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Grateful

Friday, April 29, 2011

It's been a rough week and I am glad it's Friday. I've been feeling stressed and not getting enough sleep was making me feel worse. I slept pretty good last night and it's amazing what a good 7 hours of sleep can do for you. (and a back rub before bed by your hubby :) ) I got up at 5:30 and did my 3 miles (3.1 to be exact) and did them in less than 42 mins!

Last night I read all the comments on my latest blog and I just have to say thank you to all of you! I appreciate you all taking the time to support me. It means a lot and I really am grateful. I would not have made it this far in my journey without the support I've found here. I can always count on someone to encourage me and keep me going.

Today I am also grateful because my son was in a car accident yesterday and came out of it completely fine. His friend's mom was picking them up after school because it was his friend's birthday. We were all going to meet up at Chuck E Cheese, and this happened a little before that. By looking at the pictures of the car, you'd think someone was seriously hurt at the least, but no one was. The boys were in their boosters and seat belts and the mom did get hit by the air bag and was sore, but everyone was fine. When she called to tell me of course I was worried, but I knew he was ok and the boys were mostly concerned about whether they could still go to CEC. So we met up and I was just grateful everyone was ok. It really put things into perspective for me. I try my best to be positive and not let things get to me, but sometimes stress gets the best of me. This reminded me to not sweat the small stuff, and like that books says, it's all small stuff (mostly). We spend too much time worrying over things that really don't matter.

Without our health we have nothing, and that accident reminded me that we are all one crash or accident away from serious injury or death. We have to LIVE our lives to the fullest and be grateful for every moment we have on this earth because we never know when it will be over.

Let this be a reminder to all of you to WEAR YOUR SEAT BELTS EVERY SINGLE TIME! The boys could have been thrown from the car and seriously hurt or killed if not restrained properly. One of the windows in the car was completely smashed out. But, they were in their boosters as the law requires and walked away unharmed. I am so glad I follow the recommendations and keep him in a booster even though he's 7 and tall for his age. So, double check your kids' car seats and that they are installed properly and that they are restrained properly in those seats. They don't do much good if they aren't being used the right way. Don't think because you are a good driver that you are exempt from the seat belt. You never know when a drunk driver could hit you or someone could be texting or talking on their phone and slam into you. Stop talking on the phone when you're driving. Whatever you're talking about is not worth the distraction when it takes only a split second to be in a crash.

Let's take care of ourselves in EVERY way we can so we can be here for the people we love. I hope you all have a great weekend!

  
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MAWDOT35 5/1/2011 9:27PM

    Hi Elizabeth,
Thank goodness your son was not injured! So important to follow the rules and wear those seat belts, etc.
Glad you had a good night's sleep and I pray that you will have many more restful nights. I go to sleep counting my blessings and thanking God for them, but even then I sometimes have trouble sleeping. Wish I had a sure-fire tip to give you.

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JBUF77 5/1/2011 5:44AM

  Whoa! Glad to hear u r all safe and sound! Something like that does put a lot of things into perspective.... I see death and accidents every day in the medical field and a lot of people are not so lucky. emoticon I particularly like the "don't sweat the small stuff" and it's all small stuff quote!

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SDJOLLY 4/29/2011 10:49PM

    I'm glad to hear you're feeling better and that your son was not injured in the accident. Thank goodness!!

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MN4VOLS 4/29/2011 12:37PM

    I am so glad everyone is alright! I bet that did put things into perspective.

When I don't get the sleep I need, that makes a big difference too. I am glad you had a better day!

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MARTY728 4/29/2011 10:48AM

    Happy there were no injuries. emoticon

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MARLARELLA 4/29/2011 10:39AM

    I am SOOO glad that your precious boys are ok!! I won't move my car one inch without everyone buckling up- it is such a no brainer!

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DARKTHOR 4/29/2011 10:25AM

    Life is precious and often too short. We should all treasure it and appreciate what we have.

