Thursday, November 14, 2013
I realized it has been a long time since I wrote here. I write at my actual blog, The Singing Bird, almost every day, but I don't have time to always post here. Most of my blogs include photos, which don't copy over very well here, so they aren't posted here. I just got caught up on some of my e-mails on here. Sorry to everyone that it took me a while to get back to! I am just not able to answer all the questions I get on the day I get them. I wrote a FAQ page on my blog, in the hopes that it would help answer a lot of the similar questions I get.
For whatever reason, this site now takes forever to load on my computer. It aggravates me, so I mostly use it to track my food and then log off. I am hoping that most of the people here who are interested in hearing about my daily stuff will visit my facebook page, From Fat to Fit. It's just easier for me to keep track of everyone there since I can get to their messages more quickly. If you don't do facebook, you can always subscribe to my blog, and I have a lot of my contact info there if you'd like to e-mail that way, follow me on twitter, Instagram, or Pinterest.
Anyway...I am running my 2nd half marathon this Saturday! Training was harder this year, as I did a harder program. I also kept getting sick, so it messed up my training a bit. I finished training, but I don't feel optimistic that I'll do as well as I did last year. Plus, I gained 10 pounds over the summer that hasn't come off, even with training, I am sure that is going to affect me. I didn't lose weight last year during half training either, so I am hoping once I get back to doing more varied workouts I'll start losing again.
I hope you guys are all doing well, and thanks for your messages and posts.
What's been going on with you? How are you doing in your weight loss?
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Sorry for my lack of blog posting here. I post on my blog (which I can't link here because it has ads) several times a week, so if you're not subscribed, check it out! :) My Facebook page, From Fat to Fit, has taken off well, and I've got over 1800 likes, so updating it and my personal blog and answering e-mails takes up a lot of my time. Posting my blogs here is a lot of work when they have a ton of pics, so it's easier to do it at my main blog. Anyways, I've included a few pictures on this post, but if you visit my blog you can see the photos that go with each description. I also have an album of over 40 pics on From Fat to Fit. On to the post!
Well, I have completed my first Warrior Dash, and I had a great time! I am seriously glad I have been doing those Jillian workouts, because without a lot of the upper body strength I've gained, I don't think I'd have been able to do all the obstacles. This is definitely an easier race if you're in shape and used to running, otherwise I can imagine it would be pretty miserable.
Last night my kids spent the night at their grandparents' house, and Jeff worked, so I cleaned the house and then relaxed. I got to bed early and woke up around 8. My wave didn't start till 11:45, so we had plenty of time to get there. It's about an hour away.
I was surprised, because although I was nervous, I wasn't completely terrified like I thought I'd be. I ate some belvita biscuits on the way since I don't like to eat much before races. When we got there, it was a really good set up–no issues with finding a place to park, packet pickup was fast, and the line for the port-o-potties wasn't too bad. We were really early, so we walked over to where a few of the obstacles were, and you could watch people. Jeff said he'd wait there for me and try to get some pics of me at the end of the race.
Once I got in line for my wave, they said they were starting it 15 minutes later, so that was annoying. I just wanted to GO! I hate waiting around, because I am the most impatient person alive. :) It was interesting watching some of the people, who were all with other people. I felt so weird doing it alone, since almost everyone seemed to be with at least one other person if not a big group. This group of young guys were all in what appeared to be really tight boxer briefs with no shirts on. They had some really big packages if you know what I'm saying. I couldn't help but notice since they were stretching right in front of me. LOL Another group of people all wore masks that were big horse heads. I can't even imagine running with a costume or any of that crap on. I saw women with jewelry and makeup and was just thinking, "Really?" One of the horse head people actually ran into me. I think it's fun to dress up for races, but to an extent. You need to be able to see where you're going.
Once we started, I felt good. As the wave starts, they shoot fire up into the sky and you can really feel the heat from it. I felt good running along the dirt path, which goes into the woods. They had it clearly marked with red tape, so there is no way you can get lost. So many people started off full force and were walking within the first 2-3 minutes. I was surprised that for a lot of the race I passed people who you'd look at and think they'd be way ahead of me. Running pays off. It makes you fit!
I knew the terrain was supposed to be rugged, but it was pretty hilly at some spots, and had things like tree roots and big trees and limbs you had to either climb or jump over. There were all sorts of plants, some with prickers that would slap your legs as you ran through the different paths. Not far into the race, before we'd reached the first obstacle, a guy tripped on a root and fell right in front of me, and I almost stepped on him. He was limping after that, and I felt bad for him because he had a hard time keeping up with his friends.
