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Getting Back on track AGAIN

Tuesday, June 03, 2014

So this few weeks has been crazy due to family sickness and spending alot of time in the hospital with family but I am back. Sadly my scale said I gained two pounds since yesterday but I know it is from the salt. My husband cooked dinner last night and I told him what he made was really salty. Sure enough my scale reflected it this morning. That is okay because I know within a day or two those 2 pounds will go away now that I am back to drinking 100 ounces of water a day. My goal this month is to lose 8.5 pounds. And this is how I am going to do it:

Drink 100 ounces a day
Work out 5 days a week
Stay on the low end of my calorie range 5 days a week
Try to start going back to the gym instead of working out at home
Eat 5 veggies/Fruits a day
track everything the good the bad and the ugly

I know I can do this. Now that the weather if better it is much easier take my workouts outside. Yardwork, walking, gardening, etc.

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F70176555 6/5/2014 10:32PM

    emoticon emoticon
I feel ya when you say AGAIN!! But as long as we don't quit we are not failing! Imagine if we never tried. Better to keep starting over than to completely give up. You are doing well!

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JERZRN 6/3/2014 9:25AM

Good plan!!!

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    Great plan now just follow it for today. Then tomorrow, follow it for lust one more day. Soon, one day at a time you will have a successful month behind you!

Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life

emoticon Until Tomorrow!

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Life events that weigh you down

Monday, June 02, 2014

So I have not been on in a couple weeks. So much has happended. When I stopped posting a couple weeks ago I was still experiencing back pain. I had a pinched nerve in my back and I was on the mend but a little scared to exercise for fear of reinjury. Then my grandmother (who raised me) went into the hospital she is 84. At first they said she was dehydrated, her blood sugar dropped and she had a virus, after 3 days in she was sent home. A few days later she went back only to discover she had pneumonia and needed a pacemaker. So they had to clear up the pneumonia before putting in the pacemaker, she was in again for 9 days. Needless to say it was hit or miss and she finally came home Thursday only to have to go back on Saturday night. It has been a roller coaster.

In the process of trip one and two to the hospital I was visiting my grandmother at her house. I prepared lunch for the entire family that day we had 8 to eat. After lunch my son took off his shoes. My uncle immediately noticed he had a hole in is sock and told me I was a bad mother not once but twice. He said I need to step it up as a parent and that I sucked at being a mom. He also told my son he was a odd duck just like his mother. He then proceeded to throughout the entire day take jabs at my son and me. I am use to it because that was my entire life being raised by my Grandmother. My Grandmothers children never do any wrong but no one ever takes up for us (me or my sister). We are the whipping post so to speak. I was so hurt by the things he said I felt like I was a teenager again. My son started crying on the way home as to why my uncle likes my daughter more than him. I tried to explain that it has always been that way ever since I was a child (he liked my sister more than me) and not to let his words hurt him. Kind of hard to do since I moved away when I was 19 because my father tried to punch me and when I went crying to my grandmother she wanted to know "WHAT I DID TO MAKE HIM MAD". At that point I knew he could have killed me and it would have been "I brought it on myself". My Grandma is very old school and the men never do anything wrong in the family. I have lived away from my family for 23 years but I visit and bring lunch every Sunday as my Grandmother is getting older. It took me many years when I first moved away to not be angry and I thought I had that all behind me but when the insults came a couple weeks ago it brought it right back to the surface just like it was yesterday. I try to be a good granddaughter ( I have been bringing lunch, going to church with them and helping out for 5 years now) but it is so hard when in the process of all the insults my Grandmother goes into the other room gets my son some socks and forces him to put them only adding fuel to the fire. I cut out my mothers family several years ago because of all of the disfunction on that side. My Dad's side of the family is the only family we have left but I am really close to cutting myself and my family off from them as well. I am so very frustrated. Not sure the correct path to take. Yesterday after church my family went to grandmas and was informed she had been taken back to the hospital but no one let us even know she was sick again. I talked to her on Friday but did not on Saturday. I feel like cinderella (minus the being skinny and pretty part). My Grandma's two sons (my uncle, my dad) and my aunt all knew she was in the hospital. I am the one who stayed the night in the hospital the night they did not think she would make it because I did not want her alone, I am the one who puts up her Christmas Tree and decorates her house because she loves decorations, my family is the one who finances lunches on Sunday for all of them to stuff ther faces, my husband helps my uncle on the farm because he is short handed and never gets paid a dine and this is the treatment we get for all of our efforts. UGHHH

Sorry for getting so personal on by blog but I just needed to vent my frustrations somewhere. I keep praying the right thing to do will come. Stop going out there and find a church closer to my house that is not one hour away? I get up at 6 a.m on Sundays to make lunch then we all get ready and we leave the house at 8:30 a.m. to travel one hour to church and then on to Grandma's house. I know I can find a church closer to my house but we where making the trek for the family. Now I am beginning to wonder if I should stop trying.