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BBORDEN86 4/29/2011 9:42AM

    I'm so glad everyone is OK! That had to be scary for them. Everything happens for a reason. I find when I vent, and vent about something SO silly that something happens afterwards that REALLY makes me stop in my tracks and be grateful for the good in my life. Keep your head up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TJHIERS 4/29/2011 9:36AM

    glad to know everyone was ok, also all those prayers sent your way were answered ! AMEN ! GLAD YOU GOT SOME REST TOO !
Still take some time for you through out the week, everyone needs some ME time,and have a nice weekend as well. emoticon emoticon

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/29/2011 8:11AM

    WOW - I'm so glad everyone is okay! That is so scary and yes unfortunately it takes things like that to remind us to be thankful. Life can change in an instant!

And look at you go - you are super woman!

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HEATHERALB 4/29/2011 8:06AM

    So happy that everyone was ok. Take care!

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FLFITBEE 4/29/2011 7:59AM

    What a great reminder that it's not necessarily about the way that YOU drive since we share the road with other people. Also, it's important to do what's right for your kids whether or not the law requires it; in Florida, kids can legally be out of carseats/boosters the day they turn 5, and obviously most kids need protection for longer than that.

So glad that everyone was unharmed.

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MARVEEME 4/29/2011 7:38AM

    Lots of prayers went up for you yesterday. Seems an answer has arrived, so prayers of thanks heading up today.

Blessings,
Mar

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DOWNTOWNJEN 4/29/2011 7:27AM

    Awesome blog! I'm just grateful that everyone was ok! And thank you so much for the reminder about seatbelts - they are so critical! As someone who has had a friend die from being hit by a drunk driver - I can totally relate to what you're saying.

And you are so right when you say live your life to the fullest!

We're doing it!

Congrats on your awesome successes!

Peace,
Jen

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1 Year Sparkversary...Pictures! 85 Pounds Gone, So Much More Gained

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Tomorrow is one year since I joined SPARKPEOPLE. A year ago I was over 300 lbs... about 325 give or take a few since I didn't have an accurate scale. I was tired all the time and tired of being so out of shape and not being able to live the kind of life I wanted to. For a long time I told myself I would change, but I never could seem to figure out how to do it and stick with those changes. I'd start off excited to change, lose some weight, and then become frustrated that I wasn't losing enough weight (my expectations were too high) that I couldn't walk a mile fast enough ( I felt like I was failing if I couldn't do something that I thought I should be able to do) or I'd make myself very sore and tired (over working myself, again feeling like I should be able to walk a mile in X amount of time). So, I'd give up, feeling defeated, and like I'd never be able to accomplish the one thing I'd always wanted to do, which was to lose weight and keep it off.

I'd been on diets since I was a child and nothing had ever worked. For so long I think I did what a lot of overweight people subconsciously do, and that was punish myself for being fat. The diets were like a punishment, one I felt I deserved for not being able to take care of myself. I got to a point where I was worried for my health; I guess you could say I reached my rock bottom. Broken was how I felt. I could not ride bikes or rides at theme parks with my kids, I couldn't walk very far without feeling tired, and I knew I was harming my body, yet I still kept doing it. I felt I couldn't talk to people about it, because I was ashamed, and felt like they were also ashamed of me.

I'd begun to make some changes before I found sparkpeople, and then once I signed up and started reading the articles, and then the book, I felt at peace about all this for the first time ever. You'd always hear these stories about people losing 100+ plus pounds, but you didn't really know them. Once I saw the struggles of the people here and how they had overcome them, I knew I could do it too! When I saw that doing the things SP recommended was making a difference, and I didn't feel deprived by some restrictive diet, I finally felt like there was light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time I actually believed I could and would do this. That was something I'd never had before, faith in myself.

In one year I've lost 85 lbs, and gone from a size 28 jeans and 30 top to a size 18/20. I've gone from walking a mile in 20+ mins and being out of breath to being able to walk many miles, and now I can even run 2 miles straight in about 25-27 mins. I now have normal blood pressure, have lowered my triglycerides, I have good cholesterol numbers, and now my vitamin D level is normal. I have no signs of diabetes and according to the Dr, I am very healthy now. I have transformed my life.

