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8/24 - Sunday - "Camping to Deal with Stress"

Sunday, August 24, 2008

My only escape, only time for me to get exercise, to have some peace, has been for me to go camping on the weekends and Labor Day weekend is the last weekend I will be able to go camping.

Camping, I am able to sit by the fire, eat a hot dog for dinner or lunch. I am able to hike, go for walks, fish, pray, think, not think, be with nature. I am finding that I can get away from things...It may be for just a couple of days, but is better than none.

Nature and being outdoors, brings on the ability to get some exercise, even though it still isn't the amount I normally do, it is better than none. It is healthy to camp, it is healthy to relieve stress, this is what I am having to do for now. Kids start school after Labor Day weekend! YEAH! That will relieve some more stress, I hope.

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SHANSHE 8/24/2008 10:54PM

    I am glad to hear that you have found SOMETHING to relieve some of the stress you have been going through and a healthy way to do so as well.

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8/24 Sunday "Hard to Eat Healthy"

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Well, if you have been following my blogs, you will understand this blog. "Hard to Eat Healthy"

Being on a tight budget makes it hard to eat healthy. I haven't been eating bad, nor great. During the week, I do so so, on the weekend, I do ok, but not my usual healthy eating. OK, here it is:

Hot Dogs
Eggs, Sausage or bacon

I've not gained, but I have not lost either. I can tell you, my appetite as been so so. I love roasted hot dogs over the camp fire. I have eaten in small portions, not lots of food, or lots of no no's, just very small portions.

Water, I seem to drink quite a bit of water too. I spoke to my nutritionist about it, and she agreed with me, my goals to be as they are, to get through, not hard, and increase as I am able. It is great and important that I am not gaining, this is a plus.

This will tie in with my next blog " Camping to deal with Stress"


8/24 - Sunday - Where to Begin

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Where to begin, I am not quite sure, I have so much running through my head. Learning, thinking, challenging, scary, sad, emotional, frustrated, angry, happy, praying, relaxing, stressed, tense, uptight, loving.exhausted, energized, tired..Well, that has been me, all of those feelings and more and pretty much on a pretty steady pace.

To start: Work: Well, I have had to work a lot of hours, I am exhausted and tired by the time I am able to log off from work. I just increased to more work, yes, more work added again. The person I back up and backs me up gave notice, so well, you can figure out, I get more work...the thought of it, well, that brings on a ton of emotions, feelings, etc.

Learning: Well, taking new stuff on, more stuff on, at work, well that brings on learning. Ok, aside from that, reassessing, or re-evaluating myself, I am learning. This as well brings on a lot of the emotions and stress.

Thinking: I am constantly thinking, yes, constantly. This brings on a lot of all the emotions.

Challenging: Work brings on challenges, my KIDS bring on challenges, finances bring on challenges, again, this brings on all of the emotions/feelings.

Angry: My frustrations with the kids, them being brats, it doesn't help. Anger about my boss quitting, then my co-worker, and all the changes, so I have anger about it too.

Stress: Well, that isn't good for me, my health.

Tense: You can imagine, all the stuff makes my shoulders tense, and makes me tense.

Relaxation: Well, camping, for the most part. My only time for peace has been the weekends "camping" - no phones, just the wilderness.

Dealing with everything, to help with the stress, I've made it a MUST to disappear Friday, as soon as I log off from work. You can't get me out of here quick enough. We've been heading out to the mountains camping. You can imagine, all of the different emotions, these all bring on "hard to eat healthy" and "LACK of EXERCISE.

My next blog "Hard to Eat Healthy"

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SHANSHE 8/24/2008 10:51PM

    Hmmm, this is not good... not good at all! Something is gonna have to let up for you nadine, i will be praying.

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8/12 - Tuesday - Doing Better, but still not all there.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Ok, it is Tuesday. I am now really tired, again, but my day has been better. I have logged my food - day two. No exercise. I don't have the strength after working all day. I did manage to arrange, clean up camper so it is ready for this weekend. Also, had my work review and found out my manager has resigned. I spoke with him today. I am not happy about it, but I understand and support his decision. I was really stunned at the news. I lasted longer today. Now I am cramping again and tired so this blog is going to be short. I am feeling better and coming out of the slump...I hope...I feel like I am.

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KRZYKAT3 8/15/2008 1:10PM

    Nadine, Glad you are going one day at a time. You will be up and running again soon! emoticon

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SHANSHE 8/13/2008 11:53PM

    You are doing great darlin'! Just keep on.

