Friday, July 30, 2010
This last week I lost 2 lbs. I normally lose 1-3 lbs each week, so 2 is good. I was surprised that I lost at all this week because last week I came down with a cold. I worked out Monday and Tuesday of last week, but not again until close to a week later, so I went 5 days without working out, which is the longest I've gone since April. I didn't feel bad about it. The cold I had was pretty bad, I wasn't getting sleep and with my husband working 6 days a week lately, I have no help with the kids. Taking care of kids all day when you're sick is absolute torture. I was exhausted and achy and genuinely felt like I needed the rest. I didn't track one day I felt so bad and most of the time was eating irregularly and stuff that was just easy to throw together. I kept eating ice cream because my throat hurt and some days would eat a big bowl of that and then a sandwich and not much else. I figured since I wasn't eating as well as I had been that I'd gain weight or not lose any.
A few weeks ago I had one of my best weeks. I ate really well and exercised a LOT. I had the most exercise minutes that week of all the weeks since I started tracking. That week my weight did not budge. I was so annoyed and couldn't understand it.
So, how does this make sense? The week I worked out more, I didn't lose. Either way, I can't complain. I've done well overall. My total weight loss is 35 lbs since April. I can fit into jeans I bought in 2002 and that I haven't been able to wear comfortably since before I was pregnant with my son, who is now 6. I was able to wear them (but I was like a stuffed sausage) in 2007, but then started gaining weight after I had weaned my daughter.
Lately, I feel like I'm struggling more than I was in the beginning. My husband has been working 6 days a week. He works on the railroad and is almost never home for dinner unless it's a day he's not called out. It's so busy in the summer and trying to keep 2 kids entertained all day is exhausting. It's harder making dinner and keeping an eye on them, so sometimes I haven't made dinners that are as good as what I made before. I generally save the more labor intensive dinners for when my husband is here so he can corral the kids. It's also been harder finding time to workout. When school was still in, I'd do it during my daughter's naptime and while my son was still at school. Now I'm often having to wait until 8:30 or 9 at night when they are in bed. The days are just too busy when I have no one here to help with them. After taking care of them for 12-13 hours straight with no break I am pooped. But, I am still working out. I am not stopping just because I feel like doing nothing. I will not give up. I haven't done everything perfectly, but that's ok. One day at at time...
Friday, July 02, 2010
This evening I was very angry and upset about something to do with a certain family member. I was seething and frustrated and just wanted to get away from everything. I got my shoes on, the dog's leash and we went for a walk--after 10 pm.
This is huge for me. If this had been a few months ago, I'd have dealt with my frustration by getting a carton of ice cream and eating a large amount of it. What's weird is that I didn't even think to do that, or want to do that. I was rounding the corner of my street when it occurred to me what I was doing, which was walking for comfort instead of eating. That made me smile.
It was an almost perfect weather day here. We've had such hot temps for weeks (near 100 or over), and it was nice to be able to open the windows. It's a beautiful clear night and the crisp air made me feel alive, and more calm than I was. I could see all the stars, and found the big dipper (that and Orion are the only ones I can ever seem to find) and it was a great walk.
My issue is not solved, but I was able to do some thinking and clear my head a little. Instead of hurting myself when I was already down, I did a good thing for myself. Tomorrow I will continue to be strong. I am the captain of my soul! Thanks for that, Becky!! :)
Monday, June 21, 2010
No, not lettuce. :) I did the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred on level one. Wow. That was hard!!! All of my appendages feel like ramen noodles.
I bought it a month or so ago and watched it and didn't even want to attempt it at that time. There were lots of jumping jacks and I wasn't able to do those well then because they killed my knees and ankles. Today I decided to try it, just to see how much I was capable of doing. I have no plans to do it everyday for 30 days, at least not at this point.
Well, I really surprised myself! I kept up pretty well, although on the 2nd set of pushups I was not keeping up and didn't do as many as they did. I also couldn't do the butt kicks very well, but I did well with the jumping jacks! Towards the end, I started to feel for a second like I might throw up. So, I marched in place for a few seconds until it passed and then kept on.
When it was over I collapsed on the couch to rest and drink some water. I need to go shower in a few because I was drenched in sweat. So, while I am not going to do this everyday, I think I might try it every week or so and see how I improve. Honestly, I didn't think I'd be able to get through it as well as I did. That is one hard workout, and one that I don't think is meant for someone who is more than 100 pounds overweight!
After working out, I went online to enter it into my fitness tracker and was stumped at how to do it. I did a search and found a team for it, and they said to enter it as circuit training, which I did. It burned more than 500 calories. In 27 mins!! Phew. I am beat and still need to go to the store later, but it feels great to have accomplished that.
What have you done lately that surprised you?
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Normally I am not a person who loves change. I am a very organized person who thrives on routines, so surprises are often upsetting to me. When things do no go as planned, it tends to make me feel a little crazy and stressed.
However, I am LOVING all the changes in my body lately, because instead of feeling tight, my clothes are now noticeably looser. I can fit into old clothes I've been hanging onto hoping that I'd be able to wear them again some day. Sure, I could have been wearing them, but I hate really tight uncomfortable clothes (and looking like a stuffed sausage) so now them being loose feels so good. A pair of capri pants I have actually sag down my butt!
Today while driving I noticed my stomach isn't so close to the steering wheel. My legs are fairly short, so I have the seat pulled up close to reach the pedals, and today I noticed that instead of my stomach almost touching it, I had a good couple inches of room! So, I slid the seat up a little more and can reach the pedals even easier now!
There are other things I have noticed as well, and this may be TMI for some people, so I am warning you now. But, when husband and I, um, DTD, we fit together easier. LOL This is something I noticed the other night, although I am not sure if he did. Even when I am in the shower I can shave my legs with ease. We have a stall type shower and not one of the ones with a seat, so shaving in there is a pain. I can easily bend over and do it, or even stand with one leg up and do it. The other day I caught myself doing this and surprised myself.
Today was a picnic for my son's field day and there isn't a lot of parking at his school, so you have to park way up on this hill and walk down to the school. The picnic was on the other side of the school. I had 2 bags to carry and my 3 year old to keep track of and in the past I would have thought to myself, "UGH, I have to walk ALL that way and it's hot and I don't want to." I didn't even think that today, and I didn't realize it until we left and had to walk UP that hill. It wasn't a problem. I wasn't out of breath. During the Kindergarten orientation back in September, I was walking up that hill huffing and puffing, and now it was easy peasy lemon squeezy!
It's amazing the difference you see in just a couple months of exercising and eating well. I feel like a new person in so many ways. When I look in the mirror I don't think I look all that different yet, but I feel so good about everything I've done, and will continue to do. I've tried different types of exercise (like dance) that I never would have done before! It will be exciting to see where I am by the end of this year. This is it. I can feel it.
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