This has truly been life changing for me in a multitude of ways. Not only am I healthier and feeling better than I ever have, I can do things easier (shave my legs, fit in booths, not have the steering wheel almost touch my belly when I drive) and I can participate in life again. For so long I sat and watched other people do things I wanted to do, thinking I couldn't because of my weight or size. Now I know I can do things, and do them well. I have a confidence I have never had, and even though I am still not thin by any means and am only about half way done losing this weight, I actually feel good about my body overall. After all I've put it through (weight gains and losses, illness, 2 pregnancies, gall bladder surgery) it's still kicking!

If you are reading this and just starting out and think there is no way you can do this, then please, listen to me now. You CAN! I never would have believed someone a year ago if they'd told me I'd be running and half way to where I want to be. Follow the program here, read blogs and articles and track your food. Do more exercise. It will work. Believe it, and believe in yourself. I don't think I would have made it this far if it weren't for so many of the supportive people here who really understand what I am going through. People out in the world will try to sabotage you. They won't want you to change. You have to learn to put yourself first and do this for YOU, and forget what other people think. "Don't let the bastards grind you down." That is from the book, The Handmaid's Tale. You have to be strong. I am not going to lie to you and tell you this is easy. It's not. If it were easy, no one would have a weight problem. It's going to be tough, especially at first. You are going to want to give up at some point, but you have to remind yourself to keep going. You're going to make mistakes, and that is ok, just move on and don't let those mistakes define you. Realize that the only thing stopping you, is you.

This was me at about 325 lbs. I saw this after taking my kids to the park, and I couldn't believe how big I looked. I think we all think we're smaller than we are because we don't feel that big, until we really see ourselves. Take a photo of yourself, even if it's painful. Living in denial does you no favors. You have to be honest with yourself.



This is me now. I weigh 240 in this picture.



This is a picture of me last May, after I'd lost 10 pounds or so.



This is me at 240.



This is me at my first 5k, weighing about 250. I didn't run the whole way, but a good portion of it. My time was 43 mins, 10 secs. I thought about my dad, who died of lung cancer, the whole time and how proud he'd be of me.



I am so thankful for sparkpeople and all the great people I've met here. This year has been one of the best, even if one of the toughest at times. I have faced fears and accomplished many goals. The future is waiting for me, and I'll be ready for it, and all it brings.


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BONOLICIOUS2 4/29/2011 10:54AM

    WOW - WOW - WOW - WOW

Words can not describe how proud you should be of yourself, you have done an AMAZING job and you continue to inspire and to be a winner!

You have come a long way and you have earned it! Celebrate yourself because you are AWESOME!

GIANT HIGH FIVE!

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LIMOM2TWINS 4/28/2011 7:39AM

    just beautiful! I love the smiles :) - what a wonderful gift you are giving to yourself and your children - keep up the fabulous work! emoticon

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JBUF77 4/28/2011 12:41AM

  You look amazing! I am in tears reading this, especially when you talk about your Dad. I lost mine last summer to esophogeal cancer, he was always big and that contributed greatly... All I can think is I don't want to be like he was his last year, it was horrible to watch him, so sick... Thank You sooooo much for your blog, I don't have health problems now and was racking my brain for a reason to lose the weight other than look good (that wouldn't have kept me motivated long) and now I have all the reasons I need.... No Limits!! Tawanda!!! emoticon

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MN4VOLS 4/27/2011 11:40PM

    Wow! This is awesome! Congratulations on your weight loss. I needed this motivation tonight to keep going!!

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BBORDEN86 4/27/2011 10:54PM

    This is SO awesome!! I'm so proud of you! This gives me all the courage in the world that I can do this too. : )

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FLGIRL1234 4/27/2011 8:43PM

    I was smiling from ear to ear reading this. THANK YOU for being one of the ones who make a difference, who show others that it can be done if you want it badly enough. I love it! Congrats!