Finally, after what seemed like I was running forever, we got to the first obstacle, which was called Barricade Breakdown. It wasn't too hard. You basically climb over and jump down over these wooden walls and then go under one and then up over some more. I did this one pretty quickly, but my foot sort of got stuck into a space on the wood, and it took me a few seconds to get it out. The guy next to me was asking if I was ok because I didn't move for a second. I guess he thought I was scared to jump down. haha
The next obstacle was Alcatraz, which wasn't really hard, but cold. You walk through water that on me, was waist deep, and it's very gross and slippery (and stunk!), and then in the middle is a barrier with rope you have to climb over and then wade out to the other side. Some spots in the mud were like sinkholes and you'd be walking along and your foot would literally sink in and you were up to your knee in mud. I am glad I tied my shoes on tightly!
Running after you're soaked and covered in mud isn't easy, and like I said before, the course is rocky and uneven, so it's even harder. Still, I felt like I was keeping a pretty good pace. I didn't walk at all until it came time to do an obstacle and I'd slow down.
The next obstacle (I think, it's hard to remember the order when there is so much going on and there are 12 of them) was the Giant Cliffhanger, which is a big tall slanted wall that you use a rope to pull yourself up and then you go down the other side the same way. It wasn't too hard for me, but definitely required decent upper body strength and coordination.
Next was the one I was most worried about, The Great Warrior Wall. It's a wall that is straight up with a rope. There are tiny little ledges you can put your feet on, but they are spaced so far apart that it's hard. So, you really have to be able to pull yourself up and then push off with your foot at the same time to reach the next ledge. I have no idea how I was able to do it, but I did! Once you get to the top, it's easy, because the other side has basically what's like a ladder that you just climb down. I was so proud of myself after climbing that thing and I was just smiling, and a guy waiting for his friend gave me a high five! Many people skipped that obstacle and just ran around it when they saw other people struggling.
I'm trying to remember what was next...The order didn't seem like what I'd read online, and when I went to look at the map when I went to do this post, it's no longer there, and I think it's because they changed what some of them were.
Since I can't remember the order of the next few, I'll just talk about them as I think of what happened.
Storming Normandy wasn't hard, but it hurt. You have to crawl on the ground under barbed wire, and that's not too hard to do, but the ground was rocky and it was scraping my knees up pretty badly. I just toughed it out and got my ass out of there as fast as I could. :) It's one of the easier ones, despite the scrapes I got. I should wear knee pads or something next time.
Trenches wasn't hard either, but again, you're in frickin nasty, cold water that goes down into a trench. Since I am not very tall, I was able to crouch down and walk bent over, and I didn't have to crawl through it.
Throughout the run on the trail, you'd come to areas that are all muddy and slippery, and you'd have to be careful not to fall. Sometimes your foot would sink way down and almost get stuck. It was kind of freaky to step into a huge hole, and then have to regain your composure to run again.
I saw Jeff on the sidelines waiting to take a photo at Pitfall, one of the obstacles I was most nervous about. You climb up a wooden ladder type structure onto a platform, and then have to walk across a board to the other side (there is water below if you fall) and then climb down. I don't know why I was so nervous, because I walked right across and it wasn't hard at all. The boards weren't as narrow as I thought they'd be, and I have pretty good balance.
My least favorite obstacle, and THE hardest, in my opinion, was Mud Mounds, which wasn't on the list of obstacles when I checked out the site map. You go into water, and then there is a HUGE hill of slippery mud that's very hard to climb out of. I got over first one after only slipping a little, but the 2nd one was hard. I kept slipping and random dudes would just start grabbing me and trying to help. One guy only made it worse and I ended up slipping all the way back down, but then I was able to get up. There was just nowhere to put your feet a lot of the time and get any traction. The very last mound (it's more than a mound, it's taller than a person!) I kept slipping and mud and water splashed all up in my face. It was so gross, and my glasses got mud all over them. Then this guy basically grabbed my ass and shoved me up. LOL I think a lot of the men feel like they have to help the women. I didn't mind the help, but I know I could have done it on my own.
Running after this was so hard. I was caked in mud and my shoes were squishing and my glasses were dirty. A guy actually let me use his shirt (the top of his sleeve was clean) to wipe them off, but it only made it worse.
