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Day 208 - Being 100% Honest

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

So I was going down my checklist of posts I need to make and check-ins I need to write but I got on the 20 something page and I just wanted to post a message on how I'm not so focused on the scale anymore... but then I realized something... I'm completely focused on the scale and how people react to my weight loss, so this is my message

I know I'm participating in BLC #12 and I'm doing pretty good about just registering the number on the scale and logging it in (so far I've done nothing but loose weight)

I think I'm making progress but I'm still indulging (unrestrained action) with my eating! Yeah I'm still loosing weight (not much) but I'm just not satisfied!

You know what, I think I'm finally taking steps in the right direction but the enemy is coming at me hard core! I've had so many temptations road blocks coming up in the just the past couple weeks.

I think I might have just had a revelation, I didn't type it all down but you know what, I think I'm finally making peace with my weight and why I'm loosing the weight. I'll drift off in dream land throughout the day and just think about how my family is going to react when skinny me walks through the door on Thanksgiving, I'm so wrapped up in what my family is going to say when I eat and I just went out to dinner with my grandparents Sunday and was super careful about what I ate but as soon as they left I got a baked potato with all the fixings! (yeah it was a sweet potato) but I put a tablespoon of butter, sour cream, chives, bacon bits! (I don't even like bacon bits all the much!!!) OMG I'm still loosing the weight for the wrong reasons, I have shallow desires and I'm getting shallow results! I just realized it but in the back of my mind I've been planning how I'll eat when I get together with family this holiday and how I'll binge on the food I really want when I leave.

I have not been capturing my thoughts at all these past couple weeks!

I'm sorry this went so long, I just meant it to be a short message but I'm so glad I started to post this I've learned a lot about me in just the past couple minutes!
Thank you for letting me share!
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My husband asked me, "why do you want to loose weight"
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because I want people to ogle at me, I want to hear how awesome I am! If I'm being 100% honest that's why I'm loosing the weight

I'm taking the right steps to figuring out that I need to be eating healthy (weight loss or not!) for God! Because for so long eating was my comfort, my friend, I put food on a pedestal. I ran to food all the time, but I should be running to God all the time! Food may comfort me for a second or two with a delicious bite but it doesn't give me lasting comfort in fact all it does is give me lasting cellulite, stretch marks, and guilt. And I wont swing the pendulum in the opposite direction and hate food because God gave me food to nourish my body to do his work, that's it.

I have a lot to think about!

  
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GALACTICSPARKLE 10/25/2011 1:20PM

    HOMGAH! You had an epiphany!! Nice, epiphanies are cool XD

Okay, so my response to this: I think it is soo natural to want to have people "ogle" you after such a major weight loss. My family would break down into tears if I had made such a major change in my life. My mother especially, if I ever walked through her door skinny, she would not stop crying and possibly have a heart attack. I'd feel the same as you do, I'd want people to ogle at my new body; This sounds like a natural human emotion!

What I don't understand is, why didn't you eat that dang baked sweet potato with your grandparents in the first place? Why are you focused on what your family is going to think about your eating on Thanksgiving? Do you think that they will think you eat too much? Too little? Are you worried they'll think you're insincere about your weight loss if you do this "healthy indulge" thing? (I call it a "healthy indulge" because you ate a SWEET POTATO, the healthiest of all potatoes)

I say, don't binge, but EAT WHAT YOU WANT, in proportion and compromise with yourself. Say if I eat this now, then I vow to get some more cardio in for this week. It's not like you do it ALL the time right? Right??
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Also I know that sometimes we indulge or have cravings because our bodies are trying to tell us that we need a certain nutrient found in that food that is being craved. Perhaps, your want/crave for foods is just a simple nutrient deficiency?
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In any case, you're doing great! If you feel like you need to step it up, and try harder, then by all means DO IT! You and I both know that you can succeed, and if you feel the want/need to indulge again, compromise with yourself! emoticon

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Day 201 - BLC #12 Week 1 Challenges

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Non-Scale Starters
Pant size: 16-18
Bust: 39
Thigh: 24
Hips: 48
Waist: 36
Arms: 16

Water
Getting in my 8 to 9 cups everyday!!! I actually used to drink gosh half a gallon of milk or sweet tea a day! Now I actually ask for water more than anything!

Letter to myself
Hey self,
On December 11th 2011. I want you to be at peace no matter how much weight you lost! I want you to be able to stand on that scale and just register the number and not let it control your life. You are more than a number self!
I want you to track your calories everyday and stick to your 2, 4, 6, 8 daily nutrition
I want you to get at least 30 minutes of exercise in every day (whether it's walking/ running/ turbo jam/ strength you need to move more EVERYDAY NO EXCUSES
I want to have enough energy to tackle whatever God has planned for me each day, one day at a time so this day, today is the most important day!!

  
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MOMNAMEMANTOOTH 10/19/2011 8:11AM

    I emoticon my 2, 4, 6, 8 (I just need to loose some weight emoticon ) nutrition method!!!

I've been trying to think of a way to make eating healthy a daily thing that I can do easily whether I can get on sparkpeople or not.

