Wednesday, March 05, 2014
I have been a member of sparkpeople for some time now and I feel like I have began, quit and started over way too many times. I will start do well for a while and then fizzle out and stop, get frustrated with myself and start over again and again. My weight is on a roller coaster and frankly I want off.
Every time I start over it's troubling to me to have to go over to my start weight and change that number to a even higher one. I want to finally for once and all begin and continue until...until I reach my goal, until I have fully got in the habit of being dedicated to being healthy and fit. And then I want to continue on and be dedicated to maintaining my healthy body.
I have a habit (like many do) of trying to find a quick fix. I read about new and improved diets and exercise programs and get energized at the thought of doing them, doing them well and getting the body that I want. I order product after product and try diet after diet. Most of the time I find that the diet restrictions are just too daunting to stay with and the amazing exercise programs are either too hard, cause me pain and discomfort or I frankly just hate doing them. In the end I feel defeated and like that it just isn't worth it. Starting over is getting me down and chipping away at my motivation and energy.
So what's a girl to do? Well I am not going to quit and I am not going to keep starting over and over again. What I am going to do is to take a step back, take my inventory and change the way I am looking at my situation. I am not starting over I am continuing and doing all I can to get my motivation back.
Instead of seeing this as a do over or starting a new I will change my view point and see it for what it really is.
Starting over implies that you are again at the point that you were when you first started. Well that just isn't accurate. My weight may be at that point..in fact my weight is more than that point, but my knowledge is beyond, my insight is beyond. I have lost weight before and regained it :( so I clearly know that I can lose it again. I have gained much more wisdom over the years when it comes to weight loss and health so that isn't starting over.
I know it sounds kind of silly of me to get so caught up in the wording and I'm sure one day it won't matter, but for today it does. So this is me continuing on to a healthier, fitter, more secure and thinner me. I will not allow the number on my scale to defeat me nor will I allow any negative self talk get me down. I can do this and I will do this!
I have the knowledge and am continuing to educate myself, I have the ability, I have the determination, I have the fight in me and thanks to sparkpeople.com I have the tools and because of all the wonderful people on here I also have the support.
Today I am continuing on my journey and I thank Sparkpeople.com and all the wonderful spark people for being here for me on this journey. I truly hope I can one day be an inspiration for others.