Friday, January 04, 2013
I've creeped up to the 180's again. My clothes hurt and I don't like the way I look or feel. Since its January and the whole world is dieting, or at least talking about dieting this seems like a good time to jump in again. After a couple of days of clean eating I have lost enough water weight to cross the 180 divide again. My next goal is to get down to what my driver's license says I weigh--175. Ultimitely, I'd like to get down to the high 150's. At that weight, all my clothes fit, I look good and I feel a lot less jiggley.
I am trying to embrace journaling. I hate that I have to do it, but damn! It ALWAYS works for me. Why do I struggle so mightily to spite myself? Does it take that long? No. I think it makes me conscious that I will never be a person who can eat whatever she wants with no consequences. But isn't that true of just about everybody? I'm sure there are people in the world who can eat whatever they want and never gain weight, but they are probably a very small minority. Look around--I don't see very many people who couldn't stand to lose a few pounds. Just quit belly-aching about doing it and DO IT.
Oh no, just received an email about baked goods being brought in today. Will stay strong and focused. Try, try, try.