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BEKKASHAY 4/27/2011 1:31PM

    Congrats!! Your story reminds me of myself alot-I just finished year 2, I cant wait to see your blog in a year from here :) I know you are going to reach all your goals. You are so right about how you see yourself in pics, I never thought I was as big as I was in pic either! You look AMAZING, you are oding AMAZING and I know you will continue!! YEAAAA!!

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BGSTELLA 4/26/2011 4:49PM

    thank you for underscoring how important it is to put yourself first --- i don't have as much weight to lose, but I have ALOT of self-respect to gain by changing how I view my needs --- congratulations and keep up the movitation!! emoticon

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-THINQ- 4/25/2011 5:33PM

    Wow, you ARE INSPIRATIONAL! I too hope I can stick with it just like you have! emoticon
Lizzy =D

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HEALTHYNOW4ME 4/25/2011 1:47PM

    Congratulations! Keep on trucking! I can only hope that I have the fortitude to stick with it as you have done. Reading this blog has been truly inspirational. Thank you! emoticon

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MARLARELLA 4/25/2011 12:24PM

    Thank you so much for this blog!!! You look amazing and you are doing amazing things!

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DARKTHOR 4/25/2011 10:54AM

    What an awesome blog. You really are transforming your life. I'm so happy that you are enjoying how you look now, I think too often we forget to enjoy our progress along the way. I think you are looking fantastic. Keep striving towards being able to do more and more. This is your life, you are owning it!

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KELLYC_14FAN 4/25/2011 10:22AM

    This was such a great thing to read this morning!!! Congrats on all your success!!! You look fabulous!!

Congrats on motivator as well!! It is definitely well deserved!!!

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JAMIELGOOCH 4/24/2011 11:31PM

    Girl I am so proud of you. I know it has been a challenge and it's a challenge for me. I do good one week then I gain some back. But you've done wonderful and continue to keep up the hard work. emoticon emoticon

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LJOHN44 4/24/2011 7:59AM

    This blog makes me HAPPY! Congratulations! Happy Sparkversary!!!

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TOTALFOCUS 4/24/2011 2:11AM

    Happy Anniversary MoonBird!

You are certainly an inspiration to me!
Thanks for supporting me with my running!

I'm sooo proud of your accomplishments!
Keep up the great work!

Have a great day!

Ree

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SDJOLLY 4/23/2011 10:21PM

    You are such an inspiration! I'm so very proud of you and all that you've accomplished. emoticon emoticon

Happy Sparkversary!!

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FLFITBEE 4/23/2011 9:14PM

    You are so strong, and I am so proud of you!

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BETHIE19 4/23/2011 8:03PM

    YOU GO! What a great job you have done and I can tell there is no stopping you! emoticon

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DOWNTOWNJEN 4/23/2011 6:55PM

    ROCK ON! I'm so proud of you!

You know, for me, you are one of those people ahead of me on the path. One I look to to see my own future. And I hope I can lend a hand if ever you need it.

Voting for this blog - you speak the truth with every word.

And I have to say it again - I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!

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MARVEEME 4/23/2011 3:51PM

    I could tell the instant I voted on your main page that my vote sent you over the top to become a motivator. I was shocked when I became one too. You must be motivating a lot of us out here, because I only voted once today for you after reading this blog.

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YOU'RE A SPARK PEOPLE MOTIVATOR NOW! A CELEBRITY! YIPPEE!

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SARAHSTARTSOVER 4/23/2011 2:15PM

    You are SUCH an inspiration, your starting weight is where I started and I cannot weight to be where you are. I kept nodding all the way through your blog becuase I related so much. Thank you so much for sharing and congratulations!!! emoticon

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MISSYSTAR1980 4/23/2011 1:51PM

    You are awesome!!! Keep going, you'll be at your goal in no time!

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AMANAKA2010 4/23/2011 1:49PM

    Thank you for sharing your journey! You are an inspiration!! Keep Up the good work! And thank you for keeping me going!! :o)

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MYCUTEGIZMO 4/23/2011 1:28PM

  Congrats continue the hard work!!

