Monday, July 22, 2013
I'm a firm believer in explanations don't excuse and excuses don't explain but, after being off the grid for nearly 8 weeks I should at least let you know I'm alive and well. I started using this Sonic Boom wellness tool through my company because there were all sorts of lucrative incentives attached. For a while, I tried to do my Spark and my Boom but, tracking on one website is hard enough to be consistent. Trying to do double tracking of food and fitness was stupid. I was completely overwhelmed and quit doing them both altogether.
That was the beginning of the end. I started sleeping in and almost overnight, one day became one week, and then one month. I was soooooo sluggish, I couldn't be motivated to move my body anywhere. My gym friends checked on me often but, after a while I was to embarrassed to go back. I started deleting their text without even reading the encouragement.
Of course, not tracking food and not working out leads to instant weight gain. Instant weight gain leads to wallowing and self-loathing. Enter negative self-talk and it's all down hill after that. I finally made a commitment to drag my larger hind parts down to the gym on Saturday at all costs. I overslept and miss the 7 am class. Farted around the house doing absolutely nothing and missed the 8 am class. Finally, I managed get into the 9 am land spin. The crazy fitness lady had all sorts of new tricks up her sleeve. It hurt like heck (actually still hurts) but I it felt good to workout. My attitude improved almost overnight.
I went back to boot camp this morning. I could definitely feel the impact of a sedentary lifestyle on my fitness level and started to go through the woulda, shoulda, coulda routine. So, now that is out my system. I am pumping water. I quit the Boom and gave up on the dream of winning free workout gear. As negative thoughts creep in, I am countering them with 3 positive affirmations.
I hope all of you have been fairing better and seeing lots of pounds down and fitness minute going up. I am looking forward to checking out the latest blogs and catching up. Even when I was around, I thought of you often. Blame the lazy brain and not the heart.
Time to get back to work on me.
Sparkle and Shining!