FINALLY!!! Sheesh....

Thursday, April 11, 2013

I guess this Weight Watchers thing is working. Seems my metabolism is broken, though, and that's what the problem has been. When I was doing appetite-lead Primal eating, or going by what my Fitbit said I was burning....I wasn't gaining but I sure wasn't losing.

So here's what's working: I have 38 points daily, plus 49 to use throughout the week. Plus I earn 6-8 points a day with exercise. I have to pretty much stick to the 38 points a day and forget the extra....and there's certainly no eating all those extra activity points! I have to eat protein, fruit and veggies and no more than 1 piece of bread a day. No sodas or other sweet stuff or the weight just sticks on me.

And the really odd thing is....when I cut down on my activity, I lose more. I can't figure it out. I'm just grateful it's coming off in dribs and drabs.

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We'll see tomorrow....

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

...how this "fruits n' veggies n' Weight Watchers" thing turns out. I had a weekend of diet depression and pretty much did what I wanted and ate what I wanted. Yesterday I decided to make a huge part of my daily intake fruits and veggies since W.W. has most as 0 points. I feel a little lighter - through rumbly - so when I weigh in tomorrow there just might be a change.

I sure hope so. Noone can argue with a good intake of plant life, and for my mental health this needs to become and REMAIN all about health, and not about weight loss. I need the encouragement on the scale though.

Tracking on two separate sites has been "interesting". Then I head over to the Fitbit site and see what they have to say.

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Paying a lot of $$ for complete humiliation.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Finally able to see the rhuematologist yesterday. He did a rudimentary physical exam on me and declared I have no outward signs or symptoms of anything auto-immune, but wants to have the bloodwork repeated.

Fine and good. The humiliation comes in now: I told him I landed in his office when my GP sent me off for bloodwork because I complained I wasn't losing weight. He panicked and spent the rest of the appt. telling me "you must be cheating"..."work out harder"...."no pills I can prescribe to help you". I guess he thought I'd demand a prescription before I'd leave the office.

I told him repeatedly that it just ain't happenin' and I'm not cheating. Who would I cheat? Only myself. Not interested in cheating myself, frankly. I track on both Sparkpeople and Weight Watchers now and I log EVERYTHING I eat. I went from couch potato to walking five miles a day. So frustrating!

Especially when his final words to me were "Lose 25 pounds and it will help your mood and your physical condition." What the hell??? Have you listened to ANYTHING I've been saying?

I will get the bloodwork repeated and the knee xrays done as he prescribed, and if I don't hear from the office about any bad results, I'm going to cancel the follow-up appointment made for four months down the line. I don't need to pay to get told I'm "cheating" and "not working hard enough". Hardly helpful!

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The Vagaries of Weightloss....or Why It Makes Me Crazy.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

I've been at this since last August, with serious intent since January. Not a pound has been lost. I've bounced around from 107.4 - 109 kilos. I've done Primal with appetite-led eating. I've done Sparkpeople with strict calorie counting. I've done Sparkpeople with Fitbit.

Sparkpeople yells constantly that I'm not eating enough calories for my activity level. Fitbit has only congratulated me TWICE on actually meeting my calorie consumption goals. Most days I've got a thousand calorie defecit.

No weight was lost.

Well, three days ago I borrowed my daughters' current Weight Watchers' materials and decided to give it a true try of one week. I don't know how the calories play out, but I have 39 daily points to use, plus 5 points, plus I'm accruing activity points at the rate of 7 a day and don't eat those. So I'm guessing it's roughly 1400 calories. Sparkpeople's low range for me is 1490.

Yesterday (day 3) my husband suggested going out to Morton National Park and doing a grueling walk down to Fairy Bower Falls. A mile straight down on a rough track, then that same mile straight back UP. Husband is good about letting me go at my own pace so by about 2/3'ds of the way up I was climbing five steps, resting, climbing five more....sweating like crazy. I shouldn't have an impurity left in my body after all that sweating.

So....I weigh myself this morning. Scale says 105-something. I'll take it, but I'm confuzzled.

Did I just sweat off water weight? Is it true weight loss? Why the heck is it happening now that I'm waaayyyy undereating according to both Sparkpeople and Fitbit? (When I was eating at the top of my Sparkpeople range and the Fitbit range, I wasn't losing but I wasn't gaining either.)

This is where it messes with my mind. I know we're not all one-size but it would be a heck of a lot easier and less confronting if it worked the same for us all. Am I going to get on the scale in a couple of days and see 107.4 again? ACK!!!!!

My darling son has an apprenticeship at Bakers Delight now, and Saturday evening he brought home a ton of free goodies. Including half a dozen delicious plump scones. I threw the scones in the freezer and sent those off with the husband today to feed his ever-hungry co-workers. Those scones sang a siren song even through the freezer door, I tell ya.

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Getting on with getting on.

Monday, February 25, 2013

No call yet from the specialist. His office was on vacation til this week, which I would presume to be Monday - yesterday. Quite sure whatever ails me is not life-threatening, but there's big psychological trauma when you're made to wait for a sure diagnosis.

Meanwhile, I've been researching about diet and how it affects autoimmune disorders. I should just yank up those Big Girl Undies and go completely gluten-free, for one thing. Gluten or wheat at the very least will exacerbate inflammation. My health will be better all around if I can just get it out of my diet completely and forever. I was doing really well til that last blood test and the delay in getting to the specialist - far too many "what the hell" moments have happened these last two weeks and I am paying.

And nightshades can be problematic for autoimmune folks. I already suspected I should eliminate those due to stomach reactions. Honestly, the only tomato product I will miss is ketchup! Well, ok...and tomato soup made with whole milk. But tomato soup is really only comfort food paired up with a nice toasted cheese sandwich on white bread, and I won't be eating that anyway! :) Potatoes don't thrill me much any longer either. I can turn my back on a potato any day and often have.

So I'm still weighing and measuring, and journalling and making good choices...most days, and I'm resolving this will be "all days". Still walking every day and being as active as possible. I haven't weighed myself for three days, but am not anticipating any big loss so I don't bother. So I've found my Big Girl Undies and don't plan on losing 'em again.

*Nightshades are potatoes, tomatoes, chilies, bell peppers.

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