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Life With No Limits

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Besides my health, my biggest reason for wanting to lose weight was to be able to participate more in life. I wanted this more than I wanted to look better, and still do. I was tired of not being able to do things because of my weight, or feeling like I shouldn't, or not fitting in something..you get the picture. I started realizing booths were too small, or rather, I was getting too big to fit in them. I hadn't ridden a bike in years because I was so out of shape I didn't know if I could. I was so tired of not being able to live life like a normal person.

Today was a huge day for me. I went to an amusement park with my husband and 2 kids, and for the first time rode rides other than the merry go round with them! I was scared to try certain rides at first, thinking the belts wouldn't fit around me (and some of them were close, but I still fit!). I still sometimes can't wrap my mind around the fact that I am considerably smaller. The first thing we rode was the log flume. That has no belts, and really, a pretty large person could fit. Getting in and out of it in the past would have worried me, because you have to step down pretty far into it, and I'd seen some other people struggle to get in and out, but it was no problem for me. I rode the carousel with my daughter, and instead of worrying I couldn't pull myself up onto a horse, I climbed up on my own horse while she rode next to me. I would have been nervous to do that in the past and just stood next to her horse. Not today! The biggest thing for me was riding the small wooden coaster they have. It's really meant for kids and I worried that I wouldn't fit, because not only is there a seat belt you have to buckle, a steel bar comes down on your waist. Well, I fit! The bar was touching my stomach, but not squishing it, so I could ride and have fun! A few months ago there is no way I would have fit in that ride! We rode lots of other rides together and I was so happy, and so were my husband and kids, and it made me realize what I have missed out on these last few years.

For the first time ever I didn't have to tell my kids I couldn't ride with them. I even quit going to the theme parks a lot of the time because just walking around while everyone else rode things was depressing. Now my kids don't have to feel disappointed, and neither do I! I can participate in my life and have fun. I am looking forward to going with just my husband so we can ride some of the bigger rides, like the roller coasters. He says that he thinks I should easily fit in all of them, although there are a couple of the wooden ones with seat dividers that are very snug on his butt, so it might be a while before I can do those comfortably. We will see.

Today was another realization of how far I've come in this last year. I feel like I can LIVE again! The feeling of just being able to do something when someone asks is wonderful! I don't have to doubt myself or my abilities all the time. For so long I lived life on the sidelines. Not anymore!

I'm so happy right now.

  
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JBUF77 4/28/2011 12:27AM

  This makes me want to go to an amusement park! I was almost in tears because I was so happy for you... that is an amazing blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KELLYC_14FAN 4/21/2011 1:33PM

    This is such an awesome blog!!! Congrats on being able to fully participate in everything with your family! That must just have been so wonderful!!

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MARLARELLA 4/20/2011 12:48PM

    I am seriously feeling misty eyed reading this- I am SO happy for you!!! We are losing weight for the same reasons and I cannot wait to come as far as you have!

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FLFITBEE 4/20/2011 10:19AM

    I am so happy for you and how healthy you have become!

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BBORDEN86 4/20/2011 9:41AM

    Yay!!! Those rides at the amusement parks are TOO fun to miss out on. I'm so glad you were able to ride them, especially to have a good time with your kids! Keep up the good work!

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MARVEEME 4/20/2011 8:41AM

    WELCOME BACK TO LIFE! I'm so happy for you I'm doing the happy dance right here on my Lay-Z-Boy chair, and it's a rocker, so that's not an easy thing to do!

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And this is JUST THE BEGINNING of the long list of things you're going to be able to do now too!

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/20/2011 7:58AM

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This is so uplifting! I am so happy for you and proud of you! You have the whole wide world at your disposal and now you can enjoy it with your family worry free! This is a "Woo Hoo Wednesday" moment for sure!

I am also jealous - a day at the theme park sounds like so much fun!

