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Binge x2

Sunday, May 05, 2013

I haven't had an actual binge in a while. There were times recently when I definitely ate too much, but it wasn't completely out of control. Well, last night and today, I binge ate.

When I am doing it, I really feel like I can't stop. I've noticed that it tends to happen during times when I feel completely worried, stressed, and overwhelmed. I've felt like that a lot this week, and now I am in a depression. I try really hard not to be sad, but no matter what I do it doesn't go away.

Then I start to eat thinking I'll feel better with just a little something, and before I know it, I have lost control. Last night I ate many pudding cups, I don't even know how many...5, maybe 6. I ate a bag of popcorn, the whole damn bag. I ate a muffin, and had 5 glasses of wine, so I also got drunk. No, I am not an alcoholic. I rarely drink, but last night I just didn't care.

Today I did ok until the kids went to bed, and then I ate half a pan of brownies. I feel like total crap now.

The reason I am writing about this--when I could just pretend it never happened-- is that I want everyone to know I am not perfect, and I don't pretend to be. I also want to have some accountability so I don't keep doing this.

Whenever this happens, I feel like a complete failure because I have lost control. I feel like I am letting everyone down who has looked to me for inspiration. I contemplated not saying anything, but I feel like being honest is the right thing to do.

I'm going to make tomorrow a better day. Even if I am still feeling depressed, I will make good food choices and remind myself that numbing myself with food only makes me feel worse after I'm done eating.

I read Runs for Cookies, and coincidentally she binge ate this weekend. After reading her blog tonight, it made me want to write my own.

  
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COFFEE_123456 5/7/2013 6:59PM

    I'm sorry that you are having a tough time - glad to see that you aren't beating yourself up about it. I'm sure you are a great person just as you are - no need to have the pressure of feeling like you need to be perfect. Everyone has their ups and downs and you seem to rally quickly and really keep a positive approach.

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TIME4CARRI 5/7/2013 12:48AM

    Oh dear,
I also binged this weekend and I will head over to runs for cookies, I used to follow her a while back. I haven't even really logged on because I feel like crud too. You don't need the pressure of feeling like you have to be a perfect role model. You inspire because you are so real. I hope you forgive yourself and move on like I know you will. It sucks to feel depressed over these things. When I am doing everything right I can't even imagine I will lose control ever again so I totally get it. It's startling to lose control after so long. Onward we go emoticon

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CHANTENAY 5/6/2013 9:45PM

    You've done terrific and this is a bump in the road. I'm sorry this is happening to you but I know you'll bounce back. Things will get better.

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EMMACLAIRE5 5/6/2013 3:07PM

    Hope today is a better day for you - hang in there!

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ADVENTURESEEKER 5/6/2013 9:19AM

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Those of us with that issue have been there, done that. Pick up and make today a fresh day! You've got this.

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FLFITBEE 5/6/2013 7:58AM

    Hope you are feeling better today.

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GRUMBLEGIRL 5/6/2013 6:47AM

    I'm sorry you are going through a rough patch. Take care and know that it will pass.

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SANDJIES 5/6/2013 2:24AM

    You are still an inspiration and even more so because you are not perfect and for admitting it. Yes you had a bad day, but as you said, tomorrow you make good choices and you know that if you break the pattern of binging that you will feel a lot better soon. emoticon

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BRENDABUNNY 5/5/2013 11:07PM

    I think we all go thru times in our lives where something will put us into a different frame of mind that makes us at the moment not care about ourselves as we normally do.
The thing is you most likely have 95 % or more good days when your treating your body well and your mind/mood isn't able to influence you, depression can be really hard on a person and you have been thru an awful lot this week with family.
You are still a SUPER wonderful inspiration to everyone!
I hope/and know that this next week you will turn it around because you are emoticon and emoticon emoticon

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Thank you!

Sunday, April 28, 2013

I just wanted to tell everyone here how grateful I am to have such kind people support me. Reading all the comments you've left on my blogs, goodies, or page makes me cry (in a good way!). So, thank you all for taking the time to read about me and comment.

If the things I share can help people feel motivated, inspired, or just cheer up their day, then that makes me happy. A large part of my happiness has always come in helping other people where I can. Along this journey, I've also learned that in doing that, I have to remember to help and take care of myself. That balance is what has changed my life. If I am not well, I can't take the best care of my family, which is the most important thing I do each day.

