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Week recap

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Well despite keeping my goal in mind and doing the things I needed to do, I did not make goal which was 215lbs. I started the week at 217.0lbs and hit my low for the week of 216.8lbs on 2/6/13/ was very excited I would make 215lbs/ and then everyday after the scale went up and up. Today it says 220.0lbs. The good news is I know there is no way I truly gained 3lbs this week with counting my calories and working out an hour cardio 5 days this week plus 3 days of weights. The other factor is that my medication ran out that pulls out extra water weight. I drink 12 cups of water a day, and I am sure that has something to do with it. It must be a combination of the extra water and me starting weight training building muscle. I am definitely not trying to make up excuses BUT I am trying to keep my spark alive and be fair to myself!!! I could very well get depressed about what the scale is saying, but I know I am putting in the worok and logging in here everyday to keep myself motivated. I have to truly believe in and trust the process, that if I am doing what I am supposed to do, it will come off!

Things to hold in my mind is that I, myself can notice that my legs are more defined and tighter, meaning more muscle tone. My stomach doesn't poke out as much and a few of my new co-workers who barley know me are telling me they can tell I look smaller! Anything to keep the spark alive!

I'm not sure how to reward myself right now in this transitition. I may just reward based off of sticking to the right calories and working out the right amount of time. I really need some new workout pants and holding out based on the scale is starting to not be fair or seem like it'll be anytime soon. Plus after all this time I think my mind wants to be rewarded soon.

Thanks for reading!!!

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NOMOEXCUSES13 2/26/2013 12:30PM

    Whenever the scale gives you numbers you know are a little off...make sure you have something to utilize for non scale victories. Try on that pair of pants that was a little snug or do your measurements. So many factors play into the scale and what it gives us back. Hang in there! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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1DERLAND14 2/16/2013 3:03AM

    sometimes the scale doesn't immediately reflect the work we put in! Keep working and it will show!
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VERONICAVW_140 2/15/2013 4:11PM

    I'm so proud of you for not riding yourself for gaining weight. I like that you sat down and logically figured the gain instead of getting upset and thinking that all of your hard work was for nothing! I really admire that and will have to keep that in mind the next time I do not see a loss on the scale when I've been doing all the right things. Keep up the positivity!! :)

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ME_HERE_NOW 2/13/2013 5:14PM

    yay, you are doing fabulous, scale be damned :) reward yourself with workout gear and spark on sista!

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2JEN-MARIE 2/12/2013 4:43PM

  You deserve a reward for sure! Weight is only one indicator of success, and you are right to take stock of the rest, like definition, how you feel, and how healthy you are overall. It sounds like you are doing all the right healthy things for yourself, so it might be time to forget about the scale for a while and focus on enjoying the other benefits you are getting from your hard work. Hang in there and get lots of HUGS this week!

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CLPURNELL 2/11/2013 7:55PM

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the scale will bounce around just focus on the work you are doing. try taking a day or two off and letting your body catch up!

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CONTENTCHRIS 2/11/2013 10:30AM

    The Scale is the DEVIL!

(says like Bobby Buchay's Momma)

Seriously though I try and only weigh in once a month the undue stress your placing upon yourself is just not healthy for you.

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SYZYGY922 2/10/2013 8:58PM

    It definitely sounds like water weight related to your medication, like you say. Glad you're staying positive. You'll get there!

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 2/10/2013 4:38PM

    Stay strong and emoticon

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PRETTYPITHY 2/10/2013 4:32PM

    Reward yourself early and often! emoticon I came up with rewards for monthly weight loss goals but then I just started creating new ones based on other things I've done right. Streaks are definitely a good thing to reward yourself for! You have so much to be proud of! emoticon

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LOVELYW14 2/10/2013 3:41PM

    I think you are right about the water weight. It doesn't sound like excuses especially if you have been doing all the right things! Keep up the hard work and I know you will see great results soon! BTW..this was very inspiring! emoticon

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MAMAJAHMAI 2/10/2013 1:39PM

    I think you've packed on some muscle. And honestly that is better than scale weight loss. While scale weight loss is great , the sexy toned muscular form looks way better, and the body is healthier and stronger. Your healthy regimen and serious cardio and strength workouts are definitely working, even if the scale is slow to recognize it. Great job GF!!!! emoticon

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MEXGAL1 2/10/2013 12:54PM

    Just keep thinking of how good you feel and about making those new healthy lifestyle changes.
You can do it!
Have a terrific Sunday.

