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To all my SP friends!

Friday, September 03, 2010

I wanted to say THANK YOU to all of my awesome SP friends who have been supportive throughout this very rocky journey! I've been MIA for a while and wanted to let all of you know how much I appreciate your continuous support even when I was gone. It's been emotionally challenging, not to mention physically, but I'm hanging in there! I know there are a few things that I really need to tackle before I can move forward in a positive direction and get this weight off for good. Maybe that's an excuse but it needs to be done regardless. I just can't believe how supportive and amazing people are that you would consider to be perfect strangers! emoticon I plan to get back into the groove of things and getting back at it because "this" just isn't working LOL! I know I deserve to be healthy and happy! Again, thank you my beautiful friends!

  
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THENEWDARLENE 9/4/2010 3:40PM

    Welcome Back, Danielle! I love the fall leaves on your page!

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ME_HERE_NOW 9/3/2010 10:22PM

    glad to see ya back at it sista, keep makin those sparked choices as often as you can and have FUN!

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NURSE4LIFE1 9/3/2010 10:41AM

    Welcome back. Wish you the best in your journey of a healthy lifestyle!

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TOFUCUTIEPIE 9/3/2010 9:26AM

    Welcome back!

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-POOKIE- 9/3/2010 8:04AM

    Welcome back

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WALIDGAZALA 9/3/2010 2:47AM

    Actually this is Spark way of contribution
one helps the other and so we all appreciate

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Trapped!

Thursday, June 03, 2010

I've seen this picture online before and then noticed it as DHALYIA's main pic on her SP page! I found it again and wanted to post it because at this moment this is how I'm feeling...trapped! I've glanced at this pic but didn't really ever think about it and how it makes me feel. This picture stirs up quite a bit of emotion for me.

  
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TEXASFILLY 7/23/2010 5:34PM

    What a great image for motivation! Yes! Let's liberate ourselves from the bondage of fat! *hugs* YOU CAN DO IT, dear heart!

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SWTBELLA 6/11/2010 8:18PM

    OMG that's exactly how I feel! I sometimes tell myself that deep down inside of me there's this Sexy Lioness waiting to burst out & roar! Your inner Lioness is also waiting to arrive! So never give up the good fight stay strong emoticon

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RAVENSONG37 6/9/2010 9:03AM

    I think I would rather be this way...to start from this place than to be a tiny person with a giant hungry person inside me...if that makes any sense at all. I can feed, nurture and move the inner athlete inside of me...I have control over that!

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ME_HERE_NOW 6/5/2010 9:01PM

    definitely makes you think, thanks for the insight!!

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PINKNFITCARLA 6/3/2010 8:51AM

    Wow...great picture!

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LISALIVING1980 6/3/2010 8:33AM

    wOw. I think we all can relate to this picture! I love it! It states exactly how I feel! Thanks for sharing! :O)

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SUGIRL06 6/3/2010 7:31AM

    That is awesome. Thanks for sharing!
~Ang

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BIRDGIRL2005 6/3/2010 5:29AM

    I feel the same way! Thanks for sharing this picture. :)

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ALIMESSA 6/3/2010 5:06AM

    LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this picture...thanks for sharing!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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ANDYLIN90 6/3/2010 2:25AM

    This is a great picture. Thanks for posting. Sometimes I feel like I will never get out, but quitting just makes the walls of fat thicker and more difficult to break through.

Don't give up, keep trying to get out; I know you can do it.

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It takes courage!

Monday, May 31, 2010

I came across this awesome poem at the right time and wanted to share it...


Reaching Your Dream Takes Courage


Courage is admitting that you're afraid and facing that fear directly. It's being strong enough to ask for help and humble enough to accept it.

Courage is standing up for what you believe in without worrying about the opinions of others. It's following your own heart, living your own life, and settling for nothing less than the best for yourself.

Courage is daring to take a first step, a big leap, or a different path. It's attempting to do something that no one has done before and all others thought impossible.

Courage is keeping heart in the face of disappointment and looking at defeat not as an end but as a new beginning. It's believing that things will ultimately get better even as they get worse.

Courage is being responsible for your own actions and admitting your own mistakes without placing blame on others. It's relying not on others for your success, but on your own skills and efforts.