So, thanks again for your continuing support. I hope you all have a wonderful day!

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ADVENTURESEEKER 4/28/2013 3:16PM

    Thank you for being there for me, too!

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CHANTENAY 4/28/2013 1:58PM

    I've learned, too, from being a mom that you have to care for yourself before you can take care of your family. I've been in better shape to be a caregiver by supporting my needs along with the needs of others. Great job!

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 4/28/2013 1:28PM

    I love following your blogs. They give me that added boost when I need them. You remind us all of what we can accomplish if we simply put our minds to it! Thanks! Have a blessed Sunday!

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FELINEBETTER 4/28/2013 12:51PM

    Thanks for sharing so openly about your experience! We can all learn from sharing and the journey never ends! emoticon emoticon

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SUNSHINE99999 4/28/2013 11:39AM

  it is great to read about how you are doing because a lot of us face the same struggles too. emoticon emoticon

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KITTY_M 4/28/2013 11:32AM

    emoticon I wanted to thank YOU. Thank you for sharing your journey, struggles and all, with us. It makes me feel like even though it won't be easy, I can do it too. So thank you for inspiring me.



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SCRAPBECCA 4/28/2013 11:28AM

    Wow! We wrote and posted much the same content in our blog posts this morning just moments apart! So happy to be on this journey with you! emoticon

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3 years and 153 pounds later (progress photos)

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Three years ago today, I officially joined Sparkpeople. For so long I'd been struggling to figure out a way to lose weight that would work for me. On a message board I frequented, I'd read about Sparkpeople, but never checked it out, just assuming it was another thing I'd fail at. One day I was on the computer and decided to visit the site, and I am so glad I did, because it changed my life.


Before losing weight, I was always way heavier than my husband. For the last 8-9 months, I finally weigh less than him.

Sparkpeople gave me all the information, motivation, and inspiration I needed to change. I could track my food and exercise for free, read inspirational stories from other members, workout to the free videos, and get support from people who knew what it felt like to be overweight. There was no judgement. I didn't have to go sit at meetings and be weighed in, or spend any money.

When I read The Spark, it completely changed how I felt about losing weight, and motivated me to change. For so long I felt like I had to be perfect to lose weight. I thought I needed to eat perfectly, exercise all the time, and could never eat sweets again. Before Sparkpeople, I never believed in myself. Seeing that other real people did lose weight--lots of weight--it made me realize it was possible for me also. I just felt down to my core that this time was different, and just a few weeks into tracking my food and making some progress, I knew I'd never go back.


Yes!

No matter how much I love Sparkpeople, the truth is that weight loss is hard, and no one can do it for you. They can give you all the tools, but you have to be willing to do the work and commit to being healthier. Your desire for health has to be stronger than your desire to keep your unhealthy habits, and until it is, it will be difficult to change. Looking back, I don't know that I would have ever lost the weight I have, if I hadn't found Sparkpeople. Yes, there are other sites online where you can track your food, but Sparkpeople is different for me. I loved the messageboards, the recipes, and free workout videos. When I first started out, I was very heavy and going to a gym intimidated me, plus there wasn't one near me that was affordable.

Every day I am thankful that I found Sparkpeople, and I am thankful for the friends I've made who take time to comment on my page or blogs, and who are just there for me when I am having a hard time. I feel like the people there really care, and support is so important when you are trying to lose weight and change your life. Sometimes all it takes are the words from a kind person to make you realize you are worth it.

In 3 years, my weight has continued to go down. I've accomplished more than I ever thought possible.

My weight 3 years ago was 325 pounds. I am now 172 pounds, so I've lost 153 pounds.
I was a size 28 and wore a 3 or 4x, now I'm a size 12 and wear a Large.
My cholesterol was high, my triglycerides were high, I had a fatty liver and borderline high blood pressure. All of that has been reversed by eating healthy and exercising.
I used to feel tired walking a mile and wondered how I'd ever improve, and now I run regularly. I have even run a half marathon (13.1 miles) and my PR for a 5k (3.10 miles) is 29:58.
My BMI used to be 54.1, which is considered super morbidly obese. Now it's 28.6, and in the overweight category. Once I lose about 22 more pounds, I will be a "normal" weight for the first time in my entire life (well, since toddlerhood maybe).
I've lost about 47% of my body weight!


