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Thurs, Feb 16, 2012 - Excitement - Go Red - A POSITIVE

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Wow, yesterday was day one of the Lime week. I weight same, wishing it was a loss, but it wasn't. I spent 4 days barely hanging on, but I got through it. Diana was ready to exercise so that is what we did, one hour of stair stepping! My eating was on track yesterday too. I was still in a funk of laziness.

I was supposed to go to a meeting, 5:00-7:00. I was asked awhile back to consider becoming an Ambassador for the Pierce County Go Red. I was invited to attend the meeting. I put it off to the last minute. Why?

I was scared. I was wanting to do it, but scared. I didn't know if I wanted to do a commitment. I wasn't even sure what it all was about. I planned to go. I told them I would go. Hubby reminded me and I said I was cancelling and not going. He said, okay. I went to store with him and came home. I got an email of reminder to RSVP.

The guilt was setting in. Part of me wanted to go and part of me wanted to stay home and hide. Part of me wanted to climb into my bed. I looked at the time and decided to quickly RSVP and head out for the meeting and boy AM I GLAD.

I am so so excited. I am already considered part of team. Received the Newsletter and am already listed as an Ambassador.

Ok, some of you may be wondering what is becoming an Ambassador.

Before I explain, I am now Pierce County Embassador for Go Red for Women.

It is part of the American Heart Association Learn and Live.

American Heart Association Go Red For Women Ambassador Program. "Celebrating the energy, passion, and power we have as women to band together to improve our health and live stronger healthier lives"

Program Overview:

Go Red for Women is AHA nationwide movement that celebrates the energy, passion and power we have as women to band together and wipe out heart disease and stroke. Thanks to the participation of millions of people across the country, the color red and the red dress symbol have been linked with the ability all women have to improve their heart health and live stronger, longer lives. The movement gives women tips and information on healthy eating, exercise and risk factor reduction, such as smoking cessation, weight maintenance, blood pressure control and blood pressure management.

Did you know that heart disease is #1 killer for women?


Go Red for Women Ambassador Program are volunteer leaders committed to raising awareness regarding women and heart disease and stroke. They are passionate about persuading women to take control of their own health. These leaders work to educate women on ways to love their heart and show them ways to start taking action to live healthier by joing the Go Red for Women Movement.

Duties of an ambassador include:

* Understand and embrace the mission of the AHA - building healthier stronger lives, free of cardiovascular disease and stroke.

* Unerstand and embrace the specific mission of the Go Red for women Movement to educate and empower women to take charge of their health.

* Raise awareness in your community and through your circle of influence.
****wear your red dress pin
****Pass out materials
****Share the message with everyone you meet
****Get women to join the Go Red for women Movement

*Serve as a local face of the go Red for Women Movement and inspire women to join you. Activities include
****Media Outreach
****Media Interviews
****Advertising Campaigns
****Photo Shoots
****Fashion Shows

*Attend as many AHA events as you can per year to promote the Go Red for Women movement, including the Go Red for women Luncheon

*Seek opportunities to speak out about the Go Red for Women movement.
This could include:
****company news letters
****Community presentations
****Networking group speeches

*Encourage women to sign up for the Go Red for Women Movement

*Encourage women to take charge of their health by knowing their numbers and their risk for heart disease and stroke and taking the Heart CheckUp

*Display Go Red for women materials in your place of business

*Plan a Wear Red Day outing or social event


Some of the events coming up in my area sound so exciting including the women's luncheon. I have already put my name in to do the modelling and be seated at the table as one of the Ambassadors for the event. I am so so excited about this.

I had to submit my story - completed
I turned in application - completed
I did the orientation meeting - completed
I am waiting for date/time for formal one on one interview/training

I feel so honored and excited and I can share it all with my Sparkfriends! You are all my circle!!!

Speaking: I am good at speaking in public venues if I know my subject. Most of the things I check to help with I know how to do well and I enjoy doing.

So much of my working career carries over to what I would be volunteering.

We are having a Paint the Bridge Walk. I am going to do the 2 mile walk. My husband and step son will be joining me. Diana and hopefully her husband will be joining me. Wendy Witowski (I pray) will be joining me. My long lost sister Syl may be joining me and I pray badly that she does. I've sent out like 62 invites. I do not expect many will go in support of this, but I sure hope so. I would be so honored by each person that comes and walks with me across the bridge in support of MY HEART and many other hearts. It is to Empower Women. And we all wear RED.

There is a heart support group at the hospital that I had my heart surgery and want me to become part of that. They told me I am desperately needed there for it.

Also, there is a 9 1 1 dance group that practices at the hospital that I have been invited to join...I am still thinking about it. It was tonight and I missed it. I am just now sure if I can commit to that yet. I do love dance. I seriously am thinking of doing it.

