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Food = Mood.

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

I learned a valuable lesson yesterday. Must be true that we don't comprehend til we're good and ready.

I went out for a gossip session with my friends yesterday. On the way, I stopped and grabbed a fast-food meal because I hadn't planned well and wasn't going to be able to wait to eat til we got to our destination. Wolfed down the fast food, went to the coffee shop.....had a large coffee and a piece of carrot cake. The cake was delicious. I haven't had carrot cake in years. Enjoyed every bite and didn't feel guilty.

Then the blood sugar ravages began. By the time I got home at 3pm, I was CRANKY. My body didn't feel well and neither did my mind. By the time I went to bed, I was as depressed as I've ever been.

This is the first time I've ever linked how I feel with what I eat. An important lesson!

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WENDYJM4 7/9/2014 6:23AM

    great lesson to learn. emoticon

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TEXASFILLY 7/8/2014 9:46PM

    emoticon I'm sorry you hurt yourself, gf~ It's no fun as I've done the same thing before, too. The good news is that when you lost (the ache of despair and discomfort) that you didn't lose the lesson~ do not eat junk (it's really NOT food) because it does not serve this body that's the temple of your soul. Love you, sweet sister~ Now give thanks for the lesson learned and forgive yourself~ tomorrow is a new day! *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Glad you learned this lesson. It will be repeated should you need a reminder.

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LOOPYLOU0363 7/8/2014 6:24PM

I too am starting to get it! Amazing isn't it. Now if we could learn to recognize the feelings before we eat!
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Temporary I'm back.

Monday, July 07, 2014

Last week wasn't great for quite a few reasons. Nothing bad happened, just stuff in my head going round and round and an attack of my fun social anxiety disorder. Stayed away from the gym all week except for Friday. Ate ice cream every day. Hey, I figured if it was gonna be a pity party, I'd have ice cream.

So I went back to the gym yesterday. Started on my new three-part program. The ol' "Low and Slow" one. Lots of reps, lower weight. I am FEELIN' it. I was groaning to the new trainer about how sore my muscles are today and she said that means I was doing it right, which is good. Aiming for five days at the gym this week.

Getting back on track with eating, too. Just logged breakfast for the first time in well over a week. I'm off for a gossip session with the friends in a few minutes. Just realised I'm going close to where a colony of flying fox bats lives year-round so maybe I'll grab the camera and see what I can see.

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DJ4HEALTH 7/10/2014 10:05PM

    It happens to every one and you can get back on the horse and ride it again so to speak emoticon emoticon

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RDEE22 7/8/2014 6:35AM

    Everyone needs a pity party from time to time. Glad you are back on track.

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1BEACHWALKER 7/7/2014 11:50PM

    Glad to have you back! Good for you! Sometimes we need a break and to be rebellious! ;-)
Keep can do it!!!

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TEXASFILLY 7/7/2014 11:34PM

    emoticon Glad you're back! Good job on getting back on track~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Looking forward to the weekend....

Thursday, June 26, 2014

I have myself convinced I'm not sleeping well, even though I know I am. Hard to drag my poor butt out of bed at 6am, even harder to think about putting on the workout clothes and heading to the gym.

But I did. I moaned, groaned, complained, got some good advice from my trainer. I even did an additional ten minutes of cardio that I hadn't planned on simply because a delightful lady got me talking about places she wants to visit in the States.

Still worrying over the food issue. I decided today that the obvious clue is just to eat healthy stuff that I know fuels me well, and it'll all even out. Still fussing over numbers I dont' understand and cant' manipulate to my advantage. Still feeling run-down and like I'm not chugging along with all the pistons working properly.

Looking forward to a sleep-in tomorrow which probably means getting up at 6:30am rather than 6am. :)

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LSDALOIA 7/6/2014 11:21AM

    You go, girl! I hate working out in the morning, but do it when I have to. You're my heroine!

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 6/27/2014 10:25AM

    At least you did it. It's one more notch on your belt.

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TEXASFILLY 6/27/2014 9:38AM

    Yikes! I hate those days when I just don't feel it. Hope you're not suffering from sleep apnea. Have you ever done a sleep study? Way to go on that workout, gf! *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RDEE22 6/27/2014 6:12AM

    Have a lovely weekend! emoticon

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    Figure out what you are hanging onto that is dragging you down and let it go.

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THINRONNA 6/27/2014 4:26AM

    I have had the same sluggish feeling lately as well. I was not sleeping for a long time and then, now that I am I still feel like I don't want to get out of bed or that I am tired all day. Good for you getting on with it thought and working out! Impressive.

Have you tried this Paleo(ish) way of eating? Two of the clients I work for advocate a diet high in fresh vegetables, healthy fats and protein and healthy grains...low sugar, no processed foods and no gluten. It has to do with balancing blood sugar levels and repairing the gut. I can't believe I know about all of this stuff but it is a consequence of doing all of this writing for them. It is starting to make sense to me. I defiantly look at the value of vegetables and nutrients in a whole new and fresh way.