After I finished my first half marathon 11-10-12 2:23:33


Finishing my best 5k ever in 29:58..3-9-13

A few years ago I never imagined I'd be where I am now. I'd always defined myself as a fat person, and it seemed everyone else did, too. For a long time I let what other people thought of me be more important than what I thought about myself. It's sad because I really believed I was destined to be obese forever. There were a lot of things I missed out on in my life, and time is gone that I can never get back. That will never happen again. I will continue to be healthy. Your health is so important, and I will never take mine for granted again.


My progression..325, 263, 230, 204, 182, 174


150 pounds lost face comparison

If you want some daily motivation and support, please visit my facebook page, From Fat to Fit, which I update as often as I can. You can do it, too! Don't give up.

Edited to add some people have told me the link doesn't work to my facebook page, not sure why...but if you go to Facebook and Type From Fat to Fit in the search box, it should come up.

If you want to see some of these pictures larger, you can visit my blogger blog The Singing Bird.

  
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MD2787 4/10/2014 3:14PM

    I love your story. Wish I had the perseverance in my youth. I just turned 59, and just starting to turn my motivation around for better health. People like you give me a lot of inspiration. Bravo! emoticon

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7WORSHIPS 3/31/2014 4:29AM

  very inspiring!

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DMS1946 1/10/2014 6:50AM

  What an inspiration you are.

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MEWHENRYSMAMA 12/19/2013 1:12PM

    OMG, you are one success story walkin...AWESOME!
You look just fabulous!
Continued success...in all you do...you have what it takes!
Love,
Mary

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WRITINGDIVA1 11/17/2013 12:49PM

    Congrats on your weightless and your running!

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BETTERME54 11/14/2013 3:06PM

    YOU LOOK FABULOUS . The only thing I can say is emoticon , emoticon , emoticon ,
I know its been a long time to saying this, I am so happy for you.

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FINDINGSUE 8/14/2013 8:35PM

  Congratulations! I love that you posted a close up of your face. It's very inspiring! emoticon

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NEWWMB 8/12/2013 10:23PM

  It is amazing what you have accomplished, keep up the great work. It gives me encouragement that it is possible for me also. I am just in the infancy of my journey. By exercising and doing all you did, do you have saggy skin or by exercising have you been able to tone up and avoid this problem

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ADAPTINGANNIE 8/4/2013 10:34AM

    Beautiful you! Beautiful blog. So inspiring. Thank you very much for sharing and posting. The proof is in the pictures. It can be done!
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FRANCES-AGAPE 7/22/2013 9:03PM

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Those face pics -
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they were of the SAME girl

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You are VERY INSPIRING


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LOVE, PEACE and BLESSINGS !


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JDPRYOR 7/18/2013 11:59AM

    Wow! You are truly an inspiration. Thanks for sharing your journey.

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KOMTRIA 7/17/2013 10:07AM

  ". Your desire for health has to be stronger than your desire to keep your unhealthy habits, and until it is, it will be difficult to change. " This really is the key. Thank you so much for your blog. You are so inspirational.

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HEALTHYNEWPAIGE 7/13/2013 10:31PM

    Thanks so much for sharing! Congrats on your progress!!! emoticon You are such an inspiration to me!!! I hope it's okay with you that I am adding you as a friend.

I have been sort of Sparking for the past several years and this summer I am determined to get serious and make new healthy habits for life. emoticon emoticon

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MAYBER 7/7/2013 9:15PM

    What a marvelous journey you have had and all of it free
Keep up the good work and you will be at goal soon
Best wishes one day at a time
Love Prayers Peace
Bernice
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POUTINGPEGGY 7/5/2013 4:33PM

    Wonderful and inspirational emoticon

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SUPERSYLPH 7/1/2013 12:43PM

    Wow, what huge accomplishments!

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SWAN47 6/30/2013 9:00PM

    emoticon You are an inspiration to all of us. Thank you for sharing and encouraging us. I wish you success in reaching your goal.

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DEEKELLYE 6/14/2013 10:15AM

    Congrats on the weight loss! Keep up the good work. You look amazing.

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SUNSHINE99999 6/14/2013 10:08AM

  absolutely fantastic. emoticon

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WMAYFIELD 6/14/2013 9:39AM

    Thank you for sharing. Its refreshing to hear stories about how long this journey takes. I get impatient and want to see results after a month. Learning that you are still going strong after 3 years is helping me change my perspective.