When I came around a corner, I could see Jeff again. I ran over to him to give him my glasses since I couldn't see a darn thing, and I knew I was near the end. I can see up close without them, so I knew I'd be ok. This was right before I had to do Hard Rain. You climb up over a wooden structure where water is spraying on you. This obstacle was pretty easy, but I just wanted to be careful so I didn't slip.
After that was Cargo Climb, which were just big nets you had to climb up and over. It was pretty easy, but it took some time since it was moving all around from other people being on it.
Right after Cargo Climb was the fire they call The Great Warrior Roast. From photos the flames seemed really high, and I was nervous about having to jump over it, but it was easy. You just run and jump over two things of fire, and then you're at the end. In the picture, it looks like I am just stepping over it, but I guess it's just how it came out, because I ran and jumped!
They save this one for last, and you get completely disgusting. It's called Muddy Mayhem, and there is water you have to crawl through since there is barbed wire above you, but instead of crawling (since my knees were on fire from all the scrapes I got) I kind of let my legs float and used my hands to pull myself across, if that makes sense. Then there is another mound of mud at the very end, and I was slipping and the very end is the only time I fell on my butt, right after getting out of that thing. Again, I had guys grabbing me, wanting to help. I had my rear end grabbed by more men today than I think I have my whole life. LOL It wasn't in a perverted way, so it was ok. :) Then, it's done! You trudge your way across and get your medal.
I was so filthy and couldn't wait to hose off. Jeff said he lost my glasses, and I started to freak out. It's the only pair I have (besides prescription sunglasses) and he went to go look for them. I went over to wash off, the but the little hoses they had were a joke! Barely any water came out of them and I was still just as gross. A nice lady was even helping me (she was alone also) but we were just gross. I found Jeff, and he'd found my glasses, thank goodness. Then I plopped down to try and get my shoes off, which were practically glued to my feet. I'd double knotted them and it was so hard to get them undone. About that time, our neighbor walked over, and I hadn't known he was going to be there. He actually ran the course twice! He helped me get my shoe untied and then I went over again to the hoses when I saw they had a dude with a fire hose spraying everyone. He passed it across several times, and after being doused about 5 times, I was a bit cleaner.
I tried to dry off a bit, and then I went to turn in my shoe chip to get the free beer. I don't drink beer, but I thought, "It's free. I'll try it." Usually I hate beer, but I don't know if it was because I was thirsty or what, but I drank about half of it, and then didn't want anymore. It wasn't bad, but not something I wanted. I got a pretzel too because I was starving.
We decided to leave shortly after. It wasn't a particularly warm day today...I'd say upper 60s or low 70s and overcast, so I was feeling chilled from being wet. There was a breeze too. The water in those obstacles is cold, but I guess you don't think about it too much because you're busy doing them and then running. I changed in the parking lot while Jeff held up a towel and I felt a little better, but I was still dirty and felt like I smelled like a dog's butt. :)
I am really glad I did this! It certainly wasn't easy, but I did better than I thought I would. I ended up finishing in 53:09. My legs are very scraped up along my shins and knees, and under my right knee I have a sore knot that is probably going to look disgusting tomorrow. I'm very proud of myself for completing all the obstacles. I feel like a bad$$. haha
Wednesday, August 07, 2013
I just wanted to update you all on what's going on. I've been super busy this summer. We've taken a lot of short trips, and actually just got back from the beach where we stayed with family for a few days. For weeks I was sick with something, although I don't know what. I felt bad after our first trip, and it just never went away (terrible coughing), so I went to the Dr. They gave me a steroid inhaler and after a couple weeks I was better. We've had a TON of rain this year, and the Dr seems to think that the mold was getting to me and that between that and the cold my lungs were just irritated. I'd workout and have such a hard time breathing and just didn't feel well.
So, my weight is up a few pounds (around 174). I didn't workout much when I was sick and didn't feel like tracking, and I put it back on SO fast. So, that sucks, but it's not the end of the world. I've been back to tracking and my workouts, and on this beach trip we were just on my eating was great! I did a ton of exercise too.
I've had a really hard time keeping up with everything. I get SO many e-mails through my blog and facebook and I'm asked to do interviews and guest posts on other blogs, so I apologize for my lack of activity here. I'm around, it's just a lot to update everything here too.
I can't post the link to my blog since it has ads on it, but you can get to it through my facebook page, From Fat to Fit. I write on there most days and include pics of what's going on.
