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2010!

Monday, January 04, 2010

Ahh.....the monday after New Years....where I have seen this before? Oh ya, last year!
1 Year ago after new years I was in the worst health of my life, at 425lbs and 21 years old I was a ticking time bomb....in my first year of the 'new me' I think I have made tremendous strides....I have of course had my ups and downs and have been on and off the wagon a few times, but I can look back and say 1 year later I have definitely changed for the better.

With the new year comes a re-commitment to health and happiness for myself.....my 2010 goal is to be under 300lbs by the end. I have had some self-realization that I was far too aggressive in my 2009 goals and have done some re-evaluation in determining a realistic, practical, attainable goal......

2010 here I come!

  
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TINKER292 1/18/2011 8:41AM

    I belong to weight watchers. The leader in my meeting tells us not to set our goals to high, that way we don't set our self up for failure.

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JAMRETKE 5/6/2010 5:52PM

  Hey Chris! I'm very impressed. Your commitment to a new healthy life is so great!
You CAN do it! I'm trying to lose some extra poundage, but it seems to become more and more challenging... congratulations on your continued success emoticon!!! I work with children too, maybe we can chat???

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RASE1986 3/19/2010 1:03PM

    Hey Chris, that is totally awesome -- we can do anything that we put our minds to and work hard for. Best of luck to you! I hope 2010 has been great for you so far! :) xo

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FABULOUSPATTY 2/1/2010 10:48AM

  Keep up the good work.. Dont stop.. No matter what comes in your way.. Work around it.. And keep making adjustments if you need too.. You and I will be reaching our goals this year.. We can do it together.. Team work.. emoticon

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MOM23JS 1/17/2010 11:44PM

    Chris,

You should be SOOOO proud of yourself! You have had an amazing transformation... Keep your eye on your goals and always remember that failure is NOT an option!!

Shannon

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LUCKYIMYOURS87 1/6/2010 10:34PM

    Chris,
Great job so far! Just looking at your page is SO inspiring. You were fantastic in 2009, and you'll be phenomenal in 2010 :)
I saw that you're studying to be a teacher... what do you want to teach? I am going back to school to be a teacher, with the aim of teaching high school English, though I've recently felt a pull toward something less-traditional, like outdoor ed.
Anyway, I hope this finds you well! Glad to have you along on this journey.
Best,
Nicole

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CARLA393 1/4/2010 9:40PM

    Congrats on all of your success so far! I know how you felt, that is exactly how I felt 6 weeks ago, a ticking time bomb. I feared at the rate I put on weight I wouldn't be around to see my 30th birthday. I think you have a very realistic and attainable goal for 2010. I wish you all the success, and if you ever need motivation, I'm excellent at it!

Carla

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BYEBYEFAT. 1/4/2010 5:33PM

    awesome job!

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MCMPOOH43 1/4/2010 5:31PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon You can do it Chris!! :)

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My Reason for Being HERE

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I've put a lot of thought into this the last couple of days and I really need to reconfirm my reason for using Spark. I started using these resources in January as a way to educate myself, track my progress and find support. I fell in love with this site and built a lot of strong friendships. Unfortunetly most of my friends and support have stopped using this sight and dissappeared.

I am here to help me on my journey that I need to take. I like to help others along the way, but I am doing this as volunteer. This is not a job for me, and I won't take abuse anymore. I'm helping with teams and challenges because they motivate me.

If I can help others then yes I like to give and recieve support. But I'm not being abused anymore, thats it, I'm using this sight for me, to help me. I have enough stress in my life right now without adding this kiddie drama in the mix. If you are here to support then great, I would love to help you too and I appreciate support. But if your just here to complain and abuse, then move on! I have no interest in you.

  
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HEALTHYRED 1/10/2010 11:57AM

    Sounds like the Right Attitude to me!

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EXPRESSIONISM 1/3/2010 8:46PM

    I stopped being a real part of teams because I felt like it took too much out of, but then again- I don't feel connected and committed to the site without a strong support group. Maybe I kept picking the wrong groups... I keep joining new ones, but don't get into them for fear of the same things happening :( :(

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STARDUSTD 11/17/2009 9:46AM

  Good for you for taking a stand. You need to do what's best for you.
But to let you know, I think you're a great team leader for the 20 Somethings and love the way you're running our BLC7 challenge. Not to mention I find your success very motivational! emoticon

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AMANDAMUGNSTIK 11/16/2009 5:14PM

    I second what Rachel wrote, thank you for everything during the BLC7. We appreciate the work you put in. Just say no to drama.