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TJHIERS 4/20/2011 7:58AM

    i just know that was such a good feeling for you to join in and ride those rides with your family. way to go ! you did it !
i can't wait until i can do the same with my family...
thanks for the inspiration !

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HEATHERALB 4/20/2011 7:44AM

    Fantastic! Those are the same reasons that made me start my own journey back into life. Congratulations to you!!!
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DARKTHOR 4/20/2011 2:03AM

    That is awesome. I remember the day years ago that I tried to ride a roller coaster ride and had the attendant trying to mash the bar down over me and I was just too fat to fit. I had to get off the ride with everyone watching. It was completely miserable and I haven't been tried to ride an amusement park ride since. I'm a lot smaller than I used to be, I think that I'll have to give it a try again sometime soon.

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SDJOLLY 4/20/2011 12:23AM

    That is so awesome and I'm super, super happy for you! You're putting in the hard work and reaping the rewards. It sounds like an wonderful day and here's to many many many more in the future! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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STORMYZCAT 4/19/2011 11:24PM

    Congratulations! What a great achievement! How great for your kids that you are taking the steps to enjoy an active life with them! (and setting a good example!) emoticon

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10 years to gain, 11 months to lose

Sunday, March 27, 2011

I now weigh less than I did when I got married in 2000. From the time I got married until early last year, I had gained about 80 lbs. As of today, I have lost 81 pounds! It's amazing that it took me less than year to lose the weight that it took a decade to gain. Of course, during that time, I'd lose some weight, then gain it back. It was never consistent. I would give up because I got sick of starving myself and working out like crazy. For whatever reason, I thought I had to eat very little and had to exercise a LOT. I'd push myself to the point where I was sore and exhausted and then I'd give up because of pain.

This time what has worked for me is a reasonable approach, which of course is what is recommended here on SP. I do push myself when working out, but along the way have realized that certain things will be harder for me to do, so I just have to keep working up to them. Last year trying to do 5 jumping jacks felt like it would kill me and my ankles would break. I can easily do 50 now. I can run a mile, and before walking one seemed like a lot of work and I'd be breathing hard and tired, and now I can run!

My soda addiction has been beaten. I rarely have any soda now, and I used to drink 4 or 5 cans a day. I gradually changed my diet and I try new things, and I don't feel punished or like I am missing out anything because I eat such a variety of foods. I still eat things like pizza and ice cream and birthday cake, but I have learned moderation and no longer eat like it's my last meal. That's not to say I don't ever have a day where I eat more than I should, I just own it and move on from there. I've learned that if you are not honest with yourself, this will not work, so I tell myself the truth, even when I know it will hurt.

This is the only time in my life I have stuck with working out. The longest I have gone without exercising was a couple months ago when I had my wisdom teeth out and then was sick after, and that was 10 days. It is a habit for me now, and I actually want to do it because it makes me feel good. I have changed my lifestyle, and my health and general well-being reflect that. I am healthy and strong and my attitude in general is better because I truly feel better.

The other day I decided to do some yard work. Before SP when I'd do yard work, I'd be sore for days and all the bending and shoveling was so hard that I dreaded it. I spent 2 hours the other day mulching and pulling weeds and carrying 50 lb bags of mulch from one end of the yard to the other. I was tired after, but not wiped out. I still came in (I wanted to keep working and get more done, but I had to bring the kids in since it was a school night) and finished laundry and cooked dinner and bathed my kids and kept going. I am like the energizer bunny most days! Earlier that day I'd done strength training too!

It's just amazing to me what I've been able to accomplish. Truly, I used to believe I was not capable of doing any of this. That is why I always failed. Now I am doing this because I know I can, and I refuse to give up. A year ago I used to think, "I wonder how much weight I'll be down by next year." I am thrilled to have lost over 80 lbs. I still have about a month before my one year anniversary here on SP, and I will be excited for that day. This is the year I have changed my life and now I realize how I will never go back, and only continue to move forward. At some point this year I'll reach the 100 lb mark, and that makes me feel very excited!

