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I WILL do this!

Friday, June 11, 2010

There have been so many times in my life where I've started to lose weight and given up. In the past, there would always be this nagging voice in the back of my mind telling me I could not do it. For years I believed that voice and listened to it tell me I was fat, not worth it, not strong enough, and that I'd never be able to change. It told me I had always been that way and I was probably just meant to be that way, and for a while I resigned myself to always being fat, and I let the voice control me.

Now, I know I can do this. I will lose weight and I will be healthier. This time it is different. I know because I look forward to each day and finding new and healthy things to eat. Exercising has become something I look forward to and feel good about doing. In my mind's eye, I can see myself doing things that in the past seemed like only pipe dreams. Now I know that they will be reality for me.

This is all up to me. That can be scary or empowering, depending on how you look at it. Now I am not scared, but feel empowered knowing that out of all the things in life that I can not control, I CAN control what I put in my mouth. And, I CAN control how active I am. No one can do this but me. It's up to me, and I know I can accomplish this.

Sparkpeople has changed my entire outlook on fitness and living healthy. Without what I've learned here and the awesome people I've met, I know I'd probably be stuck in my old mindset which was exercise like a mad woman to the point I was wiped out, eat hardly a thing and feel starved, and get upset when I'd quit losing weight. Then I'd feel like a failure, go back to my old ways of eating whatever I wanted, and then gain the weight back, plus a few extra pounds. This was madness!!! I don't why it has taken me so long to realize what I already knew: That I can't lose it all in a month, or even a few months. I can't starve myself because I'll be miserable and then pig out. And, I have to believe in myself. I have to know that I am worthy of this. I deserve to be healthy and feel good.

It's only been 2 months, but I have come a long way. I have lost more than 20 pounds and have consistently lost weight each week. In 2 months I've had only 2 sodas, when in the past I'd drink 4 a day sometimes. I have exercised consistently and gradually increased it so that I don't hurt myself, and now I don't dread it like I used to. I eat more fruits and veggies than I used to and have had hardly any "junk." I realize that I can eat a hamburger or some ice cream once in a while and still lose weight, which I have. I have not binge eaten in over 2 months. I actually feel like I eat a lot during the day, but when you eat healthy you can have more and feel fuller.

Everyday I tell myself that if I've done it this long, I can and will keep going. I know what to do and how to do it. There are no more excuses. I think it was Maya Angelou that said, "You did then what you knew how to do, and when you knew better, you did better." Well, that is what I am doing--one day at a time, one step at a time, until I reach a weight that is healthy for me.

I'm so glad to have found SP. Thanks to all my friends here! Keep on keepin on!
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DARKTHOR 6/11/2010 12:12PM

    I am so impressed by you. You really have figured it out. You do have control and look how good eating right and exercising makes you feel, both in the short term and the long term.

The weight doesn't come off all at once, but learning to make good decisions consistently simply WORKS. You are changing your body, your health, your fitness, your attitude and your life. Plus, if you're like me, you are finding how many healthy foods you truly enjoy so there is no hardship. An occasional treat won't derail you, if you don't let it. I think that's the hardest part of this, returning to making the right decisions after you've messed up or taken a day off. Some part of the brain can try to get you to take another day off, eat more of the sweet or fat or salty treat. But knowing how good (and easy for the most part) the right way of living is, we have to get right back to it! We're worth it.

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DESERTFLOWER8 6/11/2010 11:22AM

    Congratulations, Moonbird. Your strength and wisdom is evident in your words. You can, and WILL do this. All of us will, arm in arm, together!

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BECKYB73 6/11/2010 11:01AM

    You absolutely CAN do this and you are worth every ounce of effort you put into this journey.

I'd like to share my favorite poem with you. It's called "Invictus" by William Ernst Henley. I memorized this in tenth grade and have never forgotten it. When I feel down (and I've been down). When I've felt triumphant (and I've been up), I think of these words:

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

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MESEATURTLE 6/11/2010 10:53AM

    good going girl!!! emoticon

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My Skin

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

So, I've had acne since I was like 12 years old. I have tried almost every single thing out there to clear my face. Proactiv didn't work for me at all. In fact, I broke out more AND my face looked like I had a perpetual sunburn. I have always seemed to break out in spurts and then it would get a little better, but my face has never been clear. It's always depressed me and made me feel ugly. As if it's not bad enough to be the fat girl, I've been the fat girl with a pizza face and frizzy hair.