I got to do something on this trip that I've always wanted to do-kayak! It was a lot of fun! I have pics on my blog of the rest of our beach trip, but here is one pic for you.
I've had a fun and busy summer. I hope you all have too!
Oh, and if you want to follow me on Twitter, Instagram or Pinterest, I'm singingbird80.
Saturday, July 13, 2013
I woke up yesterday with my throat hurting so badly. It felt swollen, and I just felt terrible. There isn't a time I could remember my throat hurting so much, except for when I was younger and used to get strep throat and tonsillitis. When I was 21, I finally had my tonsils removed. I should have had it done as a child, but my parents never carried insurance on us, and we already had so many Dr. bills that couldn't be paid, so it never got done until I was an adult and had my own job with coverage.
For weeks now, I've been sick off and on. I have people telling me it's all sorts of things, but I don't know why this is happening. All I know is I am tired of feeling like crap.
At the very beginning of June, I had a head cold. Nothing major, but I didn't feel well for a few days. My body felt tired, I had a scratchy throat and runny nose for a few days and then I was better. We went on our trip in the middle of June, and at the end of that first week, I caught something. My throat was sore, but this time instead of a runny nose I had a ton of chest congestion and was coughing a lot. I would have a coughing fit that would make me feel like I'd pass out I was coughing so hard. It took me more than a week to get better. The cough got gradually better each day.
Even though I'd felt better after about a week or so, I still didn't feel 100%. For weeks my energy level has been lower than it normally is, and I figured it was due to being sick, traveling, and the bouts of insomnia I sometimes get. This last week, I felt pretty good and resumed my normal workouts. I noticed though that when I ran or worked out, it seemed way harder than usual, like I couldn't breathe as well. It was frustrating.
Thursday afternoon my throat felt scratchy, and I thought, "There is no way I can be getting sick again!" Well, I was wrong.
Yesterday morning I called the Doctors' office and they were able to get me in at 11:30. The Dr. I saw asked me a lot of questions, and I told him about what was going on. I'd told him about how we all had a cough at the cottage we stayed at, and some people said it could have been mold. He said that it was definitely possible that mold or something there irritated my lungs and when your lungs are irritated you are more likely pick up viruses and your body doesn't fight them off as well because of the irritation in the lining.
He listened to my lungs, and looked at my throat, ears and in my nose, and thinks it's viral, because with strep you'd normally have a fever and often white spots in the throat. He thinks that I could also be having allergy symptoms on top of all this, because we've had an unusual amount of rain here, and he said he's seen many patients with complains of stuffy noses or coughs due to a higher grass pollen count, and mold. He said that he believes mine is also a virus since I get sick and it gradually seems to get better, and because at the beginning I have body aches and fatigue, and my glands in my neck are swollen.
So, he gave me a steroid inhaler I am supposed to use twice a day for 2 weeks. He also gave me a nasal spray to see if that helps in case it is some sort of allergen, which could be causing a sore throat also. If I am not better by then, he said they might do chest x-rays, but he said they didn't sound bad enough at this point to do them. Since my lungs are irritated, anything where I am exercising hard is going to aggravate it, so I can't until I am better. I hate getting off my normal schedule, but it's obvious my body needs rest. I was thankful he gave me samples instead of writing a prescription, that way I didn't need to go to the pharmacy or pay any extra money.
Jeff has been sick too, with a terrible cough, although for the last few days he feels better. I think I caught what he has, and now Aidan, our 9 year old boy is sick. :( He's got something different maybe, because he has a fever, which we didn't have, and he threw up this morning. It seems that everyone is sick lately! I went all fall and winter and didn't get sick, and now I've been sick constantly. My kids weren't sick much at all this year. Aidan even got perfect attendance.
Yesterday, Jeff was off, so he was here to help out. He had to work today, but was home early, at 1:30, so I am able to rest. I've just been sitting on the couch. I have no idea why, but it's SO hard for me to just sit and do nothing. All day I am usually up and moving around, doing different things around the house. Sitting still for too long is hard for me. I hate feeling lazy.
I'm really hoping there isn't something more that's wrong with me. If I am not feeling a lot better soon, I am going to demand they run some tests on me to see what is wrong. Maybe I could have mono or something and not know it. Why else would I keep feeling sick when I eat well, exercise, take vitamins, etc?