Courage is refusing to quit even when you're intimidated by impossibility. It's choosing a goal, sticking with it, and finding solutions to the problems.

Courage is thinking big, aiming high, and shooting far. It's taking a dream and doing anything, risking everything, and stopping at nothing to it make it a reality.

~ Caroline Kent ~

  
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WESTCOASTGIRL1 6/2/2010 5:57PM

    Love it! Thank you for sharing it. I needed to read it. Now to absorb it. emoticon

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KAELIE 5/31/2010 7:06AM

  This was so great, thanks so much for sharing!

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IMABE1FORTY 5/31/2010 2:44AM

    Thanks for sharing this girlie! This was awesome!

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TEXASFILLY 5/31/2010 1:50AM

    WOW~! What an AWE~some poem of inspiration! Thank you so much for sharing! *hugs*


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Just random stuff!

Saturday, May 08, 2010

1.Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open...my closet doesn't have doors

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? No, I bring my own

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? There tucked in but I sleep on top of my bed with a blanket lol

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No

5. Do you like to use post-it notes? I love post-its!

6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? Sometimes

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? Ummm..no thank you!

8. Do you have freckles? Yes, some...

9. Do you always smile for pictures? No, definitely not. I always did when I was much smaller.

10. What is your biggest pet peeve? Ignorance...

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? No

12. Have you ever peed in the woods? Pretty sure I have

13. What about pooped in the woods? Pretty sure it was a porta potty....gross!

14. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing? Yep, there's usually music in my head!

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? I used to when I was younger

16. How many people have you slept with this week? Next question

17. What size is your bed? Double

18. What is your Song of the week? OMG...Usher

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Pink is not pimpin!

20. Do you still watch cartoons? Not really

21. What's your least favorite movie? Pretty much any musical...It's true, I've NEVER truly seen Grease....just parts and don't plan on watching it.

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? You'd love to know right?

23. What do you drink with dinner? Water or milk

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? BBQ sauce

25. What is your favorite food? That's a toss up between Mexican and Italian...oh wait, and Chinese! A big girl can't just choose ONE! ;)

26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Too many to name!

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? Kima

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Nope, I was in Blue Birds

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Negative!

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? I can't remember

31. Can you change the oil on a car? That's what Oil Can Henry's is for

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? I've had a few

33. Ran out of gas? No

34. Favorite kind of sandwich? Tuna

35 Best thing to eat for breakfast? I LOVE pancakes like nobody's business!

36. What is your usual bedtime? Usually between 11p and 2a

37. Are you lazy? Yeah, sometimes I am!

38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? A clown

39. What is your Chinese astrological sign? I believe I'm a snake

40. How many languages can you speak? Just English

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? 3

42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs? Legos!

43. Are you stubborn? I sure can be

44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? Letterman

45. Ever watch soap operas? No

46. Afraid of heights? No

47. Sing in the car? Sometimes

48. Dance in the shower? Not usually

49. Dance in the car? Sometimes with a friend

50. Ever used a gun? No, not yet!

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Senior pictures! Long time ago!

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Pretty much

53. Is Christmas stressful? NO, I love it!

54. Ever eat a pierogi? What is that???

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Cherry

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Nurse

57. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Yes!

59. Take a vitamin daily? Never do

60. Wear slippers? No

61. Wear a bath robe? No

62. What do you wear to bed? Usually tshirt and undies...just depends who I'm with LOL

63. First concert? Too many artists to name! It was called Summer Jam thrown by Jammin 95.5 in Portland

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Tar-J

65. Nike or Adidas? I'm a Nike whore lol

66.Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? Nope

69. Ever take dance lessons? No

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? I'll let ya know when I find that one for me!

71. Can you curl your tongue? You mean like a taco? Yep!

72. Ever won a spelling bee? Never been in one

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Not yet!

74. Own any record albums? No

75. Own a record player? No

76. Regularly burn incense? Not anymore

77. Ever been in love? No...sad to say...

78. Who would you like to see in concert? Alicia Keys

79. What was the last concert you saw? Boo Jam....another Jammin 95.5 concert in Portland...Rhianna, Snoop and many more!

80.Hot tea or cold tea? Both

81.Tea or coffee? Coffee....blended Hazelnut freeze...YUM!