The little things are what have made me so happy also. I don't worry about whether or not I'll fit in booths now at restaurants, or if I'll break a chair. When driving, my stomach isn't in the way and I have plenty of room. Shaving my legs is easier, bathing my kids is easier, and just being able to walk around somewhere for hours and not be tired is a great feeling. I feel less and less like I am limited in what I can do. For the first time in a long time I don't wake up every day and go to bed every night worrying about my health and what harm I am doing to myself. I know that I am doing everything I can to be healthy person and live a full life, and that is one of the best feelings!

  
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TOTALFOCUS 4/17/2011 12:00AM

    That is a great story!

I am sooo happy for you!

KEEP UP the GREAT WROK!

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JAMIELGOOCH 4/5/2011 5:52PM

    I am really glad you recommended this site to me. I have lost 9 lbs this week doing exercises...of course I am doing the Richard simmons dvd's bc for some reason, I like them. I have a hard time finding time to do everything esp exercise bc you know as a mother (I'm a single parent) i have to do all of the work. There is so much to do and I guess we all get busy, but I think the hardest part with this program is feeling so hungry after I eat. I measure out the portion sizes and everything but still feel hungry.....I am diabetic so there are so many other limits to have than someone without health issues :-( But thank you again for recommending this. It has been a blessing to see how many ppl encourage each other.

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MARVEEME 4/3/2011 1:51PM

    NICE JOB! WELL DONE! KUDOS TO YOU!
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DARKTHOR 3/29/2011 3:33AM

    I am so pleased for you. We just have remember when we do get off track to get back on track. You've done an amazing job!

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MARLARELLA 3/28/2011 5:16PM

    Reading this was really REALLY inspirational to me! What's really funny is that I saw your user picture and it looked just like a picture of me the day my husband proposed (65 lbs and 5 years ago!). Seeing you look so great gave me a real boost :)

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WEDDLEACE 3/28/2011 9:01AM

    This blog is exactly what I needed to hear today! Thank you so much for the inspiration. SOOOOO much of what you said was like I could have been writing! Thanks for reminding me of why I came to SP and motivating me to keep going.

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FREECANDY 3/28/2011 8:27AM

    You are a true inspiration. Congratulations! emoticon

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BONOLICIOUS2 3/28/2011 7:59AM

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You are a winner, a true inspiration, a success!

And you speak the truth - in order to do this right, you have to believe in yourself and know that it ain't easy!

Keep rockin' girl!

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SWELL10 3/27/2011 9:24PM

    emoticon Great job!!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 3/27/2011 9:19PM

    Amazing! Congratulations. What an inspiring story!

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HEATHERALB 3/27/2011 9:07PM

    I'm glad I stopped to read this blog...inspiring!

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SDJOLLY 3/27/2011 9:06PM

    Awesome blog! You are doing such an amazing job! Thanks for being such a wonderful inspiration!

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KELLYC_14FAN 3/27/2011 8:36PM

    You are such a inspiration!!! I love this blog!!!!

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BBGYRL4 3/27/2011 7:38PM

    Congratulations!! You're success is AMAZING!! Keep up the great work!!

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LISAWILLBEFIT 3/27/2011 5:57PM

    Way to go that is so wonderful.I am so happy for you.I agree things get easier as we lose the weight.

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MAWDOT35 3/27/2011 2:40PM

    Elizabeth, you are amazing! I admire your attitude and your dedication to reaching your goal. Along your journey you will set new goals and when you do reach your ideal weight, you are going to be so proud of yourself. You will be one foxy lady!
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PELESJEWEL 3/27/2011 1:30PM

    emoticon emoticon STONG!!! Woo Hoo!

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PELESJEWEL 3/27/2011 1:29PM

    emoticon I am so proud of you! I just "liked this blog". Look at you standing up proudly and claiming your fabulousness!! You Go Girl!! Woo Hoo!

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MAMADWARF 3/27/2011 12:52PM

    Oh wow! How exciting!! Look at what you have accomplished... So awesome!! congrats!

