Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Those of you who know me know exactly what this title means.It means I am very ticked off at myself. Yes my Food Demon beat me yesterday. He didn't just get out of his chains.He beat the poop out of me with them. And I have no excuse of any kind.I wasn't mad,sad,depressed,upset.etc,etc. I just had a bout of stupidity.To say I am embarrassed is putting it lightly.After being named as a motivator and receiving so many fantastic comments I screw it up. I was doing great til 10 pm and then it was complete loss of sanity. But yesterday is over and done with. I can't undo it or make excuses for it.I am going to put it behind me and concentrate on it not happening again for a long time.I went 34 days straight and then 7 days straight.But I now have 6 bad days. (The 6 days were scattered not in a row)
SO I am going to concentrate on some things I have been successful at.
My food plan is to loss weight by not starving myself by eating healthy low calorie foods with lots of volume when I can. I have not eliminated any food groups or foods. There are many foods I have chosen to eat rarely and some only on occasion. Either because they are not the healthiest choice or they have extra calories I don't want.
Here are a few examples.
1 Bread This is something that was normal to have 4 slices with butter at dinner and if Bill brought home a loaf of Italian bread we would eat the whole thing . If we went out we ate all the basket and more.
Now I never eat it with a meal at home and if we do go out rarely eat it there.It is only for when I have a sandwich. I never thought I could do that.
2. Potatoes.No meal was complete without a big helping of potatoes. My potato eating has been cut probably 80% or more. I fix Bill potatoes but I usually only fix a small amount just for him.We do have a baked potato once a week but we share it and cut it in half.
3. Pasta Another biggie. Purely because of calories I rarely have pasta. This once was a regular staple like the potato. I never realize how many calories it had until I started counting calories. I stopped putting it in soup .Once in awhile I will throw in 1/2 cup just to fool myself into thinking I have more. My daughter Angel and Grand daughter Brianna are coming to do some cleaning tonight.Brianna loves my goulash and asked me to please make it so I will for her. But I will make mine in a separate pan so I can control calories.
4 Eating out We use to eat out often. We have stopped. We were sharing a sandwich before grocery shopping on Fridays.But now that he is bowling again we aren't doing that.He does bring a subway by house sometimes but no longer brings any chips. Eating out is a nightmare for me.I did great the last time but usually it is just too difficult to control food and salt is so bad anywhere you go.
Ok my friends.I have written a book.I am sorry I let you down yesterday but it happens.It will happen again but not for awhile. I am putting extra chains on that little devil. In any war there are many wins and losses before final victory.And I will have victory in this war with my weight. You never lose until you give up and I have not given up by any means.I just had a bump in the road.