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MUCHMOREMAMA 11/16/2009 12:00PM

  Hey! First- thank you so much for being as involved as you are with this site, with the 20 somethings team and the BLC 7.. you do so much that I think a lot of people don't even realize. Also thanks for just sticking around even though there have been some misunderstandings and spats about who does what.. it is all so trivial in the big picture and I am hoping, as I'm sure you are also that everyone can get over it and focus on the task at hand. I apologize if anything I said offended you at any point, I never intended to do so. I think you've made amazing progress and you truly inspire so many through this site. But at the end of the day, it is about you and your journey because you've still got a lot of mountain left to climb. Don't let anyone stop you, especially those who should be helping you. Let me know if you need anything.

-Rachel

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AMANDAWEYRICH 11/16/2009 10:14AM

    I'm here for you and anyone else that needs motivation and help and encouragement! :)

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THOMIAS 11/16/2009 2:03AM

    hey mr.chris,
i'm sorry that you have felt abused lately. I just wanted to let you know that i've found your story inspiring.
i'm really strugling right now so i appricate what you have been thru.
if your looking for some new drama free friends i'd be glad to chat with ya!
have a good one!

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XOCARLY 11/15/2009 10:29PM

    I have to second motherturtle85. I would love to be one as well. I appreciate all you do for the spark teams. I honestly dont know how you do it. It takes a lot of time and coordination. I hope you rediscover why you joined sp and how you can time manage to make time for your self, your weight loss, your goals. I want to share with you something that was posted today on BL7stars message boards. Go to google.com and search the following all in one "carrots, eggs, coffee beans". Its a nice little story. I dont know if you have ever read it before, but it definitely made me think today.

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MOTHERTURTLE85 11/15/2009 10:02PM

    I hope you can find some new friends to help you that are active now! I for one would love to be one! :)
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My passion!!

Friday, November 06, 2009

As I have shared with many of you I am in TEACHERS COLLEGE this year and although I am busier with more school work then I ever thought possible I am in looovveeee with teaching! emoticon

I did what is called the 'concurrent education' program here in Ontario, which is a direct entry from high school 5 year program, the first 4 years were my bachelor of science honors, and the 5th year is the bachelor of education. Although I have had some integrated educational theory throughout the first 4 years I am finally getting to actually teach!

The feeling when I see a child learn something is so rewarding, its undescribable. I am so excited to be doing what I love. I get to plan fun, exciting, motivating tasks that help children actually learn something meaningful and I get to watch them experience learning. I am so, so, so happy I am finally here, and I am T-minus 6 months to graduation! emoticon

On the back burner is the fact that I have NO IDEA what I am doing with my life as of May 7th... emoticon
But I promised myself not to think about that anymore until at least Christmas, as the job market is terrible here and it creates a lot of stress when I continually focus on this.

As I look at my passion now I see that this would not have been possible a year ago. To have enough energy, enthusiasm and confidence to work with students for 8 hours a day would not have been possible for the old Chris. I am truly loving what I am doing, and I am beginning to finally understand that I don't have to wait to be 'perfect' before I do what I want to. Before I was so limiting in my experiences as I was uncomfortable with my image and abilities and stopped myself from doing many things I really wanted to. But now I am doing what I love and I will continue to do so! How truly rewarding it is to be able to wake up everyday and LOVE going to school/work and have fun and learn continously! Even though its Friday, I was up at 5am (its 11pm), and it was 'one of those crazy friday days' I still can't WAIT till monday! (well maybe it can wait a few days so i can get some sleep....lol)
Have a great weekend all! thanks for the continued support!
Chris

  
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EXPRESSIONISM 1/3/2010 8:48PM

    Where in ontario are you in teacher's college chris? My husband applied for the fall, and that's what I wanted to do! but I suck in UNI so a Diploma in child and youth work, and getting my ECE will have to do I guess.. I'm taking online distance ed for ECE so I can still work.