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PACOLDEN1 6/11/2013 7:17AM

  What an inspirational journey you are traveling. I read it this morning as I was pondering my weightloss goals, & when you stated "its hard, no one can do it you, you have to be willing to do the work & commit to a healthy lifestyle; your desire for HEALTH must be stronger than to keep unhealthy habits...until it is it will be difficult to change." This is what Oprah would call an AH-HA MOMENT for me. Thank you for you're inspiration. Best of luck on your continued journey.

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OKIE2006 6/9/2013 7:09PM

    You such an inspiration. Thank you for posting about your journey! :)

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WANNABUNNY 6/7/2013 2:43PM

    You ROCK! Keep up the good work :)
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MAW_OH 6/7/2013 11:47AM

   
Wow, what a difference! Congratulations on your success!

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ADRIENNE_W68 6/4/2013 9:06AM

    Thank you for sharing your story!

Congratulations!!

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KMATHIESEN 6/2/2013 2:21AM

  Congratulations! You are an inspiration! Keep up the great life!

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PATTYKEMLER 5/31/2013 3:00PM

  First of all thank you for taking the time to share your story - AMAZING!! Weight loss is so difficult and it is part of our everyday life. You truly are an inspiration. Keep up the GREAT work. I am new to Sparkpeople so you turly are an inspiration, I hope this gives me the motivation I need. Keep up the good work!!


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KAYEGURL08 5/31/2013 12:58PM

    Awesome You!

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FITCOLLEENB 5/31/2013 12:14AM

    Wow, how inspiring. You look fantastic! Congratulations on all the hard work & dedication, & best of luck in the future💐👯

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PUDNUKIN1 5/30/2013 8:59PM

  OMG, Congratulations!! Losing weight is hard work indeed. Your accomplishment is AWESOME!! Keep up the good work!! emoticon

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VAMPYRE03 5/30/2013 8:04PM

    WOW YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!

Thanks for blogging your journey, and Happy Re-Birthday to the new you!!! I think you can say it's more than an anniversary... 3 years ago, you started something that created a new you, and those are usually called re-births!!! ... I love how you can totally tell you're enjoying your new self... and the facial comparison is brilliant... Great Job! Keep the momentum going!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MOMMANANCY61 5/30/2013 6:40PM

    Your weight loss progression was encouraging. Maybe i can lose the 100 lbs i need to lose. Your pictures were supportive also. If you can lose that much and not have a sagging chin, maybe so can I. That is one of the things holding me back, the fear of sagging skin.

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MELLBELL48 5/30/2013 11:33AM

  Thank you so much for your inspirational story. I was down on myself today and came across your story. Needless to say, I'm in a much better place right now thanks to you.

You have done a wonderful job. Keep up the good work and many blessings to you.

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EFRALEY1 5/30/2013 1:55AM

    Completely awesome on your journey to a new and healthier you. Its motivating and inspiring. Keep up the great work. You look amazing. Blessings to you:)

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CHANGINGHORSES 5/29/2013 8:04PM

    Excellent! You are setting a wonderful example for your children as well as others. (No pressure) emoticon
You look wonderful!
Keep up the great work!
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FYRAM45 5/29/2013 7:48PM

    emoticon emoticon you look GREAT!

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JITTERBUGJOY 5/29/2013 11:40AM

    Such a wonderful accomplishment!!!!

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TKELLY2529 5/29/2013 7:04AM

  Congratulations your story is very motivational.

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DGRIFFITH51 5/28/2013 7:39PM

    Such an encouraging story! Thanks for sharing!!!!
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52114ME 5/28/2013 6:28PM

    You Are Awesome!

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DETROITKELLY 5/28/2013 4:11PM

    You make so many many good points, I just want to highlight the whole post and stick it on my bulletin board as a reminder. You are amazing. I know how much work it is day after day to see small progress so I can only imagine how hard you've worked for this total transformation. Keep it up! I'm going to try my best to keep up with you. Thanks so much for sharing!

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LTHORNTX 5/28/2013 12:43PM

  Thank you for writing this. I'm at the beginning of my journey and your blog has really inspired me and has given me lots to think about.

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Thank you for sharing your journey. You are an inspiration and hope for all. You are beautiful inside and out.

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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 5/28/2013 11:35AM

    What an amazing story... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING!!!