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Goal for week 2/4/13-2/10/13

Monday, February 04, 2013

Good morning everyone,

I weighed in this morning 2/4/13 at 217.0lbs making me down a total of 5.6lbs since 1/3/13. It was slowly but surely and all those little losses added up and I can say I loss 5.6lbs, which actually sounds really good to my ears right now. That's amost 6lbs in a month, not shabby at all.

My goal for this week is to go from 217lbs to 215lbs, which is very reasonable, so that is what I am shooting for.

Of course I will keep weighing and updating.

Everyone have a great week!

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1DERLAND14 2/8/2013 7:08PM

    awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) STAY STRONG AND KEEP FIGHTING!!!!!!!!

You've got this :)

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2JEN-MARIE 2/6/2013 2:55PM

  Wonderful! It's those achievable goals that keep us on track and moving steadily in the right direction. You are doing great!

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CLPURNELL 2/5/2013 6:35PM

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That is a great month!!!

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MAMAJAHMAI 2/4/2013 9:41AM

    Strong and solid goals. You are doing so well!!!. Have a fantastic week!!! emoticon emoticon

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    Congrats and keep up the hard work. Very resonable goals you have set.

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Jan. 2013 wrap-up

Friday, February 01, 2013

I just wanted to do a recap of the last month real quick. I think doing a recap will help keep me accountable and get my mind right for this new month. I am thankful for new starts and each 1st of the month can be a new beginning.

Last month I weighed in on the 3rd at 222.6! YIKES! I was out of work for about 6 months, fell in love and enjoyed the holidays!!! It definitely caught up with me.

My goal was to be 210lbs by the end of the month. Today I weighed in at 218.8.

The grade I would give myself for this month would be a C+. I loss 3.8lbs and any loss is progress and great, but I give myself a C+ because the 1st half of the month I half did everything. I was either working out and not eating right or eating right and not working out, or just doing both moderately. It was only the last couple of weeks I really got serious and busted my butt, so I know I could of loss more.

So I am starting Feb. off at 218.8lbs. This month's goal is to be 210lbs by the end of the month. It does sadden me to know I put myself a month behind by half going at it but I can't look in the past.

When I reach 210lbs my reward will be to buy some new workout clothes. Which I really need. At 205lbs I will get a pedi and mani!!! Haven't had one of those in probably 8 months. I used to be the nail shop diva until I loss my job and learned I could live without them. So now it will be a treat!

Other things motivating me is a trip to Orlando this summer and buying summer dresses and possibly a new swimsuit for the occassion. That is exciting and I try to keep that in mind as a way to stay on track!

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day!
Thanks for reading!

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CLPURNELL 2/5/2013 8:22PM

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ME_HERE_NOW 2/5/2013 2:15AM

    nothing like a concrete reason to stay on track! and hey, string the half of january together with the start of feb and before you know it you'll be at a month! keep it up girl, i think i am getting my mojo back too, lets do this!!

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LEANJEAN6 2/3/2013 9:42AM

    Oh you are so much like me--I call it recycled weight---I am at 208 this morning ---Hope it is DOWN to-morrow----We CAN do this--Yu too!-Lynda emoticon

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WATCHMEGO2 2/2/2013 6:55AM

    I weighed in for Feb 1 at 219.0 pounds and my goal for the end of the month is 210 as well. We can do it girl! I'm here for you if you need me. take care.

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SPARKEDLIFE 2/2/2013 5:39AM

    Seems you have a good plan. All the best.
January was also not so easy for me especially because of the holidays but luckily i have only gained 4 pounds.
Looking forward to a kick azz february.

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ECHAVEZ2 2/2/2013 12:39AM

    It's great to analyze where you can make improvements and work toward those improvements. emoticon I didn't make my weight goal also, so now I know that I must stick to the plan, avoid emotional eating at all cost. Take a ride, a walk, or get in some squats. Another strategy I'm incorporating is keeping apples, celery, cucumbers, and carrots sticks available. These crunchy snacks may hold be through an emotional ride and curb the hunger pangs. So, girlie, get out there, put some strategies that will help you cross the finish line this time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

Kudos on the -3 lb loss! emoticon

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LUVGOODMUZIK 2/1/2013 10:52PM

    Please don't be saddened about that "being a month behind" stuff. I had to stop myself from thinking about how I would be at my goal weight or beyond if I hadn't stopped cold turkey back in July.