I do have a huge passion of wanting my sparkfriends, everyone to hear the message. I want my heart to be fixed. I don't want to die early early. I want to live.

I have now, day 2 of our lime week, been on track.

Husband and I took our required class. Scheduled our appt with attorney.

I just plain got a lot done. I was so pumped to workout with Diana today too, and I did not get too. All my fault...she was willing and ready this morning. I forgot I had commitment for class and that was critical for me to get done.

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BECCA_BEE 2/19/2012 6:25PM

    You're going to do a great job!! emoticon

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SAMBIDEXTROUS 2/17/2012 1:59PM

    I completely understand the challenge of having a cause that is so important to you...and what feels like no time to put towards it.
Good luck to you!

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SHANSHE 2/17/2012 10:56AM

    I am so happy for you Nadine and proud of you too! You work so hard and now not only will you reach your spark sisters with your message of heart health, you will also reach your community! You are awesome and so is this endeavor! You go girl!

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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/17/2012 12:10AM

    That is so Awesome dear Heart Sista,GO RED For Women Ambassador, emoticon emoticon emoticonNadine,this is your calling and just
perfect for you and you will do awesome and fit right in so awesomely well,you already do and I admire you for following through on this and being so passionate about Heart Disease for women.Red has become my new favorite color now.GO Red for Woman Heart Disease Awareness! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Tuesday, Feb 14, 2012 - Valentine - A small Step

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Regardless of my beautiful daughter telling me to please not contact her again, I text her today and said Happy Valentine to you and your family. She came back with a beautiful picture and wished me a Happy Valentine. I thanked her. We had little conversation, but she sounded cheerful. I think she may be really stressing and emotional and whatever is popping up in her little mind, she not want me there. I think part of her does and part of her does not. She is all over the board so I will give her space. It is a small step.

Hopefully, soon she will contact me and have me over to see her and baby. Who knows... I can only pray and go on taking care of me.

I really did lousy 3 days of no exercise persay (15 min today). My eating not what it should be. I at least did not go overboard with it, but I am not proud that I did not do as well as I should have and could have. I am not going to beat myself up though because I have had a LOT to deal with emotionally.

I went out with my husband tonight for Casino and had Valentines Buffet. It is logged in. I did not do super bad. I found I got full super fast and I just stopped eating after getting full. I had sugar craving so when got home, had a grapple. I know by the date and how I am feeling TOM should be here any moment/day/time.

Also, we received the paper work that my house goes to auction in 90 days and if it sells, that I will have 60 days to move out, so basically 5 months and I may have to be out of my home. Maybe it won't sell.

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KRZYKAT3 2/17/2012 9:01PM

    prayers for you Nadine

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GOODHEALTH4EVER 2/15/2012 6:54PM

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NATIVE_ONE 2/15/2012 6:47PM

    Some good, some bad....I hope and pray all goes in the right direction for you and you keep you positive outlook on all things! Remember how strong you are!

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SHANSHE 2/15/2012 10:55AM


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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/15/2012 1:10AM

    You did so much better than myself,as always! I am so happy you are slowly getting somewhere with DD,Yay and Granddaughter,GO GRandma,GO emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Monday, Feb 13, 2012 - For Better or Worse and I am not looking for pity

Monday, February 13, 2012

I don't even know how to begin, where to start, and so glad there is a tomorrow. I am trying to write to get off my chest so don't worry about reading or commenting. I am not looking for sympathy or anything.

I just went to worse. I guess, for whatever reason, I was a wicked bad mother who did horrible things. I provided love, safety, gave much love, food, and yes I was known as the strict parent. I see them do a lot of the same things I did, but that is ok, they are allowed but me as a mom that was wrong. It was wrong of me to not let them answer the door at 3 - 5 years of age. I was wrong to tell them to not peak through the windows, to let the adults answer the door. The kind of house we lived in, and the locations of the rooms and how the windows were, someone could easily break window and take them. I took them to dance, I took them to modeling classes, I gave them freedom but with guidelines, to call me if going to be late. Run a bath for me before you leave. Wow, all of this was abuse. If you go to a resteraunt you don't scream, throw tantrums, you teach manner, if you want to act poorly, we will leave. If you not want to follow the rules, we don't go. We did trip to Florida, we did trip to Reno, we did a trip along the Oregon Coastline into California, Trees of Mystery. I attended school functions/award ceremony's, all of this is forgotten. Mind you, I did all that I could do with no child support the first two years. Their father paid me nothing. I forced him to have a relationship with them which made him change, but he never cared, not really, but now he wants to send money.

He now feeds them with lies, and they believe it. Don't forget the horses, but that was wrong of me to let them go out to the horses because grandpa yelled, and yet, they begged to go and they knew grandpa always yells at everything. They made the choices of what they wanted.