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CHERAE32 5/28/2013 8:48AM

    Congratulations on your continued success! You have truly inspired myself as well as many others to continue to push towards the goal / reward of being a healthier person. Thank you! emoticon

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Run for Boston

Monday, April 22, 2013

Tonight I went to a Run for Boston at our local running store, Lucky Foot. (They took some photos there and I am in a few of them, although it's hard to see me). When I found out about it, I thought it would be great to do, and since it was in the evening Jeff could stay with the kids. My son (who is becoming my regular little running buddy) wanted to come with me though, so of course I wanted him to.

Earlier today I was having kind of a rough time. For whatever reason this morning I started to feel very anxious. Sometimes I get like this and nothing makes me calm down. That is also when I have the urge to just eat and eat. I haven't had a binge in a really long time, and I could just feel one coming on. I kept snacking, and even though I ate a little more snacks than I should have today, it didn't turn into a binge, and my calories for the day came out ok, although slightly over. I tried doing things, like organizing coupons and paperwork, just to be busy, and I was still feeling like I would come unglued, so I took a xanax. I have a prescription, but don't take it very often unless I feel I really need it, and today I did.

By the time the kids got home from school, I was feeling better. The xanax makes me tired, so I was feeling sluggish. We left right before 6 to get there because there was a huge traffic back up and I didn't know how it would affect things. It was fine getting there, and we got there early and got our bibs. I didn't even know they were gonna have those, so that was cool. The bottom of it says, "Runners United to Remember."


After we ran

The whole time beforehand Aidan kept saying, "Don't leave me Mommy." I assured him I wouldn't. We were to run for 26 minutes, in a loop around where the store is. At first he was near me, but soon he was getting up ahead pretty far in front of me. That is what he normally does, and then tires out and needs to walk, but tonight he never slowed down! I couldn't believe it. I felt like I was dragging, even though I managed to keep under a 10 minute mile pace. My legs were just sore from skating yesterday and all the running I've done in the last week, too, not to mention the xanax. We'd done 3 laps around and were close to 26 minutes, so we turned around to go back to the store. When I stopped my watch at 26 minutes, it said I'd gone 2.62 miles. Is that crazy or what?

I enjoyed the run, because I got to run next to one of my friends who I hadn't seen in a while. She's been running for years and is really good and going to train for her first marathon this year. She's done a lot of half marathons and is the main person who has encouraged me to run and in the beginning gave me a lot of advice.

The people at these events, runners and walkers, are always so awesome. When I first started running I felt like I'd never fit in. I was slow and fat, and even though I am not super fast now or thin, for me it's fast and I've improved a lot. I've learned it doesn't really matter how slow or fast you are, it's just being involved and doing it that matters, and people are always so supportive of you. It felt good to come together to support everyone affected by the tragedy in Boston one week ago.

I pre-ordered a shirt too, which I am excited to get and proudly wear when I run. I'm also so proud of Aidan. It's like he was born to run. At the end he was red-faced and said, "I can't breathe." He pushed himself pretty hard and I told him there was no need to do that because it wasn't a race, but I think he just wants to impress me. I told him I was proud of him just for doing it in the first place.

Tomorrow is probably going to be a rest day for me. My legs are sore from all the running the last week. I might go for a walk though to loosen them up. There is a lot going on tomorrow. I've got to go to the school to drop off fruit for an event tomorrow night and go to my daughter's book fair, and then tomorrow night is the event my son's class is doing.

Were there any Boston events where you live? So far I've done 17.45 miles for Boston in the last week!

  
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EMMACLAIRE5 4/23/2013 3:18PM

    I love it when I can talk my kids into running, too - it's gratifying to know we're helping instill healthy habits in their brains, isn't it?

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/23/2013 9:26AM

    This is SO great! You're keeping the spirit alive and doing wonderful things, and even more wonderful since you are involving your sweet son. Your heart shines through, thanks for sharing!!!!

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FLFITBEE 4/23/2013 7:08AM

    It's great that you and Aidan are running together! You started your weight loss so that you could do things with your kids and YOU ARE DOING IT!! Woo-hoo!

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Diet

Friday, April 19, 2013

When you hear the word diet, you often think of eating tasteless food and practically starving yourself. You may think your lunch can only consist of celery sticks and water or a grapefruit for breakfast. Maybe those diet programs, vitamins or shakes you see on TV come to mind. The thought of a diet makes you depressed. All you think of is what you can't eat, and you suddenly want to do nothing but eat junk.

