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One Step @ A Time

Friday, January 20, 2012

OK, so.... I am doing much better this week. I did manage to meet my first goal last week of working out 5 days and this week I have stayed true to that goal as well. I am starting to feel more of a "spark" and... also... I feel my goal weight IS achievable.... as long as I stick with it. It is definitely possible for me to reach my goal THIS YEAR... and that makes me feel excited. I CAN do this on my own.. I CAN be a healthy weight... I CAN DO IT!!!

I have managed to meet my goal for 2 weeks in a row ( working out 5 days a week) so... with that, I am adding on another goal.. a goal which I masted the first 1/2 of my weight loss... WATER.... LOTS OF WATER.... NO OTHER DRINKs... WATER ONLY... I CAN do this. I don't drink anything else usually anyways, except coffee - darn your caffeine deliciousness.... but... b/c it's a diuretic it is not good for working to my water goal b/c I will just have to drink even MORE water. I love water and all but... dang. Anyhow, so, that's my goal for the next two weeks... Working out 5 days a week and meeting my water goal. I'll let you know how I do, then I will add on another goal after that... and another after that and.. pretty soon I will be well on my way!!!! :)

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BENNY2284 1/20/2012 12:27PM

    I have to push myself to drink water as well. I sometimes think I have a lack of drinking problem. I just forget to drink. When I get onto my drinking water kicks water gets kind of boring.

Have you though of adding citrus wedges or even some fruit in the bottom to add some flavour to your water. Or what about teas?

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SHERYLDS 1/20/2012 12:21PM

    •“There’s a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstances permit. When you’re committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results.” ~Unknown

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I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do.
I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do.
I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do.
I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do.

I need to just keep repeating this... over and over and over until something soaks in.

So... along with the holidays & my wedding came an extra ten-ish pounds. soo.... disappointed in myself. I am so so... sad.

Now, here I am.. back right around the 200 mark... where I never thought I would be again. UGH.
I know what needs to be done. I know how to eat clean. I know the exercises I need to do so.... why can't I get out of this funk. I mean, today is the first day this week that the voice in my head won over the voice at the gym... but... I feel terrible. I know I have to let go and move on I just... I am having such a HARD HARD time getting out of this funk. I know the frame of mind that I need b/c I got it 70 some pounds ago... but... I can't get there..... I know if I can just get through a week or two of consistent workouts I will be well on my way and that frame of mind will snap back... so, why am I feeling like it's so hard? Am I scared of ACTUALLY succeeding in this final half til my goal? I don't know... but, I am feeling overwhelmed.. so... I am going to type out "I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do." and put a copy in my bathroom, kitchen, etc. where ever I need to so It can keep reminding me. I need help.

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JKJEE10 1/14/2012 3:15PM

    Beth! You can do it! I think that is the BIG problem..I think as people start to hit their goal that they get afraid of actually hitting that goal. I had lost 56 lbs and got to a weight I had not seen in YEARS..And then..I just stopped and now have gained back that 56 lbs plus...I am not happy...I am miserable with what I did..I am starting again but just remember that no matter will not be happy gaining back the weight EVER. You can do this! You already have done AMAZING!! Try to remember that it is ONLY 10 lbs! If you keep going and get out of this funk then you will have won! It's harder to gain back more and then realize that now you have to work hard all over again just to re-lose weight that you have already worked your butt off to lose. I know you can do this and I am rooting for you every step of the way!! I always talk about what you have done to my sister and how amazing you looked when I saw you at Sarah's Tupperware party!! Keep doing it!! Kristen

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ELLAREE57 1/14/2012 1:47PM

    You can do it...think about what has changed......remember doing the same old thing gets you the same old results whether it was good or bad. bad gets bad good gets good. Think!

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SHERYLDS 1/11/2012 2:24PM

    In all your adversities there lies the seeds of equivalent advantages. In every defeat there is a lesson showing you how to win the next time.

don't repeat it

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A year from now, you may wish you had started today