Great job doing this buddy!! so happy for you!!

PS i'm in TORONTO!

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MCMPOOH43 11/20/2009 1:44PM

    That is soo great to hear, Chris!! :) But, you still didn't tell me what age/grade do you work with? :) I love working with kids too!! :) But you are right it does take energy and I can tell I have had more in the last few months too!! :) emoticon for sharing!! :) emoticon emoticon

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AMANDAWEYRICH 11/9/2009 9:46AM

    Your doing a great job and i know you can do this! Congrads on your graduation in only 6 months, that's a huge accomplishment.

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NCSUALUM03 11/7/2009 11:21AM

    People are born teachers, and your enthusiam for teaching shows that you have chosen the right profession. We need teachers down here in NC badly! I'm a high school biology teacher and love my job, but the apathy is unnerving. Continue to expect great things from your students! You will inevitably reach a few of them.

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KOCONUTTZ 11/6/2009 11:16PM

  Your enthusiasm is fantastic! I'm so happy for all that you have accomplished. Keep it up! Good luck to you from another soon to be graduate! emoticon emoticon

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Where I'm At...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Okay so its 10pm on a Saturday night. And my feeling is exhaustion yet very content with having such a productive day. This is the 2nd of my free weekends since quitting my job and focusing on myself and school. I got up at 7 on my own, made a healthy deliecous breakfast of fruit, omelette, yogart and oj. Plugged away at homework from about 8:30-noon. Got TONS done. Had a snack got ready, pack up gym stuff and hit the gym. Worked out from 12:30-2:30....jogging, elliptical, bike, treadmill, stepper, felt so, so, so good after. Went home...3pm ate lunch. Again 3:30-6:30pm plugged away at homework, got TONS done again. Then 6:30-8pm went grocery shopping, got food for week. Came home made dinner, beef and veggie stir fry! and cleaned and cut veggies for week 8-9:30pm. Then I decided its time to re-evaluate my goals and here I am! Where are my University friends on a saturday night? Out at the bar, but where am I here, and happy to be here!

So I started this crazy last ditch, which was really a first time full effort to lose this weigh on January 1, 2009. The first 4 months I did better then I ever thought possible! I managed my final semester of 4th year University and went to the gym daily and ate healthy and felt great! I managed to lose 83lbs in 4 months and completely change my lifestyle........then school ended at the end of April and my body basically shut down.....

i had pushed myself beyond limits. I felt great and I looked great, but my body was physically saying no. I was throwing up for no apparent reason seveal times a day, I was waking up at 4am sweating with my heart racing, literally thinking I was having a heart attack. I couldn't sleep, but when I was up it constantly felt like I was in a daze. I lost all structure and order in my life. I had no classes or school and I immediatley felt the need to fill my life with someonething else. I got 3 jobs and began working crazy numbers of hours simply as I felt i needed to do this at the time. Throughout May and June my exercise regime decreased considerably. By my Birthday, June 27 I was back to hovering around 350lbs and had stopped going to the gym all together. Then I made the worst decision of my life and worked 2 full time jobs throughout July and August and completley and utterly 'relapsed'.

By relapse I mean full out relapse. I ate out daily, several times daily. Didn't make it to the gym once in July and August and pretty much worked 10 hours a day and did nothing but work, eat and eat some more. Then september rolled around......

I began teachers college, an 8 month program on September 1. For the first 2 weeks of September I started going back to the gym several times weekly. I ate good, and weirdly enough the scale at the gym was 'broken' during these times and I never weighed myself. Then I made another poor decision and decided I would try to work and go to school at the same time. I spent every friday/saturday/sunday working and during the week in school then homework at night.....bye bye gym....I didn't even go grocery shopping. I began eating out again or random stuff that I could buy at the convenience store. Then it hit me mid-Oct, what was I doing to myself? Why? I actually had a kid at work (I worked at a hotel geared towards children) come up to me who I was talking to before and giving prizes and he said why is your tummy so big? This was a 5 year old talking, who obvsiously didn't know better, but it made me really think.

