 20 minutes at a time, but a lot of times once I get going I'll keep at it much longer. Report Inappropriate Comment

My Fun Goals for 2009, I Might Keep Adding Throughout the year!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Here Are Some Fun Goals That I Have for 2009, I'll Keep Adding Throughout the year as they come to me! So you are more than welcomed to add this as a blog that you like and check back from time to time. There might be one listed that you would like to reach too! Or one that may get you thinking of one that you want to set for yourself! Anywho, whenever setting some of your healthy goals, have fun with them. It might make reaching them all the more, well, FUN!

MY FUN GOALS:

1) FIT INTO MY CALF-HIGH BOOTS AGAIN (I have 3 pair- black leather, & brown and caramel suede)!
* the zipper just won't go up all the way :o) Once it hits my calves, that's it!

2) WALK, maybe even Run (WOW) in the local Fall 2009 TEAM IN TRAINING, as a Cancer survivor!

3) FIND & WEAR MY CUTE BRAZILIAN JEANS (w/ the hand-painted design on one side) & wear them WELL!
* the last time they wouldn't go past my knees! hahaha maybe that's why I can't find them!

4)MINIMIZE THE CLOTHES IN MY CLOSET & DRAWERS!
* I have way too many clothes! Some fit, some don't & some I don't even like (I'm sure). So I would like to put some on consignment, donate & sale others. I want to ultimately be able to put it all in the storage that I have & not have so much spilling over onto the side of the bed, the floor of the closet, and other places...

5) TO BE ABLE TO FIT INTO A BRA SIZE @ VICTORIA SECRETS (or any department store for that matter)!
* I measure around a 32- 34 chest, with my cup @ I's, J's & K's (who knew they went that high). And because my number is so small, it's hard to find my size in the stores. Most people with a high letter usually have a higher number...but not me. It's like I gain weight mostly in my breasts... Oh well!

  

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QUEEND1969 1/2/2009 1:16AM

Happy 2009! It's your time to shine. SO SHINE BABY SHINE! I read an article yesterday about making fun goals for 2009. Thanks for sharing yours. Report Inappropriate Comment

BABY_GIRL69 12/31/2008 5:56PM

Victoria Secret ain't got nothing for us big thick boned breasted women! Stop playing & the ones I've purchased are most uncomfortable. Shoot for any bra that fits Sweetie, keep us on our toes your goals! Happy New "YOU" & Blessings, Dee Report Inappropriate Comment

Today I Got My 10,000+ SP Throphy on the Last Day of the Year 2008

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

YAY to me! Today on the last day of the year, December 31, 2008, I recieved my Spark reward of a throphy cup for having at least 10,000 Spark points! What a way to end 2008 and begin 2009!

I'm so looking forward to continued blessings, even in the seemingly tough times!

No matter what may come my way, I know that God is all around and that I will accomplish His will for my life. So I might as well enjoy it! I'll see as it comes, what the year will bring.

All the best for my SparkFriends! May you also accomplish God's Will for your lives with joy & thanksgiving, giving Him all the glory in our healthier and more fit scuccesses!

  

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QUEEND1969 1/2/2009 1:17AM

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MS-CEE 1/1/2009 11:06AM

Fantastic! This is something to work towards! I like it so much around here, I guess I'll get there one of these days, huh?? Report Inappropriate Comment

MOM2ACAT 12/31/2008 7:25PM

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Way to go! Congratulations! Report Inappropriate Comment

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Reviewing Me with About 10 Days until the New Year

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Down to 11 days before the New Year, what change can I really make?
Here's where I'm starting. Let's see, I've gained several pounds, on the 17th I was 215, another breaking record. And now just 3 days later I'm at 210. This is without trying to lose. Trust me on that one, because I've been eating so many bite sized chocolate snacks and cinnamon rolls. And I now have a double chi, never saw that one coming! And my one "it sort of fits" bra, is getting too small in the cup area. Boy oh boy!

Well okay so I figure that since my weight fluctuates due to my meds, that I should really try to be a help instead of giving in and being a hindrance. Even though it's hard sometimes, I should try to focus on very small consistent steps (meaning whatever I can do that healthy I should do)! I know that I'm not blaming my meds or my medical conditions, and instead I am starting to realistically look at the impact that each has on my weight gain, fatigue & other symptoms.


So okay what am I excited about? Doing SP's Official New You Challenge in January!!! It will be a fun way to start the year off! I tried to get a friend of mine to join me...but she's not into the internet thing. So hopefully some of my team members or SP friends will be doing it & we can support one another!

One of the teams that I'm on has a lose 5 pounds by the 1st. Even though it started on the 1st, I signed on on the 17th (when I found out) for motivation. The funny thing is that I've gained & lost that much within those three days. So I'm not too sure what I should measure for that one. Who know with that record maybe I'll be at my 200 start off the year goal! Either way, it's still fun to be a part of the team!

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their holiday season.
Merry Blessed Christmas to all who celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ!!!

  

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MSPROVERBS31 12/31/2008 3:12PM

Thanks for your support ladies! Report Inappropriate Comment

MOTOWNMOM 12/23/2008 4:33PM

This is not an easy journey but making a comittment to yourself is a great start!! You can do it! Good luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

BABY_GIRL69 12/21/2008 12:14PM

I definitely feel you on this one! Its normally around the 30th that we start to reminisce over the last year & exam how we can change our minds to face the New Year! You should definitely make sure your doctor knows of your daily habits to make this weight loss process easier. If there really is such a thing as that? Anyway, I pray that you & yours have an outrageously Blessed Christmas & New Year!! God bless you always!! Dee Report Inappropriate Comment

MSPROVERBS31 12/20/2008 4:16PM

My mommie just told me something that I was thinking of... I need to call my doctor and have them do some more tests on my fluid retension. And tht I need to get rid of any and all sweets (juice, candy, you name it) and drink only tea & water. Yes, the gain and loss within the short amount of times is not good. And does lend itself to the likelyhood that it's more of a post surgery medical problem than just what I'm eating. So on Monday I must remember to call my cardiologist and let him know & see what I'll do next. Boy do I hate this part. Report Inappropriate Comment