One awesome thing about yesterday was when the nursed weighed me. She was entering my information into the computer system to update it and said, "Wow, you've lost some weight since last time you were here, and oh, wow! You've lost a lot since you first came here!" That made me feel good, because I was always so nervous going to see the Dr. because I knew they'd get on my case about gaining weight (or not losing any). She even told me I didn't look I needed to lose more weight. I wonder if she was just saying that to be nice or what. The Dr. congratulated me on my weight loss, and didn't tell me I needed to lose more, he just said it was awesome and unbelievable that I did it without surgery. Apparently they don't see someone too often who has lost over 100 pounds with no surgery. I plan on seeing my regular Dr. at some point soon to discuss my loose skin issues, and my anxiety and other things.
Jeff will be working the next 2 days, and it's going to be exhausting taking care of the kids with no help. I'll get through it, as always. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow.S
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
I posted this to my blog yesterday, but forgot to post it over here. :)
Over the last 3 years of losing weight, I've learned a lot about myself. You start to notice patterns in the things you do when you really pay attention. In losing this weight, I feel I've become more aware of myself in a lot of ways. I've always had the pattern of overeating when I am stressed or upset. For as long as I can remember, food is the thing that I think of first when I am stressed. As a little kid, I was overfed by family members who also overate, and it was just something I learned early on in my life as a way to cope–with anything. Of course, as I became an adult no one else had control over what I ate, but when you've done something your whole life it's hard to change.
People are quick to assume that because I've lost weight, that I'm "cured" and have it all figured out. The truth is that when you're a food addict (as I believe I am) there isn't a cure, and I certainly don't feel like I have all the answers, even though I am light years from where I was. Like an alcoholic or drug addict who is trying to be clean, you are managing an addiction–one that is always there, lying dormant, like a benign tumor ready to turn malignant and destroy you. Something can trigger a binge and sometimes I am able to get past the one binge, and other times it will continue for a whole day, or longer. My bingeing episodes are not as frequent as they used to be, but they still happen sometimes.
For me, I have a hard time not overeating or bingeing around the time right around when my period is due. I feel hungry and crave sweets horribly. At that time if there is junk in the house, it's all I think about it. I'm also in a very foul mood whenever it's TOM, and that makes me want to eat even more.
When I am upset or depressed, I also want to binge. I know that doing it won't help, but it makes me feel somewhat numb, and I can imagine that is why some people drink themselves into oblivion. You want a distraction from whatever it is that making you upset, even when you know it's only temporary.
I've noticed when my bouts of insomnia occur, I want to eat constantly. I think it's true what they say about you wanting to eat more when you're tired.
Food can't be escaped. You see it and smell it everywhere you go. Unlike a drug addict who can live without drugs, we can't live without food. Food addicts still have to eat and it's not always easy not to overeat. People who've never had a weight problem are sometimes quick to judge overweight people. Many people who are at a normal weight also overeat, and they just don't gain weight. It's hard to understand how food can feel like it controls you if you've never experienced it.
I'm discussing this because I think many overweight people are food addicts, binge-eaters, or both. I know I am both, and for a long time I had a hard time thinking of myself that way, but it's what I am. I ate myself to the point that I was over 300 pounds. Anyone who repeatedly eats to the point they are almost sick but can't stop has a problem, and it's not just that they like to eat, like many overweight people will say.
Everyone likes food, but when you are eating and eating and gaining weight to the point where you have health problems and continue to do it, it's not about just liking food. There is another reason for it.
The point of this blog post is that no matter how much weight I've lost, I still struggle at times. Sometimes I go along for more than a month or two doing just great, and then it's like my brain becomes fogged over, and suddenly I don't give a crap anymore. Maybe this is normal, maybe it isn't, but I know that I am not ever going to give up myself. The thought of ever being as heavy as I was and remembering what it was like is enough to keep me going. I just cannot go back there.
I've never pretended to be perfect. I make mistakes all the time, and will admit that. Maybe there are people who eat perfectly all the time and never skip workouts and never feel negative, but that's not me. I try not to make excuses though, because that gets you nowhere. Every day I do the best I can.
I do try my best to be positive, because I don't want to discourage anyone, but I am going to tell you like it is. Losing weight is hard. There is a constant battle going on in my head. I long to have a life where I don't have to think about what or how much I eat. I gain weight back at lightening speed from slipping up a little bit, and it makes me crazy. If I want to keep this weight off, it will have to be a daily thought for the rest of my life.
Do you struggle with binge eating or food addiction?
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