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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

If you have Anxiety or stress easy please don't feel obligated to read this post I'm just feeling a lot of pressure and I'm hoping if I rant for a second it will help me to calm down and get on with it........... so here it goes first of all most of you know that I adopted two girls from Russia 3 years ago well we have these things that are called Post Placements that we have to get done by a social worker and are last one is due May 11th so I called the social worker we had our appointment and she is working on it right now then I'm supposed to send it to our Adoption agency that is in NYC to be translated and then they ship it to Russia...so I try to contact the agency today to make sure I have a correct address and they are no where to be found it's like they never exited there web site is gone there E-mails do not work and there number is disconnected! Ugh so now what I have to pay someone to translate it for me and then figure out where in Russia it is going to be sent to? I all ready paid for these services and I'm not really looking forward to re paying for them I cant even imagine how much it will cost! #2 this civil suite for my daughters shop lifting is really stressing me out the whole unknown of what we are going to end up owing is making me CRAZY!!! #3 my husband is refinancing our house which is fine but, why does it have to take so long the dragging it out makes me crazy because money makes me crazy. Does it really take 2 weeks to refinace a house with the same people that already own the loan? #4 My daughter is starting court appointed councling on April 10th and I'm worried about it I do not know why unless it because of that whole money thing again. #5 I feel like I am really slacking on SPARK I did so well last year and it seems like I am letting all of this consume me and so I am letting myself down. #6 last but not least my vacuum has been broke for a few months and I really want to vacuum my carpet!! So there those are all the things that are on my mind I'm sure there is more but, I'm tired of thinking about it so I will stop.. all of these things are so petty seriously who really cares if I was going to die tomorrow would I care NO I would not so why do I let it bother me..a little boy in my daughters second grade class lost his mom in a car accident last Saturday and I am whining about a Vacuum OMG gimmie a break maybe I should go eat some Dark Chocolate or something! For those of you that read this sorry and thanks and I hope you have a GREAT day.

Honeycomb =]

  
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LILCHILDE 3/22/2008 12:02AM

    I sure hope everything turns out for the best and I am sorry for everything but if it will make you feel better......I spent 1400.00 on a Rainbow Vacuum Cleaner and I have not been able to use it in over month and 1/2 since my surgery and I can't get anyone else to use it because they are afraid they will tear it up and I will kill them if they do.

I totally understand the money problems...I think we have all been there at one time or another...just keep praying!

I am not having the same problems as you with my daugther but we have an issue that has the family scratching their heads...but all that can be done is to not see race or nationality and look at someone's happiness..and if it makes someone happy then we all need to be happy with it...I just pray for the best everyday and for God to give me the strength to deal with what is thrown my way and not from my daugther really but what other's say to me..it's hard but I am learning to deal with it each day.

Look you got me ranting now!! LOL

Thanks for helping me get all that off my chest..that's why I love my Spark Friends!!!!!

Jeanne

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ETGRIP 3/21/2008 10:10AM

    Coming from the Appraisal / Mortgage industry all I can say is it depends on the bank, what type of appraisal if any is needed, and where you live. It should not take two weeks, but maybe the bank is dragging their heels. I am sorry you are soo stressed out.

1. You lost an amazing 100 pounds, no one can take that away from you so stress is allowed.

2. You will figure out what is needed with your adoption items, if the social worker cannot help you out, they may know someone.

3. I worry about money all the time, it is just a way of life, which is super sad. I think ever wealthy people worry about money if that makes you feel better.

4 and finally: You are an inspriation and an amazing woman. How far you have come and the accomplishments along with the recognition you have is wondeful. I am proud to know you and think the world of you.

It will all fall into place.

