I am so aggravated at myself. Yesterday was my best day ever.I planned out what to eat and after supper was actually too low on calories but ended up at my range later.Was feeling good about the day and then it was downhill at a rapid rate.In a matter of 5 or 10 minutes I added another 600calories.( Yes Debbie it is very easy to do) And it could have gotten worse. I can't believe it.And part of what I ate is something I don't even like much.ALmost never eat it as I don't care for it. Go figure!!I know I am not only one that does these stupid stupid stupid things.And I am far from stupid but I can turn into a crazy person with my eating at the drop of a hat. It really stinks.After I worked so hard all day.For goodness sakes I even ate soup with chopsticks. I don't know why we do these things.I just know we all do it.It has not put me in a good frame of mind today tho.
And don't you just love it when someone says.If I did it anyone can do it. No No No. That is the last thing we want to hear when we are not succeeding. I think it is fantastic when someone has made it and they are an inspiration to me to try harder.But please Don't rub it in my face that I am not doing it. That sentence doesn't help me.It makes me feel worse. It would be like if I said to someone who smoked and was trying to quit that if I did it they should be able to do it.I have never ever said it because I know how hard it was and it takes some people a long time.
Ok I guess I am finished venting.Please don't be offended.I am just @#%*#@ at myself. I hope I can use these symbols.I found out the other day you have to be very careful what you say.Some words other than profanity are not allowed.I used one by accident and found out real quick.But that is good to know someone is monitoring for bad stuff.
i did get my soup out of easy reach first thing this morning.I have started drinking one cup of decaf coffee each morning and while I waited I bagged up all the rest of soup I made into 2 cup bags and put in freezer.If it is easy to get at it when in fridge and I will get into it when I shouldn't.I can eat it cold.But in freezer I have to take it out.Defrost it and heat it.Better control.So you see.Even tho I am not happy with myself I am still working on ways to win this battle.
I have a saying that hangs near my computer that says You Haven't Failed Till You Give Up ! I have not give up by no means.Just ticked off at my actions last night. But today is a new day.I will not have a repeat of last night.
The nut crackers still aren't boxed up.They are the last things to put up.It will only take a few minutes and I will do it before Bill gets back.Then we will see how long it takes him to put everything away. He has gone to a big car show today that happens once a month about an hour away from here.
Ok I feel some better after venting. On to a good day. This guy was just in tree watching .
Want to have some fun try eating sliced banana with chop sticks.Dropped about 5 slices before I could get it to my mouth and finally stabbed 2. LOL Did not eat that guy fast that is for sure. Make sure bowl is under you so you don't lose the slices.
Where do I start. Well the scale was down some so that is good.I stayed within my calorie range yesterday.I touched base with all spark teams,friends,plus myspace and facebook.Now have to get it all done for today.
My friend Mickey found me .We were on a message board many years ago and have kept in touch a few times a year.Now we are both on spark and she is even on one if my teams.Spark bookworms. That was kewl.
I still don't have Christmas stuff put up.LOL I am looking at nutcrackers as I sit here.But I will put them in box shortly.Then only front tree which has no ornaments ,only ribbons is left.Will not take long for that and Bill will do most of that.Then I have to bring back stuff I took off of bookcase and table.I am in no hurry.
Made a big pot of my home made soup.And guess what?????
You can eat soup with chopsticks. Have to drink broth tho.
I was up in the middle of the night and decided to try to find some better chopsticks.I have 3 different pairs coming. All three are different.One actually has a small knife and the other half has a fork on one end. All three pairs are dishwasher safe. If they work out I know where to get more so I always have a clean one to eat with. After I finished the order I saw another pretty pair.
Ok I have to do some other stuff on here and then this and that and this and that. Plus gotta go do my arm exercises.
PS I stuck pictures of the chopsticks I ordered throughtout blogg
I hope I got to everyone.If I missed anyone I will get with you tomorrow.
Bill did great on his first time bowling on a league.He got 258 on one game which is his best game.He is averaging over 200 now.He had a great time and was very excited when he got home.I was so glad for him.
I tried to find some more chop sticks today.I went into a small local chinese restaurant and they gave me 2 pairs but I don't like them.The one pair I have is much better. I am doing pretty good using them.If I get too good it will defeat the purpose of using them.. Slowing down how fast I eat.
Well I still have groceries to put up.Boy it is expensive. I got more strawberries as they will be one of my main fruits this week.
So far I am doing good on eating and keeping calories down.
KaliMEra tiKanis (Good Morning How are you) PS I don't speak Greek.This is about all I know LOL
I was very happy to see I got my weight down to where it was last week.It took some doing.My weight sky rocketed over the past weekend and have struggled all week to just get back to last week. So I am the same as last week but I know I lost. I did the best on calories yesterday that I have done in weeks.So I think I am back on track.But I can't let my guard down as it sure goes up much faster than it comes of.
Am making a few changes here and there. But staying much as I was before because it worked. I have stopped putting several light snacks in my bowl ahead of time.I have it ready to put in bowl but waiting til bowl is empty and only having one or two things in there.Am eating more strawberries as they are in season here.Four very large ones are only about 45 calories. But staying with cucumbers and tomatoes as they are low in calories.
I also got some thick pretzels for when I crave crunchy.Four are120 calories which is high side for a snack for me but it stops a binge into high caorie chips. May check out smaller pretzels. I do not eat them every day. So I am adding and changing foods a little. I still love my soup and need to fine tune that better still. I have been using the new Healthy request ones that are only 100 cal a can.But there are only 2 and it is mostly broth. I find if I make my own it is better but I eat more at one time.So I am working on that.
Since I get up late I have started eating less at breakfast as I can eat again soon. So that lets me eat more at lunch to get me farther in afternoon. Planning Planning.It does take planning and effort.I get tired of it but I want the weight off.And I am only one that can do it.
Ok I need to go work on grocery list. Hubby officially started his semi retirement today.He will only work 4 days a week and bowl in a leaque on Fridays. I am very happy for him.I wish we could afford for him to completely retire but just can't right now.Plus he is still fairly healthy and needs to stay busy. His job is not physical so he can keep working for a long time.Next he will go down to 3 days but not for some time.
Ok off to work on grocery list.We are going this afternoon so he can have tomorrow to do stuff he wants to do. Christmas stuff is almost done.Will have it finished by tonight.
Have a good day
PS I forget to mention that I am eating with chop sticks most of the time now.It will slow you down for sure. When I get real frustrated I just stab the food They don't work for soup tho LOL
Just a quick hello as hubby is going to help me put up the Christmas trees. I will miss the lights as I do like them.My lights have been on every since I turned them on.They make great night lights.
Ok I will have to come back later as he keeps talking.LOL
PS Karyn I looked up moari