Well, I get
2 dairy emoticon
4 protein emoticon
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servings every day

and I've discovered as long as I keep the dairy low fat, the protein lean, the grains whole, and the fruits and veggies fresh I ALWAYS stick to my calories (seriously check it out) and some days it might be on the high side of the calorie scale and some days on the low side. But it's hardly ever failed to get me right on mark!

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KIBAISREADY 10/19/2011 1:24AM

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NELLZIE04 10/18/2011 5:18PM

    Great goals Lauren!

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GALACTICSPARKLE 10/18/2011 1:09PM

    Great Goals! You've already made so much progress, this should be a breeze for you!! I am curious about this, "2, 4, 6, 8" daily nutrition thing you mentioned. What is that exactly?

Let's tackle all of our challenges, and tackle them good! emoticon

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SWTBLOND05 10/18/2011 9:37AM

    Very attainable and great goals- emoticon

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Day 189 - Starting BLC #12

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Woohoo it's finally begun! Biggest Looser Challenge #12!
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Super excited to be a leader in this challenge! I just hope I can work with the awesome leading team Holly set up for us and just be the best leader for my team that I can be!

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I did my pre-challenge challenges for this week! As you can tell from my sparkpage! I LOVE team spirit!!! I love how the BL Challenges have a lot of team togetherness and everyone helps everyone! That's why I wanted to be apart of another BLC!

  
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NELLZIE04 10/6/2011 7:25PM

    Awesome pre-challenge! I think the team really enjoys it!

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Day 181 - They told me I couldn't do it!!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I started a book study Tuesday night last week! Made to Crave! Awesome!!! Sometimes I get so caught up with loosing the weight that I forget why I wanted to loose it in the first place. I forgot that God put it on my heart to run a weight loss camp for girls, I forgot about my beginning.

So I was thinking back when I first started my weight loss journey at 280 pounds. I was asking for advice from family and friends and I believe it was my sister (I love my sister and I know she only had the best intentions) but she said to me You're too far along in your weight gain, you probably won't be able to loose it with just diet and exercise, you should probably look into a weight loss surgery. I have to say the reason it took me almost 3 years to loose 80 pounds is probably because of that... Honestly I can't afford a weight loss surgery! Even if I could there are too many risks. I'm sure there are going to be a few people who are going to say weight loss surgery is the best way to go... but not for me! I firmly believe that there is not magic pill or magic surgery, if I don't learn how to take care of my body I'll gain the weight back every time.

So taking that, I'm now determined that I'm going to loose the weight the way it came on, I'm going to eat right and move more and hey so far I've lost 80 pounds! I'm so close to being under 200 pounds I can reach out and touch it!!! (I might even be under 200 already but my weigh in is on Saturday) With God there is nothing holding me back from being healthy and happy without weight loss surgery!!!

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NEWANDIMPROVED 9/29/2011 10:26AM

    Amen! With God ALL things are possible. I'm a firm believer in slow and steady wins the race. YEAH YOU! emoticon

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CYNDERROSE 9/28/2011 8:32PM

    Congratulations on losing 80 lbs the HEALTHY WAY.

I know two people who have had weight loss surgery (lap band for both of them) and they have both wound up with problems with their esophagus. My friend can't even eat without having to throw up at least half of his meal. (He has a reversal and a full on bypass scheduled for next week)

YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

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CHELAGETSFIT 9/28/2011 4:37PM

    You rock!!! Please DONT do the weigh loss surgery. I had a lapband done and I dont recommend it. I dont regret it either because my sugar was so out of control and the surgery did help me control it to the point where I dont need medication anymore. And it does help me eat less, but it didnt remove the emotional baggage that has me this obese. I lost 30 lbs (most of it in the process of loosing weight before the surgery) and I gained 20 of it back. I'm working really hard to loose weight and I dont regret having the surgery for the reasons listed above, but I wouldnt recommend it to anyone. Plus my insurance covered it so cost was not an issue for me as it is for others because I know it's expensive.

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BECOMING_HOLLY 9/28/2011 4:11PM

    AWESOME!

I know a gal who had WLS in June and now 5 months later has lost over 100 pounds -- BUT she hasn't eaten a normal meal since, and if she eats more than 2 bites of ANYTHING it makes her terribly ill. ITS NOT WORTH IT TO ME!

I am determined to be HEALTHY and HAPPY and WLS-FREE! Good luck in your stretch to Onderland and beyond!

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Day 173 - Love this picture!!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

So it was our sons' dedication this last Sunday. Well it went great and my son looked so cute!


But after the dedication we went to Aspen Creek for dinner (I had an awesome kids burger btw :) well I took this picture of my husband and I

LOVE IT!! Better than this picture, our wedding and almost my heaviest 270

  
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NEWANDIMPROVED 9/21/2011 9:41AM

    Ok first .........that is the cutest little tux EVER!
Second GO YOU!! That is greatness :)

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BECOMING_HOLLY 9/20/2011 5:33PM

    How awesome! Love it!! You're awesome!

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MSV2UU 9/20/2011 5:31PM

    Wow, both of you look good!!!Keep up the good work!!! emoticon emoticon

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