My frig, my cupboards, my freezer full and they were free to eat whatever, but they claim (due to my mom and where she comes up with the crap she does) I starved them. Supposedly, my mother, their grandma, would sneak oranges through the bedroom window which was a complete lie and impossibility. If my atty was alive, she would set them straight too.

Well, my daughter has told me that she never ever wants me to contact her.

I have not clue what to say or what to do, but I can't change anything.

I have accomplished going through all of our bills/paperwork, old stuff, etc..this was a big accomplishment.

I've managed to eat healthy today, but I haven't eaten much. I still need to log my food.

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ORCHIDLADY56 2/14/2012 8:47PM

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RUTHIEBEAR 2/14/2012 1:10PM

    My situation with my daughter is strained, to say the least, but yours is worse. I understand how it hurts to be lied about and treated badly. Know that we all love and support you. It is stressful. Try your best not to let it get the best of you. emoticon

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SHANSHE 2/14/2012 1:00PM

    I don't know what to say... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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K1TT3N 2/14/2012 8:37AM

    Don't give up on yourself and just hope someday she sees the way things really were. Be strong in the fact that you know the truth .. you can only hope that some day she will .... You can do everything you need to for you and that is what matters now .... as a mother of teenagers that have been told some really bad things as well ... I totally understand what you are going through. emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/13/2012 11:13PM

    emoticon emoticonWhat kind of Mother would do this to there own child and Granddaughter's?, It sounds to me someone has some very serious health issues mentally,how sad and you are being treated so horrible.What in the World is wrong here? I am without words to help you.Just sad and wanna give you HUGS,HUGS,Hugs and tell you,it's going to okay and I wish it would.I am sorry for this dear friend.I am here and you know how to get a hold of me.I do Care,just don't know how I Can help you,sure wish I could take the pain and all the negative crap away from you. emoticon emoticon emoticonAll will be okay,I believe someday! I am hopeful sooner than later. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BLONDWUNN 2/13/2012 9:43PM

    I wish all moms were as "bad" as you. The world would be a better place.

What you've experienced is called INJUSTICE that some have turned your daughter away from you. We live in a fallen world. But there are spiritual laws governing injustice. Keep your eyes on the Lord, maintaining your household and your health, and He will bring you vindication in your family's eyes, and return daughter to her mother.

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DANCINCAJUN1 2/13/2012 9:00PM

    From now on you make sure you take care of you ... it is your time my friend. Enjoy the times that are ahead and make sure you always smile ... it is the best exercise of all .... Hugz to you my friend. Roc

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MARTHASPARKS 2/13/2012 8:52PM

    I do not pity you but I am very, very sorry that you are having to deal with this lack of gratitude. You did your best; that is all any parent can do.

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SETAGOAL1 2/13/2012 8:07PM

    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

You have the power to succeed or fail.

You have chosen to succeed.

Few baby steps complete a long journey

Writing is progress!!!


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Sun. Feb. 13, 2012 - Laziness, Depression, I don't know.

Monday, February 13, 2012

I know that Saturday I was down right LAZY and my eating was half ok and on it's way to disaster for me.

Sunday became a day of stay in bed. Yep, that is right, stay in BED and watch tv. I did not get on computer Saturday as I stayed in bed and watched tv.

I've have slept a lot too. Sunday's eating was disaster all day. I did log my food, not really wanting too, but I did. I am ashamed of myself for eating the way I did this weekend and no gym, no exercise at home, nothing.

I know TOM is on the way by the symptoms and the tiredness. I don't know if it is just pure LAZINESS for me, or if it is a little Depression or both.

Sometimes I can exercise and it makes me feel better, but I woke up Saturday so sleepy tired and stayed that way all day right into Sunday. I know I am feeling sadness from my daughter. My sister calls me to tell me that she is home now and she doesn't even call me. She contacts everyone else but me. It really hurts inside. I know she is going through a lot with herself healing and new baby, but to close me out like she has is really sad.

I've had so many hurts in my life that I don't want anymore. I try hard to focus on the positive.

I sure hope I feel better tomorrow and more awake and energized. Maybe all the stuff subconsciously has caught up and my body said rest. I will go with it, but the eating could have been better. Oh well, tomorrow will be a better day.

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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/13/2012 1:16AM

    OH No,I am so sorry for the weekend you had,wish I could wave a magic wand emoticon emoticonand make you all better and the hurts to go away.I know that I cannot,so I will give you HUGS and Support and an ear to listen and try to encourage you emoticon emoticonI know if you were my Mom,you would have been the first one I would have called.I believe she will need and want you,my Mom came over to watch our baby and help me and it was so nice to have her there with me.Ride the Storm out and you will be better soon.I hope you get to see your daughter and Granddaughter very soon.That will cheer you up for sure.Hang in there,"I Never Promised You A Rose Garden". I promise you friendship! emoticon

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    The refreshing fact to ANY day is that tomorrow will always be a new day full of possibilities and second chances. We just have to take them!

