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Rumors fly, part deux

Friday, January 15, 2010

I got my haircut yesterday and my stylist, who is also a friend, has decided she needs to fix me up with the guy who owns the beauty product wholesaler they use. He came by to drop off the products she had ordered and as he left she said, "If my husband wasn't around, I'd be after him!" Then she got this funny look on her face and said, "Oh! You could have him!" Oh yes, men are just falling out of sky for me to choose from! She doesn't know if he's married or not, however. So her next project is to get that piece of vital info. I'm guessing he is happily married.

So I've got two women on the look-out for me. Its kind of funny I've suddenly become a "project" for people after more than 13 years of being single, you know?

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LIONSIMA 1/16/2010 10:10PM

    LOL, excellent! I think you should be a project for as many people as possible, my dear. Many hands make light work, and you DESERVE to have a good life after everything you've been through.

I'm with Holly - maybe now you are sending indications that you are ready to move on with your life? You know as well as I do that overweight is a great way of hiding.

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MORINJ 1/15/2010 9:20AM

    I've thought about this long and hard, Holly. I tend to be serious in situations where I am uncomfortable and I'm not a bubbly, schmoozy cocktail-party sort of person. I can be really, really introverted unless I'm with people I know really well. I'm sure I come across as very unapproachable to people who don't know me. I'm more aware of this now, but it is very difficult for me to change it. I'm trying, though.

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HEALTHYWRITER 1/15/2010 9:11AM

    Were you giving off that unapproachable, "I'm not ready" vibe? (K. looks unapproachable when she's merely feeling a little insecure. You'd think she was arrogant and standoffish.) The weight loss, the haircut - maybe that was just an outward signal to people that you were interested. People can be a little dense, sometimes.

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Rumors fly

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I heard yesterday that people are speculating that I have a boyfriend. Their evidence? My weight loss! I'm a little upset by this. Why didn't people think I could have a boyfriend when I was fat? Don't fat women deserve love, too? At least now it is within the realm of possibility for most people--ideally for some single middle-aged man with minimal issues and grown children. I told the person that confessed this to me that if it were true, I would likely take out an ad in the local paper and she would be among the first to know. And by the way, does *she* know anybody....?

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HEALTHYWRITER 1/15/2010 9:18AM

    Oh, yeah, Jen - I definitely see a lot of that attitude. It's always struck me as vaguely idiotic. I mean, it's fine to want to look nice for your partner and all (more importantly, to be healthy enough you might be planning on sticking around in this world a bit longer), but if I had to lose weight to KEEP a guy? Oh, h*** no. I want to be loved for my mind. (Not my vast intelligence, mind - that facade could crumble any day - but for the quirky twists and turns and occasional moments of deep insight.) I do NOT want to be mere eye-candy. I met an anorexic girl, once, whose boyfriend thought she was too fat. I didn't really know either of him, but had an urge to grab the boy by the scruff of the neck and shake him.

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JENOLSON 1/15/2010 6:02AM

    Jodie, I would feel the same way (a little upset). The way I interpreted it though, was that they think you have a boyfriend so you're losing weight for HIM. That offends me as much as thinking you can only HAVE a boyfriend if you're thin. Why would they think you need a boyfriend to motivate you to lose weight/get healthy? Either interpretation is a little insulting - or naive at best.

OTOH, it's kind of cool that you have lost so much weight that you are now the subject of watercooler gossip. Color your hair and start wearing miniskirts and give them some more to speculate on. lol

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HEALTHYWRITER 1/14/2010 9:22PM

    Oh, the message I got from it was a little different: Married people are contentedly fat; only people on the prowl bother losing weight. Which I find equally disturbing, but it's a slightly different slant on it. I know plenty of overweight people who are happily married or involved, so I've really never thought about it as "only skinny people are worthy of love." I know some people do seem to have that mindset, but I've successfully avoided them most of my life. :)

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LIONSIMA 1/14/2010 2:26PM

    I hear you, Jodie. That is indeed hurtful. But I do hope you find some nice middle-aged man with minimal issues and grown kids ... you deserve a break, regardless of your size.


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MORINJ 1/14/2010 9:40AM

    I wasn't offended, exactly. But I do feel frustrated that I had to lose 90 pounds before anyone other than myself (and my mother) considered it a possibility. I thought it was very odd that I was the object of idle speculation among the local middle school faculty....what's up with that? This mindset is what I've always resented and why I resisted losing weight for so long. The message is the only skinny people are deserving of love and that's just so mean and hurtful and I've been running up against it for practically my whole life. It makes me cranky.