Enjoy your weekend!

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Wild weather....

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Tad bit blowy in my corner of the world these days. Power went out yesterday afternoon at 4:30, didnt' come back on til 6:45pm. Dinner was all medieval - candlelight and only meat and bread. I had foresight enough to throw a roast in the crockpot in the morning, by the time I was ready to put veggies on, out went the power.

I had an interesting dream last night. In the past, I've had recurring dreams about keeping a rental apartment in a very old building, even though I lived elsewhere. The stairs were always difficult to navigate and the elevator was always out of order. I had this dream countless times til one night I recieved an eviction notice. Yep, you guessed more recurring dream. Life has calmed down a tad with my two kids - I've had some good conversations with my son and all I can do is hope he's heeded my advice.

Last night I dreamed I was back in an apartment in Portland, OR. My kids were much younger. We were living elsewhere, and I was keeping this apartment for unknown reasons. Still paying rent. We were only partially moved out. I went to the manager and gave our notice to vacate, and began moving a huge wardrobe of old clothing into the back of our old White Rhino, the car I drove before we moved here to AU. I was thinking all the while "I can't wear even half of these...."

So this is obviously my brain trying to untangle all my wild thoughts and emotions of late. I wonder how long it'll be before I get my eviction notice for this dream apartment, or how many trips in the old White Rhino to completely move out?

I have no clue about dinner. My husband might welcome the old meat and salad and veggie after last night's picnic.

Gym was a good workout. I did the Wednesday circuit. Two and a half minutes cardio, 30 second rest, two and a half minutes weights. Kept at it for two complete rounds and then called it a day.

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1BEACHWALKER 6/25/2014 8:17PM

    Maybe if it's a dream always of a home in Portland, it may be as simple as your subconscious yearning for home in the states. Before the kids were born or grown and causing stress to your life. Are you ever moving back? I remember you said while kids were in school, you would stay in OZ. Are they in college now? Well, I'm glad things with the kids have been talked out and hope all works out.

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TEXASFILLY 6/25/2014 7:19PM

    WOW! Some dream! They can be trippy indeed! Good job on your great momentum working out~ that's AWE~some! *hugs* And here's to the lights stayin' on~ emoticon emoticon BB~ emoticon

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MISTYSMOM06 6/25/2014 12:57PM

    Dreams can reveal things and sometimes are just nothing at all. I used to dream of boxes that looked like optical illusions. Don't know what that was about. emoticon Anyway, keep up the good work!

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TINA8605 6/25/2014 11:16AM

  I have been having the same re-occurring dream for years too. I go to this dream when ever my life is in shambles or is stressed out. It is an old building....somewhat like an old western saloon. But all the people in the dream have no faces but I know most of them. This dream has been going on for over 40 years.
Keep up the good job on the exercising. Hope I can return to exercise next week after dr releases me from my pulled muscle in my hinny!! What a pain in the ass this

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WENDYJM4 6/25/2014 7:45AM

    very cold here too

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THINRONNA 6/25/2014 7:33AM

    I dream in that way too sometimes. I have been dreamless lately but have been glad to have some in the past few nights. I think you are right in that your brain is sorting some things out. Nice that you get evicted and the dreams end though! Your brain is pretty clever.

Power outages can be exciting when they don't happen too often. In the Caribbean they happened so often that when Quin would see a candle lit she would clap her hands and say "ooh electricity!". (She would also wake up each day and say "Do we have water today Mommy?") emoticon

Great job at the gym.

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    How's the no alcohol commitment going?

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MJREIMERS 6/24/2014 9:36PM

    Dreams can be strange and interesting. Good job with the workout. I hope the power stays on. We've had our share of crazy weather, I live in eastern Nebraska, but we haven't lost power.

I hope you have a good evening.

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MCFITZ2 6/24/2014 9:20PM

    At least the meat was done. Dreams can be weird. I have had some doozies.

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Is Mercury out of retrograde yet? Please???

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Wow...big emotions lately. I'm ready for the boring to set in again.

My children are making me crazy of late. They depend on me to both advocate for them, and definitely depend on me ignoring bad behaviour or being oblivious. I was a single mom, working full time when they were young, so a certain amount of glossing-over got done when it came to things like keeping rooms clean, having set chores to help out, etc. None of this has benefitted them because i can cheerfully and lovingly say they are both SLOBS.

My daughter chose to listen to someone else who sang the song she wanted to hear....and she quit her job before she'd found another. Jobs are thin on the ground here. So she quit at Christmas, still has not found another. Of course, she's not really trying. And now she and her partner are expecting a baby, and are living with his parents in a less-than-optimum situation. She's stressed for money constantly, and they are getting nowhere on saving for a downpayment on a house. Her partner doesn't want to rent, he wants them to buy. My dad and his wife set up a trust fund for the four grandkids, right before the accident. There will be a good chunk of cash for each, earmarked for a house deposit or education. They get the money at 24 if they don't need it sooner, for the home or education. She's trying to coerce me into advocating to my father for her to have her share NOW. Not for a house, just for money to tide them over. It'll go on lunches and dinners out so they dont' have to be at home so much in the less-than-optimum living situation. I've told her I'm not going to ask him.

