Wednesday, January 12, 2011
This morning, I woke up feeling groggy and grumpy. I did not want to get out of bed. It was my own fault since I stayed up too late, but I got up and ate breakfast (multigrain cheerios and fresh pineapple) and did a few things around the house. After a couple hours of laundry, washing dishes and tidying up, I decided to brew some coffee and have some computer time. I am a stay at home mom, so occasionally my little girl will let me have a break while she plays with her dolls or colors. :) Plus her dad is home today, and he's great at helping out. Anyway, to the point of this blog.
So, I sat down and logged onto SP. I read a few of my friends' blog posts and entered in my food and read some articles. Upon reading the blogs, this feeling of awe and gratitude came over me, and I just had to write about it.
Just let me say THANK YOU! Thank you to all of you who send me goodies, write about your triumphs and tribulations, and to the ones who comment on my page, whether it's just to say hi or comment on a photo. You all are one of the big reasons I have succeeded in losing this much weight. Without you, I'd be mostly alone in this. I don't have many people in my "real" life who are trying to be healthier and exercise regularly. As you all know, that makes it more difficult.
Your comments get me through rough days and keep me going. I need them. I think we all need each other here, and this is why sparkpeople works, because we have the support we need to do something that is very hard, which is not just losing weight, but changing the way we live. No longer do I feel alone in this journey. All of you understand. You know what it feels like to work so hard, feel like you've done everything right, and then not lose any weight that week, or worse, gain weight. You know that encouragement helps other people, and that is why you take the time to post comments and send goodies.
So, this blog is for all of you. I see how hard you're all working, and I know a lot of us have different circumstances to overcome, yet we're still making that effort to eat better and exercise and stay positive. Some of you have maybe gained a few pounds back or are frustrated about a plateau, yet you still don't give up! I'm so inspired by that. So, my hat's off to you all!
Let's make this the best year ever! Think of where we'll all be next year at this time.
For the longest time I've wanted to go kayaking, and I need to lose more weight so I can easily fit in one and so I can keep up. I am hoping this will be the year I can do that. I want to take my kids to the theme park and be able to ride all the rides with them. Life was meant to be lived, and we often can't live it fully if we are not at our best physically.
So, thanks again for being there for me. I appreciate you all more than you know.
Thursday, January 06, 2011
So, I've started off the new year well and for that I am glad. I've been exercising a lot, made sure to track (which I slacked on a lot over the holidays) and making sure I eat more fruits and veggies. These things are what have helped me all along on this journey.
Lately I've been frustrated because since late November I've gained and lost the same 3 or 4 lbs. It was my fault for slacking on tracking with how busy everything was. Another thing was all the parties and stuff, and not eating as well as I had been. I weighed 263 on Monday, and today I weighed 264. There is NO way I have gained weight this week. I have come in under my calories everyday for the last week and tracked every bite I ate. I have worked out a ton. So, what gives??? Is it water weight, or muscle or something? It's really bugging me because I've been doing so well lately, and then to see that just put me in a rotten mood. But, I will not let it keep me down. I'll keep going and working at it and I've got to lose more weight. I just can't figure out why it's been so hard lately.
I went to the oral surgeon this morning for a consultation to get my wisdom teeth out. This is something I should have had done years ago, but for a long time I never went to the dentist because of no insurance, and for many other reasons. This past year I have decided to take better care of myself on all fronts, so I am getting this done so I don't keep getting infections. Otherwise, my teeth are perfect, especially considering the fact that I never went to a dentist growing up (well, twice).
I went to have my vit D rechecked last month, and it was still low, so I am continuing with the supplements and taking a daily one, too. I don't understand why it's still not normal! It's very frustrating, to say the least. At that visit my blood pressure was high (140/90). It's always gone up and done, and a lot of it is nerves. So, the Dr. suggested I get an at home monitor, which I did. I've been taking it most days, and it's always normal! It's usually 120/70, and sometimes even 116/65. I am going to the Dr. this afternoon because I feel like I am getting a bladder infection. I hope that my blood pressure will be ok. I'll bring the recorded readings so the Dr. can see I've been keeping an eye on it. My OBGYN (that is another appointment I'd been putting off and went right after xmas! :) thinks I could have whitecoat syndrome, which makes sense because the moment I step into a Doctor's office of any sort, I get very nervous and my heart races.
For the first time in my life I feel like I will end the year much healthier than I've ever been in my life. My health has already improved so much, and I can't wait to get off some more of this weight. I don't know what it is, but lately I feel like my stomach has gotten bigger! I know it hasn't, or my pants would be tighter, and they are all looser, but it's weird. I feel like I've lost weight all over, but my stomach is still huge. I have defined calf muscles and hard muscle in my thighs. My shoulders are actually looking more defined and toned and I can tell in pictures my face isn't as fat. I just HATE my stomach and back fat. I wish it would shrink faster. It's almost like it hangs lower (I know that's gross) than it did before. I wish I could transfer some of it to other parts of my body because my legs are so much thinner and I feel out of proportion or something.
Well, I've blabbered on enough! I just wanted to update everyone on how things are going with me. It's been a stressful few weeks (stuff with my son..we found out he has ADHD, so we're trying to find ways to help him at home and school), but I know I'll be ok. My plan is to take this one day at a time, because all we really have is now, so that is what I'll focus on.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I feel as though I've been stuck here forever and it's very frustrating. For about the last month my weight has fluctuated up and down in this 4 to 5 pound range and it's really bugging me. After losing consistently for all those months, this has been ticking me off not to see the scale go down each week.
