Sunday, July 01, 2012
Please view my blog, The Singing Bird, if you want to see the pictures. If you'd just like to read about it, I will copy the text here. :)
No, I didn't have a baby. :) Two kids is enough for me. The cat I'd had for 12 years died last fall and I put thoughts of getting another cat out of my mind because our dog was getting older and her vet bills were adding up and it was just too much to deal with. Well, if you've read my blog recently you know that a month ago our dog, who we'd had 11 years, died. I always knew I'd be upset when they died, but I didn't realize how upset I'd be.
Jeff said he missed them, but he was also relieved of not having the responsibility of taking care of them anymore. I understand that, because it is a lot to deal with, especially when you have two young kids. Our dog always had issues and a lot of surgeries, and over the years we spent a LOT of money on her. Jeff loves animals, but I could understand him being hesitant about getting more of them. I was too.
A couple of weeks ago I just felt really strongly that I wanted/needed a pet. I've never not had a cat or dog, and the house just felt really lonely and empty. Last weekend we saw some dogs and cats at the pet store where they were having an adoption day from local humane associations. Seeing all the unwanted animals made me so sad. I started to really want a cat.
For a long time I said I'd never want another kitten, but after thinking about it, I was wondering if maybe a kitten would be better considering we have two noisy rambunctious kids. A lot of older cats do not like children (and I can't blame them) and I'd feel bad getting a cat that just wanted to hide out when they were around. I figured a kitten could acclimate to our home life a little easier.
A few days ago I was looking online and found an organization that would be doing an event at Petco, and on the site was the cutest little calico kitten named Dorothy. When I saw her picture and read about her, I thought she'd be perfect for us. She also reminded me of a cat I had from when I was 12 to 25, who I had bottle fed as a baby. I e-mailed the organization, who is a no kill one who has volunteers who foster all the animals, who are mostly cats. I went ahead and filled out the application to get the screening out of the way. I really wanted to meet this kitty! I drove out to the Petco and she was there where they alternate them to get them seen, and hopefully adopted. She was asleep, but later that evening we went back and all four of us got to interact with her. The people from the organization aren't there during normal hours, but after talking to the lady on the phone she said that my application was great (she talked to my references) and that they'd put me down as wanting her so when I got there we could start the adoption process.
So, yesterday we went to see her at the event, and I am sure glad that we started the process earlier, because a lot of people were interested in her. She is so pretty and playful! The kids loved playing with her and I held her and she wasn't fearful of me at all, but all the people and dogs around barking were making her a little nervous. I decided I wanted her, and the lady had told me it would probably be a day or 2 before we could take her home, but then yesterday she said we could go ahead and take her! So, I went and bought all the things we'd need for her and we got her ready to take home.
The people there are so nice and they really take good care of the animals. They have a vet that gives them their first shots and spays or neuters them. Our kitty, who they'd named Dorothy (we decided to keep that as her name) is about 10 weeks and they spayed her last week. We got her some little toy mice and a nice cozy bed and a new carrier, as well as new food dishes and things. They gave me a lot of coupons so we ended up saving over $30 on all that stuff. Her adoption fee was $70, which I really think is low considering they are already spayed and everything, so I gave an extra $10 for a donation because I'd read on their site that it helps feed a cat for a month.
We got her home and settled in, and she never hid or anything and was loving all the attention from us. She rubs your legs and purrs and loves getting petted. She is so sweet! I love her personality. :)
Last night I didn't get much sleep because she decided to wake up several times and to get in my face and lick me, and wanted to play. I ignored her and put her back in her bed because I want her to learn that night time is for sleeping, not playing. :) At about 4:30 she wet in our bed. I am not sure why and we hadn't seen her go anywhere else. She pooped in the box during the night, so she must know that the box is where to do her business. I am sure we'll figure out why (I've never had a cat with long term litter box issues) and I think for now she'll sleep in the bathroom. Don't worry, we have a large master bathroom and there is plenty of room for her to run around and play and for her food and litter to not be near each other. Our plan was to keep her confined to our room for a while anyway until she's used to things. Hopefully soon we'll be able to let her wander around the house where she wants. Once they send me her complete records this week from where she got her veterinary care I plan on having them transferred to our vet and getting her checked out. She'll need a rabies vaccination soon and then I can have them check her for a urinary infection, since I know that's a common reason cats might pee other places. She seems very healthy though. She is soft and shiny and very very active. She wolfs down her food too. LOL She plays non stop till she wears herself out, takes a cat nap and then is ready to play again.
