Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Time for some reflections. I just read the sparks reflection for today and even commented on it. Are you afraid to try or are you afraid to fail? I am not afraid to try, but I am afraid of failing. Does that stop me? No, I keep on trying and going strong. Many of you know the challenges I've had to face, still facing, my heart attack, my rare disease. None of it has stopped me from trying. But am I afraid of failing, yes, afraid that the successes will be too late for me, but what I do have is HOPE, and MIRACLES, and GOD. God to give me the strength to keep trying, to give me healthy benefits from it, to heal my body. Here are some reflections of my successes, not failures, but successes:
- Lowered my LDL considerably, well within normal range! WOO HOO this is a super big accomplishment and success. I did this over the time with sparks.
- Lowered my HDL to well, too low, but that is due to disease and I am working on getting that UP and I am still working on lowering the LDL, as the doctors want it at 70. Wow, that will be a challenge.
- HDL - 60 and LDL 70
You may not call lowering my HDL a success, but it is in the overall picture / numbers.
- Lowering my Triglycerides (the fat in blood) (I was 175, now 167) Normal is 150. I am getting there!
- I exercise more now than 3 years ago (this is a big success)
- I can challenge myself, push myself
- I am more nutrition savvy... and I am still learning.
- I've lost 14 pounds now in 3 years... (that is a little depressing)...ok but I will keep trying to get there. I really believe the body needs to heal certain things. I look at a friend who lost nothing in pounds, ready to quit, give up, but goes to the doctor and finds out she has improved her blood pressure and some other things that she gets to go off of 3 of her medications. Wow, she was excited, as it happened like I told her, the body healing first. A week later, she lost 5 pounds, and slowly but steadily lost. I have no clue where she is today as so many of friends that reach goal go poof! I am so happy for them, that I inspired them and they made it. It saddens me because I no longer have them as supporters and that I haven't made it yet.
You know, every person that has stuck with me, did what I did for exercise, ate like I did, on average, lost 3-5 pounds a week. Me, wow, I lost zero. Even my sister, did exactly what I did and lost 6 pounds. Ok, why stop? What happened to her motivation. Ask me to make her exercise.... I can't, but wow, I sure wish it was me that would drop the 6 pounds. A dear friend of mine, older and wiser, now passed away, didn't believe me until she started paying attention and then realized after time, that wow, I am physically active, eat healthy, and definitely not over eating, and realized that I still gained or stayed same. I miss her a lot. People that may think a person is fat from over eating, being lazy, well they can be so off base. The smart, intelligent ones, the ones that pay attention, realize that it isn't so. Yes, there are those out there that do over eat, do purposely put on weight, etc., but there are so many that have no control over there weight.
- I can cook really HEALTHY meals that everyone LOVES, especially those that love meat and potatoes
- I can ride my bike 28 miles WOO HOO with some hills but mostly flat...small hills too, not big.
Over the Fall challenge on the Lime Team, I have focused, tried, and basically stabilizing. I have a good feeling that some positive things with my body will happen for the Winter challenges on the Lime Team! WE CAN DO IT! Believe in yourself! You really can do it! Just don't give up, no matter how fruitless it may all seem.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Start of our ride
Had to use the outhouse first
Ok, ready get set go
here I go...trucking on down the path.
Hi Hun, you there? I am doing it!
Wow, going under I405 (13 miles) WOO HOO
This is me going under it
further under I405
We had 1 cup of grapes each. We rode a little further (another mile and turned around and started back and stopped ate the rest of our lunch which for me was a slim fast (protein), cheese stick, and back to truck. Yes, I am wore out, tired, a little sore. I usually ride at 3 but today I did it at 5, hubby did 7, but on way back had to drop to 3/4 where I stayed at 5. It really gave me a good workout. My heart rate would vary from 124-150. I was mostly at 130-140
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Ok, today was a little bit of a slow start but I got started. I laid in bed debating on getting up. Part of me wanted to throw the covers over my head and never get up and part of me wanted to jump up get dressed, go get on my bike. Ok, had to settle for the middle, get myself up and dressed. I cried last night, I rode my bike and cried. My hubby felt so sad to see me cry. He felt like crap because I was so upset. I was upset but I wasn't. I was more on the frustrated side. I really truly tried really hard and was so disappointed in my labs but at the same time, to find out that just taking a week off from serious exercise could make that much of a difference, to cut back on salmon a little, to cut back on fish oil pills. Well, there is no doubt I have to exercise whether I want to or not. I have to be honest here, the fact of the matter is, if I don't I will DIE. The thought of dying just hurts inside. I can't let the whatever horrible disease win. I asked my doctor for the name again, he has to find it, as he forgot the darn thing and knew only part of the name but assured me he would get it for me. He did tell me that he felt I was stable. He said we will know for sure in January. Dang that seems forever to wait but I have from now until then to try to get things better improved. See, if I do all the wonderful things that are so healthy for me, exercise like I am suppose to, well then numbers still not where they should be, meaning worse then this visit, they have to find different medications or adjust dosage. This isn't all that bad, and I know I am not the only person to have bad cholesterol, but just remember, my cholesterol is from a rare disease, it is not because of eating habits, it is extremely rare and genetic. It nearly makes it impossible to lose pounds. Sometimes I feel so alone with this. I go walking with a friend, she wants to split sub, and so do I, but almost every sub I can't have because too much sodium. Over the past 2 years, nearly 3 years, I have not watched my sodium like I do today. Wow, what a wake up call on just how much sodium is in food, even without adding table salt. No I do not add any table salt.