Then my son. Shaking my head. I finally cottoned on to the fact that he's been smoking. Yes, he's 20 and I can't really tell him what to do. That didn't stop me though....he got a scorching the other night when I figured it out. I'm normally Mild-mannered mamma but he discovered when I am irked...I'm irked and I don't take stupid excuses. I also asked his girlfriend point-blank if SHE smokes...she does. I asked her to be a good influence on him. Then I stalked into the house and pretty much ignored all his efforts to cosy up and make peace. Until today. Then I had another chat about what a destructive habit it is. I asked him if he thought his two friends who've been smoking for a couple years now could QUIT if they wanted. I've seen too much damage done in my family by smoking. My son is my genetic double, as I am my father's genetic double...and my father's heart disease began rearing it's ugly head when he was about 45. After years of smoking too much, drinking too much, and eating too much. My son is on that path. I told him he owes it to himself and his future family to be as healthy as he can...and he needs to start NOW.

Plus I was mostly hurt by the lying. I don't care much for being lied to. To all the kids in our family, a lie is few simple seconds to get their ass out of the line of fire. I explained to my son today that for the person being lied to, its a slow and steady erosion of trust. He needs to get out of the habit NOW because the only thing worse than a lying kid is a lying adult. The lying thing came in because I thought I smelled cigarettes on his breath a couple weeks ago, and when I questioned of course he said "Oh no, mom."

Not a great workout at the gym today. I seem to be backsliding in strength. Part of that might be technique, and I got some good help and good pointers from my trainer. Still working on the nutrition aspect.

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THINRONNA 6/23/2014 7:30AM

    I wish I could give you a great big hug. I am sorry things are so difficult with your kids. Mine are little so it is not so much for me to say but I am guessing that this early 20's time in life is hard because they must feel all grown up and like they know it all. You have done a good job with them though and they will pull out of this.

I don't know about Australia, but I know in Europe it seems to be much more acceptable to smoke that in other places. In the Caribbean you hardly ever saw it and in the US at least they are fitting against it. Here, if kids don't smoke then they chew tobacco! Girls and boys. There is candy that looks like snuff! It makes me so mad. I talk a lot about how gross it is and stinky and it makes you wrinkly and sick. I hope it has a impact but it is hard when the neighbour below us smokes and they think he is really great. Bad influences. ugh.

Maybe put some lovely pictures of people around your home who have been ravaged by cigarette smoking. I don't know the answer. You are great and you will get through this.

Stay strong and keep exercising! emoticon

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    So, since I'm a good SparkFriend here and we are here to lose weight, gain in fitness and improved health I'm going to ask you to do a private assignment:

Take these 2 stories and point the finger directly back at yourself. How is what these 2 directly related to your program?

Let me know what you find out.

It's never about them. It's always about us. ALWAYS! Others are just a distraction. A way of experiencing our angst without taking account of our own "fault".

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RDEE22 6/23/2014 3:42AM

    Hang in there. Been there done that. Thinking of you.
Keep on track for you!

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ALIHIKES 6/22/2014 11:59PM

    You are doing a great job being a mom, and telling the kids what they need to hear. BUT it is not easy! emoticon

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1BEACHWALKER 6/22/2014 11:39PM

    Not being a parent, but seen what my sister went through with her daughter and now here with her kids, I know how hard it is. Why anyone in this world would want to smoke is beyond me. For one thing they smell disgusting and can only imagine they taste bad, until you are addicted to them I guess. With all the information, commercials showing how bad it gets with some people, everyone should just stop! I feel for you! You are doing the best you is the world that is influencing them. You try, but sometimes the pull of the worldly and their ways can be really enticing.
Keep up with your exercise, that will definitely help with your stress! Good luck and hang in there. emoticon

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DJ4HEALTH 6/22/2014 11:18PM

    Yes smoking is a bad habit but you can not make him quit, he has to want to quit. I know because I have been there and my daughter is smoking now and she started when she was in her 20's and she will be turning 34 in Dec. She said that she will quit in June and now June is almost over and she is still smoking but she does know that she can not smoke around me because of my lung problem that lupus caused. As for your children all you can do is pray for them and keep praying until God gets ahold of them.

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TEXASFILLY 6/22/2014 10:55PM

    ACK! Your son needs a wake~up call. Have him and his girlfriend take glimpse of what they're inviting into their futures:

Here's hoping you keep up your great momentum! *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MICHELLE_391 6/22/2014 10:08PM

    Well - good for you for working out. It sounds like you REALLY need the endorphins right now. Not being a parent myself, I can't really give you any advice, but I am sending you strength to deal with it all and continue standing your ground!


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