I had a 4 mile run scheduled this morning and it was awful. It's been so hot and humid here (over 100 degrees) and I just don't take the heat well. Even early this morning it was SO humid. That heavy air just feels yukcy and my legs felt like lead. I had to take several walk breaks during the run, which normally I don't do. After the pee incident (at 4:30 am), I decided to just stay up. I was going to get up early to run anyway, but not having enough sleep made it very hard to run well. At least I did it though.
Thursday, June 07, 2012
After my bad week a couple weeks ago, I am feeling much better. Everything happening all at once did a number on me. I was just physically and mentally exhausted and I didn't work out for more than a week, which hasn't happened since I had oral surgery a year and a half ago. There are times I struggle with the eating, but I've always kept up with working out. I simply force myself to do something, even on days I really don't want to.
The first couple times I ran after that week felt extremely hard. It's always like that when I go a week with no running, which I hardly ever do. The heat also affects me, but luckily the weather here this week has been mild and we haven't even needed to use the AC. The other morning I did a 3 mile run in 31 minutes! That's a record for me. It was cool that morning and I just felt really energized. Today I ran 3 miles and it took me 33 minutes. I just felt tired for some reason. Yesterday my mom took my daughter for the day, so I had all this free time. You'd think I'd relax, but nope, there was too much to do. After my son got on the bus I went to the gym. I hadn't been in a while since most of my workouts are running (and I'd been sick), but I do like to go there and use the weights and do other stuff to give myself a break from running. I was there for more than an hour. I did a ton of the weight machines, some I'd never tried before and then I did the treadmill where I walked at a speed of 3.2 and an incline of 8%. After that I needed to go grocery shopping, and since the store is right by the gym, I went in my workout clothes. They had some really good produce, so I got peaches, rainier cherries, salad mix, cauliflower, tomatoes, avocados, apples, and some sweet potatoes. I was also excited to find that they had the Diet Peach Snapple on sale. This reminds me that a few weeks ago I took photos of what I bought at the store and I also took some of them put away in the fridge and pantry. I always enjoy reading those sort of blogs from other people, so I thought it might be fun to do one of my own. Obviously I have been lazy about doing that. It's so hard to find time to sit and actually write a blog sometimes. That blog will be up soon. I hope I can get it done while my son is in school tomorrow and maybe my daughter will let me write in peace. ;)
After putting away the groceries, I had a snack and some water and decided to take a break to check facebook and stuff, and realized it was National Running Day. I'd read somewhere that it was soon, but forgot about. Well, I couldn't let it go by without running, and even though I'd already worked out, I decided to go for a run. It was a short one, 1.52 miles, and I walked a bit half way through, but I took my time and enjoyed it.
Once I got home I did a few things around the yard, took a shower, had lunch and by that time I had an hour before my son would get home from school. We went out shopping and I got these really cute little bowls at Pier 1 that I plan to use for yogurt. One looks like a poppy flower, and the other is a green flower. I also got a set of ceramic owl measuring cups. They were so cute I just couldn't resist. I'll probably use them to portion out things like rice, yogurt or other snack foods.
Aren't they adorable?