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

"A year from now, you may wish you had started today"- Robert Schuller

Gosh, how that quote just resonates with me. There were so many times I would see photos and think - Gosh, if I would have just stayed on track last year instead of giving up, I could have been at my goal. I always wished I would have started the year prior. And now I think about where I was a year ago and far I have come since then.... and it's crazy. I am so glad I finally realized just how important this journey was to me and have worked toward it. I'm about 84 pounds down from my highest weight, losing about 57 lbs of that weight since January. I wouldn't change it for anything. I have been semi-slacking lately.. going to the gym 4 days a week instead of 6, slipping up at bbqs and parties with bad choices. But the things I have learned this year I can't and don't want to take back. I can't help but naturally look at the label of something, even if I do decide to eat it. And overall I make healthy choices.. and they don't even seem like a huge task anymore... it just comes naturally. I naturally don't eat pasta anymore, I naturally take the healthier of two options, etc. I have learned that I succeed if I prepare, so I have learned that I need to prepare. I know the initial few months of this journey, when most people first give up, are the HARDEST (you think) but I encourage people - don't give up. Get back up, try again tomorrow. If it takes you 5 years to get to your goal, well, at least you'll be there! Don't try to rush it... now, I'm not saying eat whatever you want and slack off... but if you fall, just get up. It's the BEST thing you can give yourself. Mine is the gift that keeps on giving - every time I see the numbers go down on the scale, every time I see somebody I haven't seen in a long time and don't feel like they're thinking "WOW, SHE GOT FATTER" and every time I complain b/c I have to buy smaller jeans ;) Just Keep Getting Back Up. You can have this if you want it. Research, knowledge is power. I cannot say that enough. Once I started really, REALLY learning about food and nutrition, it made so much of a difference. Once you know WHY, it's a lot easier to do. I still have a ways to go (about 55 lbs) but, it doesn't seem as daunting anymore, it seems achievable, which I like... and I don't feel like I need to lose it by tomorrow or next week. I know that if I do what I am supposed to do, even if I go through a plateau or a slacking period, As long as I am always working toward my goal and I get back up... it is achievable. Anyhow, I love quotes that are inspiring. They help keep me focused and when I'm having a bad week, help me to remember why I am going through this to begin with. Enjoy :)

"Listen closely: the only time it's too late to change yourself is when you're dead. Until then, you're simply making excuses or lying to yourself."

"Start doing what's necessary, then do what's possible, and suddenly you'll be doing the impossible! "

"Never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."

"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your Destiny." Frank Outlaw

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RCW0442EHS 8/9/2011 3:46PM

    Love the quotes. I've spent the week slacking and this is probably just what I needed to hear. Also, great job on your loss so far, the last 50 will be gone before you know it. Keep it up.

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NATTY0488 8/9/2011 12:24PM

    I love complaining about buying smaller clothes!!

It sucks, but it's a good suck, lol.

I don't really have the money to afford new clothes every month, but the fact that I need them because mine are too big is AMAZING!!!

Keep it up!!!

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PAWSINAZ 8/9/2011 10:41AM


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Goodbye Fat Beth

Friday, June 17, 2011

I'm not sure what to call my blog post today.. so I'll leave it blank until the end.... So.... in the last 5 or so years... you would NEVER catch me in a dress, let alone shorts or Capri's... I just didn't want to wear anything other than pants for fear of embarrassing the people around me and feeling just.... gross... Anyhow... I would like to proudly say that I went to a wedding last Friday and.... I WORE A DRESS!!!! (and cute heals too!!!) Oh man... I felt so... pretty and was AWESOME.... okay, so my main story is this....

My fiance was taken to the dance floor with all the 'single' guys (he is NOT single! lol. But apparently you have to be married to get out of it) and ended up catching the garter.. I had no plans of going up there until finding out he caught it... Lol. great... now I HAVE to catch it (Can't let another girl get it!!)! The back story here is that previously.. I was one of the girls who hid in the verryyyy back of the crowd of girls and even if I caught it back there, I always had plans of dropping, running away from, doing anything to get away from THAT plague of catching it and being embarrassed b/c ALL eyes were on me.. Uh. NO THANKS... I would always say.... but... this time was Sooooooo very different. After I caught the bouquet, the DJ proceeded to tell me that I would be putting the Garter on Cye. LOL... greeeaaaat... So, the music came on, I danced a little toward Cye and started to put it on his leg... ERRRPPPP. the music goes off as the DJ tells me to RESTART! My little quick dance wasn't enough.... "Alright"... so, the music came back on and I restarted.. this time... I didn't care.. I was having fun ad I just let go. I got into the music, did a little dance, and ACTUALLY HAD FUN! (I even flung my shoes off, LOL) Everybody loved it and... it was a VERY exhilarating experience! For so long I have NEVER wanted any eyes on me b/c I was so ashamed of how I looked.. this time, I didn't care. I really did just have fun... I was..... ME. It was... phenomenal...I loved it.

Afterwards, it got me thinking... I really had fun... I didn't care that there was dozens upon dozens of eyes watching me be silly, b/c it was all in fun. I didn't feel like people were whispering about my weight. I wasn't "Fat Beth" I was.. "Beth". Fat Beth would have cringed at the thought up being in front of a small group, let alone a big group like that. Fat Beth has been around for so long that she forgot that Beth likes to be silly and have fun. Fat Beth was always too worried about what people might say. Fat Beth let people walk all over her - she was a push-over. Fat Beth never wanted to make anybody angry. She was too scared that they might make fun of her.. and even worst, they might not LIKE her! *GASP* She wanted everybody to like her. She wanted everybody to like her as she was.... but the problem is.. no one KNEW who she was... b/c Fat Beth isn't real... Beth is real. Beth is ready to learn who her true friends are. Beth is ready to stand up for herself. Beth doesn't care if she makes somebody mad b/c she speaks her mind. Beth wants to have FUN! Beth was tired of standing on the sidelines being envious of everybody else who didn't have this problem. So, for the very first time in a looooong time, I felt.. normal. I felt like me.. and I LIKED IT! It was AWESOME.

