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More anxiety of the ..... well just more anxiety

Monday, November 17, 2014

Well I did it! Im the pouring rain at 430am I went to the gym. This is going to take some getting use to again. I gave it a decent work out, I need to figure out how to get songs back to my IPOD and I will be much better.

I'm anxiety ridden about this bridesmaid dress, but now I am worried about all sorts of other stuff life keeps tossing at me. I keep wondering what am I doing wrong that just when I think I have a grasp on life again, something pulls it away from me and I am left falling. Anxiety makes me eat and right now when I need to get my butt back in gear, that is not a good thing. I wish I could be one of those people who just say "oh it will all work out" and never have worry. I am already worried about June of 2015 that is how far ahead of myself I am. I really have fear of this little sage dress .

  
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ROBBIEY 11/17/2014 2:46PM

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GEORGE815 11/17/2014 2:32PM

    Wow. 430 at the gym!

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Can't get out of my own way..

Friday, November 14, 2014

Ok granted I have the flu and I am beyond exhausted but I am still trying to do home exercises. I have not been the best about it, but I did something and that is better than nothing right?

Next Sunday is my son's Eagle Scout Ceremony and I have nothing nice to wear, and that makes me mad, I could have at least had 10 pounds off by now, but I don't.

Well I have the house to myself tonight and although I feel like poop I will do my weights and by abs and my standing leg exercises. This is something I have to learn to do daily. (Typing about working out and I am coughing like I am choking) - working out should be fun!

  
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ARNETTELEE 11/14/2014 6:12PM

  Get well soon! Did you get your flu shot?

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Excuse me.... WHAT???

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Yesterday I came home from work exhausted, I have been worn out for day, but understand I run non stop with three kids and I have been fighting a cold that is winning. I was in bed a half hour after bring home so I didn't get too much exercise in.

About 11pm my daughter has an asthma attack and I cant get it under control so we run to the ER and they give her meds and treatments and she's looking much better. The Dr. asks me what is going on with ME and why do I sound so bag (cough). I have the flu...YES...DING DING DING - winner - I have the damn flu- are you kidding me???? Ok yes look back at it all - I probably do but ugh - derailment again. Although with every ounce of my being I am using my arm weights while working. So I am doing something....

UGH
that is all I have to say to this UGH

Sorry my bridesmaids dress look like CRAP on me because I got the flu and once again side tracked my life... I can hear it now..

  


I WENT BACK TO THE GYM!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Yes - I really did. I didn't get up at 430 - I tried, it didn't work, so I went at lunch time. I was met with 4 of my favorite machines NOT working at all, make me nuts so I rode the bike for about 40 minutes, Not the best work out at all BUT it was a start. It was an I am here and ill start to get a routine again. On my off days, like today, I did sit ups, leg raises, plank and arms. I will DO something each day and I have to form a habit again. I dont a choice in the matter or I will be miserable with myself!

I have started a routine of making sure I get some form of make up on my face a day and using my arm weights at home when at my desk - so its a start! I guess progress is going to take time...my issue now is controlling food in take and being sure if I do badly with that I work that off some how!

  
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GETHEALTHY83 11/11/2014 10:59AM

  way to go! you're mind and heart is in the right place. you're making an effort to do something acive daily and thats a great place to start! you can do this.

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Bought the dress

Sunday, November 09, 2014

So, yesterday I bought the dress. Its an 18. I wanted to cry. The others in the wedding party got size 4 6 and 8 and then there is me 18. My super encouraging husband said if I started losing weight when they go engaged I would not be this upset now. Gee thanks! I want to see HIM fit into anything at this point. Even the Dr. told him to lose weight. UGH. But here it is, its bought.
The goal, MAKE THEM TAKE IT IN. I cant walk out there in that dress looking like that. I just cant. I wanted to cry in the dressing room but I held it all in. I just know that I have to go back to logging food tomorrow, working out tomorrow and use weights and do some working out at home DAILY. I cant make excused and i need to STOP letting life take over and I have to take control of the situation. I guess I need to prove my husband wrong and prove to my self that i can do this. I just have to STOP the bad behavior and eating. I AM going to take my lunch to work the 2 days a week I am there and instead of going to lunch I will put $10 each day away in the wedding fund, and I will eat at the office and sit at Starbucks with a skinny something and read my book. I can do that. This is the START - this is where I have to make a good choice a day and I have to lose 5 pounds a MONTH. I figure SLOW is the better way to do this and it will be less discouraging then trying to lose 10 a month!

  
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RICKHANN 11/9/2014 9:03AM

    You'll be amazed at how much that not eating out will help. Even when you try to eat healthy when eating out it's almost impossible because there are so many additives.

Be careful of the skinny's, even though they are low calories and low fat they probably contain about 12g of sugar. Don't let your body store that sugar as fat - if you are going to have the skinny then go for a walk with it instead of reading.

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I hope you reach your goal but I'm sure you look great in the size 18 anyway.

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ISHIIGIRL 11/9/2014 8:44AM

    That sounds like a good plan Shannon. Start with the small steps!

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