To be honest it was getting so bad my unifrom which I had just got in May was pretty much bulging and a button actually ripped off at one point. I knew things were quickly going astray and if I didn't stop things I would be back to where I started in no time.

Therefore I quit my job! I foced soley on school. I am in school or placement monday to friday 8-4 daily anyway.....plus homework, literally 20 or more hours a week on top of that. Last weekend was my first free weekend and it felt so good. I went grocery shopping again, to the gym twice, got lots of homework done so I had time during the week!

Well today I decided to face the music with the scale......and verdict is better then I was expecting to be honest, but thats because I have already been re-with it for about a week and a half, and literally think I lost about 10lbs again already......anyways new number is 361.8lbs..........

Jan 1/09= 425lbs
May 1/09= 343lbs
Oct 24/09= 362lbs

20lbs in 5 months! and it happened so slowly and easily! Once I got below 350lbs I promised myself I would never, ever go over 350lbs again in my life....well I did....but I recognized it and I am changing this......

new goal is to get to 325lbs by January 1/2010....thats 100lbs in one year, and another 37lbs to go in 10 weeks.........going to be VERY challenging, but I need to do this!

So what have I learned from my 'relapse'?
I'm the type of person who goes 100% or 0%, thats it...no middle ground. This time around I can still go 100% but I can do my program within reason. I was seriously doing 7 days a week with an average of 4 hours a day at the gym working hardocre the whole time, my body just couldn't hold out....My new program focuses on a more realistic approach 4-5 workouts a week consisting of about 1.5 hours at a time. A nutrition program focusing on tracking types of foods but not exact calories at first. I was before eating 1500 calories a day and wokring out 4 hours a day buning an additional 3000 calories just in exercise daily....a 400lbs person could not live on this and this was making my body shut down!

So why this rant? I need to get it out! I need to make sure this doesn't happen again. Yes I will struggle, yes I will have bad days, but I will not have 4 month relapses.......

To be honest one thing on this site which really bothered me was seeing how all these inspirational sparkpages and motivators seemed to disappear. It made me wonder what has happened to so many people that stop using this site? Sadly I have to assume many go back to old ways....why as it is easier! This is hard im not going to lie, but I am so worth this.

I am here to stay this time around and I am not dwelling on the past. I am going to stick to this and take it one day at a time. Yes Im not perfect, but yes I have made amazing progress. Saying I have lost 63lbs in 10 months is an achievment I am proud of and not one that many people can say they have done.......

I want to also say to my 20 somethings with 100lbs to lose team I am sorry. I am sorry for disappearing as a leader, I let you down and I let myself down. There were 10 leaders on that team and every single one of us dissappeared....this is not right, and it can't happen again.

So there! thats my life for the last few months!
Oh, and teachers college I absoloutley love!!! I am in my own classes at school mon-wed and thurs and fri I am in a school observing and teaching. I start my actual teaching daily soon in November. This is a passion I absoloutley love and something I am so happy I am doing.

So my new goal is to look towards 2010 and see how much I can accomplish by Jan 1. At that time I will re-evaluate.

Im also soooo pumped about the BLC starting up again on our 20 somethings team! Just what I need to get back on track....and oh ya Im running this challenge for like 100 something people by myself....where I will find the time for this I don't know, but I will be on spark instead of tv or doing nothing from now on.

Anyways its 11pm and I feel sooo mcuh better now. Bed time :)

I simply had to get this out, and now that I have I am moving on!!!!
Thanks for your support Sparkfriends, I couldn't do this wihtout all of you!

Chris

  
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MCMPOOH43 11/6/2009 10:28AM

    Wow, thanks for sharing all of that and letting me/us see a glimpse into your life these past few months!! emoticon

Good luck with your biggest loser teams! emoticon

And thank you for being the leader on the Sparkteam! emoticon

emoticon emoticon emoticon on your weight loss so far and for what is to come!! :)

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ZELDAPLIFF 11/5/2009 11:42AM

    There's no doubt in MY mind you can do it... you just needed to get YOUR mind to know that.

We all fall down. At least here we have helping, lovign hands to pick each other up.

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BLC challenge? Too late for me?


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JYANTKILR 11/5/2009 3:01AM

    Glad you jumped back on the horse.

Lets ride !

