Thursday, April 08, 2010
Okay, so I am back on track and woke up this morning to work out... I did Jillian's 30 day Shred.. that girl sure knows how to work it.... my goodness, she kicks my ASS!! She also lead the Biggest Loser workout I did last week, and boy oh boy... this one was no different.. immediately after I got done, my muscles were already sore!!! I have muscles aching I didn't even know existed!!! It's painful, but it's so beautiful! lol... Last night Cye seen me typing away on my Sparkblog and he stopped me to let me know just how proud of me that he is. He told me I am the most motivated person he knows... which made me teary because I don't see myself as motivated at all. It was really nice to hear something positive when I am so negative on myself.... He has been so so supportive to me and he has no idea how much that helps... He knows how badly I want this. He has watched me cry over it in desperation. He's sees my frustration. When I got teary eyed I told him "It's just so hard" and he said just told me he knew but that I was doing so good and he wished he had as much motivation as I do. It just helps. The positive comments and the positive feedback... they all just help so so much. I will keep going, because this is what I, Elizabeth Koren, want. I want this so badly. It's a daily struggle, shoot, it's a MINUTE by MINUTE struggle. but when I can go on my vacation next year and for years after that and wear a bikini it is going to be SO worth it!