Today I saw mt heart doc and we discussed several things. Whether the news was good or not all depends on how you look at it. It wasn't exactly good news but it was not surprising news. I do have a couple of options when I go into the next stage of CHF. One is a new pump and battery pack. The pump is put in internally and battery is worn on outside of body. It would mean the end of showers and pools. Not an option I want.He brought it up about a year ago and I still don't like it. The next is a heart transplant which I am not a candidate because of my weight. If I lose another 50# I can qualify but You can't have a transplant if you are 65.I have a year to lose weight but I don't know if I qualify as long as I am stage 3 CHF. Stage 4 is when you are pretty much not able to do anything. He thinks that mentally I am a good one for a transplant. I am not so sure about that. I didn't take it too well when i first found out I had to have the defib/pacemaker. Had to really talk myself into that one.
I already knew that he told Bill 5 years ago to start preparing himself as I couldn't possibly last much longer. I asked him today how long someone had that was at stage I am at.He told me I was already off the charts.Meaning I shouldn't even be here and certainly not doing as well as I am. So once we got all that out of the way we went over the fluid problem.I am already taking 4 different diuretic. He suggested we increase the one med that has a diuretic in it.I nixed that as we tried it a couple of years ago and it drove my blood pressure so low I couldn't do anything. So I will be increasing the med I have been taking extra of but every other day. Will see how that works.
Other than all that everything is honky dory Might as well laugh about it.
He was surprised that I was doing some exercising.I had to tell him what I was doing. He said he had heard good things about the zookinesis. He isn't worried that I will hurt myself as my body won't let me do anything strenuous. Can not do aerobics at all.
So nothing has changed. Just know what options are there once I take a turn for the worse.
Sounds bad but it's been like this for a long time. We just talked about it a little more.
It was a beautiful day outside today. Plan on going to Home Depot tomorrow afternoon for more butterfly plants. One of my nice desert roses died today from the freeze.Hopefully it will be the only one. It turned to mush from the inside.
Well I will end this on a good note.
I did not get up til very late this morning.This fluid problem is working on me. I see heart doc tomorrow.
I did get my hair cut but still have to get in shower and get all those pesky hairs off.
On my way there I saw a big pelican sitting on side of road but couldn't stop. So on way home I was watching for him. I saw several cars where I had seen him and as I went by I looked and a lady was sitting on ground next to weeds trying to hold onto the bird.That means just one thing.The poor thing probably had fishing line in his winds and she was trying to free him.What a great time to get some good photos and I had my good cameras with me. But no. Not to be for me. As usual my body kept me from doing something I wanted to do.Just before I got to spot all of a sudden my bladder was about to burst.No way could I stop. I made it to my driveway but not into the house. This is crap that happens to me all the time.No wonder I hate to leave the house. So I had a great photo op that I had to pass on.
Oh well There will be another day.
I will have to settle with the pics I took in front yard.I have had the one plant forever.It got cut way down when we closed in the porch but it has some beautiful flowers on it today. The red one is Bill's plant he got for arch.He has to get it in the ground.He has two of them. I didn't take a pic but I have another yellow rose that has a pretty bloom.I love seeing the bright colors.
I did well yesterday. I exercised and only went over my calories by 50cal.Big improvement.
I have also done good today with eating. Another stop at fast foods but did much better than the other day. I went thru my book and picked out 4 chicken mcnuggets and small fry which came to 420 cal.Less than at Burger king and meat was like breast meat.Burger Kings were not good. Came home and had a tomato and cucumber as a snack later on.
I still have to get my exercise in.
Made a huge pot of soup so supper will be low cal. Will bag it up later when it cools.
Angel and Brianna are here to clean.House needs it.
Ok can't think of anything else right now.I am doing much better with eating so I am happy about that. Hopefully the doc and I can come up with a plan to better control fluid.
Hope you all have a great evening
Did not sleep well last night but thats nothing new.
I have done better with getting back on track today. I did exercise today and I did track all my food. I didn't feel like cooking so Bill brought home a subway sandwich.Only problem was he also brought home some potato salad. But overall I have done much better today.
I watch DWTS's last night. It was interesting for sure. I was hoping Kate G would do better but she wasn't very good. Pamela Anderson had all the men drooling all over themselves. It will be interesting to see how she does in a more ladylike dance. The football player is going to be very good. The skater and singer were just as good as was expected. The blond sports gal wasn't as good as they were saying. I didn't think so. Poor Buzz was terrible. Buzz's partner is one of my favorites.She has been gone for a few years.She never gets a good dancer. I noticed some other regular dancers missing. I will tape it next week so I can buzz thru bad dancing.
Did anyone watch part 1 of Castle.Wow. Now we have to wait til next week to see how the cop survives.
Here is a picture of the blimp over the Transition golf tournament.We were on deck reading and I decided to take the pic.
It has been a beautiful day today. I sat outside on deck for awhile.Am trying to do that every day it is nice.
I get my hair cut tomorrow and the doc the next day. So I will be out and about more this week too. I much rather just stay home.
Ok have a good evening my friends.
Whew. Will get this started but may have to come back to finish.
Saw the booby doc today. Could not get up on table so she checked them with me sitting. I did tell her all about Sparkpeople and she is going to check it out.I have no doubt she will check it out and then recommend it. What doc wouldn't after looking at it.
I had to take extra diuretics yesterday. She could hear just a little fluid in lungs today. I knew most of it was gone.It just won't stay gone.
I didn't eat lunch so I decided to stop at fast food and get something little. I have a calorie king book in car that has all the restaurants in it. So I pulled into a Burger King and parked in parking lot and went thru book comparing it with Micky D. I finally decided on a kids chicken tender meal which showed low calories. Unfortunately I learned another lesson. The calories were for just the chicken.It had a rather large small fry in it. So instead of less than 300 I was close to 600. Another lesson learned. But I am still giving myself an A because I did sit and look for the best one. It just turned out not to be the best one. It won't happen again. But I rarely get anything at fast food anyway. So I did good and bad.
You have all got use to me talking about all the atta boys that Bill gets.WELL He got an aw sh-t today. I rarely go anywhere but I always keep plenty of gas in car. He used it most of last week.I got in it and I was almost out of gas. He met me at station and put some in for me so I wouldn't run out. He just made a trip out to grocery store so he is back in good graces again.
Still having a lot of trouble with fluid.See heart doc thursday . May have to take extra diuretics more often to stay ahead of it.
I have not been doing well with eating or exercises. But I am working on doing better. It is just so hard when you feel so bad in so many ways.
To quote from the spark calendar today
Being defeated is often temporary;giving up makes it permanent"
I have not given up.Just feel somewhat defeated. But I shall do better. Don't give up on me.
I am looking forward to the new Dancing with the stars.It should be interesting.
It was so nice to see the kids even if it was a short visit.We did not get to see much of Alyssa when she was little but Heidi and Scott do all they can to be sure we are in Landon's life.
The weather was better today and should be even nicer tomorrow.
My roses are blooming again.
This is first time I have got to see Landon walk. You can tell by my laughing that I was so thrilled to be able to see him walking. He is such a sweet boy. It was a very quick visit of just a few minutes but it was magic for me.
It is a dark dreary rainy day that was made so much brighter by having Heather,Heidi,Scott and Landon stop by.