Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Some of you may have already noticed that I have changed my user id picture. This is me when I was at my ideal weight as to where my goal is set. I haven't been at that weight since I got pregnant with twins. There is so much talk about image, and on news, they were talking about avatar; how it is being used to help individuals lose weight...testing phase. There is a lot to be said about image.
My evening hypnosis/relaxation tape for weightloss, it talks a lot about image, vision of our new selves. The model, I left on my page too. But the real physical picture of me, I have on my refrigerator, and tried to scan and it won't scan because it is poloroid. Ok, I decided to get clever and use my digital camera and take a picture of it. It worked.
I decided that it is important for me to have it on my page and as many places as a reminder so I see me to what I am working for...my goal. The cool Avetar they were showing on news, you can exercise with this gadget on your head that puts you to where you are and as you are exercising, you see yourself get smaller and it showed that a person exercised on average 1 hour longer than on their own.
I look at that picture, and I was not fat...but when I looked like that, I was made to believe that I was fat, obese, ugly. I look back at that picture, I look at my beautiful twins, and wow, I really am pretty. I am not fat....but I sure am now....At least I am doing something about it now. I could go on and on about how I got to where I am, not all my fault, but some, but what is the point, the point is, I am doing it now.
My husband has a hard time thinking that I can do it, but he supports it and is fully supportive in helping me. As he has seen different people change, he said, well, maybe it is possible. Let me explain, he has watched me try and try in the past, and knows how I attempted so hard, but just get frustrated and end up down due to unexplainable things (medical).
He is encouraged by the support I get here at Sparks and the nutritionist, and how I am really keeping at it. He also doesn't want to see me get discouraged.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I am taking a break from work, logged in my food. I am not on my home computer so can't post a picture but will be tonight. I am really excited, I got on the scale, it showed me down 1 pound...I am 188. I put it in...I know it is not my weigh in, but I just couldn't help but to put it in. I was and am so excited.
I am going to stick to my adjustments....oh...this gives me some hope that just maybe, the ticker is starting to work again.... The flush (it seems to be working too). However, two days is not enough to know for sure.
For those of you that have asked, it is all natural ingredients. It is called "Flush the Fat" with "Internal Flush"
It cleanses the intestines. It also seems to be helping with lowering the cholesterol. I did consult with my doctor and he is monitoring this because he just knows that so far it is working. We did it very short time, then stopped, and now back doing it because we want to know if this is really working. My nutritionist is tracking it too with me. It says to do 6 at most. I do 1 each day for 3 days then increase to 2. If need to, will increase to 3. I won't do more than 3. You have to be on a good diet (Sparks) or (WW), it alone, will not make you lose weight.
I am just really excited to see the ticker go down one. I really hope by end of week it will be down 1 more if not 2. This will be a good start. Either way, I am happy!
Monday, June 09, 2008
Well, today I spoke with the nutritionist. She says I am doing great. She went through my food log with me. The plan is for me to decrease a little on the cardio, continue doing toning, try to increase protein a bit....and take my internal flush. We want to see what that does and if my scale will start to move. The problem we are having with my protein, is that, a lot of protein has fats that I need to watch and cholesterol which I have to watch. A couple of things could be going on,
1) not enough protein
2) too much cardio for amount of calories
This could be keeping my body in starvation mode. Either or both.
Rather than increase my calorie intake, because we both feel it is a good range, we want to try seeing if we could get the protein up a bit and cut back a little on the cardio. Also, taking the internal flush. It was the one thing I was doing differently when losing.
1) I was taking internal flush
2) My cardio was decreased down
What she and I are looking for, is that balance for my body to lose.
If by doing 1 & 2 doesn't work, then we will try the increase of protein, then increase of calories for amount of exercise.
One week at a time. Whatever we find to work, we will stick too. Today, I have done great with my food. I would have been over if I did full burrito at dinner. I figured it all out, then I went in and did 1/2 servings. So I will have 1/2 burrito tonight and the other half tomorrow. This will help with my protein and all and I am within my numbers. Although, we notice it brought up my cholesterol, still within range, but higher than normal.... Today, I am not supplementing with slim-fast, but will tomorrow.
I tell ya, finding the right balance is really difficult. She said, the big plus is, that I am NOT gaining. We realize that I want to lose, but the fact that I am getting healthier, have a great attitude, getting exercise, and NOT gaining, is a real PLUS. We just need to figure out how to get it being healthy balanced for my metabolism to lose.
The other positive side is, I will know what to eat healthy to maintain my new weight once I do achieve goal. She actually sounded more disappointed in the fact that I didn't go down seeing how well I am doing. She would have figured that I would have dropped some each week. She said she is glad I am so aware of my body and being so consciencious of what I eat.
I told her, that in the past, I would have given up by now, but am far from giving up. I have to credit this to Sparkpeople and my spark friends. If I didn't have the tools and support, I would have given up so long ago...at least by the 3rd week of no loss. I would have been so frustrated, felt that I had no one to turn, and just said screw up. So this is really different for me this time.
I even express how much I appreciate all the support I get from ya all! It really does make a difference. Now, if my scale and or inches would start coming back off!
:-)....It is sucky to report "No gain/No loss" but I am soooo thankful that it is NO GAIN. It really is a big plus.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Today, for breakfast, I had:
(2) 4" in dia. Pancakes with
1 tbsp of light SmartBalance Margine w/ Flaxseed oil
1 tbsp of pancake syrup
1 Cup of mixed fruit on top (not sweetened)
1 egg fried in olive oil
1 cup of watermelon balls
two cups of coffee.
I am off to a good start. For lunch, I will eat a light lunch and for dinner have a slim fast.
This should be good for the day. My evil troll is kicking inside because he wanted me to load my pancake with the bad margine and lots of pancake syrup, and oh boy, he wanted me to eat eggs. He just has too throw his fit because I really enjoyed my healthy breakfast. Note: I rarely eat eggs because of the cholesterol. I decided since I haven't had one in a very long time, and it was just one w/olive oil....it would be good for me. And the blueberry pancake mix only takes water.
I am really excited to see what this week brings me on the scale. I have a good feeling. I feel really great inside. One day at a time.
Monday, June 09, 2008
My evil troll that has no name lost the battle yesterday. He is asleep inside me now from throwing such a tantrum inside. I know he is trying to think up a new way to trigger something or trip me up, but I am on guard. You see, I started the internal flush, and he seems to not want me to take. I decided, since he doesn't want me to take, there must be something really beneficial happening that he tries to trip me up to not take. I made this really yummy dessert last night, hostess cake, fruit mix on top with a little bit of slim & trim ice cream! I logged it in as full serving, but only ate part of it and my hubby ate the rest. Plus it was healthy. But the troll was doing back flips wanting me to eat it and more because if the tiny bit of ice cream and the hostess shortcake. Tee Hee, I showed him. Then he tried to get me to not take my pill, but I did it without even thinking....It put him into tantrums, into complete exhaustion, to not wanting to wake up...at least not yet. I woke up feeling great. I slept really well, even with getting up twice through the night to go to the bathroom, I actually slept very well...Felt very rested when I woke up.
My evil troll, who has no name, absolutely hates it when I get lots or good sleep. He likes it when I am lazy, but he hates it when I get good sleep. Hmmm wonder why....Think I know, lack of sleep does a lot of harm to the body, more than we all realize. I will talk about sleep another time.
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