But I am happy to say that in the middle of all of this drama I have not gained any weight. I may not have lost but I have not gained. I am back on track today and am looking forward to a loss by next Monday.

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 6/2/2014 3:25PM

    (((gentle hugs))) You are a good person with a tender heart. That makes the hurt a little deeper.

You are cared about.

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Back to work and on track

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

So sadly when I feel bad I am a big baby and I never follow directions. Because of my back pain and sinus issues I have been having for a few days now I let it get the better of me yesterday and I ate frozen yogurt w/ toppings, A brownie, etc. I went over in calories but not over my BMR so yesterday was a wash. I am back to work today. I strapped on the spark activity tracker and I am trying to take some extra steps today. Still not exercising but trying to put in a few extra steps. So far I have been excellent at my diet so all is well.

I am hoping to be able to walk the 5K on Friday or at least part of it. It is one for the Elementary school and their families so I will do what I can. All the money goes back to the school so it is a good cause.

I am happy to announce we have more children coming to Sunday school. Because I go to a very old church we do not have alot of children and I normally have maybe one to two children in my class a week (2 to 4 year old class). We have a new family that has 6 children. I am so excited though only one is in my class I love to see the church grow. I would love to be able to have great child and youth events but sadly we are normally to small for any of that. So glad to see the growth.

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JFEETTERE 5/15/2014 9:01AM

    Good emoticon on Friday!

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ALLYCANDOIT 5/14/2014 6:26PM

    Way to go getting back on track! I have also been off track and are back as well.

Happy about the church growth issues.

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F70176555 5/14/2014 2:01PM

    Good news about more children in your church. The way you termed that I thought you were saying you were prego. LOL.
Children are the life of the church sometimes. Our church keeps growing mainly because the women keep having babies. LOL.
I think we are going to stick to two girls.

Glad you are back to work and hope that your back get's better. I have heard that most weight loss comes from the way you eat anyways. My mom did that. She just would eat right and loose weight.

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Deflated by pain

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

So I am a little deflated today. My back is still hurting and my sinus' won't stop draining today. So I am home praying for some pain relief. I am being good on my diet as I can not exercise. I hope I can at least walk the 5K on Friday. I already paid the registration fee for me and my daughter. So this week will be a week of watching my food and water intake and healing, I am a little sad because last week I was killing it with diet and exercise.

My goal is to still get down to 215 by the end of the month. I just hope I can still lose 1.5 pounds with diet alone.

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    Your health, including any pain/sensitivities is first and foremost. If you are in pain, you shouldn't push it. You might be able to get a refund now or a credit towards another 5K in the near future.

The worst thing to do is OVER do. Your body is trying to tell you something, listen and learn. Be patient, this isn't a race.

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F70176555 5/13/2014 3:15PM

    They say most of you weight is lost by diet alone! So I think you have a great chance!
You can do it!

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COPOOLGIRL 5/13/2014 10:39AM

    Hang in there!! I know where you are coming from with the pain...but you have to heal properly or you will just make things worse. This reminds me of the serenity prayer..."God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change those things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." Praying you are pain free soon! emoticon

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In pain and not happy

Monday, May 12, 2014

So last week I was on a role. I ate on the low end the entire week, exercised great then I took the kids to Busch Gardens. I was walking around and all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in my back. I have been on pain patches and a heating pad ever since. I am so upset because everytime I get a good roll going something seems to happen. So now I am just trying to eat at 1200 calories since it seems like exercise will not be happending for a week. I am also suppose to run a 5K on Friday. UGHHH! Maybe I will be able to walk it by Friday.

Today I have had a bowl of special K for breakfast, a granola bar for snack and a salad for lunch. I am not sure what tonights dinner will be yet. My Grandma has been in the hospital since Saturday and I have not been able to go see her, so I am going to try and make it over there tonight. I am at work now with a heating pad on my back so hopefully I will be okay to drive tonight to the hospital.

So my goal this week:

Eat around 1200 calories (since not exercising)
Drink 100 ounces of water a day
increase veggies
take it easy on my back


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