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250STRONG 8/13/2008 9:57PM

    Keep on with it. Sounds like you got a lot done. Sorry about your manager. You are kind to be supportive even when you don't like the decision. :)

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TRECECOOKS 8/13/2008 9:07PM

    Dear Jesus, I pray you will wrap Your arms around Nadine, give her sweet rest, and help her to walk thru the pain and keep working.

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ISURRENDERALL 8/13/2008 12:51PM

    Nadine....I am glad to hear you are starting to feel better.Hang in there my friend.Just remember give it to God.he wants to take your ashes and give you beauty in return.We are all here for you.Be blessed.

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ANDREA5KIDS 8/13/2008 8:47AM

    Today is the day that you feel GREAT!!! Try changing your page color to something bright!!! Take care spark friend...

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GMWAITE 8/13/2008 7:36AM

    Hey, nadine. Sorry to hear you are feeling punk. But, I know how you bounce back and I am quite sure that just a bit more time will give you back all your strength. Hang in there, sweetie!

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BELIEVE208 8/12/2008 11:22PM

    Hey Nadine - sorry to feel like I've been sorta MIA... not being able to get onto SP during my work day is going to take A LOT of adjusting! BUT I'm figuring it out and trust me - it's not gonna stop me. :-)

You keep taking care of YOU, you hear? I'm praying for you as I prepare for bed. Here's a VERY long distance hug!


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SHERYE 8/12/2008 8:28PM

    I'm glad to hear that your starting to feel better. I'm sure your manager had really good reasons for leaving and had trouble coming to the conclusion to resign, hopefully you had a good job review.
Take care of yourself.


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Visiting Myself - Discovery

Monday, August 11, 2008

Well, I have been doing a lot of thinking, reflecting about myself. It has been difficult. I amaze myself on changes I see in myself that are different from my past, and that no matter, how bad I may be feeling, I have been able to keep myself within reason. Before I would have just gone way over board. I may not have done what I should or ate what I should, but when I have had "what I call no no's" it hasn't been a lot. I made cereal bars, ate a lot of those, but it was better than eating those brownies that Shyanne made. Yikes...that would have put the pounds on me, I am sure. I had to take care of the cravings, but did it in a mild fashion. My portions are smaller and less then before. I am fighting inside myself to pick myself back up and get back into the groove of doing really well. I have also come to the conclusion, that going on vacation, doing so well, and getting so much exercise, and really expected to be down and not to be down was really disappointing, more disappointing then I realized. It really set me in depression, especially getting the phone call, getting more responsibilities, seeing people let go, and knowing that I could be let go at anytime, and this just all set off a whole set of patterns within me of depression and the I don't care attitude, or who cares attitude. Also, to come home to all that I did, too, with the kids, my animals, and stuff, really just plain made me crazy inside (best way I can think to put it). I know, as exhausted, horrible feeling inside of me, I am slowly pulling myself out. I feel so blessed to have the spark friends that I do and husband that I do, which is what I think has been helping me come out of this quicker or better. I am finding strength in ways I didn't know, yet lose strength in other ways, but for shorter time. I plan on keeping myself updated and everyone else by blogging when I can and today was a start to my logging. Well, off the blog for now as I have some things to do before shutting off and need to go to sleep too before it gets too late.

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ISURRENDERALL 8/12/2008 9:19AM

    Nadine...You are doing so great.You have made some wonderful changes.Like Shannon said sometimes it seems like everything hits you at one time and you are doing wonderful in handling it.You know we are all here for you whenever you need us.Be blessed.

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CJSTRIP 8/12/2008 9:12AM

    I think it is normal for all of us to hit these lows - I know I have been struggling for a couple of weeks now. I'm much better today - but a lot of it is just 'faking' it and trying to make myself believe that I'm strong, I've changed and I'm going to WIN this battle!!!

Fake it until you believe it - always has worked for me, so I'm falling back on what I KNOW works!

Sounds like you are pulling yourself out of the hole - be extra nice to yourself right now...


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ANDREA5KIDS 8/12/2008 8:39AM

    Gee- I wish I had the words to make you feel better. Time heals all wounds! Take care...

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DONANDMARY77 8/12/2008 8:22AM

    I think you have made some very significant breakthroughs! Way to go Nadine!

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SHANSHE 8/12/2008 12:04AM

    Nadine, sometimes everything hits us all at once and throws us for a loop, but you have recognized and are doing quite well at pulling yourself out, better than you realize, I think.

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