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SKINNYSOON13 3/20/2008 11:17PM

    Hey - I'm sorry all this is happening at once. First the SPARK stuff - girl, you've been working so hard for so long, sometimes it just has to give. With all the stuff going on with your daughter, it's totally understandable that your focus isn't 100% on weight loss, and who would expect it to be. It's obvious she needs your attention, and the stuff surrounding the adoption needs your focus. All these ladies had good advice and reassuring words, so there's not much I can add. I just want you to know I'm always behind you. :-)

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FRUITYFUL 3/20/2008 7:44PM

    I can't believe I didn't get a message when you posted this blog! Do I have to keep subscribing? Anyway, I know how you feel when you say that so many things at once are stressing you out and you don't know which way is up. As you know, I've gained some weight since August, and what really helped me get back on track (a whopping 11 days ago!) was to think positively. I was beating myself up, which only made me feel worse. Between last August and now, I fell off the wagon soooo many times...but every single time, I got right back on. Now, I've finally managed to stay on and with each day I get more and more motivated. Just keep plugging away Kristi, don't be hard on yourself for not being on track. Like you told me, eventually it will click and you'll be back on the road to losing!

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SVWS38 3/20/2008 4:36PM

  One at a time I bet they would be no problem. But, when it all adds up and piles up and piles more on top... the vacuum would be the thing that would take me over the edge. I hope you are doing better. Try to smile, it will all work out. How about some beating up the vacuum therapy?

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BLUEFISH2 3/20/2008 2:20PM

    You need to cut yourself some slack! That is a lot to have on your plate. Everyone has problems and your's are not less stressful than anyone else's...because they are yours. You obviously have the strength to tackle all of these issues, throw a tantrum, take a deep breath and do what you can do each day. I agree, try to focus on the positive and do things you know will help you through it. Wishing you all the best. Now I have to go fix my vacuum so I can try and clean my floor :-)

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MRSHONEYCOMB 3/20/2008 12:35PM

    Thank You! WOW what a whiner I am but, I have to say it did make me feel better and I am going to take the advice and focus on the positive. I looked back at last year and there were a lot of things that should have made losing 100 pounds really hard but, I made it through those things and actually had a pretty amazing year so from here on out I am going to focus on the positive and make exercise and eating right my priority and the rest will fall into place.

Oh and Jbuttars thanks for the offer on the vacuum I have to say your comment made me laugh and realized how pathetic I must have sounded.

Honeycomb

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250STRONG 3/20/2008 9:27AM

    Money issues have their way of creeping into everything!! I'm sorry to hear about the money you have lost with the disappearing agency. That is awful! As to the vacume, I live in the SLC area, come borrow mine. :)

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WANDAH3 3/20/2008 7:59AM

    You have a lot on your plate to be concerned about and having money issues doesn't help.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Suggestion (and I know it works): Try finding the positive in all of this and focus on that instead of the negative. When we focus solely on the negative, we attract more negative into our lives. When we focus on the positive we attract more positive into our lives.
Positives: You have a family that you wanted, your last social worker visit is done, your daughter is learning a valuable lesson ...there are consequences for her actions, your daughter is receiving the councilling she needs, you have the support of your SP friends, others are praying for you. Try to find the positive in each day, even one thing and journal it or blog it, but put it in writing where you can see it and keep your focus.
Thinking of you,
Wanda

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JEHAVENS 3/20/2008 1:39AM

    Mrs. Honeycomb,
I don't have any solutions for you but I will pray for God's peace on your life. All these things are big and real in your life...it is okay to rant and we are to help each other through so don't apologize. I always think I am so strong. I have all these neat walls built around me to protect me from the bad stuff but God showed me last year just how vulnerable I really am. And it was okay because He also showed me that He was with me and that is the only strength I need.
Know that I am thinking of you and praying for you.
-Judi


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Ugh.............