I'm signed up for a 5k this weekend. I found out about it when I did a search for 5ks because I really want to see if I can beat my time (33:50) from March. It's at Bryan Park, one of my favorite places, and it benefits a little girl with cerebral palsy. The possibility of me getting a PR is not that great because it's a trail run. Supposedly it's not too hilly, but we'll see. If I can get it in 32 or under I'd be thrilled, but I'd have to run really hard to be able to do that and if it's hilly it will definitely slow me down. I'm also hoping it won't be too hot, but even if it is, at least we'll have some shade! It's so pretty there and we plan to hang around for a bit and bring a cooler with lunch.
Next week is the last day of school. My daughter already finished preschool and starts kindergarten in the fall. While I'm looking forward to not having to get up early in the morning and being able to do more fun things, being home with the kids all day is tiring. We get passes to some theme parks, so that gives us something to do. It makes fitting in my workouts harder, but I've done it the last 2 summers, so I can do it again.
My weight is currently 191, up a pound from where it was 3 weeks ago. I am disappointed in that, but not surprised considering I didn't work out a lot during that week and a half and didn't track every day and I was sick. It sucks, but all I can do is keep on trucking and hopefully soon I'll be in the 180s.
Does anyone else really like to have special cups, bowls or mugs to eat or drink out of? I really like to use my pretty tea cups for tea and I have a couple favorite mugs I use for coffee. I have a giant owl mug my husband bought me that I use for soup.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
The past week has been extremely rough. The weekend before, (the 18th) my dog got sick. She kept throwing up and we figured she'd eaten something in the yard and would be better in a day or two. It seemed she would do this every year or so--eat something in the yard and get an upset stomach and then be fine.
After a few days of this, she still wasn't better (she also started having diarrhea), so my husband took her to the vet. The gave her some medicine there and sent some home with her to take, and some special food. All that afternoon and evening we couldn't get her to eat or drink. She was acting strange and wouldn't come in the house. For a few days it had been nice out and since we have a screened in porch and she was getting sick, we put her dog bed and stuff out there. It was hot that day, and we tried to get her to come lie on her bed in the kitchen, but she went right back to the porch. We tried to get her drink and she wouldn't. I was getting worried and thought maybe she was just tired after the vet and needed a nap. I saw her moving around a bit as we made dinner and then after that we got the kids in bed and my husband went to check on her again, and she had died.
I was so upset and just started crying. I knew she was sick, but I didn't think she'd die. She was 11 years old and had been through a lot of surgeries and had arthritis, and we knew we didn't have a whole lot of time with her, but just a few days before that she was fine and almost playful, which she hasn't been in a few years. Our son came out to tell us something and saw she had died, and was upset. We went and told our daughter and talked to the kids about it, and they said goodbye to her.
My husband seemed ok, but once the kids were in bed he was upset and cried too. I have only seen him cry a couple times in the 15 years we've been together and the other time was when our other dog died a few years back. It was dark and we couldn't just leave her on the porch, so he took her to the emergency vet place, and they were going to cremate her. They gave us a little clay piece with her paw print in it, so that was nice to have.
It's so weird not having her here. Our cat died last fall, and so it's just strange. We have a pet bird, but it's not the same as having a cat or dog, even though he is pretty fun. For a few days I was really depressed about it. I didn't think I'd be this upset when she died, but it was hard. She drove me crazy a lot because she had a tendency to bark at things (and I feel awful saying this, but there were times I thought how it must be nice to have no pets being loud all the time and making a mess, and how I would feel relieved to not have to deal with it anymore), but she was the sweetest dog ever. She was so much fun as a puppy, and I miss her. It's been weird adjusting to not having to let her out first thing in the morning, or last thing before bed. I also find myself stepping off the couch carefully like I always do because I am used to her lying underfoot.
I hadn't been feeling well earlier last week. I'd felt really tired and achy, like I was going to come down with a cold or something. I thought it was just stress from everything going on, but on the day our dog died I started to get pains through my breast and armpit area. At the wedding last weekend I'd gotten stung by a bee, and then bitten my something on my breast. I discovered the bite that evening when I took my dress off. I had a huge welt on my breast which itched and was painful and swollen. It got better after a few days, but then the pain started.