So many people have given me "tips" on how to have better skin, when I've already tried what they've suggested. A lot of people think if you have acne you must not wash your face, and I have always washed my face and tried to take care of my skin, and it's never done any good. I remember once at a job I had back in 2001...I worked with this lady who was always blurting out the most inappropriate comments. She wasn't trying to be mean, she was just one of those people who doesn't think before they speak. One day she told me, in front of everyone, "You know, Elizabeth, you could be a plus size model because you're really pretty and have nice teeth, but you just need to do something about your acne." I felt like I wanted to die I was so embarrassed. I wondered if people thought "HA! She is so ugly even if she lost 150 pounds she could never be attractive." I felt like for the rest of the workday everyone was staring at my face when I talked to them. I wanted to cry.

Well, for the last few weeks my skin has cleared up a lot. I am not sure why. I haven't done anything different as far as my skin care routine and I've always read that your diet can't cause acne. Can it? Hmmm. Well, I don't know if it's all the water I'm drinking, the sodas I'm not drinking, all the fruits and veggies I've been eating, the exercise, etc, but my skin looks much better than it did. I have one spot on my jaw, but it's nothing compared to what I'd normally have. It feels and looks smoother. I have only had to put a light amount of mineral makeup on to cover up some of the redness and I am feeling much less self-conscious about how it looks. My husband told me the other day he thought it looked better.

So, I've found another benefit to having a healthier lifestyle! I am hoping my face won't freak out again soon like it's done in the past. I have some hormonal issues that I know contribute to breakouts to some degree, but even my last visit from AF only gave me this one pimple. :) Maybe she'll be kind to me next time too.

  
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DAHLINGZ 6/22/2010 6:33PM

    I read ( Self Magazine-this month) that exercise is good for skin. Keep up the good work-glowing from the inside out!

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ENNUIM 6/13/2010 10:12PM

    Whenever I eat better and exercise, my skin always clears up too. You're doing a great job!

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DARKTHOR 6/10/2010 12:39PM

    My wife's skin cleared up when we started eating a mostly vegan diet. She thinks all the fruits and veggies plus cutting out all the chemicals and processed junk made the difference.

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TRACYDUKA 6/9/2010 12:41AM

    I don't think that grease "causes" acne, however, your skin is the FIRST indicator of your diet. That's basic Anatomy and Physiology. If you drink LOTS of water and eat a balanced diet, your skin troubles should clear up. (That is unless you have an imbalance that affects your sebaceous glands. However, most of the time, that's not the issue.) If you have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, you could be producing more testosterone which could excite your sebaceous glands, thus producing acne. However, MOST of the time, a good diet will show itself in your skin, hair and eyes. :) And since you ARE beautiful, only expect things to get better!

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BECKYB73 6/8/2010 11:16PM

    This is awesome!!! I can relate to the fat, frizzy hair, but I've always been lucky to have good skin. People have often said "You have such beautiful skin"...and I think, well that's great, my skin's great but the rest of me looks like crap. I bet it's the water, I think I remember reading somewhere about water helping clear complexions. Whatever it is, it's WORKING, keep it up!

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Walkin

Monday, June 07, 2010

I really enjoy walking outside. We live in a pretty neighborhood where you can see all types of birds, rabbits, hawks, herons, and even the occasional deer. Sometimes it's just too hot for me to walk outside. I've never been able to handle the heat too well, and summer here is hot and humid. If it's hot but not quite so humid, I can deal with it. It was in the 80s when I walked this morning, but not so humid and there was a gentle breeze.

Today I walked 1.5 miles and it took me just over 30 minutes. I know this isn't that great, but this same walk a few months ago was so hard for me to do. I was struggling to get through it. There are a lot of hills in our neighborhood, so it's a good workout. I walked slowly for a few minutes to warm up and then at the end walked slowly to cool down. It felt so great. I saw many baby birds out and about. There are lots of them making nests in the newspaper boxes people have, and it just makes me smile how resourceful birds and animals in general can be.

Next time when I walk I think I'll go down another street in my neighborhood before coming back, and that should make the walk around 2 miles. Sometimes on the days I don't have exercise scheduled I will take my dog for a short walk. She is old and getting arthritic and the one time I walked her almost a mile and a half she was limping for a couple days. :( But, she enjoys and can handle the shorter walks. She wouldn't be so tubby if she wouldn't eat the cat's food every chance she gets. emoticon I put a chair up to block the door, but sometimes other people in the house do not move it back. I always know when she's gone in there and eaten his food because she has a guilty look.

  
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DARKTHOR 6/8/2010 3:20AM

    Your walk sounds very pleasant! Take advantage of it as much as you can and it doesn't matter how long it takes you, the fact that you are out there doing it is what matters.

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DARKTHOR 6/8/2010 3:20AM

    Your walk sounds very pleasant! Take advantage of it as much as you can and it doesn't matter how long it takes you, the fact that you are out there doing it is what matters.