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles? I love both!

83.Can you swim well? I can't swim...scared to death of water!

84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes

85. Are you patient? Depends on the situation

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? IDK?

87.Ever won a contest? Yep

88. Ever have plastic surgery? No

89. Which are better black or green olives? Black

90. Can you knit or crochet? Neither! I've tried both and don't have the patience

91. Best room for a fireplace? Living room

92. Do you want to get married? Yes, someday

93. If married, how long have you been married?

94. Who was your HS crush? His name was Omar...he didn't go to my HS though

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? No, I'm not a child

96. Do you have kids? No

97. Do you want kids? I would love to have kids someday

98. Whats your favorite color? Blue

99. Do you miss anyone right now? Yes, everyday!

100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX? Nope

  
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CCASKEY1 5/14/2010 7:00AM

    Yes. I want to get married some day.... Oh wait. I am. for 14 years now. No kids please. I have dogs. I sing in the shower AND in the car because I don't want to subject other people to my singing voice. My favorite color is blue.... There are so many to answer. Like the blog. Thanks...

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FAT pics...

Saturday, April 24, 2010

So I've finally decided to go ahead and get some of my fat pictures (before, after and definitely more before) posted on my spark page. I feel a little bit nauseated even thinking about it as I'm very embarrassed and quite disgusted with how I currently look. I can't believe how much I've let myself go. I don't even look like the same person anymore! It's crazy because I don't think I truly see how much weight I've gained until I see a picture, or when I'm walking past a window and see my reflection! That's when reality hits! I've really put on some serious weight in a short amount of time after my dad died 5/19/07. (You see 2007 was a very bad year! We lost a close friend of the family in March, my dad in May, my aunt in July and my grandma in Oct....I had also dropped out of school because I couldn't do it...I was really depressed!) It's been such a struggle and I know that's part of the reason. When I moved to Portland in Nov. '06 I weighed 240lbs. and planned to continue to lose more weight. When I moved back to my hometown May '08 I weighed 316lbs...you do the math. That was some serious emotional eating after what felt like part of me had died inside. (Sorry I'm getting off track a bit!) At this point I still weigh just over 300lbs. I'm hoping that having my pictures posted will encourage myself to keep at it! This is going to be a long process but it's what I need and what I have to do....no ifs ands or buts about it. It's my time...


Any comments, thoughts or suggestions are welcome! emoticon

  
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ME_HERE_NOW 5/4/2010 1:58PM

    i know totally what you mean, i never saw when i got bigger and now i am making a real effort to try and see that i am getting smaller. how can our brains be so messed up? i think we all have that a-ha moment, we see a pic and finally SEE the real, true us. but it's not the real true us the moment we decide to make a change. sometimes i think things need to get so out of hand before we can truly take control of them, permanently. now is the time to release those feelings about the old you and take stock of the new you, how far you have come already and how you are going to keep pushing the positive healthy lifestyle change into your world.

also want to thank you for your support and encouragement on my activity feed!

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 4/24/2010 9:20AM

    i'm loving your bravery - it took me OVER 2 years of sparking before I could get up the nerve to take or even post ANY type of full body pic *sigh*

I can't wait for your progress pics girlie emoticon

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DASANI4ME 4/24/2010 2:44AM

    Good for you for even thinking about it; I can't even go there!
Best of luck to you!

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JACKIEHOYLE 4/24/2010 2:08AM

    I actually did the same thing today, but I couldn't put them on my page. I just hate the way I look. Maybe after I lose some weight.

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SPARKLING-REET 4/24/2010 1:53AM

    I know what you mean about the emotional eating. Me & my fiance started packing on the lbs 3 years ago when his dad was killed in a car accident. My weight was pretty stable until my grandma died in March '09, 3 days before my birthday. August '09, my fiance lost his grandma & 2 weeks later his grandpa. I gained 28 lbs in 9 mos & I'm only 4'11"!! 2009 was quite a stressful year! Death is a difficult & everyone has different ways to cope. Junk food was mine. I wasn't ready to make the change until Feb this year.

You can do this. It is not always going to be easy, but you have to remember that your dad would want you to be happy with yourself. You seem like you are on the right path. Don't get discouraged! Just focus on the positive and change will come. Best of luck!

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