I started to feel worse, and more like I was getting the flu and that pain was spreading on my left side, so I went to the Dr. on Friday. He said it could be a delayed reaction to whatever bit me and it could be like some sort of drainage through the area, like with all the ducts and things in the breast. I told him it felt like when I had mastitis when I was breastfeeding. I only had it mildly and never went to the Dr for it, but I remember feeling tired and weak. He wrote me a prescription for antibiotics and said if the pain wasn't better in a couple days to come back.
That night I started the meds and the next day still felt the same, no better no worse. I took my daughter to a birthday party and had been feeling tired, but not awful. That evening after she went to bed I started feeling bad. My stomach hurt and I just felt nauseated, which I had been feeling all week off and on, but hadn't gotten sick.
I was up early the next morning (Sunday) and was sick (vomiting). I continued to get sick throughout the afternoon. Luckily my husband was off work early, and he took the kids to another birthday party we were supposed to go to. I felt so bad that I did nothing but lie on the couch all day. I had only a few saltines to eat all day and drank some ginger ale. The thought of food made me feel sick.
That night I slept on the couch sitting up because lying down made me feel worse. I woke up about 5:30 and had diarrhea. I decided at that point to come to our bed and sleep for a bit because my back hurt from the couch. I tossed and turned and our kids woke us up at around 8:00. There was no way I could fall back to sleep because of my stomach cramping, so I got up. I ate some oatmeal and my stomach still felt queasy. Mostly I just felt incredibly weak and drained. Laundry needed to be done, so I worked on that and my husband helped. He cut the grass and I had been neglecting to water my flowers for a few days, so I did that, and it was hot out and I just felt awful. I came in where it was cool and rested for a bit. My husband cooked dinner and after dinner I actually started to feel better.
This morning I felt tired when I got up because I haven't been sleeping well, and I guess my body is just worn out after having some sort of infection, a stomach virus and going through the grief of our dog dying. It's been one week since I've worked out, and I weighed myself and I am up several pounds. That sucks, but what's done is done. I did eat too much for a couple days and without working out I guess that was enough to make me gain weight. You'd think barely eating for 2 days would make up for that, but I guess not. I think by tomorrow I should be able to work out. I'll see what I am up for and hopefully be able to get a decent work out in. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day because my daughter has a end of year program at her school and I have to bake cookies for it.
Hopefully this week will be better. I can't remember when I've felt so mentally and physically exhausted. I just want to be in a good mood again.
Sunday, May 06, 2012
Today was the trail race I signed up for a few weeks ago. It's a women's only race done at a really pretty state park. One of my friends was going to do it too, and she said she'd do it with me. She'd never done a trail race before either, but she's done half marathons and is a really good runner. I was a little nervous at the thought of running with someone, especially someone who is way faster than me because I wouldn't want to slow them down. She'd had an injury recently, so she said she was fine at taking it easier and doing it with me.
She picked me up at 7:40 and we headed there. It's maybe 20 minutes away and there was plenty of parking, so it was easy. The weather this morning was cool, but slightly drizzly and humid. Once we got there, we headed out to the area where we were to warm up, and then she realized she forgot her Garmin, so we went back to the van and got it, but it had locked up, so she didn't bring it. I had mine, so that was good.
We got in line for the bathroom (my stall smelled like puke, eww) and then headed down to the field where it starts. She didn't have her wave labeled on her bib for some reason, so we went to the tent and she had them switch her wave to mine so we could start together. They had us line up, and we were wave D, the 4th to go through.
When he said go, I hit the start button on my Garmin and we took off through the field. Then you run over a little bridge and then get to the trail, where pretty much all of the race was. Before our wave started, the guy told us the first mile was uphill. UGH I knew it was a trail race and there would be hills, but they told us it flattened out half way through and the end was downhill. Yeah, that wasn't really the truth.