I don't think anybody will ever understand how I felt.. and how BIG of a deal it was for me to do that. Cye even said he was shocked that I even did it. Don't get me wrong... I Know I still have a long ways to go, I'm only about 1/2 way there... but if that's a taste of the confidence to come... I will take it! lol. So, with that, I would like to say goodbye to Fat Beth. She doesn't belong here anymore. She was always so negative about self image... and I am going to keep on letting her go, the more and more chances I get. However, I will never forget her... b/c without her I wouldn't have started to learn about eating healthy. If I was 'blessed' with a naturally decent figure I would probably eat a bunch of JUNK all day long and have no idea what was up with the processed crap I was putting into my body. So, in a way, I am thankful that I have been given this opportunity to learn so much about food and my body. It really is an eye opening experience once you start to learn. Amazing. :)

*I am sorry about referring to myself in the third person. It was the best way I could describe my thoughts... kind of odd I know... but I'll take it!:)*

To wrap things up... here's some pics!!!

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VANESSA2200 6/17/2011 5:55PM

    Congratulations and you look wonderful in that dress!

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LILMANN 6/17/2011 3:35PM

    You look fabulous! Congratulations on letting go and having fun. It's easy to get caught up in self image and bad attitudes, but we're missing out on so much when we do. Also...I love that dress! :)

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MYCUTEGIZMO 6/17/2011 12:12PM


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MAJOR Milestone!!!!! (EDIT!)

Thursday, June 02, 2011

Today I stepped on the scale to reveal........... 199.6 pounds(may not seem like much to the skinny minis out there, but it's a major thing for me) !!! FINALLY, under 200 lbs!! Makes me very happy.... It's been..... at least 3 years (maybe even 4... I'm having a hard time remembering) since I have been here.... it feels good... I have to admit.. I am having a hard time believing it and weighed myself.. probably... 4 times... but it stayed the same under 200 number every time!!... that's 47 down from my January starting weight... and.... it's 75 pounds down from my heaviest weight!! Gosh it sounds kinda measly when I see those numbers..47 doesn't seem like much... but I'm on my way to my 100 lb weight loss goal! Since I don't have many pics on here of my before really, here's my most embarrassing:
Here's a photo I came across from me around my heaviest weight....

And here's a photo of me as of about a month ago. I don't really have any full body shots, but you can still tell I've lost some weight in the face

EDIT! Full Body shot -

I don't knwo why I haven't photo documented my weight loss... I just haven't... I have learned to hate being in front of the camera fully body and only behind it for so long... it's rare for me to have body shots..

I am really excited (even though the negative bitch inside me is trying to take over with her nasty thoughts about failure! ugh. I won't let her win!) and it's been really hard.. and it continues to get harder to lose the weight, but I haven't given up! June is a special month because I joined a gym (again!!) around June 21st of last year.. and it's the first time I have actually still been using that membership a year later instead of just paying the fee!! I did some slacking last year... but I have definitely gotten my money's worth this year! YEAH for consistency!!

I was talking to my Fiance, Cye (my ROCK!! My biggest supporter!!), last night and he was telling me how good I look and how proud of me his is... and we were talking about the food we eat nowadays (don't get me wrong, I still eat bad stuff every once and again)... and I just said "I am so used to eating this way now.. it doesn't even bother me. I enjoy the food I eat now and I feel a HECK of a lot better eating well".... It's so true... everything they say about getting healthy is so true.. you just have to push that lazy ass self out of the way and TAKE YOUR LIFE BACK, GET IN CHARGE!! way easier said than done though, right?! lol

Also, Another thing I have heard some people say is that I'm an inspiration... which I an very flattered by.. but confused.. because whenever I consider somebody an inspiration... somebody like me does not pop into my head. lol. It's always somebody who is truly an inspiration... they did something amazing.. and I wish I could be more like them because they make it seem effortless to be so amazing... and what they're doing comes naturally in some way. I don't feel as though I am inspiring in any way. LOL... I feel like I complain wayyy more often than an inspirational person should. I feel like... this is so hard and takes so much work that there's no way anybody should want to take advice from me, who's failed so many times! lol. However, it does make me blush and makes me feel really good that somebody would consider me inspiring, whether I believe them or not! haha

I go see my nutritionist, Krystle, this evening... can't wait to give her the big news on my weight-loss. She has honestly been my key to success and has helped to keep my going on this journey this year!!

Just over 4 months until we get married in Jamaica!! SO excited!!

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HEALTHY_ME_JACQ 6/2/2011 12:11PM

  Congrats on making it to Onederland! I can't wait to follow in your footsteps. It must make you feel amazing.

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GRRARRGH 6/2/2011 10:19AM

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