Saturday, September 11, 2010
I have a challenge today. I want to stay in bed all day; I allowed myself to do it yesterday but today i can't because i have things i must do and its only possible today; I have pain but most of all, I am overwhelmed and lost interest in anything, I can't seem to keep up with anything and i am on the verge of panic.
I lost clarity and focus.
This is mainly because for the last 3 weeks, I have been way way past my limits and I knew it; I wanted to accomplish a few goals I was very passionate about; I wanted to complete certain chores lingering and I wanted to get to a clean slate to be able to breath in the next few months.
Not only is my slate seemingly completely cluttered but im exhausted and don't know what the f* I found so passionate about most of those things. A clear sign that i am not in my right mind right now.
I keep walking cuz i hope that clarity will eventually return and i don't want to jeopardize anything.
However I know that this is not the right way to do it.
Looking forward to meet with my coach on Tuesday.