Part of it is that my eating hasn't been as stellar as it was. There have been so many birthdays and other parties lately and sometimes I have a hard time tracking what I've eaten since I didn't make it and don't know exactly what's in it. I've also been sick a lot this fall, or my kids have, so I feel run down. I am still exercising every week, and even had some great weeks, but the last couple haven't been as much.
At the Dr the other day (well, they actually called me the next day after taking my blood) I found out that my Vit D is STILL low, so I have to continue with the weekly supplements and take a daily one. I was disappointed to hear this. I feel like I've been working hard to do the right things and my body just will not do what I want it to do. My blood pressure was up at that visit too, so he suggested I get an at home monitor, which I did, and each time I've taken it, it's been normal. So, not sure what the deal is there. He said it could be nerves, and I think it is because I am always so anxious when I go to the Dr.
Things could be worse. It could have been like every other year at this time where I end up gaining a bunch of weight and not even attempting to eat healthy. I have been eating well overall, it's just cake and cookies here and there and eating out that is messing up my mojo. It's been so hectic I haven't planned my meals as well, and I need to make sure to do that because it's worked for me before since I haven't already eaten things and realized they were too many calories.
Tomorrow is weigh in and I am pretty sure I'll have a gain. Having my period right now is not helping, because my weight always goes up and down the week of my period.
All I know is I am not going to give up. I am going to keep on trucking and make sure I get some good workouts in and not skip meals which causes me to pig out later on. I really want to end this year in the 250s.
Monday, December 06, 2010
For the last few weeks my weight has fluctuated up and down. Right after Halloween I lost 3 lbs in a week, and then since it's been up and down within that 3 lb range. It's very frustrating. I had one of my best exercise weeks ever a couple weeks ago, and I managed to gain a pound. I definitely ate more than I should over Thanksgiving, but wasn't totally crazy.
I've been sick several times since October, which is making things hard. I had a cold and a stomach bug, infected tooth and now another cold. This morning I was thinking about things and realized that even through all of these things, I have done well. The "old" me would have given up when something hard came along and gone right back to eating like crap and not working out. I have made a conscious choice to be careful of what I eat, and no, it's not always perfect, but it's light years from where it was.
The last few weeks have been hard because of several birthdays, parties, Thanksgiving and a baby shower. There is always cake and tons of fattening stuff. Yes, I had some treats, but not half a cake. I am doing so much better, and even though it's frustrating the last few weeks not seeing the scale move down as quickly, I am still going and not giving up.
Yesterday I went to a baby shower and I tracked when I got home and I did well. I had small amounts of things and stayed away from the fried chicken and didn't have any cake. I had plenty of mini cupcakes the day before for my daughter's birthday. I lost a lb this week despite being sick and not working out as much, so that made me happy.
This time of year is definitely hard, but I am realizing I can make it through it without gaining. I need to remember to track my food and start off the day with a good breakfast. I find that when I do that, the rest of the day goes better.
So, here is my plan to get through the next few weeks.
- Make a grocery list and stick to it. I am fine as long as junk isn't in the house, so I need to talk to my husband about buying too much of it when he goes.
- Don't forget to eat a good breakfast.
- Rest when I feel I need to so I am not stressed out.
- Don't forget my vitamins since I've been a germ magnet lately and need all the help I can get.
- Track! Tracking is the only way to know I am within my calorie range, otherwise it's easy to lie to yourself about how much you've eaten.
- Keep working out.
- Drink a lot of water.
- Keep a positive attitude.
Here's to us all having a healthier holiday season.
Monday, November 29, 2010
OK, so I gained a pound over Thanksgiving.... 1.2 lbs to be exact. I am disappointed, but I know I can lose it! I don't know what's up with me the last couple weeks. My weight is up and down everyday! I worked out a LOT the last 2 weeks and until Thanksgiving my eating was where it should be.
I am not going to lie, I did eat more calories than I should have on Thanksgiving and over the weekend, but it wasn't horrible. I added them up for turkey day, and it was like 2600, so that is not horrible. I worked out that day and I think I pulled my calf muscles, because I've been limping around since. Maybe if I had worked out the last couple days I would have lost by this morning, or at least stayed the same. We were really busy the last few days and with my calves hurting I didn't want to work out. My knees have been sore too, and I guess those step ups caused it.
Saturday I was on my feet all day long in the kitchen cooking. We did a dinner here that day and invited friends and family. Yesterday I spent most of the day cleaning and doing laundry, so I haven't been sitting around. I feel pooped, but I am going to attempt to work out today even though my legs still hurt and my knees are a little sore.
My daughter's birthday is tomorrow, so there will be another cake in the house. I did well when I made one for my husband, so I am going to try to be good. This time of year is so hard!
Not to make excuses, but I wonder if I am at the point where my metabolism is adjusting. The week before I was eating really well and working out a lot, and my weight was up and down each day. I don't know what's up. I am just going to keep going, drink my water, work out and make sure to track what I eat, and hopefully next week I'll see a loss. A few weeks ago I had a 3 lb loss in one week, so it's like my body is deciding to screw with me now. haha
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