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Friday, Feb 10, 2012 - Back on Track - Cravings

Friday, February 10, 2012

First of all thanks for all of the comments to my last blog, Overboard.

One thing pointed out was that I didn't do all that bad. No, I did not, but it was still overboard / off track. Did I beat myself up for it? NO. I said it was going to be my cheat day. I did do a pretty good job controlling it though.

Today, I got to hear from my biological daughter that had the baby. Ok, wow, she must be in some pain and in/out of it and very emotional because when she text me, she wanted me like NOW. Forget that I exist any other time. Anyways, she sent me a picture. She said no FB. She is not sharing pictures with anyone yet.

She is in a lot of pain and emotional and trying to figure stuff out and not want anyone there. She said she wants to go home and once home have me over. I will respect her wishes. I feel for her badly, but if it is what her and Chris wish, then that is what it will be. I am sad because she has called other people and talked to them and it is like they rub it in my face. One person in particular. She thinks she is the grandma of that baby and she is NOT. She thinks she is better than me and everyone else. She is the buy your kids what they want even if they sass at you or treat you disrespect. I will not do that, but she will.

Anyways, I was glad to hear from my daughter that I love so much. My grand daughter is beautiful. She is going to try to get me more pictures later. She text my husband asking where I was and why I not text and he is like, who is wow, she wanted me like NOW.

I have my food logged, full of nutrition packed food, low calories, satisfied with doing the "Eat to Live" eating.

I watched Joel Furhman on PBS and one thing he said was to make our salad dressing, gave a few examples which turned on a switch in my head like a light bulb.

Strawberry Vinegarette Dressing.


Cider Vinegar, .5 cup (remove)
Strawberries, fresh, 1 cup, whole (remove)
**Flax Seed Meal (ground flax), 2 tbsp (remove)
Olive Oil, 1 tbsp (remove)

Put into blender and Blend creamy smooth and pour plentiful over salad.

Nutritional Info

Calories 59.9
Total Fat 4.6 g
Saturated Fat 0.6 g
Polyunsaturated Fat 1.2 g
Monounsaturated Fat 2.8 g
Trans Fat 0.0 g
Cholesterol 0.0 mg
Sodium 0.7 mg
Potassium 104.2 mg
Total Carbohydrate 5.3 g
Dietary Fiber 1.8 g
Sugars 3.7 g
Protein 1.0 g

Serving Size: 4 (1/4 c) servings)

Number of Servings: 4

Recipe submitted by SparkPeople user MRSWHITEWOLF.

You can actually use smaller then 1/4 serving or not use olive oil...just use 1/4 cup of walnuts which will cut the fat less, but it is the needed healthy fat.

You can duplicate this recipe and use blueberries instead of strawberries, or raspberries, or blackberries, boysenberries...any kind of berry.

I sliced two strawberries on my salad too.

Cravings: Yes, it is weird how our bodies will crave something and something so bad that until you have it, you are not satisfied. One thing I am finding: The closer I stick to the "Eat to Live" plan, the less I crave the wrong things. I am craving apples, plums, salad, cucumbers, tons of healthy stuff more than the bad. Don't get me wrong, I do still get some of the other cravings, but seems to lesson.

When we went out...I was so craving what I ordered and yet I used such control of taking the breading off, not eating all of the bread (kaiser roll), not even do all the cheese because I tasted, liked, and then got full quick and then was like, wow, all this stuff, this plate piled with food not eaten, is NOT going into my belly to process and NOT going to the fatty areas to add more fat.

Ok, I dreaded exercising today, TOM is on the way, I am emotional too, my daughter has me worried, just did not feel like it. I know Diana had not exercised either but she was online...giggle giggle, so what did we do, she got her wii fit board and I got my stepper and we worked out for an hour online together listening to music and talking. We made it 1 hour!!!! We both got sweaty too!

I set a goal for her to be 228 by Lime weigh in and My goal is to be 210 by weigh in.

SALAD is MAIN MEAL....SALAD is the MAIN DISH of the MEAL! Post this everywhere, repeat it in your head.

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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/12/2012 2:32AM

    I am still tired from that workout Nadine,ready for another tomorrow? I had kind of a lazy Saturday,so Sunday I want to get some fitness in.I always feel better when I do.You are doing awesome Nadine,Yes You ARe emoticon emoticonThank you for sharing this recipe,sounds good! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHANSHE 2/11/2012 6:14PM

    Good that you are craving healthier things more lately! you are doing so well, you ands diana both!

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