The hills seemed to go on forever, and when you'd finally be going downhill for a bit or get to a flat part and start to catch your breath, there would be another hill. At around mile 3 when another big hill came I even said out loud, "F***, ANOTHER hill." ;) I kept waiting for the flat parts, but there were barely any! It was definitely hard, in fact, it was the hardest race I've done. The 10k I did a little over a month ago was way easier. My friend just seemed to fly up the hills, and they were really slowing me down. She would turn around when she realized I was a little bit behind her and come back. I'd see other people walking and I wanted to stop so bad, but I wouldn't let myself, so I just slowed down a little, but I didn't want to get too far behind my friend. I started to feel a cramp coming on, and so I had to slow down some, but I never stopped to walk (although on some of the hills it felt like I was crawling up them I was going so slow!) There were a lot of roots and rocks, and twice I stumbled slightly, but was ok and it didn't really break my stride. There was a part at the beginning where you had to jump over a little stream and my heel hit the water so I splashed, but at least my foot didn't get wet. It was drizzly the whole time anyway, so that was the least of my worries. I don't mind running in the rain, but I wear glasses, so it made it harder to see and then they kept fogging up.
The trail there is so beautiful, but I feel like I didn't notice it that much at times because I was very focused on watching my footing so I wouldn't trip. I am thankful it was not hot and sunny. That would have done me in! The last mile was mostly flat and downhill, but there were still a couple hills. Once I knew we were close to the bridge, I tried to pick up speed. I was happy it was almost over. My lungs were burning (you would think humidity would make it easier to breathe, but not for me, and I even read that when it's humid, and especially when it's hot and humid, that your heart has to work harder, so it is more difficult), and my butt and legs were killing me from all those hills.
The time on my Garmin said 57:52, but I will add to this later when my official time is recorded. It wasn't chip timed, and there was a guy calling out numbers, so who knows what it will be. We hung around for a bit and drank some water (neither of us could figure out how to open the bottle...it has this cap you twist to release the vitamins and we had no idea) and talked to a woman my friend knows. Then we got in line for food and I got a half a bagel and half a banana. I didn't eat all of the banana because it was warm, and it just tasted funny.
It was really nice chatting with my friend and hearing more about races she's done. I was always amazed at all the races she would do. She is thinking about training for a marathon, and I think she'd be great. One day I WILL train for and complete a half marathon, I just don't know when I will feel ready. It's mostly the training and making the time for, but we'll see.
So, I completed my first ever trail race, and it was definitely a challenge, but I am so glad to have done it. My time for the 8k I did in November was 58:44 and that was a flat easy course! Since my time for this was almost a minute faster, I think that shows how I've improved since then. Running with a friend who is faster really helped me to get a better time. If I were alone I probably wouldn't have pushed myself as hard, so I am thankful she was patient enough to wait for me. Hopefully some day I'll be able to run 3 miles in 27 minutes like she can!
I am definitely going to be sore. My butt feels sore and I feel pretty tired. I never sleep well the night before races and then I think I am just full of adrenaline and crash later, so now that I've stretched, showered, and stretched some more and am sitting, I am feeling a little fatigued. Luckily I have nothing pressing to do today, so I am just going to relax for a bit and revel in my accomplishment. :)
Oh, and both us forgot to bring a camera. They had people taking photos, so whenever they put those online I'll post one here.
Thursday, May 03, 2012
Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and
downs I pass through,
I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today,
and forgive myself for my past,
and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself,
To Stop making excuses,
And stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best
Because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race
and to be a WINNER!
signed: Leisa (Sunflowergal40)
Signed: Chris (chriskenandkids)
Signed: Linda (scoutmom715)
Signed: Elizabeth (Moonbird)
(from Linda S. Jayne (Geminisue)
Will you blog and post the Never Quit Pledge, today/soon?
Let's spread it through Sparks, so all can have the choice to commit!
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