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HEALTHYWRITER 1/14/2010 9:17AM

    You're offended by that? Imagine when I lost weight and everyone at the office speculated that I was having an affair! LMAO. As if.

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Fantastic weekend

Monday, January 11, 2010

I stayed on program, I got my 10K steps in each day, I tried on a pair of size 10 dress pants and they fit beautifully. Hurrah! I decided not to buy them because I didn't really like the pockets on them. There was a time not so long ago when I would buy the first pair of pants that fit just to be done looking at the thunder thighs in the dressing room mirror. Now, I can afford to be picky! Is this the way most of the population buys clothes? This is quite a revelation to me.

So, as of this morning, I can claim that I've lost 90 pounds. I've got 10 pounds to go to get to goal. The scales have been rewarding me lately, and success feeds on success. I think I can do this! I am worried about maintaining once I get to goal, but I'm trying not to worry about that in advance. I'll just have to take it day by day as I have been. I am looking forward to adding more WW points to my diet. 22-23 points was about right for me. I'm trying to get by on 20 points a day now and its a challenge. I'll need to drop to 19 points per day before I'm done, though.

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JENOLSON 1/14/2010 7:50AM

    AWESOME, Jodie!!!!! You're so close to your goal - keep going, keep going, keep going..... :-)

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MELISSAMETTS 1/11/2010 7:06PM

  Wow, Jodie! Keep it up - you ARE an inspiration!

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ASLIMEM 1/11/2010 3:45PM

    Yay, you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ASDISO 1/11/2010 1:04PM

    Jodie, you're an inspiration!!! Being able to be picky about clothing is good. Enjoy it :-)

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LIONSIMA 1/11/2010 10:54AM

    Yay Jodie! Yes, success feeds on success. I am so proud of you! Keep on being picky ;-).

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ZANQUETTA 1/11/2010 10:05AM

  Keep up the good work.

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Good news/bad news

Thursday, December 31, 2009

The good news is that I got my size 10 jeans on this morning.
The bad news is that they hurt.

The good news is that according to my official WW weigh-in yesterday I did not exceed my weight gain goal during the Christmas holiday.
The bad news is that I went right up to the limit of 159.8.

The good news is that I exercised this morning.
The good news is that I wrote down what I've eaten so far today.
The good news is that I threw away the left over Christmas cookies last night and they are now on their way to the landfill.
The good news is that everyone else will be starting their New Year's Resolution to lose weight tomorrow, so dieting will be easier.
The best news is that I'm starting 2010 at my lowest adult weight ever, with my goal within reach.

So there are some sins that need to be answered for, but overall I'm starting this new decade in the best shape ever. Happy New Year!

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LIONSIMA 12/31/2009 4:12PM

    Your good news list is longer than your bad news list, so that's a great way to start a new year. Happy New Year, Jodie! You are an inspiration.

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KMIRANDA2000 12/31/2009 10:09AM

    Thank you for sharing such personal thoughts. Happy New Year.

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Over a year

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

It's been over a year since I logged into SP. Last fall, I started gaining weight again and those new clothes got pretty tight. In April, my workplace started a Weight Watchers at Work program because obesity is such a problem, evident through our wellness program. I joined and I've lost just over 35 pounds on the program. I'm 20 pounds lighter than I ever was previously. And I mean in high school, in college, when I got married, etc. I'm also 12-13 pounds above my WW goal. If I do indeed hit that goal weight, it will mean that I've lost 100 pounds. 100 POUNDS! The fact that I've lost nearly 90 pounds blows my own mind. People who haven't seen me in a year don't recognize me anymore. I have to introduce myself to people and literally, jaws drop. It's a good feeling.

So, what am I doing? I take it one day at a time. I try to exercise every day. I try to allow myself a treat everyday, so that I don't feel deprived. I much prefer tracking WW points to keeping track of calories, but with the holidays, I've really done a miserable job of writing down what I eat. Tracking is a key for me when I want to show a loss at the scales. My goal for Christmas is to stay in the 150's, meaning I will allow myself to gain a couple of pounds for those once-a-year goodies. There will be plenty of time in January to lose that, IF I don't go crazy. So far, so good.