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Running? Jogging? Whatever I'm doing, I am working hard. :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

A few weeks ago I decided to venture into the world of running. I got some new shoes and was itching to run because every time I went walking, even walking fast felt like it wasn't enough. The first time I ran, I decided to just go and see how long I could do it before I needed to stop and walk. To my amazement, I went almost a mile (.86) and it took me somewhere between 11-12 minutes. So, the next time I went out I decided to go a whole mile, and I did it in about 13.5 minutes. I was/am pretty proud of myself. The last time I was able to run a mile without stopping was in high school. This last year is a testament to what regular working out can do for you! This is, in fact, the longest amount of time I have stuck with working out regularly.

Now, the thing that bugs me is that the tracker seems to consider anything over 12 mins to be walking a mile. I know I am not fast, and I am probably jogging, not running, but I am busting butt. I got a heart rate monitor and my heart rate is in the 150s to 160s while I am running. I notice how much slower I am going when walking. It takes me about 16 minutes or so to walk a mile, but I can run one in less than 13 (as of today). I thought my time was pretty good for a beginner, but then I hear people say that they are walking a mile in 13-15 minutes, and then I feel like I must be pretty slow.

Part of me isn't sure if what I am doing is considered jogging or running. I always thought jogging was just slow running, so I suppose that is what I am doing. All I know is that I am working very hard when I do this. I am sweating my butt off, breathing hard and my butt and leg muscles burn. There are a lot of hills in my neighborhood depending on which way I go, and that slows me down some I think because I did a 5k recently and did it in 43 minutes, and it took me about that time today to do a little less than that distance.

So, I guess it doesn't matter that I run slow. I suppose I feel a little weird thinking of myself as a runner considering how big I still am. Sometimes it feels like runners are in this elite group only certain people belong in, and I don't feel like I fit in. I've had so many people tell me how great I am doing, but I tend to always want to do better, which I guess is a good thing, but I am also too hard on myself.

My goal is to be able to run a 5k the whole way. I want to be able to do it without stopping, and really, that is more important to me than my speed right now. A year ago it took me over 20 minutes to walk a mile. I have improved so much in this last year and am doing things I never ever thought I could do. If anyone had told me a year ago I'd be almost 80 lbs lighter and able to run a mile without stopping, I'd have said they were crazy!

Every single day I feel I am becoming more of the person I am supposed to be. I still have a long way to go, and I know along the way I will accomplish so many things. I'm just so happy I feel like it's bursting out of me. I have a goal to be under 200 lbs by the end of the year. It seems harder to lose now than it did in the beginning, but I am going to work hard to get to ONEderland! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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BONOLICIOUS2 3/23/2011 8:10AM

    I am jealous that you can even run a mile - I can't! That is REALLY AWESOME! How did you get to that point?

I also noticed that the tracker counts anything over 12 mins as walking and I agree - we could be at 16 min/miles and really working hard. My legs are moving much faster than usual at that point and I wouldn't classify it as a walk at all.

Also... I don't know how tall you are, but I am pretty short and I feel like my pace is slow because I have to work twice as hard to cover the same distance as someone with longer legs!


Overall - you are RUNNING and that is great! Congrats and keep up the good work!!!!!


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DARKTHOR 3/22/2011 11:54PM

    Your speed doesn't matter. You are going at your speed. If you haven't checked out the C25K program, you should. It helped me train up to where I could run an entire 5K in manageable steps.

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PELESJEWEL 3/22/2011 8:58PM

    emoticon Woo Hoo! I love it! This is such a great blog. You are sooo happy I can tell! How awesome! You are jogging, and have the right attitude, speed will come. It comes easier as the weight comes off. You are doing so well!! It sounds like this time its coming naturally, isn't that cool?!

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LISAWILLBEFIT 3/22/2011 7:23PM

    My walking may be your running i think it depends on your height and stride.I take short quick steps my sister walks so fast i have to jog to keep up and she takes long steeps.You are improving and that is all that matters.

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