People ask me all the time, "Can you eat that on your diet?" "How long have you been on your diet?" Or they say, "I can't go on a diet. I just like to eat too much."

Let me explain myself. I am not on a diet! I have not starved myself to lose weight. There have been no diet pills, special shakes, meals that are delivered in packages to my door, sprinkling my food with a powder so I eat less, or other gimmicks. The "secret" to how I've lost weight is that I started counting calories, making better food choices and exercising regularly.

That's it! Yes, losing weight and maintaining that weight loss is a complex issue. You have to want it and be willing to work toward it each day, but those are the basics. You must burn off excess calories, which are stored as fat, in order to lose weight.

There are many ways to go about this and I think you have to figure out what works for you. I don't have special dietary needs, so I haven't gone low carb, I can have sugar, and I didn't have restrictions as far as working out. So, what worked for me may not be the exact thing that will work for you, but it still boils down to the fact that you can't eat more calories than you burn, or you'll put on weight. If you work out several days a week you do have a little more wiggle room as far as eating. Working out still isn't a license to eat whatever you want and however much you want. There is a saying that goes, "You can't out train a bad diet." That's very true.

So, when I say my "diet" consists of overall healthy eating, diet is just the term I use to refer to what my overall food intake is like. It's not what many people think of, which is "diet: strictly limiting what you eat until you get to your goal weight." There is a reason people who constantly go on diets do not always succeed in losing weight and keeping it off; they quit their diet, start eating like they did previously, and gain the weight back. They never really changed their habits. This is exactly what I did my WHOLE life before 2010, and that is why I never kept any weight off that I did lose. I was on diets as early as 3rd and 4th grade.


I think anyone who has dieted can relate to this!

What I aimed to do was to be healthier. I have always liked a variety of food and was the type of person who cooked decent dinners with some veggies, but then after my kids went to bed I'd eat junk, like a pint of ice cream or a bunch of cookies. Plus, I chugged soda all day long. Food is something I used when anxious, and I knew I needed to figure out a way to stop that. Sometimes I still do it, but it's eons from where it was before.

At first, I just started eating what I normally ate, but tracking the calories. This was eye-opening, because although I knew I ate too much (and obviously was not exercising enough) I didn't realize how many calories I was consuming. I was drinking over 600 calories a day in soda! No wonder I was so overweight. That is one of the first things I did--cut out soda. After a few weeks I didn't crave it anymore. I started to drink more water. Soda is one of the few things I have basically eliminated. Every now and then I get a craving for one, and I have a few sips and don't even want it. I used to LOVE sweet tea, and just the other day my husband had one, and I was out of my drink and took a sip of his. It tasted so gross to me. Your body really does adjust to eating healthier, so you don't need things as sweet. When I would hear people say they started to crave mostly healthy things, I thought they were full of it. Now I know the truth. I crave broccoli and apples, or other healthy things. It's not hard for me to eat healthy, because most "junk" food doesn't appeal to me as much as it did before.

Over the last 3 years I've tried a wider variety of foods, and I've made sure to eat healthy as much as possible. When you decide to change your life and better your health, weight loss will come. I feel like people who are only focused on rapid weight loss and not their overall health are often the ones who will gain weight back. Losing weight to look cute in a bikini is different than losing weight to save your life. Yes, we all want to be happy with how we look, but if that's all you're focused on, when your event (wedding, summer, reunion) is over, you will put back on the weight.

I was over 300 pounds and tired and I ached. Sometimes I'd feel pains and worry I would have a heart attack or something. That is no way to live! I wanted to be healthy for my family, and I decided that I would figure out how. I didn't know what to do, and Sparkpeople was a lifesaver for me. If you haven't read The Spark, I'd highly recommend it. It really helped start me on my journey to better health. Once you believe it's possible, you can do it.

Eating healthy is not a punishment, it's loving yourself. You have to take care of yourself, and if you don't have your health, what do you really have? Jillian Michaels says that your health is the foundation on which the rest of your life is built. That is so true. I know now how great I feel from eating healthy food. It doesn't mean I'll never eat a cheeseburger or piece of cake again. It just means that I am eating with moderation. I fully believe in the sentiment that you are what you eat. My health has been completely transformed from eating healthy. I had high cholesterol, high triglycerides, a fatty liver and borderline high blood pressure. My ankles, knees and back started to hurt all the time. Some days I felt like I was in a perpetual fog. I was existing, but not really living and enjoying my life. All of that has been fixed through nutrition and exercise. I know it works because I have experienced it.