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I am so frustrated with myself right now! I have done so well this week with exercise and staying within my calories and one weak moment yesterday and the scale says I'm up 1.8lbs this morning........now I realize that is temporary weight and that if I'm good all day today that tomorrow morning it will say 159 again. I have been doing this for over a year now and you would think that my way of thinking would have changed by now but, instead I'm thinking if I'm not going to lose a pound this week for weigh in because of my mistake yesterday then I might as well do it again today. WTH "Lifestyle change" why cant I get that through my head!!!! If I don't blow it today and I do as good with my exercise and eating as I did last week then next week could be the week that I finally get a loss but, if I blow it today then what is going to stop me tomorrow and so and so on.

sorry if I'm whining I'm just trying to convince myself that being good today is the right choice and that I will be a lot happier with myself all next week if that is the choice that I make.

=]

  
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NJMATTICE 3/1/2008 10:15AM

    Do you know Ellen's character in "Finding Nemo"? She says "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. . ." You're doing great. "just keep swimming, just keep swimming."
-Nancy

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JEHAVENS 2/28/2008 1:36AM

    From someone who is just beginning this life style change, it is encouraging to me to see that even someone who has been soooooo successful on the program struggles. But you knew where to go and you logged your food and you kept on keeping on! Thank you for your inspiration to me.

-Judi

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MRSHONEYCOMB 2/25/2008 7:21PM

    Thanks Ladies! I did make it through yesterday thankfully at the top of my calories! Woo Hoo...........I'm really hoping for a loss tomorrow I don't even care if it is .5 I'll take it!

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SKINNYSOON13 2/25/2008 6:21PM

    I too don't see it was whining, but as VENTING! :-) You put it out there for the "world" to see, and it's been released. Sometimes I think just venting about things is the most necessary step because it gets it out of your head, leaving room for the "rational" thoughts. :-) I think you'll see 1.5-2 pounds off tomorrow! :-) You can do it!

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ETGRIP 2/25/2008 1:02PM

    I dont look at this as whinning, I look at this as someone who has learned over the year on how to be sucessful and knows also how to do it, but now with a small change you are just saying HEY darn it that should not happen. :)

Keep up the great work, stay motivated, stay positive.

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WASATCH84032 2/25/2008 12:08PM

    I hope you were able to convince yourself that you are a great success and an inspiration to others and that one slip doesn't change that!

~wren

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JOYELYSE 2/24/2008 7:11PM

    You will be! Just remember, even the loss takes time. It's why so many peopel fail. They do everything right, see a gain, and give up. When if they'd only waited, they would have started droppign. You know this!!! Justa nice reminder.

I, on the other hand, had a french fry binge today. Serious binge! Uggg.

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BLUEFISH2 2/24/2008 2:06PM

    I feel your frustration and struggle with the same attitude. I know the answer. I know I'll feel better if I eat better. I know I'll feel better is I get in a good workout. But....I already ate the pizza, so maybe all is lost.

Looking at your progress you have a long history of making the right choices. You can make the right choice today and forgive yourself for a mistake. Best wishes!

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Goals for February

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

-Waking up at 5:30 am daily
-Exercise Daily
-Eat within MY Calories ranges
-Drinking 5 cups Decaf Green Tea daily
-Eat 5 servings of fruit per day

If I get up at 5:30 I seem to get everything I need to get done in my day.
If I exercise daily I stay in my calories ranges better.
If I eat within my calorie ranges I seem to exercise daily.
If I drink 5 cups of green tea I don't seem to eat over my calorie ranges.
If I eat 5 servings of fruit I don't eat so many chips.

I SHOULD BE THE POSTER GIRL FOR BAKED LAYS!

  
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DOTSLADY 2/28/2008 2:38PM

    ROFL - I have a friend in you if only for the Lay's connection! I am addicted to regular Lay's ... I am an addict, it's my vice. I love them. The first 10 chips are the best - esp with sour cream/Lipton onion dip. *raspberries* When I'm starving it's what I crave. So my trick is not to get to the starving point! Planning is an area where I need to plan for! lol

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STUTTERBOX 2/12/2008 4:25PM

    You are doing a great job!
I know what you mean about the potato chips. If I had to admit being addicted to any one food, it would have to be chips of any kind.
My husband and I used to buy the biggest bag (because buying more was cheaper) then we would proceed to eat the Whole bag. We have learned to curb that problem by going to Sam's or Wal-mart and buying the 30 or 50 count combo packages of single serving chips. Now we each just eat one 1 oz bag of chips with lunch and then stop, because the bag is empty. It does cost a little more, but not 1/10 as much as the medication cost for high blood pressure and diabetes because we are overweight.
This helps us to limit our portion control and calorie intake.