My WW group has challenge right now. One million steps in one hundred days. That means I need to walk 10,000 steps per day. I wear my pedometer constantly and I've become dedicated to walking whenver possible. It was easy for me to hit the daily goal when it was nice outside. I last walked outside a few weeks ago. Now, it is not only dark, but slippery at 5:30 a.m. So I've started jogging while I watch the morning news. I can get in 5K steps in half an hour in the morning and I pick up the other half just doing stuff around the house. I have a few days when I only got 2K steps in a whole day, so I probably won't make the goal in the prescribed 100 days unless I really pick up the pace, but it will be interesting to see how long it does take me.

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    Your turn to be the inspiration for us, Jodie! :) ::passes the torch and gets back to journaling::

I'm actually NOT resistant to tracking and journaling (naturally), but it kind of makes me feel like a doofus when people say, "Oh, yeah, I did that for a while, but I just couldn't track everything, so I quit." I don't know why - I think it's the tone of voice and the look of disdain on their faces when they say it. But it doesn't stop me. Laziness stops me. ;) Getting distracted by all the other shiny things to do stops me.

I did lousy today until dinner. I had a choice - starve myself in penance for lunch and skipping breakfast (I was already over my target calories, but had almost NO nutrients on the tracker) or try to stuff as many nutrients into as few calories as possible, and eat dinner. I'm STUFFED! LOL - I made myself a little portobella pizza - mushroom, chopped red pepper, zucchini slices, monterey jack cheese, tomato slices, a tiny bit more cheese, and a "salad" of cucumber, tomatoes, radishes, and cauliflower. Less than 250 calories, but YUMMY and filling. I'm going to have some Ovaltine at bedtime, and the whole awful day (we're not going to discuss the Popeye's Chicken dinner I had for lunch) is still coming in at 2005 calories, not 10,000. And the nutrition looks like something a sane person would eat. It's all good. ;)

I'm currently down 4 lbs. so far, since New Year's Day (lots of bloat) and hoping I haven't blown it too badly.

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MORINJ 1/5/2010 6:48PM

    Asli, you can do what I do. Journal all food entries and CONTINUE to bitch about it! I don't know why it works, but it does. I also don't know why I'm so resistant to it, but I am. When I want to see a smaller number on the scale, I must journal. It nearly always works and yes, I'm also quite resistant to doing it.

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ASLIMEM 1/5/2010 5:41PM

I'm proud of you too! You are truly an inspiration. I am EXTREMELY resistant to journalling my food. You may just have inspired me to do it and quit bitching.

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MORINJ 12/24/2009 11:47AM

    Thank you, all. It's been a long time coming. Melissa, all I can advise is not to get too hung up on how long it takes. I've been trying for nearly four years now. I've had set backs, for sure, but every day is a chance to start over again and do the best you can. For pedometers, I go with the cheapest I can find. I don't use them for distance, just steps, so I don't program them. Just clip it on and go! Next time around I may look for one with a cover because I have a bad habit of hitting the reset button at inopportune times. I've gotten in the habit of checking the pedometer everytime I go to the bathroom so if I do hit the reset I have some idea of where I was. My other advice if you can possibly do it: Weight Watchers. You can do a lot yourself, but there is something about the WW program that is really affirming and keeps you motivated.

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JENOLSON 12/23/2009 5:27PM

    You impress me so much with your determination!! I love it when I hear stories of people who want something, so they DO IT. And it's extra special because I know you. What an accomplishment!!! You are awesome. You must feel really good, too...
Go, go go!!!!

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LIONSIMA 12/23/2009 11:03AM

    WTG, Jodie! I'm proud of your achievement. I'm impressed with your pedometer prowess, too! I need to find mine ...

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MELISSAMETTS 12/23/2009 10:42AM

  I have a confession to make...this morning as I thought about what I want to do with SP, I thought to myself that I want to do what you did!! I'm so impressed with your determination and the progress that you've made!

BTW, which pedometer do you use? Any suggestions/recommendations?

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MRLEEP23 12/23/2009 9:00AM

    Congratulations on your hard work! You've heard this time and again, I'm sure, but you can truly see that it's not about the end, it's about the journey. I'm sure you'll look back and say "WOW!! I DID THAT!!!" Keep up the good work and I'm looking forward to hearing more of your progress.


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