Now that I am healthy, I am happier than I've ever been. Losing weight isn't going to make everything in your life magically better. However, it did help fix a lot of things in my life. I often went to bed feeling guilty because I couldn't do certain things with my kids. My son would want me to go down the slides with him at the park, and I couldn't fit. I was tired and didn't feel good a lot of the time, and when you feel sick, it depresses you. So, in those ways I am much happier. I go to bed now knowing I am doing what I need to do in order to be healthy. I know my kids are learning how to be healthy. When I take good care of myself, I can take better care of my kids and husband.



Now I can slide with my kids, ride bikes, do the swings. There is nothing off limits.

If you are just starting out and have a long way to go, don't despair. It is going to take a while if you've got a lot of weight to lose. That is ok. It is not a race to lose X amount of pounds by a certain date. Changing your habits and lifestyle is a process that takes time. After 3 years I am still learning ways to be healthier and am by no means perfect.

  
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KRISKECK 4/22/2013 8:17PM

    You rock! You must be so proud of yourself....what a wonderful story you have... I always say "it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle" and you are surely a living breathing example of that.

Cheers,
Kristin

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ALICIALYNNE 4/22/2013 11:53AM

    I want to high-five this blog, that's how awesome it is.

Congrats on all you have accomplished! You sound like you know what you need to do in order to finish heading towards you goals - and to make the results of those goals LAST!

You can do it, you will do it, and you'll keep it off!

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SPARKLISE 4/22/2013 9:08AM

    This is an emoticon blog!
Keep up the good work! emoticon

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TIME4CARRI 4/20/2013 2:08AM

    So so true. I can't wait to share success with you. I do have a long way to go and am just working day by day to make healthy choices and move more. Thanks for being the inspiration that you are!

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 4/19/2013 9:45PM

    I say I'm on a healthier lifestyle not a diet. Diet has such negative connotations to it. I'm doing things to improve my life and health. The bonus is looking better in clothes and wearing smaller sizes. You have been an inspiration to so many. When I look at what you have accomplished I know it works. I know what works and what doesn't but at times I've slid backwards instead of forwards. I know what I need to do but sometimes I don't feel like it but through it all I still hold myself accountable and track those calories (no matter how bad) and track the fitness (all those walks).
You're looking so great! You've done an awesome job!
Ramona emoticon

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ADVENTURESEEKER 4/19/2013 8:22PM

    A 'diet' is also what a person calls what we eat. As in, the average North American diet consists of meat, potatoes and cooked vegetables. Or an athlete's diet is full of protein. Or whatnot.
My way of eating has changed over the last couple of years to a healthier one, with less sugar and more whole foods. I do find I crave less sugary, carb-filled foods now, which makes me feel much healthier.

Great post!

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SEATTLE58 4/19/2013 7:40PM

    You are truly an amazing, miracle woman to me and I am truly blown away by all your achievements in life, with losing this humongous amount of pounds! Oh Sweetie, you must feel amazing, feel so much lighter, feel so much more energy and all those other good things that make you a healthy human being. You are who I want to be. I feel though that I have a couple of strike against me and yet I don't want those things to hinder me! With RA, with it being tough to exercise, I still love to get on my recumbent bike every day. I'm so thankful that I don't feel the pain so much with that marvelous pc. of equipment. Where, with walking, I can feel it lots, with pain here and there. Are you and science really saying that we have to actually burn more calories than we take in? I mean every day? Because with me eating say, 1200-1500 calories per day, I need to exercise 1200-1500 calories each day too? That's next to impossible with me especially with having RA. I get on my bike and burn around 300-500 calories per day but never 1200! Or is it in a total of exercising for 3 days per week? As you can say, I feel confused and I feel like you would know the answer to that. I feel so discouraged with my RA med. not working yet and is can cause weight gain and the Prednisone too, does that I know. I've lost 67# and have gained 10# back and with doing all I can do, I feel down about it all. I don't want to eat less than 1200 calories. That already seems some shy for me. Could you clear this up for me and help me to see that I can lose weight once again? Sorry to lean on you like this, but you really have been there and done that. Thank you in advance! Hugs to you, Karen

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