I know you can achieve all your goals. Just surrender your children to God and he will give you grace.

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MRSHONEYCOMB 2/7/2008 9:56AM

    I know it's like my staple food...........I'm like hey what should I eat hmmmmmmm baked lays and next meal baked lays and..............

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LILCHILDE 2/7/2008 9:09AM

    ROFLMBO Good one...you should be..you are always talking about them!!

Jeanne

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SKINNYSOON13 2/6/2008 8:46PM

    Shoot - with all your celebrity recently you might just BE their next spokesperson! :-) Can you get me a deal with Adidas? :-) Your goals look great! XOXO! :-)

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NYMNTGAL 2/6/2008 2:50PM

    I am also a 5:30 am person. Thanks for the comment. Make sure you get enough sleep. You are AWESOME!

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WANDAH3 2/6/2008 2:31PM

    You and I are up at almost the same time. I'm up by 5:10 am as I have to be out the door to work by 6:15am. I find that getting up at that time in the morning actually allows me to accomplish more also. When I start my day off with exercise, my day just seems to go better.
Have an awesome day and keep moving forward.



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KARLARAMA 2/6/2008 2:20PM

    Kristi, you are so funny. I love the poster girl comment! You are so dedicated to wake up so early. Keep on being consistent and persistent and you will reach your goal in no time! You are so close now!

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3 things that are interfering with me reaching my goal and a possible solution for each.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

1- Being an adoptive parent
2- Having a food addiction
3- Money

Learning to not take it personal that your adopted children are always wishing they were somewhere else.

I suppose I could get counseling but, I would rather learning to replace my binges with fruit and veggie binging instead!

Money is a huge cause of anxiety for me. Even if I am doing well I worry about the future and the what ifs. Maybe I should start volunteering at a homeless shelter?

  
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WONDERGALE 2/6/2008 12:40PM

    Mrs. Honeycomb, your children are just like many other teenagers. Whenever they don't get their way, they wish they were somewhere else. I can't tell you how many times I heard my sons say "so and so's mom does it like this or let's my friend do this. I wish I didn't live here." My fiancÚs daughter is past grown and she still says "I wish I didn't have to live here." My fiancÚ just tells her she doesn't, move. Your children probably will not appreciate what you have done until they have children of their own or until they have to live on their own. So yes, please learn not to take it personal.
I'm a worrier too. My fiancÚ always tell me that I spend so much time worrying about what may or may not happen that I can't take the time to enjoy what is happening.
Try not to worry so much. Maybe the food addiction is a result of the worrying.


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SKINNYSOON13 2/5/2008 5:22PM

    I always had a "difficult relationship" with money, and about 10 years ago my hubby and I did some marriage counseling, which turned into "me" counseling :-). One of the BIG things I got out of it was learning to think about money differently. I wish I could remember the name of the book.

I also learned to deal with "boredom" (ongoing lesson...). I have a VERY difficult time sitting still, and we discovered I had a "fear of boredom" which is actually the #1 fear of most people. It makes people uncomfortable, so they feel like the have to "do". I know it is what drives me to eat MANY times - more often then stress or anxiety (which is usually tied to boredom and over thinking and not letting things go).

None of this may relate to you, but maybe by learning my struggles, you can see yourself in them, or find similiarities?

The kids - that's a tough one. I know you adopted them when they were older, and maybe they've forgotten what life was like before you took them in. I like what everyone else said - possibly finding a support group. Just to know you're not alone. Your girls are at a tough age, and you've had a lot of attention lately. They may be jealous.