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JULIEHINTZ 11/2/2009 1:00PM

    Good for you. Getting back into it seriously, BEFORE you lose all the progress you made, just HAS to equal continued progress, right?? You stick with it as long as you can and if you slide again for some reason, get back to it as soon as you're motivated again. I think that getting back on the horse, over and over, will eventually see you through to your ultimate goals.

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DREAM_MAKER 10/27/2009 2:15PM

    Chris,

Im so glad that you are back too! Despite your ups and downs you knew to get back here and you also made excellent choices to do what was best for you! That shows awesome growth and Im so proud of you!

I wish you nothing but the best in all that you do!



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AMANDAWEYRICH 10/26/2009 12:18PM

    I'm glad your back. With the motivation and dedication you are going to give i know you will be able to do anything you set your mind to. Just stay positive and never give up. :)

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BRANDIAUNNA83 10/25/2009 4:48PM

    Congrats on stepping it back up in a very healthy and positive way! You know I think there were many people who used the site and were doing great in the spring but who stopped during the summer. I'm including myself in this. But most people I know had a really hard time this summer in particular with weight loss for various reasons. I would suggest the stress of finances and the economy had a little bit to do with the added anxiety that we face, even if it doesn't seem like it was that bad. For me the wakeup call was that I could NOT face 280 again and I felt my pants feeling like they did at 280. Luckily I stopped at 277 or I couldn't imagine where I might have ended up after Winter. Scary thought! Now I'm back down to 264, almost where I left off in Spring. So I want you to know you're not alone in this struggle and fight. The same thing happened to others of us. I have a friend who removed her Sparkpeople profile altogether and I emailed her a few days ago and she created one again, so same thing for her too.

Now I'm back with a vengeance, and I see you are too. Don't let that small period of time fill you with guilt because you are taking ownership of this. I'm here and I'll be commenting and cheering you on. When someone has your courage, that's an inspiration to me, and it gives me courage, too.

Buena suerte! Que Dios te bendiga.

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JAZZYJUDE 10/25/2009 12:34AM

    Hi Sweetie! You are awesome! It's a start of a new leaf you are going. I'm glad to see you given yourself some pep talks and come to realize that you are not happy. You are planning out your week real good and you will succeed Chris!

What I've done, anytime I start anew, is to write things down. When I've done, cross it off. This may sound childlish to do, but those who do this will reach their goal(s). Those who don't will continue to just 'wish' their dreams.

YOU CAN DO THIS CHRIS!! I BELIEVE in you. When the tough gets going, review your list of the week and maybe you might need to revise it a bit to not make it sound so haunting to you to do.

ANYTHING is possible if you are determine sweetheart!
emoticon KEEP THE FAITH!! Jazzy!!

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Not Dead Yet!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

THats its the scale says I gained 15lbs back from my lowest. That is IT!!!

I am back down to only 65lbs lost this year. I need to lose another 35lbs by Jan 1st. I can do this! I will do this!

I quit my job...last day is tmrw! Thank God!
I can focus on myself and school now!!!

I neeeeeeeed to doooo this!!!

I need help Sparkfreinds (L) I miss you all soooo much :)

  
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MOMFAN 10/22/2009 12:09AM

    Hey, you are amazing and you can do this! Just do the next right thing, whatever that may be, eating healthy, get moving, whatever is the next right thing for you!

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AMANDAWEYRICH 10/12/2009 4:04PM

    Great to have you back. :) Keep up the great work.

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MELISSAMAIN03 10/12/2009 1:51PM

    You can do it!

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BRANDIAUNNA83 10/12/2009 1:19PM

    I'm here! I went through the same thing you did and got back on track last week. I'm more focused than ever and I'm here to listen. Let me know what I can do to help. Read my blogs. Usually reading blogs helps me stay more focused. Also, I've been trying to get as many spark points as I can since those behaviors lead to weight loss.

I wish you much success. emoticon

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MELVANDERFORD 10/11/2009 10:26PM

    You got this Mr. Chris! You have already come so far! Your weight loss is truly an inspiration and motivation for us all!


Focusing on yourself and school...sounds like a good decision!

Hang in there...stay strong and get after it!


-Melissa

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