I wil also be going to Orlando this summer and I plan on being a tube toppin', spaghetti strappin' and shorts wearin' fox with no worries. Back fat be gone! emoticon emoticon

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My Truth!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

The only way I AM going to get to where I AM going is to be honest. And here are my truths that I have to face and put on the table.

Black and white truth: My lowest weight was 187-189lbs. Held briefly. Substained low, 194lbs.
Black and white truth: The last time I weighed on 1/8/13, I weighed 219.8lbs.

I have many stories, reasons and excuses, some are even pretty reasonable and make since why I would have gained. But I have to be real with myself. At the end of the day, no matter what the reason, I am up way too much. I want to go into a spill of my stress and not working, not having a routine, etc., which makes since for a gain, BUT my body doesn't care!!!! My knees don't care!!!, my heavier breathing don't care. All my body knows is it is harder to function and my clothes don't fit anymore!!!

And the facts are the facts. 189-219. Period.

Getting real with myself. First step. Period.

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NICKB1978 1/22/2013 3:42PM

    Lady I am right there with ya!! I told my bf at the end of December that if he enjoys cooking for me then he would have to cook "clean" for me or I will just make my own food. But he decided to cook clean. I was still eating clean but it was 50/50 and not 80/20 so I gained 9 pounds. ever since than I have been on it like white on rice!! last week was the first week I have done 5 runs in a long time. So lady it is OK it happens to all of us you'll be back on track when your ready to be!! :-) emoticon

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MZADAMS 1/15/2013 4:15PM

  When trying to change we have to realize that its not an overnight or easy process. You just have to eat healthy Most of the time. If you eat healthy for six days reward yourself with a (1) treat. Whatever you love that you know isn't good for you. But eat half of what you would normally eat and add something good for you with it. Me, I might have a large slice of veggie pizza with extra cheese and a nice salad. We just have to retrain ourselves on how to successfully lose weight and keep it off. Jennifer Hudson said it best, I love our extra large, extra cheese world we live in, Don't deprive yourself of your favorite foods! Eat emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Then have emoticon

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HIKER-SQUIRREL 1/14/2013 9:33PM

    Facing the problem really is the first step to getting back on track. With a little hard work, we'll be back into those clothes that don't fit. emoticon

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CLPURNELL 1/14/2013 3:50AM

    Hey we all slip up the thing is not giving up!! Being here accepting where you are and moving on is exactly what will get you where you want to be.

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LUVGOODMUZIK 1/12/2013 8:09PM

    This must be the week for reality checks because I had to "check" myself also.. after being gone for a long while.

Don't sweat it...or I guess we should if we want to see this weight come off.

Glad you're let's do this!

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CROWLEY123 1/12/2013 7:20PM

    Good for you! Honesty with yourself, first and foremost, is powerful.
Hold onto that truth. Work with it, wrestle with it, make it work for you!
You hold the only power that can effect a change, and right now you have that power clearly in your hands! Don't let go!

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CARPEDIEM_2009 1/12/2013 2:30PM

    We all go through a phase were we ignore our bodies, but once we realize what we are doing and stop the excuses, we get up and start again. You are on the right track, and I believe and know that you will get to where you need to be. I have been where you are my highest 305 and got down to 240 to gain back and now at 285 a 40 lb gain. Good Luck!!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 1/12/2013 2:09PM

    you arent the only one of us to slip and slide! i went from absolute low of 192 to sustaining 200, and now here i sit at 245 (oops!) all we can do is use each decision we make every day to turn it around. i am back to tracking food which keeps me far more accountable than when i don't, and when i've recovered full from this cold/flu combo i'll be back to working out, right now i am making it my mission to get my food in order so i'll be able to handle all the cravings that come with working out harder.

i am glad you are back so we can do this together! you have always had a way of saying 'forget the past and forget the future, live & work on the now!' so i will embrace that & move forward with you!

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By Grace and Grace Alone

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Hello all of my friends!

I am sorry for my absence. I have been gone a long time. I may have stopped in for a day or two here and there but for the most part I have been gone for many, many months. And in that time I have been dealing with a lot of things that I kept to myself.

These past 6 months have molded me into another person. I've learned a lot about people but more importantly I've learned even more about myself. On June 29th of last year I came back in from lunch walking towards my office when the HR director pulled me into his office and told me he had to let me go. And just like that everything that I thought I knew was shattered. I knew I wasn't a Case Manager, it was just what I did but why was it now, I felt like I didn't have a place anymore. That was the most numb, out of body experience. It just affirms my belief that we are all spiritual beings having an human experience. (I have noticed in the moments that hit us the hardest, it is like we are watching it happen, rather than actually it happening to us.) I was so numb but I still knew it hurt, the shock of getting my last check in my hand. I went directly to the bank and deposited it and then didn't know what to do. What do you do? I sat in my car, with my box of stuff in my front seat next to me for a little bit outside of the bank til I decided there was nothing for me to do... but go home.