Ok, after pitting myself, the crying, being angry, and everything else you can imagine, managed to get dressed, talk to my friend, was just getting ready to leave house for bike ride when hubby surprised me of coming home. I went to the store, got healthy grocery and count that as walking, light exercise, but it counts...249 calories gone with that, but that really doesn't count for my heart in what I need, so got home, put away the groceries, got on my bike and rode or 70 minutes. I did what I needed for the heart. Woo Hoo, 637 in calories are gone!!!! Yippee!! I have exercised for a good hour.
My nutrition is in check again today. Still working on my water. Get to start dinner shortly, chicken breast, baby greens, basalmic vinegar, croutons.
Update: I just finished riding my bike, getting ready to do up a really healthy low cal dinner and my CARDIOLOGIST called. He saw my labs and well concerned, and worried, but once found out plan the doctor has with me, he is good with it, but if January, numbers are same or worse, MEDS change. He was concerned that no one was watching and he really does not want me to have a coronary again. He wants my HDL above 42 and wants my LDL 70 and ok if 80. She explained to me the reason. Only reason he is not adjusting meds right now is because he agrees, it may be the week of me not exercising, there was a positive change in triglycerides, and the numbers are still relatively low and the overall number did NOT change, it stayed the same. Ok, no missing exercise for me!
1) EXERCISE 30 Min or more a day Preferably longer
2) LOW SODIUM
3) LOW FAT - MUFA ONLY
BFD is great, but need to watch that I don't get too many MUFAs and make sure I get the fiber needed. I have to modify.
6) 1200-1500 (closer to the 1200 range) If lower, ok.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
Ok, got my lab work back. My overall cholesterol number is 175. This is good.. It was 175 in August. Bad news, my HDL (the good) dropped 10 points so I was 32 and my bad cholesterol the LDL went up to 106, ok, Tryglycerides this is the fat in your blood, 150 is normal, I was 175 in August, I am now 167. Ok, what happened? Just so you all know, I am scared because 24 was my hdl (HEART ATTACK) yes, so yes I am scared. The only really good news is that they think is what is happening, I am healing. My cholesterol appears to be stabilizing which is good. Reason he is not really concerned right now is that the numbers are balanced. I have not exercised now for 1 week plus 2 days, well a little exercise, just not my normal. He thinks that the no exercise too, may have just been enough to drop me 10 points. Wow, tells you how important exercise is... Yes, VERY. Just thinking wow, just 1 week of basically no exercise, some, but not my normal. Anyways, since overall number stayed same, weight went up couple of pounds, 3 inches lost, and the fat in my blood has improved, it really can be my body making adjustments. Well, I am making sure to add back in salmon 3 x week, no matter what and fish oil pills. Yes, I take them, but not as much as I should. Well, that is a must. I have now until end of December/beginning of January, to take some more inches and/or pounds off. Exercise, no matter what, is now no doubt a part of my life, even if I feel lazy, I have to get up and do something. Right now I can't afford to lose any points with HDL right now. I can afford to have it go up, LDL go down, Triglycerides to continue to go down. Oh, everything else, body chemistry, thyroid, etc, all show GREAT....just the cholesterol stuff. So with all this said you can say I am happy, sad, scared and yes I rode my bike for enough to burn 250 calories today. I cleaned house today too. Don't know what I burned standing, cleaning, but hey I did it for a couple of hours.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Howdy howdy and my stress, panic, emotions, as I pretty much said yesterday were "Emotions Gone Wild"
Today, I went to the doctors. I didn't eat anything last night after 7:30 PM. I waited until a little after 11:00 to go get labs, so I had over a 12 hour fast. I packed up me some Oatmeal squares, fish oil pill, and my Fiber Choice tablets (2). My wonderful breakfast. Ok, got that panel done. Went to the cardiologist office to pay bill. Scared, asked if nurse was in, but she be out to lunch. She scheduled me to see the cardiologist at 1:15. Coolio coolio...get to see my cardiologist. He came in, and even though my bp was up some is VERY VERY happy with my numbers. VERY VERY happy with my exercise...oh and told me, he noticed I was up a few pounds, but with the amount of exercise, and everything I am doing, expect to gain some weight, but keep on doing it, I will see things change in my body and the weight will eventually drop. He said he was so very proud of me and I am doing way better than he ever anticipated, expected and is thrilled. He will still do heart stress test in 2 months and then see me again. Two months is what I have to get some weight off. I am hoping I can get myself at least down to 180's somewhere and inches to keep coming off. Once I get my panels back, that is when I will be happy and thrilled. If my cholesterol, thyroid, etc...all still look good, or have improved, I will be totally pumped. If they have become worse, I will be totally bummed.
Remember, your body heals things it needs to heal before it drops the pounds on the scale. Also, with the amount of exercise I do, it is normal to gain some. He said, don't dare stop doing what I am doing. He asked me why am I having panels done so soon again. I told him and he was ok with it. He is curious about it too.
If I don't get #'s tonight, will on Monday, and most definitely Tuesday. Also, can get adjust at chiro...woo hoo. Wish she was open now...oh well.
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