I think the most important thing to remember is you can only do as much as you can do. You've done fantastic this year, and you've been so focused! Sometimes after a BIG running streak and great success we tend to sabotage ourselves. We start to look for faults.

Just keep going - don't give up!

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AHAYES06 2/4/2008 12:35PM

    You have accomplished so much girl!Keep that in mind.

Remember, kids don't know how special their parents really are until they aren't kids anymore. I know how tough it is, I have two step kids that will always think that I am NOT their mom. But when they are adults and succeeding in life (hopefully) they will remember that we helped them acheive that success and they will love us for it.

Money isn't everything even if it seems like it is and eventually everything works out. I can't tell you how many times I've attempted to create a budget.....OY!
Hang in there! You have so much to be proud and happy about!


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REDCHICK5 2/4/2008 7:27AM

    Your kids love you, and one day they will appreciate everything you have done for them!! :) But yeah, a support group sounds like a great idea! are there any in your area?
make sure you're surrounded by healthy food - don't buy anything you know you shouldn't eat! and hopefully the binges will turn to healthy ones! :)
Good luck! and you know there's always support here if you need it!!! us bees love to support! :)
love you. Keep your chin up!
Jen xxx

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THENEWKAREN 2/4/2008 12:44AM

    Don't worry so much about money. Go to the library and check out Dave Ramsey's book, "Total Money Make Over". If they don't have it in read any of his books, they are all great...he will teach you how to get the money thig under control and not worry about it anymore.

My kids are not adopted and I can't tell you how many times they have told us they hate us or that we are mean...they know we aren't so bad and if given thwe chance I doubt they'd trade us in for new parents. I think they ALL go thru that no matter what, I know I did as a kid too.

Food must be the hardest addiction since we can't quit it totally!

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JRGRACEY1 2/3/2008 1:59PM

    I got one of those emails this week where you answer questions - one of those "get to know you" type emails that you send out to all of your friends. One of the questions was "what is your greatest fears?" Most of my friends wrote spiders, mice, falling, etc... I wrote "financial ruin". I get so worried about money sometimes that I can't sleep. What is weird is that 2007 was our highest income ever and I don't even work outside the home. I am with you on the money and security issue.

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WANDAH3 2/3/2008 10:26AM

    Just wondering if there is a support group for adoptive parents in your area. You might find that helpful also.

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435 Days

Monday, January 28, 2008

I did it I did it I won a Bumper Sticker and it only took me 435 times spinning the wheel.

Woo hoo

  
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ETGRIP 1/31/2008 3:12PM

    That is sooo funny, I have won like five bumper stickers, I want the Tee Shirt. LOL

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JRGRACEY1 1/30/2008 7:01PM

    Kristi - When are you going to blog about the Ellen experience? I would love to hear about it. Jane

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NORTHERNGIRL40 1/30/2008 9:59AM

    You deserve it. Who else is better qualified to be toting a SP bumper sticker than you? LOL. Show it off with pride.

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MICHELLEBLUEIEZ 1/29/2008 11:46PM

    Congrats Linda! it's been so long since I've seen a prize on my wheel!

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WONDERGALE 1/29/2008 9:16AM

    Great! I haven't seen a bumper sticker on the wheel. Let alone win one.

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BLUEFISH2 1/28/2008 7:46PM

    Congrats. I finally got one after a year too!

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JOYELYSE 1/28/2008 3:34PM

    I try and try, but no. Congrats!

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SKINNYSOON13 1/28/2008 10:53AM

    I'm soooo jealous! But I'm even MORE jealous that you won a T-SHIRT! I had big plans last year for any t-shirt I won, but I never won! boohoo! I was going to get iron-on letters or something and put WATCH ME LOSE 100 IN '07 and then my sparkname, and wear it everytime I worked out. Good thing I didn't win one, because I would have had to cross off my name and put YOURS! :-)

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BAYCORNER 1/28/2008 10:45AM

    Congratulations.

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