And by Grace and Grace a lone, for He provided everything I would need to survive this journey to me, even in my darkest, hardest, scariest times, He provided a way, and put me back together a stronger, wiser, braver person. My eyes are open in a way they never were before. As hard as it was, I needed it. Everything has a purpose and a season. Nothing is by chance, luck, accident or coincidence. And you must know if He brought you to it, He already has a plan to get you through it AND, AND....listen closely make you even MORE fruitful and prosperous on the other side IF you believe He will. He is always waiting for opportunities to bless you and we so so so do not see his bigger plan with our small thinking but He always takes something out of your hands to put something better in it!

I am not going to lie and tell you this was not a hard time in my life. I don't think I will ever forget it. I did a LOT better than I thought I would. I wasn't depressed everyday or even most days. But I did have my days. What hurt the most was that I was REALLY good at what I did. That's what hurt the most. There were others still there that didn't work as hard as me, care as much as I did or make a difference as much as I did. The only way I could get over that pain was to know the Executive Director didn't make this decision, God did. But I still went through a lot of stress. Bills do not stop for no one. Thankfully I received unemployment but it was a lot less than I was making and not a permanent solution. Having to qualify every week was stressful to me, not knowing something was certain. But I continued a dialogue in my head. When I was uncertain I'd build myself up by telling myself God wants to make you abundantly fruitful. It is in the bible, it is how it was written, it has to be true. He wants to advance you, that a set back is just setting you up for a great come back... I just repeated the few statements I knew until I believed it or some days until it just made me feel a little bit better. Having some doubts still but able to let it go for the moment.

And grace came. In ways a person might not even recognize as grace. Grace came in my boyfriend saying the right words, being supportive and helping me with money (I had only known him a month when I was laid off), grace came when my non-mushy brother surprised me by buying me my favorite candle and bringing it over unannounced, grace came when my sister mailed me a package (bath and body works- body creams, spray and candles) of goodies I talked to her about saying I missed them because I could not afford to buy them anymore, grace came when the librarian let me copy 25 copies of my resume for free, grace came when my neighbor ended up working at the department of labor and saw me there and personally looked for jobs for me on their own time, grace came when my oldest brother needed someone to take his son to school and paid me, grace just kept on coming and coming. Some moments were so amazing I teared up. Like not being able to afford Christmas but coupons for a few stores came in the mail and I was able to get my mom and sister a few things for free! Those were my saving graces, the moments that I knew God was sending to carry me a long and that He wasn't going to give me more than I could handle. That I wasn't forgotten and that I wasn't in this alone. He was sending me my help as I needed it.

Not only am I a different and better person from this experience (what I define as self value and worth, who I surround myself around, how I spend money, etc.) but keeping my faith has blessed me with a higher paying job, better hours, better benefits and with more options for growth within the company I now work for. Today was my FIRST day working!!!

No matter what your circumstances are believe me that if you look for and expect blessings, God will give them to you. On his timeline but don't worry because it is always perfect timing. Always.

By grace and grace alone did I make it to the other side of my storm.

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MAMAJAHMAI 1/24/2013 6:14PM

    What a beautiful, lovely blog. Praise God. Thank you so much for sharing emoticon emoticon

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GIRLTWELVE 1/12/2013 2:00AM

  Wonderful blog. To God be the Glory!

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CLPURNELL 1/11/2013 6:43PM

    I absolutely love this blog! You have come through a lot and come a long way. Know you will be able to do anything you set your mind on!!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 1/11/2013 4:44PM

    i hope there are many positive opportunities in store for you! sending love!

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KACYISWINNING 1/11/2013 10:45AM

    Wow! First of all welcome back and it is great to see you! God Bless you for writing this blog. I am so sorry that you were laid off but your outlook is what will help bring you into the next BIG thing that He has already laid out for you. Grace is a powerful thing that we don't deserve - but who knows where we would be without it?? Stay strong sis, I am praying for you!

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DIET_FRIEND 1/10/2013 11:08PM

    I lost my job a while back. Feel blessed to have my beloved husband supporting me. Totally know where you are coming from.

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