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BECKYB73 6/7/2010 2:11PM

    You may be able to work your dog up to gradually being able to go the whole distance with you...just like it's taking us time to get to a level of fitness it can take her some adjusting too. Also, if you haven't considered it, you may want to put her on a joint supplement, like glucosamine and msm. I have my older dogs (over 5) on something called Missing Link Plus, for the joint supports, etc.

Right now my bulldogs are looking a little chubby, so they are getting half rations of food and green beans. Plus I'm getting them on a walking routine too. It's been so flippin rainy here that nobody wants to do anything outside, it's just gross. But at least it isn't hot!

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AGGIEKEL2005 6/7/2010 1:20PM

  Way to go! I really enjoy walking outside too, but like you, I cant stand the heat and the humidity! Keep up the good work though! I'm just now trying to get on a more regular walking schedule, but I always feel so much better on the days I get to walk!

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2 yummy breakfasts

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

I made this for myself this morning and it was scrumptious. It kind of reminds me of a strawberry shortcake, only much healthier. It's also super easy!

Strawberry and Blueberry "Shortcake"
-2 nutrigrain waffles
-1/2 Cup blueberries
-1/2 Cup strawberries
-1/2 Cup yogurt (any kind you like, I used stonyfield farms fat free french vanilla.)

Toast the waffles and then sprinkle the fruit on top. Then drizzle the yogurt over and eat! It's so yummy! You could layer the waffles or however you want to do it.


Peaches and Cream Banana Smoothie

-1 cup frozen peaches
-1 banana
-1/2 cup 2% cottage cheese
-1/2 cup milk
honey to taste

Blend together cottage cheese and milk until smooth...add banana and blend, and then add peaches a little at a time until smooth. If you like, add some ice cubes and drizzle a little honey in for some extra sweetness. This makes a 2 cup smoothie, or you can split it with someone else if you're having a snack. It's very filling for a breakfast, and great for the summer.


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BECKYB73 6/1/2010 9:24PM

    I like these ideas!!! Next time I go to the grocery I will get some waffles!!

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SARAHF_24 6/1/2010 1:29PM

    Yum...they both sound great! I never thought about using yogurt on waffles!

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Sharing Some Accomplishments

Monday, May 31, 2010

I am just so excited to have lost almost 20 lbs! By next week it should be over 20 lost. My energy level is way up overall and it feels great to accomplish so much.

A month ago I could not do more than 1 or 2 jumping jacks, and now I can do more than 20. I was hesitant to try because last time it really hurt, but now I can do them! It feels awesome to be able to hit these milestones. I can also do 15 of the girl pushups. I know that's not a lot, but it's 13 more than I could do a month and a half ago. I did the sparkpeople videos (cardio kickboxing) today for my workout and did a total of 30 minutes. When I first tried them, I could barely get through the 10 minute video.

There are so many things I want to do! I'd love to be able to go swimming for exercise and I think it would be cool to try more kickboxing, or maybe even an aerobics class at some point.

I even noticed the other day when using my dumbbells that I can see some muscle definition in my forearms! I can get on a pair of jeans that I haven't been able to wear since my 3 year old daughter was an infant. They are still snug and I won't wear them yet, but a month ago I could not get them buttoned or zipped!

Currently I am doing strength training 2 times per week and using the sparkpeople recommended exercises. I bumped up cardio to a minimum of 4 sessions for 30 mins each time (For the first few weeks I did 3 sessions of 30 mins), although most weeks I end up doing more since we will walk the dog or I'll do wii fit games. I also do yoga a couples times a week for 15-20 mins.

It really feels good to be in control of things again and know that I am capable of succeeding! emoticon

  
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BERRYLICIOUS10 6/1/2010 10:43PM

    ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC!! I can't wait to see what you can do in another month's time!! Keep up the tremendous work! You're doing great!

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DARKTHOR 6/1/2010 8:46PM

    Wow! You are on fire! You are making awesome progress and you will keep building on it. Stay inspired, stay on track, love life! All you have to do from here is build slowly on each success you have, just like you're already doing. You are on your way!

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TRACYDUKA 5/31/2010 9:32PM

    Those are some awesome accomplishments! :D And 20lbs is a significant weightloss. :) I've got to do my exercises, but I have to do them when my son is sleeping, otherwise, I'd never get through them!

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_ROODIE_ 5/31/2010 5:04PM

  You are doing a fantastic job!!

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LISAWILLBEFIT 5/31/2010 4:46PM

    Wow yyou are doing great.Losing 20 pounds is so exciting.Keep up the great work.Lisa

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BECKYB73 5/31/2010 4:34PM

    You absolutely are capable of succeeding! You're awesome! emoticon

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